"What is on your mind my boy/girl? Don't be afraid to confess your sins. Talk to me"

"What is on your mind my boy/girl? Don't be afraid to confess your sins. Talk to me".

I tried to call the sucide hotline last night. I couldn't get through and I think I'm going to do it.

I should be the happiest person around. I'm well off, I have a loving girlfriend, a loving family. And yet this last month my depression has been the worst it's ever been. I just can't keep living like this where for no reason I feel like human scum. I'm so tired of it. It feels so selfish being so sad and upset when everything is well.

You should talk to people close to you and let them help you.

But they don't understand, and I've tried. How do you understand that someone wants to die when they should be happy? How do you tell your parents that you hate life, the thing they gave you above all else? How do you tell your girlfriend, someone you love so much, that despite that love you have together you'd rather feel nothing?

Have you tried traveling?

I have. Been around the world and lived abroad even for a while. Those were the only times I can remember not having a depressed thought lurking in the back of my head.

Maybe you could try to convince your girlfriend to move with you to a different country. Maybe there is a chance that you wouldn't remember your depression at the new place

It's not very easy to move abroad as an American. Work visas are a nightmare and unlike an EU citizen I can't really just show up in a country.

Why do you feel like this ? It can't really be for "no reason", right ?

Cup of tea, Father?

I'm addicted to interracial porn

I masturbate 2-3 times a day, and while I can watch non-interracial porn, it's not as enjoyable

If only visa is between you and your happiness then its a no brainer. Go for it.

Achieving happiness should be the priority, don't worry over required work or money spent.

If its British, then yes

It's Irish

Then no thank you. Im on duty

I really can't find a reason. I've spent a fair amount of time at a therapist trying to find the root. While my childhood wasn't perfect, it's far from a reason to be bothering me so far down the line. One proposed it's a severe chemical imbalance, but I've been trying meds for almost half my life for depression.

Maybe some people aren't meant to be happy.

I'm not sure where I stand politically anymore. I can't get behind modern liberalism, for pretty obvious reasons, but I hate Cred Forums tier belief systems and moderates seem like pussies who aren't willing to really commit to anything.

Nothing really seems to appeal to me anymore, but more than anything right now I want something to believe in.

Far left is the only way to go

instead of suicide hotline, you should call a doctor
depression is a mental ilness and can be treated

Father, I have a fetish for raping priests in their confession booths and I can't control myself any longer, what do?

You may be at the stage where you sort of think you are going through motions and everything is meaningless. Alcohol is your friend, a hobby you really enjoy would be good too, miniature painting? Building radios and robots? Brewing and learning abut more alcohol?

I once sucked a dick once

i failed out of a phd program and wasted 3 years of living in hell with nothing to show for it, now i constantly obsess over suicide

Try LSD. Worst case scenario isn't worse than death.

story?

I met a guy and ended up sucking his dick.

A few days ago I met a Latina girl off craigslist and fucked her raw and came in her. At first everything was pure bliss and I was on a high for the rest of the day, even got a new job offer using the confidence. But now I am starting to really ponder the chance that I could have caught an STI. I don't know what to do.