Question for the psychology experts

I have noticed something in myself lately...
Being a conservative, I tend to hate degeneracy and what I tell myself is that I desire is a pure christian girl, that isn't a degenerate and that has good moral values.
Thing is, everytime I'd go out on dates with this type of girl, I'd find myself unable to get any hard on for them. Like they just don't do it for me.
Another wierd thing is that, since being a teen, everytime a goth girl or an alt-girl passed by me on the street I'd get these mixed feelings about them and I found it really wierd, like something was subconsciously happening inside me, where I'd find it repulsive and atractive at the same time.
So, recently, I've finally admited to myself that I'm into alt-girls.
I have recently dated a hardcore leftist and the girl is as degenerate as you can imagine it (she's bisexual, pro-LGBT, full ancom, you name it), and I can't help but get turned on by her. She's not dumb, but her ideals and values are so corrupted by Marxism it's purely awful, yet, I find in her an atraction I haven't even found in those girls that I've told myself all my life I wanted.

What the fuck is going on here? Why do I like alt-girls and other degenerates when I'm a conservative myself and these girls go against everything that my conscious mind tells me? Is something going on in my subconscious that I don't know?

tl;dr: As a conservative, the only girls that turn me on are alt-girls (which are the complete opposites of what I tell myself I want). What's going on here? Maybe something subconscious?

Humans are driven by novelty. Previous iterations of our species used to be drawn to certain trees because the fruit were of exotic colors not found frequently in the environment.

Anything that breaks the norm, whether environmental or psychological or some other form is instantly more attractive to anyone because it is different to what the individual is accustomed to.

What I do in these situations is remind myself what I want and why I want it. Focus on every aspect and determine what it is you really want from a possible partner, or even if you want a partner at all.

You haven't been conservative for very long. 1-3 years max. Old habits are hard to break. Just keep on keepin on.

Pure girls don't exhibit any sexual traits so there's no hint of sexuality, nothing to turn you on. Alt girls display sexuality as a primary trait and put it on display so it's arousing. Some of those "pure" girls are deeply depraved sexual deviants under all the surface purity. Years of repression has made them into nasty perverts with really fucked up sexual fantasies. But good luck getting through all of the anti-sex programming.

>lolbertarian
I bet you'd be the guy to strip naked at a convention. You are just as degenerate as these "alt-girls." Man up and fuck off

But shouldn't the sheer difference turn a person off completely? The truth of the matter is that I'd rather date this degenerate girl where we have long conversations about what is right and wrong (this leftist I'm dating loves to debate me and we always end the debates making out and doing other fun stuff). It's like we balance each other out. It's still really confusing to me.

How do peacocks attract a mate? When you take a 6 or a 7 and add some exotic element, it can bump them up a notch. It's great as a short-term strategy, but terrible in the long-term, which is indicative of their lack of foresight. That's why you fuck and chuck these girls, but you don't marry them.
Can't turn a ho into a housewife, user.

It's about more than ideologies. Dig deeper than the surface and you'll figure out why you're sexually frustrated.

Low quality to bait. Implying you don’t want a degenerate girl yet you talk about your dick having a erectile dysfunction.

Another thing to add is you suffer from dichotomy.

Either you internally know what you want or you don’t. Now pick.

This user gets it. Still, it's wierd to find such degenerate shit attractive, and to why I prefer it, I still don't have a clue.

I don't know user, I guess it's because I can find fun in these alt-girls and I find boredom in the girls I should be going after.

I know what I want. Apparently I want degeneracy, although I'm perfectly aware that what I want is pure shit. The question is, why does this happen if the shit is so obvious. I cannot fool myself any longer.

You're not a real conservative. You're just pragmatic.

I'm perfectly aware of that, but I still choose to not change course. Why am I going on this self-destructive path? It doesn't make sense but I'm really tempted to keep at it since it seems the best option I have.

You could say I'm more libertarian than conservative, but still, I'm christian and believe in much of the same things conservatives believe in. I wholly despise the left.

You're just an open person that's likely not conscientious. Being not open and not conscientious is conservatism. Come clean to the moderate side. :^)

>Why am I going on this self-destructive path?
As long as you don't marry one, why are you worrying? You're a man. It's in our nature to want to fuck women we are sexually attracted to. I fuck sluts but I don't bring them home to meet mom. No biggie.

Here's my personality test if that helps.

Nevermind. It is agreeableness. WELP

Check out OCPD or something. Maybe mental illness is your beacon and the empaths can spot you easy...

Thing is, I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my days with her. It's something exciting, unlike thoses "good girls" I've described previously.

Wait what? Care to explain user? I'm really not an expect at this... Any questions I'd gladly answer.

Ur retareded.

You are saying you want to live conservative and find a conservative girl that is not degenerate.
Yet you go on dates and try have pre marital sex.

The conservative way is to find a good woman, marry her, bond together, etc. If you take ur time doing this, and you stop jerking of and watching porn. You will be throbbing at ur wedding night.

You are trying to act fast get instant gratification like a degenerate being naughty and easy with a girl that you find unattractive physically.

Also, some studies are coming out saying that teenagehood doesn't end until the middle twenties which is making sense to me while currently being 24 years old. I'm not talking about the possible evidence being not owning cars or houses and shit, but I'm talking about straight up brain changes.

I'm saying that you have something deep within you that is aberrant from the normal genome and is serving as a beacon to "surface dwellers" (i.e. alt girls).

>Thing is, I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my days with her.
Ah, you're in too deep user. Find yourself a side bitch so you stop fixating on this one. She's selling you what you want to buy, but make no mistake, that which you are attracted to are also warning signs.

Well, the basic principle of attraction is that whatever or whoever it is you're attracted to has something you don't. Differences that are not fundamental or otherwise irreversible are extremely attractive because you instinctively hope you could either understand or even change

>make no mistake, that which you are attracted to are also warning signs.
That's exactly true. But at the same time, I couldn't give less shits about the warning signs and redflags (of which there are many). Wtf is happening...

>I'm saying that you have something deep within you that is aberrant from the normal genome and is serving as a beacon to "surface dwellers" (i.e. alt girls).

That's right, these girls do have problems but I find myself not caring at all for all the redflags. What could serve as that "beacon" you talk about? I think many years of trying to force myself to like things I dont like made me like this.

Hi OP, there could be several reasons for this.

The most obvious explanation is that their views have nothing to do with your attraction to them. It's likely their physical attractiveness combined with the fact that you view them as more sexually available because of their liberal values.

It could also be that you aren't convicted in your conservative values. Did you have a time in your life when you almost or did engage in behavior you consider degenerate or were ashamed of? You could have developed conservative views as self-justification for resisting activities you actually wanted to take part in.

I think these kind of girls are so fucked by Marxism, no amount of reason would change their mind about anything. But I still debate them since I have fun doing it. She also seems to like it.

It could be something so unconscious to yourself that it just manifests as something. I'll put a legitimately friendly guess out there that it makes you not very agreeable.

As I said, I see myself more of a libertarian than a full conservative, although I do agree with a lot of the same things conservatives believe in. You could say I'm more of a "Ron Paul" kind of republican/libertarian.

>Did you have a time in your life when you almost or did engage in behavior you consider degenerate or were ashamed of? You could have developed conservative views as self-justification for resisting activities you actually wanted to take part in.
Yes I did have times where I could have been a degenerate but I've always stood my ground and I totally reject any kind of degenerate behavior on my part. I don't think a good society is one filled with degeneracy. Am I fooling myself?

Also must be 18 to post here

Is there any way or procedure I could use to find out what causes this? I'm starting to think there might be something wrong in me.
I checked OCPD and I don't think I have it. Any other suggestion that might be it?

hardy personality
OCD
synesthesia
ideasthesia
indigo child
ahdd
phenethylamine deficiency
warrior gene
MAO B gene

asthma
thyroid issue
diabetes
dehydration
migraines
tinnitus


being normal?.........

So any of those could be it? Those are way too many leads. Could you make a guess based on the info I gave/can give you?

>why do the sluts with skimpy clothes and flirtatious attitudes make my dick hard

hardy personality
synesthesia (wiki page on this has loads of sub types listed with info)
MAO B in low amounts (contributes to older age as well!)
asthma (doesn't hurt to get a feel for sports induced TB H )

Or really you're just getting into your twenties and noticing how far you've advanced past your expectations due to society wanting normies to act like gifted individuals like the ones that some have interacted with in childhood. Maybe you were born with some "filler" gene that geneticists are inquiring about and that just makes you standout especially to those who have moderate interests in psychological behavior (so eyhea, snowflakes and the like).

your mother was a cunt. That'll be 300 bucks please.

How can you conclude that from anything I told you about? Or are you just guessing, with no parameters? I'm completely confused.

>But good luck getting through all of the anti-sex programming.
you seem to know what you are talking about, so do talk about it, what's hidden under the purity girl's surface, what are her turnons what is she repressing?

kek

Do you have any way I can contact you?

this isn't your fucking blog