Need a feels thread.... Long story short, ten year relationship coming to a crashing halt...

Damn. That one stings

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Don't know how to green text from phone but here goes.

Been in relationship for ten years. Should have realized sooner that it want going to work because she cheated on me. Not once, not twice, 3 times.... That I know about, probably at least once more. (inb4 you fucking cuck) don't need that right now. Stayed with her the whole time hoping it would get better. I haven't been the best person either, always short on funds for gifts for her birthday but still tried to make it special... Fast forward to 2014. Find out she's Preg, ecstatic. Also worried but we have been happy together for a long time so not to worried. Relationship is at 9/10 right then. Baby comes, best fucking day of my life. Get diff job on nights to watch kiddo when girl goes back to work, everything's fine. Then it starts going down.... Fights, miscommunication, money etc... And now I'm here. I get pissed because I feel like she's rude and doesn't listen and treats me like an idiot, even about my parenting. She feels like I have no ambition and don't make enough and only care about myself. So yeah..... I'm not perfect, no one is.... And maybe I should have left.... But I have my daughter. She's my only reason for living.

user, do what you can and that all anybody could ask of you. Just don't let her end up as Cred Forums bait.

this hits close to home.

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That line is taken pretty far out of context. You should read that book though

Title?

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Thanks fam, I could thank you all individually so far and going forward, but u Cred Forumsros make it a better night and easier to deal with shit

A sincere thank you to every one of you magnificent fuckers

You guys are my only friends, comrades, and brethren

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youtube.com/watch?v=G_uvMiiwzTo&list=PL_ziAOnSUfztIu7hFDLBaIL6CkUvq53sa

here's an album for you all, it has really helped me in a lot of ways, just don't let the first song put you off, the rest of the album is incredible

I love you fucking freaks
you guys have given more kindness and understanding than any of the niggers I have met in my entire life

Alright, I'll bite.
I need one of these today.

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>meet a nice girl in class
>very shy and quiet
>start talking because why not?
>find out we have same band interests
>start talking and texting a lot
>having the time of our lives
>start dating soon after
>several dates, all fun and never boring
>get serious
>few months pass by
>watching a cheesy movie late at night
>both very sleepy
>she leans up and tells me she loves me
>i break down crying
>i tell her i love her too
>she remains emotionless
>she slowly starts getting more distant
>says she feels bad for not feeling same way i did
> i don't see her for a month becuase of family issues
>i call her
>she ends it.
>no way.
>no way.
>i put all of my trust in her
>and she ends it.
>she puts all of her trust in me.
>and she ends it.
>am i not good enough?
>did i fuck up?
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Fuck......

not me

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Death if you could only come sooner

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VALIS

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No man you didn't, that's.... Wow man.... Really sorry to hear that, I wish I had an answer

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I came to look at hentai
Not cry

I'll check it out, thanks bro

it was too good to be true, really. the ball couldn't stay balanced forever.

thats just the thing. I've never felt that about anyone.

Five years ago, I went to a concert called 'The Digitour,' which was basically a bunch of YouTube musicians performing live. There was only one artist I was interested in seeing:

Christina Grimmie.

I discovered her a few months prior with her cover of Nelly's 'Just a Dream' with Sam Tsui. I was completely blown away by her voice. Then I found out she was a Legend of Zelda fan, and I pretty much fell in love right then and there.

So when the opportunity to see her at a venue 20 minutes from my house, of course I would jump at the chance.

I bought a VIP pass just so I could talk with her a little prior to the show (pic related). We spent what I felt like an eternity talking video games and music. She was like the friend I had wanted for so long (I commuted to school; finding friends was difficult).

At one point I told her about a image I posted on her Facebook page: It was a recreation of Link killing Ganondorf in 'Twilight Princess' that I made using Garry's Mod. She replied, "Wait... That was YOU?"

She told me she loved it so much, she made her personal profile picture.

I completely fell for her right then and there.

She inspired me to create. After that show, I continued making Garry's Mod pictures for her just so I could get a response from her. It was bliss.

Then a few months later, some spam bots kept posting porn on her Facebook page, so she disable fan posts.

I was upset, but I understood. I was getting busier with school anyway. Plus, it was good enough just watching her advance her career.

"I'll see her again once I'm done with school," I told myself.

Well, a few weeks after I finished school, I see her trending on Facebook: "'The Voice' star hospitalized after getting shot at Orlando show."

Oh, those next couple hours sucked. Heart was racing, throat was getting dry. I hoped for her survival, but deep down, I knew she wasn't gonna make it.

Sure enough, around 4 in the morning, the Orlando PD confirmed her death.

Then I went for a walk.

fuck man. that one hurts.

>break down crying

yeah, you kinda fucked up right there. it was supposed to be a quiet, happy moment for both of you. not an episode of crying in disbelief that someone could possibly love you.

I you love a woman show strength, not emotion.

Fuck off Chad you nigger

gets me every time

i'm not a very strong guy. girls have told me that is what's nice about me. i'm 'in touch' with my emotions. i've also had a very rough life this far so it shocked me.

also star trek kek.

I came here to feel.
Was not disappointed

That is the sweetest thing I've read.

Fuck man, that sucks.

You know what I think the most sobering thing I've learned in the last few weeks?
Love isn't this infallible thing that we make it out to be
We are taught, be movies and parents, that love conquers all
Hell its the most popular overused trope, entire kid shows are based on it
But, two people can love each other more than anything in the world, and a relationship can still die
Not because they dont love each other, not because there aren't feelings
But just because it doesnt work
Thats something that we all understand
At least on a logical level
But to actually experience it?
I dont know

Theres crushes
Those passing fancies we get for people around us
And we might delude ourselves into thinking we "love" someone
But when you're actually in love, and you'll know it when you are, its different
And it re-colors your world.
Takes away the black and white
And you realize how many people don't see the world in color
And yeah it hurts that what you had is over
But you're always thankful for it
Not just for the memories
But because you get to see in color now

And why should you cry, or do, or say, or show anything to anyone else? Don't get me wrong, being in touch with yourself and your emotions IS strength.

star trek kek? sauce?

sometimes i can convince myself that i mean more to the people I know than I do to Cred Forums.

Damn man....puts things in a whole new light now.... Saving this

Guys i remember a guy in this threads that saids that she got pregnant a woman and she got an abortion and he now cant produce sperms. I heard that that they are now close to be able to produce sperms from other parts of the body because of the DNA soo there is hope for him, i dont know if he still comes here and hopefully he read this or heard it from the news.

shit like this is why i cant be a father

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What the fuck are you talking about

Yeah those guys are right dude. Girls may say that and believe it but that's not the point. It's "nice" that you're emotional but girls are quite shallow for many things. They want a man, the stereotypical strong man. You can't be more emotional than your woman

Get your redpill shit outta here and get outta high school before you try to understand women.

the name intrigues me so i'll give it a go

>nothing is wrong
>i still hope that I dont wake up

Wake up, do something with your life.

im trying. I dont know if i want to matter, or if being a cog in the machine of life is good enough. I have no hope for humanity because we're so fucking shitty to each other, but that also the reason I love us.

About to quote the same writer here two times.

"If nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do"

and

“Humans are odd. They think order and chaos are somehow opposites and try to control what won't be. But there is grace in their failings.”

She was turned off by the crying. It's not your fault though, she's just too shallow and inconsiderate to care for someone who might have any form of damage. I'm sorry man, I've experienced similar. The only advice I can offer is trying to move on and find someone else. As sad as it may be, you might not want to show how strongly you feel next time. People are afraid of what they don't understand.

>everyone's immature and stupid but me!

Do you think we matter? Does a life have an importance? I know that we ultimately don't. We aren't anything speaking on a galactic scale. But in our frame of reference, do we matter? Can I make a difference/

that one cuts deep

Do we deserve this guys?
Pic related
I have these dreams constantly I want to make them stop...any fucking medicine I can use?

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Making sure that everyone I'd leave behind has no trouble is one of the reasons I can't an hero.

When im happy i think less about death and thats why i try to be happy.

It's not so easy to get rid of dreams. People who sleep completely dreamlessly go nuts. Your best hope is to try and forget the dreams as quickly as possible. Occupy your mind as soon as you wake up so you can't dwell on them. Sorry it isn't the answer you wanted.

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everytime. See you space cowboy.

That's the best reason I can possibly think of. Let's hope one day we can both be happy.

That's what the quote is about.

In the end we are alone with our actions, we need to find our own reason to be and do. Our actions define us. Make your own meaning in what you do and who you do it with.

Jesus fucking Christ.

I think about the best places to end it all every time I drive to work. Lots of good spots where i could end it and make sure I was found in a reasonable time between here and work.

Change of pace. I'm posting this comic.
I like to post this on occasion, but the last time was at least a year ago, probably more.
It's another rough time, so I want to share this comic that helped me a little.

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What if you can't? I'm here because I'm here. I don't know why, and more often than not I can' justify it.

I actually wish the post delay was much longer. It would suit these threads much better.

For me, it goes away a while after I address it and try to draw what I saw or make something similar. This was a dream I had for a while after a bad break up. I kept seeing someone, but I never dream on long enough to know who.

sorry mate

>What if you can't? I'm here because I'm here. I don't know why, and more often than not I can' justify it.
Different guy here.
Then stop trying to.
"I recall at least a magnificent tall girl who had danced all afternoon. She was wearing a jasmine garland on her bright blue dress, wet with perspiration from the small of her back to her legs. She was laughing as she danced and throwing back her head. As she passed the tables, she left behind her a mingled scent of flowers and flesh."
Try to find something you can enjoy. Even something simple.

No one can give you a true answer. It's up to you.

You have to find a reason to live, something to aspire to or to desire.

Everyone desires something, everyone has goals.

Work towards those goals, no matter how outlandish.

Wanna be president? Become a lawyer.

Wanna be thin? Work out?

Wanna get a girl? Self improve.

Wanna get smarter? Read a book.

Wanna get a better career? Intern at places.

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Nah just you faggot.

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I've had two friends an hero, the most recent one really hit me cause we would talk about death and shit and I never really thought he was depressed. But I guess his girl broke his heart so bad and he just couldn't get thru. Took a shotgun and killed himself in his car at a rest stop in nm. Still want to visit there.... Looks beautiful. Hardest part was he had sent an email to me and his family before he did it and I never got it til 3 years later when his mom reached out and asked me why I never responded....had changed my email address and forgot to fed emails.... Still hurts

>dubs speak truth
>never change Cred Forums

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I chose not to choose life. I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons...

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we have the same awkward smile. sorry, i just never thought i'd see someone who smiles like that.

must've been rough. a part of me died that day, too.

evening Cred Forums
any woman insight user available?

so there's this girl, who after a year still longs for me
yet decided at the beginning of that year she needs to go back to her ex

why?
because she, and that we both established
>fears to be alone
>knows what she's getting out of him
>thinks he is immature (she is his first), childish at times and inexperienced
>she sees me as her mature, experienced guy
>she's clinging on to that teenage relationship because every other failed around them and she wants to show everyone that it can exist

two days ago
>can we get some more distance between us? aka not write with each other?
>need to make myself clear what i want
>writing with you is making me sorta just look into one way

now what do?

she's young , 20
she's indecisive
and i'm the guy who popped up in her oh so seemingly "perfect"teenage love relationship

...fuck

Fuck you don't tell me what to do.

(jk ily bby)

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Get out, get a different girl.

This isn't worth it, plus fuck immaturity. Get a girl your age.

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so... why is this happening?

because why not. shit doesnt need to make sense.

i am "out"
she's not
she's been on my back for nearly a year now

Then you're not out, tell her to leave you alone.

smoke weed before bed.

weed will make you cease to remember your dreams.

Give her the ol' ultimatum
She'll probably back off

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Is that from trainspotting?

This isn't a Ylyl thread.

Yeah
pointed it out, too

i do enjoy texting with her though
that's the sole reason i'd want to stay in contact
she kinda gave it to herself last week
when she told me she "wanted to stop texting to figure out what she wants"
because "texting with me was kinda leading her into only one direction and it'd be better for us both if she made her decision out of free will"

Dump and move on you stupid fuck

you're welcome

Just literally stop responding at this point. If you want her out of your life, that is the easiest solution. It seems to me that the only way you communicate is via text.

fuck off, I'm not here for feels. I'm here because I need confirmation that my deviant behavior is not as unusual as others would have me believe. Go cry on reddit, I'm here for cheese pizza and rekt gifs

already am, haven't texted for a week and i'm not thinking about doing it either
well, that's the only way because we live like 100+ miles apart from each other

Did you not read the thread on your way in or something?

You seem to be lost

the /fur thread has to be around here somewhere. and rekt is mostly at /gif/ nowadays.

Honestly I'm not thankful one bit of my last relationship, my color is black and white because of her. Ruined me financially for the next few years, never again.........

Did you love her though.

Yeah thats a dumb question, because most people say yes either way. But did you really love her, body and soul, all the little shit all the big shit.

Not someone you spent time with and fucked and tricked yourself into loving.

fuck...

I think i can try to make a reconciliation with a girl online because i fucked things up really bad and she just blocked me from his gmail and she is still in my friend list on steam. If i make a good draw, because she likes to draw, i can bring her back to me.

>I would have made her my gf but i cant because i dont know her in real life

Im in process, is not a big deal like someone that i love is dead now is just something that went wrong for many, many years, also i came here looking for someone, is not here.

Hope things goes better for you, i dont have that big problem to feel bad is just that i should have done something instead of just being scared of myself to do bad things because i open a hole in a check of a kid when i was 7 years and i just realized the last month after 15 years that those kind of things makes me want to be alone, dont have friends or anything and avoid people. Should have noticed before to try something. Im 26 now.

DUDE............MY SHIT RIGHT NOW.

omg dude, like how do you cope? Are you ok?

Fucking this man.

No, man... she wasnt the right one, its better that you see it sooner than later.

edgy weeaboo

later Cred Forums maybe some of you will feel better tomorrow. I hope so.

Girlfriend of a year.. We broke up 6 months ago cause I was at recruit training for defence and I've regretted it ever since. Sent her this last night

ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS FOLLOW THE DAMN TRAIN.

you mean nothing to us

That is false. I smoked every night before bed and I had plenty of vivid dreams over the three month span

Fuck man I'm sorry.

If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be.

Sorry mate

How do you know the kid is even yours?

Thanks user

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What a cuck

Thats depressing user

How do I cope? I'm not sure. I've always felt... alone. Didn't really have anyone I could genuinely call a 'friend' growing up. And it wasn't from a lack of trying, mind you. As I got older, I just realized I'm fucking weird. No sense trying to change myself for people I'll never see again post-high school. So I just stopped trying to impress people.

Over time, it just became numbing... to the point where solitude was almost enjoyable.

But God, if she knew just how much she changed me...

Now things have just gone back to the way they were.

Her song 'Find Me' is on my workout/commute playlist. Used to be because it was my favorite. Still is, but now it just serves to remind me of the good times.

Fuck, I miss her so much.

Don't follow your heart man, you did this to better your future....remember that. This hurt your going through? Internalize and never ever forget how this day made you feel.

You'll be traveling around the world and later on on life you'll find someone better I fucking promise.

Fuck all you cuck name calling fags.

That's not what that means.

Go back to /r/The_Donald you fucking faggots

When I see a cuck I tell it like it is man. This faggot literally begged her to walk all over him. No self respect. A cuck is a cuck no matter what

Sometimes talking is just too hard

I make up random conversations with everyone in my daily life, conversing just back in fourth with them in my mind. They could be sitting right next to me and I still continue this, because it's easier like this. If I say something wrong they won't judge me because they'll never know. If I wanna open my feelings to them I won't be rejected or become an absent part of their life. Talking to people in my own mind has become such a norm I sometimes give up on talking to the actual people. All my relationships with these people in my mind are all really good, but in all reality it's not. I neglect the actual people in my life and everyday I stray further from them and I the same, because as I said... it's easier this way.

Fucking preach

The last sentence reminds me of the song by passion pit "take a walk"

not a cuck but she had someone for a while, in 6 months you cant meet someone that "makes you happy"

So. How's being an edgy high schooler working out.

Jocks beat you up a bit?

This OP. I mean the girl cucked you god knows how many times.

Thanks guys; it didn't really affect me going through, cause I was too busy, but now that I've graduated and am in the job, I've been overthinking everything. But she was perfect. Great smile, beautiful laugh, and the way she treated her little sister... Made me realise how much of an amazing mum she will be one day, plus she was amazing in bed, like up for absolutely anything. I never got bored with her. Fuck I miss her

Yes...you fucking can.

My ex and me met about 5 months after she broke up with her ex.

We spent 2 years together.

Go back to your retarded friends and grow up.

We're all mad here. We can vent to eachother, and be sure there will be sympathy on the other end

See a therapist. Like now.

I know it hurts, we all have someone that we thought was "the one".

But one day you'll find someone even better.

To quote some shitty movie or something:

"Wake up, take a breath, go about your day, and one day you won't have to tell yourself to take a breath"

She started dating the guy about 4 weeks after we broke up. I feel like it was just her way of coping, but she must have fallen for him, I guess... Sucks cause he's uglier than me (in my opinion)

Having self respect != Being edgy

That's what it is bro. It's not a reflection of you really.

People in break ups, ESPECIALLY those who got broken up with, tend to jump into something, anything, to feel better.

I've done it, we've all done it. Sometimes it works out, sometimes it just sorta fizzles out.

This one worked is all.

Kek. Implying shouting the word cuck and acting like a dumbass implies you have self respect.

Maybe one day you'll know what true confidence and self respect is. But it's not right now.

Let her go, make a letter to her where you tell her how much she meant to you and then do something symbolic like leaving it in his grave or burn it in front of his grave some shit like that.

I know a guy who had an on/off thing with her from about 2011-2012-ish, maybe 2010. Her mom had cancer and shit, think she's dead now too.

Went to high school with him, he's still pretty down about it. As much as I'd like to make a joke about him missing the pussy, I can't bring myself to think of a punchline.

You know....hope is a mistake, if you cant fix whats broken, you'll go insane

I guess you could call it "funny" but I've already talked to myself in a way a therapist would, imagining all the things that could or would be said possibly

Yeah you cuck you don't have any self respect. Why don't you go fuck yourself out some more you stupid cuck?

Lunch time.

I always wanted to have at least have one person to sit with. But no one ever would. If I had just had one person, I would've felt like I mattered. Even if it was only for that 25 minutes. But no one ever came. Instead, it was just me. Sitting alone. When no one had a place to sit due to the crowding, they still wouldn't sit by me. As if I had some sort of disease. As if they sat by me it would be a curse. I looked around to see everyone laughing and smiling and talking to their friends, having a great time and not a care in the world. Wishing that was me. I was jealous. And angry at myself. But again, I was happy. Happy that these people didn't know how it felt.

And I'd do it all over again the next day.
And the next day.

I know you probably don't want to hear this shit user, but I can assure you everything happens for a reason. You WILL find someone else and you WILL look back on your time together and see why she was a part of your life in the first place, and why she isn't now. I'm coping with these thing currently myself....but now that you officially have some sort of closure, it just takes time. Nothing will speed the healing process except suffering through time. I'm sorry user, but you will get through it no matter how difficult it seems. Best wishes

Alright i dont know much about relationships

Yeah. That's not how that works dude. You're not a trained and licenced professional.

Haha yeah. Okay. Point proven. Move on kid.

They're complicated, I'll give you that. But like any "skill" you understand and get better at them the more your in.

I know it's not

Then go see a goddamn counselor

Cuck

That closure was pretty much what I needed. I think I just messaged her because subconsciously I needed that

All the girls are laughing at your attempts to be "alpha" you know.

Well minus the emotionally fucked up ones that might touch you and somehow justify your shitty viewpoint.

Just thought I should let you know.

Thanks, this is all making me feel a little bit more comfortable with leaving it

I'm glad. Sometimes that's all you really need

I just translated this, is something I wrote for my gf, it is about the best memory I have of her:
>The day is cloudy
>Gray
>Cold
>Windy
>Rainy

>Suddenly, a woman pulls me out of my shelter
>A silent woman now laughs as she pulls me into the rain
>I accept, I go out with her
>For the first time I see her smile and run
>She would always be careful of not showing her real emotions
>But now there's no one who can see us
>Only she, me, and the rain

>I hug her
>She keeps on laughing
>I see into her big and bright eyes
>She kisses me
>Holds my hand and pulls me to feel the wind

>I am cold
>My bones are freezing
>I feel pain
>And then I see her
>With her arms open and with a smile on her face
>Laughing as she feels the powerful wind

>Is time to go
>We leave laughing, shaking from the cold
>She paints the most beautiful smile on fer factor
>I listen to the purest of laughs

We haven't talked for 45 days. We can't talk, some very heavy shit happened and we have to stop talking for our safety. The situation only makes me feel impotence.
This reminds me of her, she has suffered too much in her short life, I just want to make me happy and I can't.
She will come back one day, she will tell me that everything is fine and that I can visit her. I will give her her birthday gift and all the letters I have wrote to her.
She promised that she will come back

Closures important.

Glad to hear it, you can do this dude.

"Your a cunt" that is your series of words.

What can be so heavy you cant talk to a girl again?

Don't give a fuck. Have a gf who loves me more than I love her and fugg her in the asshole. Good enough for me.

What's the story behind this creepy pic?

Damn, I didn't know hands had assholes. Good to know. I should find that.

alright anons, here's some fresh OC. This is only partly pre-typed, so bare with me. This is the story of me from 8 years old on.
>friends with girl since 3rd grade
>best friends by 5th grade
>she had moved in down the street from me in elementary school
>Had most of our classes together in middle school
>always ate lunch together
>went home together every day and did our homework together
>we almost always ate dinner together at one of our houses
>our families inevitably got really close because of this
>by the 8th grade hormones happened and I didn't look at her like she was just my friend anymore
>skinny, got picked on, no balls so I said nothing
>in the winter we went with her family up to the mountains to ski on saturdays (we live in colorado)
>for the first 20 minutes the car was always freezing
>it also seemed colder because we woke up early and the sun hadn't rose yet
>we would always cuddle under a blanket
>I remember listening to her breathe softly, pressed up against me as we both fell back asleep
>those car rides always felt so warm, however cold it may have gotten outside
>always had a great time skiing, nothing that really stuck out other than she would always hug me when the wind picked up on the ski lift
>we would always go somewhere after, wasn’t always the same place but it was always something great
>a lot of times we went to get food and watch a game or something, especially that year (8th grade)
>sometimes we would go tubing/sledding after 8th grade year.
>sometimes we would just go somewhere with a spectacular view, I remember one view very well for a special reason. But, we’ll get to that later
>by the time we drove back down it was always nighttime
>her and I usually just cuddled and stared out the window and listened to music, or fell asleep together

I overthink literally everything

*>she paints the most beautiful smile on her face
Oops

Well. Stop.

Her family is shit, they are in shit, they work in shit, they want her to work on that shit too

Haha jokes on you! I've never had anyone like that in my life! :'(

Stay mad faggot

i have a few friends who tell me this constantly and had girlfriend like this too.

hell even i was like this, but the easiest thing you can do is use that voice in ur head and tell yourself to stop, and everything is gonna be ok. the earth keeps on spinning, time keeps going forward.

Oh fuck, hair, hnnng

Fucking this. Should've left the slut after the first time she cheated. Or at least just kept her around to keeping getting in her pants. Once a hoe always a hoe.

C'mon..

I think he wants to.

Ba-dum-tss

We were going to travel, we planned that back when we were friends. After becoming a couple she would tell me in great detail what our house would look like.
I am this guy btw

"Do you want to get married? Then We will have to do this, for us, to have a future"

I'm here till the thread dies. Which will be soon.

Wanna talk about something user? Girl who got away? Friend who died? Sister on heroin?

I'm here, but once the thread 404s, I'm gone.

I couldnt save her, and everytime i go to sleep in see her

She forgives you.

We can't control everything, and we lose people. Just feel your grief, don't give into anger and resentment, and try to live your life how she would want you too.

You'll be okay, I promise.

dude, i got dumped little over a year ago and well yeah it sucked shit and all that, because well she took my virginity, i took hers and she was my first love.

She basically got into a rebound relationship and I essentially saw her fall in love with someone else through social media and school.

I have a girlfriend now too for a little over 6 months and I still find myself thinking about what could've been. It doesn't hurt as much, but I just want to not care.

Literally all 3 of the things you listed apply directly to me. Hurts man.

>high school started, I was still skinny and awkward, but she was pretty and social and popular
>we have several classes together, she’s still my best friend
>people make a few comments about it, but I don’t catch hell or anything
>her popular friends repeatedly question why she even talk to me
>she always just tells them that we’re best friends and they should shut up
>still always went home, did homework together
>ski season started back up
>back to the good ol days
>It was just her and I in the backseat of a Chevy Tahoe on those long, cold car rides
>she was so warm, everything about those trips was pure bliss
>by the second trip, I had fallen for her completely
>on the third trip, her family wanted to drive up a road called loveland pass
>we stopped near the top, view was pretty breathtaking. she sat with me on a rock for a few minutes
>just talked, I don’t even remember what it was about
>after a few minutes she kissed me out of the blue
>then she pulled back and said “you know, user, I love you”
>just kinda stared for a minute while my extra chromosome loaded
>finally registered, said ”I love you too”
cont?

Yes, as a fellow Coloradan, I'm intrigued so far.

I'm gonna quote a shitty movie, and myself like a few posts ago

"Wake up, take a breath, go about your day, and one day you won't have to tell yourself to take a breath"

First loves are the longest to get over sadly, which is cruel cause they're the ones we fall hardest for.

It'll take time but you'll get there. Just be present in your current relationship. Don't miss out on a great thing because you're too hung up on what was.

I chose them for the same reason man.

Life is an epic journey. We lose people, we gain people, and we see people suffer.

But we can only truly control ourselves and what we do. We have to do what we can with what time and what tools we have. Remember that you can't stop living your life, no matter what.

She wasn't for you, your friend is watching over you, and you can't control your sister nor get back the girl you grew up with until she chooses to do so.

oh

Something similar happened to me

>Be me
>Meet cute girl at school, pretty cool, we share a lot of the same interests
>See each other everyday
>Start dating a month after knowing each other
> 2 months later I tell her I love her
>Iloveyoutoo.mp3
>Happiest I had been in my whole life
>Things go pretty well
>Talk on the phone every night till like 3 or 4 in the morning
>Get diagnosed with anemia
>Pretty rough time
>Start getting pretty sick and start missing school a lot
>My birthday was coming up
>She takes vacations in the US (we were both American but we lived in Mexico)
>Spend birthday alone
>Imissyou.jpeg
>Call her
>No answer
>We talk a little when she was in the US
>Finally she comes back
>Feel like I don't even know her
>We kind of go through a silent break up
>Later tell her I still loved her and if she wants to go back with me
>Tells me she does, but she isn't ready for a relationship yet
>We start dating very discreetly and stuff
>Go to a field trip with her
>While on the bus she hugs me tight, tells me she loves me, kisses me and falls asleep on my arms
>Happiest day of my life
>Later on, everything was great
>I thought our relationship was at its best
>Don't go to school one day
>She sends me a text right when she got back home from school
>Ends it
>Tells me she doesn't love me, and she never did, that she just did it to get her ex jealous because she still loved him
>Break down
>Angry as fuck
>Consider suicide
>I had my first kiss with her, I lost my virginity to her, lost lot of friends because of her.
As of right now she's back with her ex, but, I moved on, I met a new girl and I'm pretty happy to be honest

From
I write her everyday, I read the letter she wrote me and the few screencaps I have of our conversations. It was her birthday a few days ago, I got her books, she said that we were going to have a huge library in our home.
Sometimes I wonder if I may have to leave all those things in a grave instead of her hands, if all my faith on her is going to be for nothing. We never breaked up, she has never done anything for me no want that, she is too pure to even be selfish by accident. If anything happens, I do not know how am I supposed to get over it, I will stay alone for the rest of my life, dreaming at least two times a week that I finally had found her, just to wake up and realize that nothing had changed.

i'm her birthday is in about 2 weeks
is it too much to send her a birthday card?

Depression.

Is there, in reality, any chance you'll see her again.

Be honest. If you're not you're just hurting yourself more than anyone.

Yes, She's not yours nor will she be. For your own good, and hers, move on. There are plenty of people out there, one much better for you.

Some people don't work, no matter the connection. A sad reality but an empowering one.

>car ride home was the same old, except I would duck under the blanket to kiss her probably a dozen times or so
>we got home to discover our neighborhood had their power out
>my dad was on a business trip, my mom had gone to her friend’s house, but sarah’s dad offered to just take me to their house instead of to my mom, because they had a generator
>hellyeboii.mpeg2
>they either were ok with it, or suspected nothing because we were such close friends, because they brought out a blanket and pillow for me into sarah’s room
>nothing really happened that night, just turned on a space heater and fell asleep together
>we were out really fast, but I remember how soft her hair felt

>Yes, She's not yours nor will she be. For your own good, and hers, move on. There are plenty of people out there, one much better for you.
even if she's the one that doesn't want to let go?

If you are going to do anything, just do not send her too many letters. Make it brief, quick and make it clear that you care about her but do not turn it into an emotional weight on her

Then you need to be the adult. She's using you as a crutch. It's not fair to you and it's hurting her even if she can't see it.

For your good, and hers, drop contact. In the long run you'll be better off.

just a card with "happy birthday" thats it
i guess so? but i'd be more than happy to stay in contact with her
and she is too, but she's standing in her own way

That's why you have to be the adult. If someone in a "relationship" (And i use that term not in terms of a romantic relationship, just in general) can't handle it emotionally it's the duty of the emotionally healthy one to do the right thing. That's you.

Go take that edge somewhere else, this is a feels thread.

>woke up next morning at about 10am
>dumping snow like a MF
>ridiculous volume of snow for colorado (not a lot of precipitation at once in colorado because no big lakes)
>her brother came in and asked if we wanted hot chocolate
>didn’t really want chocolate flavored sugar water but it was warm so whatever

even if she's expressing to me that she is unhappy in her curren relationship, showing her the reasons she is trying to ignore?

Preach.

Yes.

You can't save everyone. Don't try. I've been down that route. It never ends well. She'll figure it out herself.

>Is there, in reality, any chance you'll see her again
I simply do not know. If I knew that the worst had happened it would be easier for me, move on and make yourself into a man that she could respect. But the fact that I still know that she is still alive, but I do not know her emotional state makes my paranoia go crazy.
I use her as fuel to make myself better, that's the last thing I said to her in person "When we meet again you will meet a better version of myself", I see anything dirty and say to myself "She would not like that", if I ever feel lazy I would think of the time she told me "You will have me once work is done, first work, then fun".
I do not want to give up on her while there is still hope, she is very proud and hot headed, so she would hate to see me sad for her, but I can't help it. She told me that she would get herself killed if it wasn't for me, I am the only reason that she is still alive.

Someone Kik me, I need a friend right now

CharonCross

>You can't save everyone. Don't try. I've been down that route. It never ends well. She'll figure it out herself.
but what if i can save atleast one?

That's a tough situation.

Is there anyway to get in contact? Even to say goodbye?

Closure is important. You NEED to know if there's a future. Contact her again, talk to her, if there doesn't seem a chance say your goodbyes and move on. If there's a chance find a way to make it work.

If she doesn't want saving there's not a damned thing you can do.

Don't take this the wrong way, but excuses are nice and all, but your making them for you. So clearly you have feelings here. That's fine, but acknowledge those first before making choices.

My objective advice is move on for your sake and hers.

I wish I could help more.

Bad birthday. Stomach issues, an eight hour day, and my girlfriend broke up with me. Pretty damn drunk as a result

Don't drink with stomach issues, you'll regret that.

It'll get better.

hm sound reasonable, user
i'll wait if/what she'll text me
albeit i think it'll be the same old stuff she's been going on with for months now
>i can't do this to him
>excuses etc

she's there, but yet she's not. she cares, but yet shes doesn't. she says something, but she doesn't mean it. when you know the fire will die, so you just sit and wait until it does...

I've accepted moving on, removing any association that I had with her. The stomach issues will pass. It's just shitty.

Be strong user. Thank you so much for sharing.

You do you. Just my two cents.

watch?v=lCEZNbwQVy8

Youtube link

I don't think I have a better response than this video, mostly the end in your case. 1:24 on.

That it is. Good that you have a good attitude about it.

I just got broken up with a few weeks back as well. So have a drink for me too user, to the future and to moving on with life.

I can only post in FB some cryptic joke with a message that only her would understand (we are still friends there because suddenly removing me would be too obvious). She can't answer because then one could draw lines.
I am a huge hitlerboo (so is she, we were actually writing about politics together), and it just so happens that our anniversary falls on the date that: Mussolonni creates the fascist Party and Hitler takes full power over germany. So I can use that as a cover; "the ANIVERSARY of Italy's fascist party" or something like that. I was watching a movie (Die große Liebe) and posted it a few days before her birthday, to hide the fact that I was dedicating the song "Ich weiß wird einmal ein Wunder geschehen", a song that has a bunch of verses on having faith on reunion. That, under the cover of "LUL, you just enjoyed a nazi song XDD"
That's all, I plan on making a dropout mail for a dropout Facebook account so I can just send her a letter and tell her to give me some signal to confirm that the future looks bright for us.
I need to be very careful, we both got so scared once that we dropped our fedoras and are now Catholics.

this was quite shit

If that's what you can do, that's what you can do.

Good enough attitude. It's hard to see someone I loved as nothing more than an acquaintance. But I don't have any other choice. I miss her, I do. But I know the next girl will be better. Heartache sucks

It does, it really does.

Me and my ex have a...complicated break up. We tried being friends but neither of us could handle that so we are going no contact for a month until we both agreed we'd go buy a book we're both waiting for and see how that goes.

What's important about that though, is the explanation for the whole situation she gave me, which, with her usual intelligence and charm, just makes sense to me.

"Our brains fully understand what happened and how we need to move on, our hearts need to catch up"

It takes time, but time heals, or softens, all wounds.

In the meantime try to look on the positives. You'll have more money and more time to spend with friends to name a few.

Thank you.
It's ok, I just need to trust her, she would never do this to someone as loyal as me, she will come back, at least to say goodbye.
Good night, it os 2:45 already here and this is the only reason why I haven't slept

Anyone still here? Last call Cred Forumsros. Talk to me about your issues. Here to help.

fuck...

Fag

I'm terrified about statistics, specifically those of death.

Some shits gone down in my life. But statistically I'm gonna be fucked. My best friends gonna die, my parents, me, who knows.

Someones gonna die, I can feel it in my bones. No one gets through this easy, having their friends and family live to a ripe old age.

And im fucking scared.

Fuck other chinks. My kid would be first.

Shit man, im right there too, had a very similar message with the ex the other night.

Power through it, one day at a time.
"I'm going to make it" - say that everyday, especially on the days you hate having to say it and don't believe it as those are the most important. Then one day, you wont say it, you wont realise you forgot for a few days then you'll be getting better

Can't get over an ex and its destroying me. What do?

Sleepless in seatle?

Wut?

that's not something to be sad over ,that's beautiful.

Did it end badly or well? Describe the circumstances a bit.

That last line, isn't that from sleepless in seatle?

He's probably a lot bigger than you. Makes her cum just by putting the head in. Dumps his semen into her womb every day.

She probably sleeps with his cum inside her.

Ended poorly. Very poorly. Ex has been in touch a few times with compliments about me out of nowhere, but then after a brief chat never replies. They have also been dating others. I need to get over them but I don't know how and the longer I go on like this in my head the worse I get.

Dude. Go fuck yourself. Go be edgy somewhere else. It's not our fault your dad beat you.

No idea. It could be. It was something my dad told me when I talked to him about my almost suicide attempt and its been helping me.

Find a new hobby, hang out with friends, maybe get drunk.

Cut here out of your life. End line. I know thats easier said than done. But no facebook, twitter, whatever. You don't need to know what, where or who they're doing.

Relationships are inherently selfless, you give things up to be with people.

Learn to be selfish again, do whats best for you.

Wait until he impregnates her. If you're salty now, woo-eeee.

Man. How's being a virgin going for you?