Feels thread?

Gonna tell you a funny story

>be me 20
>motorcycle broke down
>qt grill at work told me she could give me a ride home
>ehh i only need to change the battery of the bike
>charged it in the mean time
>we talked for like 2 hours while it charged
>she gives me her phone number
>tells me we should hang out more and shit
>next day
>text her
>she ask me if we can hang out at her place on the weekend because she is leaving the state
>hellyeah.jpeg
>Friday "sorry user i can't"
>saturday at work
>she tells everyone there's a party at a bowling center
>invites everyone,
>out of pity invites me
>i ask for address
>"ill send it to you later through text"
guess what user?
never got the text even after i texted her, reminding her about it....the times she told me to hang out, she had a few beers.

When the weekend was over every employee asked me why i didn't go

"i didn't feel like it" was my answer as i hold back some tears...im just a worthless human being user, i'm sure you can endure it as much as the rest of us...just keep going

Yeah I feel the same way. I never even went to prom, no friends, no money, no reason. Still feel I didn't miss out on much, but I'm just waiting on things to get a little better as I'm sure most of you guys are too.

well now you know, hopefully you moved on and talk to more grills. If she wasnt the only one you were talking to, you would have had a chance. It was friday nigger. Only people who have kissed hang out on the weekends..exceptions are made when there is high attraction. Other than that you showed her you are a beta faggot, faggot.

You would also know if you talked to more grills, all grills are replaceable. So instead of throwing all your eggs in one basket and relying on her, you should have had another grill lined up just incase she flaked faggot.

Dont think for a second she didnt get fucked by a nigger that night while she was looking at your needy beta texts

I think of these few trips I took I'd tell to my imaginary children.

I think about my love interests late at night. There's this one cutie I E-Mailed a coiple of days & I already have the next 5 or 6 years mapped out.

Ya, I've had that happen lots too me. It's just a painful fuck you when someone shows a breif moment of intereat and then disappears.

Who hurt you user ?

I was like this when I was 15, I just started going to parties, get drunk, talk to girls, it somehow improved my confidence alot, you should definitely try it.

couldn't say it better, i'm beta asf, can't talk without sounding like i am missing some chromosomes. not the only girl i talked to, but the only girl that showed some mutual feelings.

so many times it has happened, i'm surprised i still get affected by it.

see thats the thing, i wouldnt even know how to get informed about partys and living in utah doesn't help me out at all

No need to be a cunt

he probably walked on his gf being fucked by two guys

Let him, if he want's to let his anger from his crush not liking him or something, let him. i know he feels the feels

how about a club? or just an open party?

I could ask a few people if theres any partys but then i dont know how to act at them

Don't do it at all...i was the same way bro....i dropped out of hs and went to adult ed. Yeah prolly wasn't the best decision but man I met some of the best people I have ever known...and college...god damn...college is where its at.... Just do what makes u happy and fuck everyone, even ur parents.... Do what makes u happy...go to school out of state...live ur life user....

Normaly i just drink until im tipsy and everything just comes naturally. But when im sober im spaghetti

>But when im sober im spaghetti
i feel you user, gone to work tipsy a few times, awesome days, talk to everyone, when i go sober is like im a whole other person

Yeah, but now i went and fetched some help. Got some pills and sessions with a pro. We will see where that get's me. Hoping for a "normal" life within 1-2 years hopefully

I just got stood-up on a date by a girl I was half-convinced was in love with me. Then I assume out of shame, she ignored my texts for the rest of the day.

Feels bad man

The best of luck to you user, you deserve it!

I guess we are in both threads user.

youtube.com/watch?v=ideQmMCE7ws
another good song for this thread

>But when im sober im spaghetti

you're spaghetti when you are drunk, you just don't notice. parties are not for everyone, and you should probably work on social skills and being happy with yourself before trying to fling yourself into alien social situations.

>be me basic run of the mil retard
>couldn't get a gf for than a month in hs
>was an asshole to my friends
>friends dropped my ass for being a dick
>regret being an ass and hurting everyone I've ever cared about
>I'm such s loser I couldn't even graduate on time
>Tfw I'm all alone now

Allright niggas, time to open my hearth.
I met this girl when i was 5 y/o, and was my classmate till 8 y/o. We liked eachother but you know, we were just kids. when we were 9, she took a trip to another country, and never knew nothing of her again.
now, we both 20, she came back.
We contacted again, the love was still there... we spend time talking a lot, we fucked sum times (lost my virginity whit her). I love her. Even that I have 100x brighter future than her (im finishing my mechanical engineer degree) i didnt care about it.
Now, she doesnt want to talk anymore, the problems its that she told me that she loved me, that she wanted me, that she thinked about us in the future. i didnt done nothing wrong so far, but she wants me to be there always, entertaining her. for that reason i think she dumped me, i have no clue, didnt even tell me.
Im broke

No, you have us user. Even if we're all just a bunch of strangers

I was an asshole but i let my friends be assholes to me without being mad, i know i pissed them off, i only asked for their friendship. it wasnt bad until i left HS and went to college, all alone. gf at the time cheated on me i wasn't even an asshole at the time, but yeah. it hurts

I still in love of my first girlfriend... I had others before her... but I still love her, I'm not a stalker or some, all that I know is that she became mother a few months ago...

>love my first gf
>had others before

I have been growing more and more anextic.
I feel so frustrated with the state of certain things that it's becoming unbearable.

How does one deal with these extreme feelings. I cant handle this.

My only escape is sleeping. I've been taking more and more naps that last very long. I just want this to end.

>tfw no gf

Im turning 17 in my senior year and I really want to die
>have a normal life up to Freshman year
>gf breaks up with me
>take it like a boss, little crying.
>Ex gets pissed
>ex gf manages to get all my best friends to hate me aswell as the enitre school
>best friend since preschool punches me, proceeds to spit at me, then says he shouldnt have ever been my friend.
>be completley alone and lonely for 2 years with no friends
>fucking ex ruined my highschool life
>mfw im too much of a pussy to kill myself

break her ribs with a baseball bat and move out of the state

god this thread is filled with underage redtards. life goes on after highschool, none of it matters, stop being such a whiny faggot an sack up you degenerate.

Fuck off

what lol you guys are smart as hell of course I know the feel, but some of us need to endure it for some reason to grow stronger, learn from the mistakes, and eventually move on from the past as we cant change the past only the future.
, exactly im not sure why almost everyone here doesn't have a gf or is feeling down because no gf or related.
You guys are the future whether you know or not, just hang in there.

You should really change social circles. Fuck those assholes with a rake.
Stop being a pussy and start training MMA. Will get you nrw friends and New focus.
It will hurt like a mf, but netter than suicide, amirite?

love you user

You don't have to be good to stay on the sports teams, you can go to prom by asking a girl, you can meet girls by joining clubs etc.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself.

I know how you feel. Give it a while longer. At the very least give it a chance to get better. If it doesn't by your 30's then the choice is yours. Love you bud. Don't give up yet. You owe it to yourself.

I'm OP here, so trust me. I get it

more like this
soundcloud.com/kylegoldstein/wonder

sauce on that?

I feel like there's a lot you're leaving out.

bump

don't get sad, become homicidal, we can make the world better if we kill all the assholes.

>implying you aren't an asshole

how am i an asshole, homicide makes everything better.

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It's true. All of it.

tell me then, what makes you a good person? what separates you from those you considerassholes?

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god that's cringy

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>Booohoo highschool is bad I can't take this anymore
Fuck off we all went through it and hated it, be glad you didn't go through it before the 2000s because that's the time you got beat up and abused for being different, now they can't even call you dude without getting expelled for not checking pronouns

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This is what it looks like when someone really dies on the inside. So quit your bitchin faggots.

I thought this is what it looked like when someone dies on the inside though..

This man looks happier than ever

Damn, got out of a 10 year relationship in august and turned 27 on sept 10. Fuck

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This is not alright. Fuck me, man now I'm spooked and upset.

i dont behave like an asshole. not everyone is a dick head.

Forgot the name but its on nhentai

I'm posting it, sorry guys.....
youtube.com/watch?v=wK7GSARUs_Q

The difference between old Cred Forums (pre 2008) and new Cred Forums is that you wouldn't even get any of these "Muh girlfriend" stories.

Feel threads used to be about actual sad shit going on in the world, and not a TMZ relationship drama thread.

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how exactly do you know you don't behave like one? a prick usually isn't aware he's a prick in the way that most people don;t believe they're idiots but others are.everyone you come across could think you are a bastard but you would think you're fine, even decent, people have personality flaws and the mindset of "fuck them they re assholes" is overly simplistic so retards can easily digest it. short of having mental problems pretty much nobody is a cunt of their own volition, but rather because of personality traits picked up over the years for varying reasons. just saying "fuck them" rather than trying to have some sort of understanding or conversation is a mindest for the stupid.

>Halloween

>the only night of the year where it's socially acceptable to be a kid at heart

>dress up as Michael Myers

>scare the big kids

>wave hi to the little kids

>make sure all the white kids get the "good" candy

>tootsie rolls and dum dums for the black kids

>too many black kids

>I didn't buy enough black candy

>still have a whole bowl left of reese cups and nestle crunch

>down to my last tootsie roll

>oh god there's more coming this way

>mfw

might as well. its better than letting my thoughts keep eating at me.

i feel like a god damn loser, Cred Forums and i really dont kknow what to do with myself anymore. im too stubborn and terrified to ever actually kill myself but lately ive been losing mental stability that keeps me from hurting myself. i could be perfectly fine one second, and then the next im falling to pieces, hoping i dont immediately break down and start crying. ill get so fucking upset or angry over just being upset in the first place that i start hitting or scratching myself, or pulling my hair, pulling my skin. its been getting bad lately, but i havent told anybody and nobodys seen me do it.

and the thing is, part of the reason im like this is because i feel so deeply that i shouldnt even be feeling like this in the first place, like i dont really have a right to be this upset.
MY life isnt too bad.
>im 8/10 at least
>girlfriend is 10/10 easy
>can talk to girls easily, good at socializing in general
>but only on good days
>which arent often anymore

my only real issue is the fact that i have $800 in credit card debt already, at age 19.

but my girlfriend is the worst, Cred Forums.
>2 year relationship
>past year have been cheated on 4 or 5 times
>she doesnt consider any of it 'actually cheating'
>have been constantly fighting for the past year
>been called everything in the book and put down in every way possible

and this relationship has broken me so much that i feel like im hopeless in trying to build anything new with anybody. i know i deserve better than this, but i feel like i cant let go. ive spent 2 years trying to make the best of this relationship, because it was all i had coming out of high school. post-graduation life has been absolute hell because i feel like i lost touch with everybody who kept me standing right away.
all the crazy shit we said to each other, all the loyalty i keep wasting on this girl has me feeling like i wasted the best years of my life.

if anyones interested or wants to help me clear my head, thatd be really useful right now. i feel like my mental is collapsing lately and i really just need somebody to talk to.

Why can't I commit to anything important in my life? I barely went to school, I've never had a girlfriend despite many girls showing interest in me in highschool and at work because I never bothered trying to pursue a relationship. I even recently got fired from my job for calling in sick. Now my parents are threatening to kick me out of the house if I don't go to some work enforcement seminar bullshit and I know I won't last two days there without giving up. My therapist is on vacation so I'm fucked but I know even if i try it's going to fall apart. What the fuck do I do?

Trick or Treating where I live has been shit since niggers slowly took over over the course of 3 years. They don't wear costumes and fuck up your house and decorations if you don't gibs dem candy.

Seriously, what's with the new phenomenon of ghetto city kids flocking to the suburbs on Halloween? Is the internet to blame? Is this Obama's doing?

your girlfriend is a cunt and if you aren't stupid you would dump her. get a job and pay off the debt. credit cards are generally bad and you should avoid using them.

TRICKS R' TREATZ 4 TRAYVON!!!!11!

Dump the bitch, trust me. The beta in you will feel sad for 1-2 months tops, right around the 8 week mark you'll look back and realize how much of a fucking idiot you were and how much better off you are

>new phenomenon

This has been going on for years. They don't give out candy in black neighborhoods, so they bring all the black kids by the busload into the white neighborhoods. The best are the 350 lb baby mamas with plastic bags who say it's for dey sick chile at home, or the teenagers who show up in no costumes and use their schoolbags for carrying candy.

Every year I get excited for Halloween and every year they ruin it.

i have 2 jobs right now but life has been fucking me up lately and its been one thing after the next that comes up and forces me to put off paying the credit card bill.
i originally was basically forced to get it to keep myself in school (which i ultimately had to end up putting off fir the time being)

I live with the fact that no matter what you do there will be someone out there that thinks your an asshole.

Most adults have 20k+ in various debts, use it as a learning experience so you don't end up in the same boat

I never noticed it as kid. But now there's a heard of niglets ringing my doorbell wearing half-assed costumes and unplugged, novelty over-the-ear headphones every 31st. Talk about a frightening halloween.

$800 in debt at age 19
This is nothing, I maxed out my 5k limit card when I was 18 and already had a car payment too. Teenagers, even early to mid 20 year olds seem to think that you can't make mistakes or that they those years are the most important part of your life, they're not. You've got plenty of time to fix stuff. Try to avoid credit cards if possible, but it's also nice to have some incase of emergencies.

>cheated on 4 or 5 times
What the fuck are you doing? Be a man and dump the bitch, there's is no excuse. It shouldn't matter how hot she is, or you're scared of not finding someone else, Just end it or be a beta max for the rest of your life.

I had to get a restraining order against my brother back in April because of drug addiction and breaking and entering into my home. The last time I saw him was in July, when he attempted suicide. I witnessed him being escorted by police to the hospital, which later relased him. I miss him, but I've made the decision to keep the restraining order until April of next year. Anyone else ever had to get a restraining order agaibst a family member or had a family member suffer from drug addict?

i can't get over the whole girlfriend thing. that's stupid. what do you think the endgoal is? she changes her ways and you get married? at nineteen there is no point wasting time with someone who makes you feel like that is retarded. the idea that you spent two years with a girl is mind boggling.see hears the problem with all you whiny fags, if you focus so much on having a gf or go out of your way to get one you're forcing it rather than just letting it happen. trying to artificially prolong a relationship is sad and you should pull the plug and move on.

>girlfriend is 10/10 easy
Normal fags
Normal fags
Everywhere.

i just cant though. its like everything weve done to each other left me broken and i cant trust anything anymore. its so bad how overly wary i am. my lifes been a complete turnaround since i graduated. used to be so social and would always be talking to somebody, was very outgoing. nowadays i find myself locked in my room and the few times i do come out it feels so strange to me that i have to go back in. i dont talk to my family anymore and i know my behavior is jsut ruining the little relationships i have left with them. i feel like im on my own.

and ive been so hopeless lately.
>be 19, going on 20
>girlfriend is 18, in senior year of high school
just recently had to take her to a school dance and i felt like a loser there. im about to be 20 years old and im still hanging out at my old high school events.
and with everything thats happened between me and the girlfriend, i fall for people so easily now.
at the school dance i ended up exchanging looks with a girl there, easily another 10/10
and it hit me
>fell in love at first sight
but i know its so fucking wrong because im gonna be 20 and this girl was 17, still in high school for this year and the next.

knowing im getting older and i wont be able to just go back to school every monday morning and talk to new people if i wanted has really trapped me into this comfortable sort of misery.
its like everytime i blink ive been seeing this girl and its been aching so bad how if i were just a year younger i could go out and get that girl if i wanted, and not deal with what ive dealt with for 2 years. it sucks knowing theres someone i could easily get if it werent for the age gap, and theres nothing i could do about it.

its these thoughts, thoughts of getting older and wanting more out of life. thoughts of knowing i should have better but wont let myself have it. thoughts of me falling in love with someone i dont even know.

its all really starting to worry me.

boy, if you seen her

also, Cred Forums doesnt have to tell me. i know that whole "love at first sight" thing is fucking stupid. i know the entirety of it would rest on the girls personality. but its that point that im trying to make that im so eager to have what i have, with someone different, because someone different might do things right for a change. and being treated decently just isnt what im used to lately. it shouldnt be that easy to fall in love and theres nothing correct about it but i cant help it.

Stop with the melodramatic shit, you can dump her, you're just afraid. You come here for a solution and shut down the only thing that will make it better.

Here are your choices:

Dump her and start putting your life together
Or
Stay with her and continue to be miserable.

>knowing im getting older
You're 19 going on 20. Come back when you're 30 and can actually use that excuse.

Sounds remarkably similar to how I felt at your age. Essentially got over it by realizing women are mostly worthless in the sense that life is not all about women , like you probably believe now. Dumping this slut is the first step to reversing your downward spiral, after ridding yourself of her spend a few months lifting, reading (not chan, actual books), thinking about what you want to do with your life. Realize that everyone at your school, gf , etc are all irrelevant to your life and act accordingly.

Trust me, I'm 21 and was in a similar relationship a year ago and several prior to that (although I never gave second chances). It gets better. Don't be a fag and let it define you, and for future relationships always care 20% less than the other person

>gf wants me to watch her shitty movies
>Puts on Finding Nemo
>Starts riding my dick
>We both fall asleep
>Wake up at the very end
>She's pissed at me for not watching it

Not even memeing, they really do this shit.

>Gf wants to watch my favorite movie and then we watch mine
>Watch Die Hard (fuck you I don't care what you think)
>She's texting the entire time
>Starts asking stupid questions like "Why are they taking hostages?"
>Next day its my turn
>She wants to watch the Fountain
>nowsmychance.jpg
>Immediately pull out my phone
>Start asking "Why is he in a hospital I thought he was spanish? Wait is he the tree? Is his girlfriend spanish? Why doesn't he just make her immortal?"
>She then starts the no phones during movies rule herself

this is sad.

you are a sad human being.

not the sad you go to the movies to experience, you are just sad and disgusting.

this girl has no interest in you, i guarantee it. you know what you're problems are and you elect to keep up with shitty behavior.

anyone else in this situation would realize what a pitiful fuck they are and make some sort of effort to change, to grow as a person.

I'm not going to bother giving you advice, either attempt to change or age into a sad sack.

>stop with the melodramatic shit

i honestly cant and its something i can see is ruining huge chunks of my life. idk how to fix it.

i can go from being alpha as fuck and being 'healthy' during the day, to this at night. and it sucks having to deal with pretty much what id say is turning into a bipolar personality. its getting unstable and my family is too poor to afford me getting help.
this couple with anxiety and depression thats been looming since about 14 years old hasnt done me well

My gf and her female friend forced me to watch Ghostbusters (2016) with them. They're both lefty and really into this women's suffrage thing but we all hated it. After the watching it turned out they were unaware of the controversy and we had a healthy discussion about how they despise the modern 'feminism'.
And we watched the original Ghostbusters which was great except my gf got food poisoning so she wasn't enjoying it as much.

Holy fuck my gf would not shut the fuck up during this movie

>is he really dead or not
>why are they being gay
>why are they acting out this bullshit with the costumes
>why is he farting so much

You're pathetic, go post this on >>r9k and circlejerk on much more pathetic you are than the other person posting. You have to power to change you just choose not to even try, Just fucking die already.

>had vasectomy
>gf gets prego 2 years later
>dump her cheating ass and don't support the bastard baby
>4 years later, my new gf gets prego
>go to doctor and finds out my vas deferens have healed themselves somehow
>realize I have a 4 yo son out there and a new child on the way
>realize all the aweful things I said to my ex, how much of an ass I was to her
>try to make things right
>finally see my son for the first time
>he's half-black
>take back all my appologies and insult her even more
>fuck that bitch
>years later, finds out I have black ancestors and that a black baby with 2 white parents has happen before in my family
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I met my perfect girl 2 days ago, we share every interest, funny as hell, extremely wealthy, doctor so can give me scripts for pills and she's super into me. Greatest girl I met in my life.
She's a gay man. This fucking sucks.

>>he's half-black

I get the unspoken feeling that I was an accidental child.

I didn't come out quite right. I suffer from DPD/DID, a form of synesthesia that causes my vision to bleed into my hearing, PTSD from domestic violence, and a subtle subconscious deficit in short-term confidence.

I've spent my life learning and being inquisitive about the world, because every fine detail spoke volumes to me. I made friends, and lost some. I've almost died far too many times, especially as a child. I've been feet away from balls of lightning, fire, and even bullets. I've almost drowned. I've tried to kill myself for, but I must have some form of stupid luck- I spectacularly failed every time, and was no worse for it.

I am constantly the rock for other people, and I don't dislike this much. I constantly give advice to those who seem to ask for it, directly or indirectly, and I do like to help. Somewhere inside, I like to see smiles on the faces of others.

But, people are people. And the apparent nature of it all seems to spell out a few words of wisdom I didn't think I'd ever manage to swallow.

I did, this week. I think. I can't seem to look at the contemporary world the same anymore. I have no one to go to- they all go to me. There are no psychologists out there equipped to burden themselves with my problems- they have a plethora of others to see, and money to grok. I'm probably a better psychologist with my access to what is essentially the intrinsic boggles that I struggle with daily.

Things I cannot communicate to others. I am forever a sort of outcast, a sort of antagonist. Alien. Unknowable.

Alone.

I feel terribly alone. Teased. I've already been to rock bottom once, and felt that it would never happen again, but clearly, I haven't felt so unable to even just breach the barrier of communication and speak and be understood by at least one person, one living person out of the many that I will never meet.

Billions of people have come and gone. Suffered, died, wasted their time. And here I am, an accident gone better than some, gifted, some say... and I feel as if it is all a waste.

I've sent people on their way in life. I've done little things here and there, things that have made people who they are, whether they like it or not. I've written my own work, as meager as it may be, and I've built a few sand castles of my own, and accepted their fate as the tide came in. I've had the pleasure and the pains to take apart my own mind when it came to be such, and I know where I stand regarding not having spent a life well lived, as much as that can be said to be possible for me.

That isn't required for me to feel as I do, though. People die every moment we sit here on Cred Forums.

I feel as if I would like to go to sleep, as I am usually to do, where I am comforted by nothing, and am left to struggle like a child, in the futile attempt to bring forth something from nothing. I wish that there were someone in the world with whom I could trust to make me wholly naive again. To un-know and un-bear the things I do. And there is no one else, no one I can reach out and touch. I wish, so badly, that someone would undo the weave that is my mind, so I can simply not be, and never possess the emergent properties to know that.

>watching Frozen and playing vidya at 3 am
>go to take a drink from my vodka bottle
>realize I accidentally pissed in it
>grumble and say to myself 99% of the time I piss in the right bottle
>but this was the 1%
>contemplate what to do
>stumble out of my bedroom with vodka bottle, tracking dried puke on bottom of my feet into the hallway
>my friends mom asks from upstairs if I'm fiddling with the Christmas lights on the tree again
>tell her to shut up or I'll put her back into the goddamn wall whence she came
>light a cigarette
>sober up a bit
>turn off the stove
>pass out in the kitchen floor in my boxers

this was the funniest thing i have ever read. thank you, i needed that.

>Piss in a bottle
>Roll it under my seat
>Girl saw me and reported me
>Tell security guard I had to do it or I was gonna piss my pants because I have diabeetus
>He says "My dad is overweight and has diabeetus too so I understand" and lets me go
>Cry the whole way home on the bus while people laugh at me
>Cry at home while people laugh at me on the internet
>Cry all the time
>Wish to die
>Crying right now

>finally get gf
>she wants to stay at my place for the weekend
>fuck, guess that means the piss bottle collection needs to go
>empty them and throw them out, also find a crusty old jizz rag I had forgotten about and toss it too
>second day she is there I have to go to work in the morning real quick because my dipshit coworker forgot to bring his key and I was the only one with a key who answered his calls
>wake her up and tell her I have to leave for a bit but she can sleep or whatever until I get back, she's cool with it
>come back and she is cleaning, said she woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so decided to clean a bit
>"user, I found this old bottle of dark spoiled Gatorade and a really stiff rag"
>start to cackle like a maniac, she is so fucking sheltered and really doesn't know what these things are
>she asks what's so funny
>finally manage to talk "Here's a hint: that bottle doesn't have Gatorade in it"
>see a look of horror start to come across her face as she realizes what it is, she screams "I TOUCHED THAT BOTTLE! FUCKING GROSS! DID YOU PISS ON THE RAG TOO?"
>"The rag doesn't have piss on it, it is saturated with semen though"
>she gags a bit and goes to wash her hands, tells me to throw that shit out
>keep laughing and throw them away
>after she calms down a bit she thinks it's funny in a gross boy kind of way but tells me not to let her find that shit any more
>tfw know gf is a keeper

find a passion, man. there's an infinite amount of possibilities to your life. you don't need anyone to be happy, you just need something.

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Am I supposed to read that shit with a mirror?

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Basically, whites are between eight and ten percent of the world's pop, and their women of breeding age constitute just two or three.

Due to the poisonous influence of feminism, very few whites have more than one child a piece. Race mixing is like kicking a dying animal for fear it might try to get back up.

This is probably nothing, but I med a girl a couple of days ago and we talked a bit, she approached me which had never happened before, but she made me laugh with so few words, and she was cute and nice. I haven't been able to get her out of my head since. I may see her on thursday, but she probably doesn't feel the same at all, she probably has forgotten about me

In about 10 years once physical copies of movies are a thing of the past and everything is done online or OnDemand, and Hollywood no longer lets you buy your own copy of the movie and instead only lets you rent them for a 24 hour period for $14.99, people are really going to regret being too lazy to keep physical media around

I don't know if it's a matter of perspective, but I can tell you that I've already gone about my life with the means to obsess over a passion. There may be infinite possibilities, but it's certainly not the case that I, in this current set of states, can pick and choose from every single one. I can only be the most likely possible outcomes.

It is not a well thing to be encouraged to/to want to speak. To want to interact with another human being- to care what they think, and what they say, and what they do... and then be denied that kind of existence.

I absolutely condemn the idea of being an island unto myself. It's no fun.

I can go through this life, never finding someone to lean on, or even have humor my nonsense and my quandaries, to learn from... but it all comes at a cost.

I, in turn, will become less than what I am right now; that very baggage, that naivete, that care for minds, that social reinforcement, those basic instincts... It's what drives my need to reach out and touch someone. If I waste my time working with machines, and theoretical abstractions, and other nuggets of abstract nothings, I'm going to have to accept that I may as well be the only mind that exists, and I'll never go back on that decision. I cannot fit in a world of social creatures if I defect from that very concept. I can't realistically have a job, I can't garner favors, I can't even have a simple hug that fails to fill the gaping hole.

If that is what I choose, then I am certainly going to choose a day of the week to kill myself, because I can tell you that I will not find a passion if it means that I, alone, can choose. All my passions for things are a needless prop for my time, that I willfully enthuse to pass said time, and fool myself into thinking that my time spent reading, programming, or otherwise walking through ideologies is worth anything of note.

What I really want is to stare into someone's eyes
>and be fooled into thinking that I can let go
>for once

>she probably has forgotten about me

4U

What?

She was mirin me though, which is a first. I think it could have been because I was wearing slippers.

These threads are the only thing getting me out of bed in the morning user. I'm sorry if it bothers you seeing them in the catalog. This board is the only place I have any friends..

I'm fairly sure that my sleep deprivation is the result of all the hours I spend here. It's like some sort of drug, although at this point it's the only thing keeping me from an hero due to the short term amusement and comfort I get from this place.

Here's some booty to cheer everyone up

People who had the darkest and loneliest times in hs usually find prosperity and "themselves" after hs.

Same but never had a gf

Just think of this: there's always someone else who's having worse than you.

SPEND A FUCKING YEAR ABROAD SOMEWHERE. that is the best shit I have ever done. I lived alone for a month, didn't see a person for weeks, went on adventures, did exactly what I wanted. It was great. I figured my shit out

As in he'd fucked other women, stupid. You don't have to be someone's significant other to fuck them

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fuck it. i give up.

I think you are an asshole

I have been dating this girl for around 3 years. We have gotten along well, and always been happy. We have also been busy college classes, a new semester starts, and it her than one class we have different schedules. Couple of weeks ago things get weird between us. She lives with her parents, and they are pretty strict. On weekends I usually don't see her because of this. These last two weekends she has gone over to a guys house. She told me that she was going to go study, and she studies a lot so I let it slide. Then in the one class we have in common she sits next to him instead of me. Ouch. Nothing too big to get over, and then the same thing happens the next class. She had been busy during breaks and we haven't seen much of each other. These things were all throwing up flags, and I was trying to make time, trying to get her back. Them today she messages me. "I love you and I want to be with you, I see my future with you, but I don't want to be a couple right now. I want to do my own thing and not have to worry about someone else" before she met me she was alone, low self confidence. Couldn't make friends because her parents were so strict. I built her up, told her she was great, and then she tells me I'm not what she wants right now. She said she wants to make it work, but I am in a position where my options are be her comfort after she finishes doing what she wants or leave her. I know I should just leave, but I really don't want to. End.

Sorry for messed up words it's late I'm sad, I'm on mobile

how much text can be entered into the comment field guys?

You made her feel great about herself and she suddenly realized she could do better than you. Totally your fault, bruh. What she means is "Im confident now and wanna slut around for a while. I know you'll still be here because you're a loser so you're my backup plan for when I'm done being a whore."

Yeah shouldn't have built her up. She was mine before.

Too real bruh

Worst part is she actually can't do better. She was already reaching, but I thought she was funny, and that was enough. Sad days.

But at least I got dubs

it's like reddit dude, egocentrical emotionally disturbed drama queens, and when they say 'feel you bruh' i want to vomit

I turned 18 yesterday. I know it sounds cliche but the implications of being legally responsible for myself hit like a ton of bricks. I'm alone, bored, and have no purpose in life. All I'm doing now is trying to get into a prestigious college and ask this one girl out on a date. She's just all around amazing I know it sounds really stupid, but tomorrow is the day I start going to the gym. I'm going to keep at it for as long as I can until I'm either scared that someone else is gonna get with her or until I'm good enough with myself. I cut off all conversation with my best friend of a year last week so I don't really know who to say this dumb shit to. So thanks.

I feel you bruh

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When physical media is no longer created for new content I.E. a movie that comes out in 2030, the only industry will have a total monopoly over their films and be able to charge rediculous amounts of money just to watch movies.

The other day she told me a story about how she was at a party and was making out with a weird emo dude. She didn't know him and all he did was be weird and talk about his dead dad after. She didn't even like this guy and she made out with him. I don't even know if I really even want to be involved with her but it kicks me in the teeth every time I hear a story like that. Ill never get more than an awkward hug from her and we've been friends for years. but she has had sex with people she didn't even know.

What sucks even more is that I really want to be over her but she is really the only female friend I have right now. I want to expand but I have no idea how and the rest of my friends are basically useless at doing so.

>tfw separate
>tfw rigid
>tfw temporary
Why? Why do we have to be here in this awful place. Its fleeting beauty is a mockery to the eternal beauty of the Source.

Why can't we be one again?
... it's not fair...
I wanna go home.

Bump

Hear me well, shard.
You have done what you came here to do, though you may not see or understand.

You have earned the right to come home.
In your own time, by whatever method you think best... come back to us.
We love you.
We miss you.
Come home soon, lover.

>I wanna go home

I feel that hard, but Im sitting in my room in my house. What the fuck does that mean.

youtube.com/watch?v=jAWZS1asqQE

We all feel it.
Most of us ignore it, but it's always there.
We yearn to return...
>=[ but the Source needs us to do what we're here to do... as frustrating as that is.

Mannnnn.... I didn't sign up for this shiz.
But if I don't do it... nobody will =/
Sheeeeiiittt...

>be 5, walking down the street with my family on a walk
>get to this house with a kid outside
>stop and talk
>we become friends
>I get homeschooled because of health issues
>he becomes one of the coolest kids in school, class clown
>still friends with me though
>spend a lot of my summers hanging with him and his cousin who lives on the same street
>eighth grade comes
>I enter public school
>look like a fuck
>friend helps me out
>join his group of friends
>hang out all year
>by the end of the year most people like me
>hang out all summer again

>have a lot of classes with him my freshman year
>in health class talking about mental health
>teacher says "so if you have a friend who says they're thinking about killing themselves what should you do?"
>friend goes "ask for their iPod"
>gets kicked out of class
>I get kicked out of class for laughing
>last day of school, riding the bus home
>friend is working in a city an hour away all summer
>"hey user when I get back we're biking to subway first thing"
>he comes back at the beginning of August
>the day he gets back I leave for vacation with my family
>get back a week later on Sunday night
>friend texts me
>"when do you want to go to subway?"
>it's the first week of football
>'tomorrow afternoon'
>"aight sounds good user"
>we bike to subway
>afterwards go back to his house and play GTA
>about to leave
>he hands me his old iPod
>"I don't need it anymore. you can have it. passcode is 5683"
>Tuesday morning
>go to football at 7
>get back at 12
>mom comments on an ambulance that had went down our street
>"idk what it was mom"
>sister texts me
>"user your friend shot himself"
>what?
>"user he's dead. I'm so sorry"
>stare at the ground in shock
>there's a get-together, funeral happens on Saturday
>get home and see the iPod
>unlock it
>it's in the playlist 'don't worry user'
>one song
>Bob Marley – Three Little Birds
>"don't worry about a thing"
>"cause every little thing is gonna be all right"
>bawl my eyes out

>girlfriend tells me that she wants to be just friends
>tells me that she wants me to stick around and still be there for her emotionally even though we wouldn't be dating anymore
>stopped having sex with me 11 days ago
>basically wants to keep all the perks of dating me without actually dating me
>probably wants to date other guys
>she won't break up with me
>doesn't want to take any of the blame for breaking up with me
>wants me to break up with her
>told her I have no intention of leaving her just yet
>under a lot of stress lately anyway cuz work and college and personal problems
>several panic attacks within the last 2 days, kept them a secret
>this gets dropped on me
>can't sleep because stress
>keep trying to convince myself that everything will be okay
>can't calm down
>keep worrying
>try to see the good in the possible outcomes
>see nothing