Feels thread?

I'm not giving up on this thread, loves.

friends complain about their relationship problems

both with sig others about 3 years

both just mad they aren't married or appreciated

I'm lucky to get laid four times a year, if at all for years at a time

supposed to feel bad for them?

no one appreciates what they have

no one else is this alone

...

holy fuck...
bump

.

>my parents
stay together
fight
fight because of me
fight because my grades are bad
fight because I screw up
love me
are disappointed in me
believe I don't try
know I don't try

> I
grew up in a good family
had a roof over my head
lived in a nice house
was never hungry
had nothing to complain about
nothing to blame my failure on
hated my self

My dad always told me that you want to be someone who can look themselves in the mirror, I never could

> my parents
worked hard
were kind
gave me everything

I remember the first time it happened, the first time I felt unfit to have my last name, I realized I was useless.

>My first relationship
went poorly
ended in fighting

How could I expect someone to like me if I didn't like myself, what do you do if you feel like someone is dating you out of pity? Going you a favor? you build resentment

>resentment
towards people
towards those who try to help
towards yourself

>I am still
lazy
useless
good for nothing
a disappointment

I can hope that my story will end happily, but I know I'm not going to do anything about it anytime soon, and that first time I looked in the mirror and realized I hated what I saw, I knew that the only person I could blame...

is myself.

Saddest story i know of happened to my mom's friend a few years back.

>my mom becomes good friends with her stylist
>both fought cancer, were in remission
>years go by, my mom gets her hair done all the time.
>I meet the lady, her husband, and at the time new born daughter
>great people.
>years go by
>one day my mom is on the phone with her "im so sorry" she kept saying
>turns out her friend's cancer came back with a vengeance.
>has to close her business to go live in bed
>all her family's money goes to her care
>one night (we lived close to eachother)
>I was here on Cred Forums derping around
>hear a boom.
>think nothing of it
>turns out...
>a gas leak mixed with some floor tiling supplies exploded in their garage
>half their house is destroyed
>they have NO money to fix the house
>two weeks later my mom's friend dies.
>the husband and daughter are now wife/momless, broke, and living in a house made of plastic sheeting.
>they barely get the money to fix their home.
>2 years go by and we have the worst drought in history of our state
>wild fires come
>you guessed it
>their house burns down.

...

...

...

.

that pic is not feels, it's every kid who refuses to show emotions for the sake of keeping cool. or it's because they never learned how to handle serious emotions because they grew up in front of a screen

quick, post feelsy lines in music. I'll start us off.

>And I will always, always miss you.
Mike, Xiu Xiu

>If I could just leave my body for the night.
In the Flowers, AnCo

>"Hold me close," cooed the dove, who was stuffed, now, with sawdust and diamonds.
Sawdust and Diamonds, Joanna Newsom

>PHHHSSSSSSSSSKSSSSHSSSSSKSHSHHEBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWPHSSSSSSSSSSKHSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWBOWBOW
Woodpecker No. 1, Merzbow

bump

...

Gotta keep it alive.

Wow that is fucking depressing man.

Cred Forums used to have tripfags?
who knew.

...

good

...

...

Story time
>Be me
>Upper middle class college kid, going to a great college
>Never known hardship, college on scholarship, got a BMW as a grad gift, if I needed anything, parents floated me money and I got it
>Share apartment with friend near campus, we'll call him Dave
>met through joint suffering in physics, invited him to move in with me sophomore year
>Dave came from lower/working class family
>Told me that high school's free lunch used to be his only reliable meal
>Winter break of our sophomore year
>People getting ready to leave and go home/take a vacation
>In my excitement to leave and go back to warm SoCal in a few days, I talk on and on about all the shit I plan on doing
>Talk about beaches, Christmas dinner, girlfriend, my carnivorous plants
>Dave doesn't really say much, just listens
>I ask him if he'd ever been to Hawaii
>wait shit
>No response
>I'll never forget
>Dave has an almost shameful look on his face
>Never seen him with that expression
>He had been berated for wearing worn clothing, not having a smartphone, using old and beat up shit, etc., but with little effect
>But for the first time, he looked like he felt he wasn't good enough
>He wasn't well off
>He wasn't even middle class
>He quietly says
>"I could never have afforded to go to hawaii... I don't even know if I can go back home this year. Last year was a stretch, this year, the family needs the money I've earned."
>
>
>
>Social darwinism is cool and shit, but the interaction I had hit me like a train
>long story short, I decided to stay the break with him and played Xbox
>the gf came and visited, told me one of my Sarracenia flava's had succumbed to fungal infection
>I may have lost one vacation, but it was worth it

Implying you're naive enough to believe he didn't touch his PS2 for 4 years after the accident he made up for the story that he also made up.

>be me
>head injury two years ago, ish
>vision, memory loss. Sleep pattern fucked
>no choice but to move back in with family
>no public transit in this city
>spend most of my time in my dark room
>closest friends live 45 mins away
>more or less trapped here
>spend most of my time listening to audiobooks, smoking weed
>not much else I can do out here
>want out, tired of living like this, everything is too different and not in a good way
>the way I see, the way I remember, the way I sleep all different now and out of my control
>can't kill myself cause dad would blame himself and it would break my mom's heart
>concede to go day by day, waiting for another stroke
>hoping it takes me out entirely, hoping it doesn't just take my mobility, intellect, personality as well
>tick tock lads, has to end sometime

Not afraid of dying, I am afraid of waking up trapped in my body, unable to move. Or any other severe loss of function

>inb4 console peasant
We only had one PC that could withstand gaming. Dave had 5? year old toshitba laptop that could barely handle microsoft word

You need someone too talk to?

I like you.

...

>operation C.A.N.C.E.R
I shouldn't laugh but hahahahahahahahaha

Probably. I am doing better as far as coping goes. I've managed to at least accept what happened. in the beginning I was really mad I couldn't kill myself, not mad at my parents, just mad at the situation.

I'm not mad about it anymore. I also no longer feel cheated, or victimized, like I did early on. I get a bit of treatment for the ptsd which is usually enough.

The game has changed for me, mid thrust. The rules are different now. It's difficult keeping a pleasant disposition when you're watching the walls melt, or cannot understand what you're looking it, even when it is a familiar object.

>You need someone too talk to?
nah, ty for asking though. I have my outlets, I just see no future for me, no viable future anyway.

just play games for the rest of ur life.

I'm tired of wearing a mask.

so sad for this chicken
press F to pay respects
his family are sadden

W-Witnessed, senpai

I shit you not, that is basically what I do. Running audio books in the background, then vidya. Shitty thing is I can no longer handle fast paced shooter types anymore.

Been playing vanilla wow on a private server, the pace is slow enough I can keep up. Otherwise I don't really watch anything anymore, unless it's a big deal, something I really wanna see.

But yeah, I have so much time on my hands it is retarded, I work out, take my dog on a walk, keep the house clean for the folks while they are at work, that kind of stuff. Otherwise that is basically what I do, smoke weed and just hang out.

>be me
>never really had many friends in school
>always come to b because no matter what, I know someone is always listening to what I or replying to my post

You can always depend on /b.

same. except for the no friends part. Ha! loser!

>srsly though ty Cred Forumsros

They didn't have house insurance?

...

That's nice

I wish I was that chicken

Let me guess
California

You know what's sad?

The only thing i have done for 2hours is too try and keep this thread alive, hehe.

wew lad,

better watch yourself on that edge

I do the same shit man. I spent 3.5 hours keeping a star trek thread alive one night.

...

>be medic
get a call for a kid who got stabbed in the chest
middle of ghetto
big wound in the abdomen
kid is 15, parents nowhere
he is pretty relaxed but seriously wounded
looks like shit, bad vitals and bad wound
he asks me if he will die
I say, na man, you will be ok. just looks bad
I know he may not talk much at hospital so I ask him who did it.
he says it was a gang who wanted to make him well drugs.
he told them no.
he starts crying a little now
wants to hold my hand
says he dosnt want to die
"na man, you will be ok"
dies 20 minutes later.
guess I lied.

>No other sizes of this image found
>best guess for this image
>beauty
Reverse image search

Fuck man... i don't know what to say, you need someone too talk to?

>Love you to death

A song my father has been playing as long as i can remember, her favorite song, and the only one I can play and sing at the same time and i still cant do that very well.

na. I have pretty good copeing mechanisms. I've watched probably 150 people die. this one just seemed to really bother me more than others.

I really wish I could have a friend like you, or a friend in general. You live in Illinois?

>I really wish I could have a friend like you, or a friend in general.

You do homie. You hang out with your friends when you come here, like the rest of us.
>NW US

I know your feel, was an EMT way back in the day but only for about two years. Nothing on that job bothered me except dealing with kids. I stayed with it long as I could. If you feel like you're burning out it's time to go my man.

Well, talking to people on this board doesn't really help with my loneliness, I swear I haven't seen somebody in over 2 weeks.

sure, no one else is this alone.

Until you realize this is Cred Forums and we're only here because we're lonely.
Don't be so pretentious. We're all sad and we are all lonely ITT

discordapp.com/channels/220653930072244224/220653930072244224 join us.