Story time!

Yup, I fucked up. But I'm still alive and I'm not giving up on myself.

Thank you. THIS is the type of response I was hoping for.

I guess if I'm an asshole for speaking the truth, then so be it. Sooner or later it'll happen to you.

stop doing crack, keep doing heroin, but however many days in a row you do heroin, make sure to take that many days off in a row. but only snort it, or just move to pain killers with the money you saved from quitting crack

What were you doing in Serbia? That sounds like a story in and of itself.

He probably went for some of our good ol Burek.

I do only snort it. I started out on painkillers, then I wound up slowly moving to heroin because painkillers are so much more expensive.

I don't recommend NA meetings but as they say one day at a time.

good luck tho

You're an asshole because you drop a the verbal equivalent of a sneer with the presumption that you're better than me in every way. Yet here you are on Cred Forums like the rest of us, so you're definitely seriously damaged in some way.

well if the H starts to get weak try some pills because some dealers will cut it more the longer you buy from them. also be careful of fentanyl. i recommend just switching back to pain killers.

Well I moved from Canada to Dublin, because fuck it I was bored with life. I got to know a lot of BalkanBros. Mostly Serbs and Croats. My best friend in Dublin invited me to go to his Slava (serbian orthodox celebration, sorta like thanksgiving but way better). So I went. It was my first time in eastern europe. We get to my friends house at around 6am, and immediately start drinking. I'm hammered by 8am. This goes on for a while, my friend and the only person who speaks English there, leaves for a few hours to go fuck some chick, and I'm left to just sit there in my own drunken state and appreciate this amazing culture. It was one of the best nights of my life. I like the feeling of being out of place.
That too :)

I hate to say this.
Schick Schadel
Just get your life together.
I have seen too many people ruined by addiction.
I live in Washington also.

If you wanna quit you either go cold turkey or rehab/recovery program. There's no other way. You'll only have yourself to blame when you wake up from a comma surrounded by paramedics. But obviously you aren't here looking for a way to quit, because you already know what resources are available to you. Youre just here because you've realized how low youve stooped in your life, but clearly aren't interested in improving it. So at this might you might as well double down and start sucking dick for crack.

The fact that you posted a picture from that movie in that one specific scene where the character is forced to perform sexually for drugs, plus the fact that your story is full of sexual undertones make me believe that you want your mouth stuffed with a hot throbbing thick veiny dick, you know bitch .. you know you want this.

Your whole thread is just a clit twitch induced cry for reflection "tell me im a whore Cred Forums, make it ok for me"

Your moment of clarity would have sent you straight to rehab if it was as eye opening as you pretend, the truth is you want some post to enable and encourage you to be a whore.

You dont need Cred Forums to be a whore. Either you have self respect or you don't
And if you don't then cut to the chase and post pictures of your filthy whore body so we can masturbate to the idea of pumping you full of cum, otherwise if you do have an ounce of self respect you will go to rehab asap.

Hey what do you think of rakija tho?

b-but I've been clean for 3 years user with a wife kid and job.
:(

Couldn't have said it any better myself.

I hear you, OP. I'm an alcoholic, and benzo addict. Been to treatment three times in the past two years, attempted suicide half-heartedly twice this year, can't seem to kick the fucking stuff.

It's gotten so bad within the last year that I've literally started losing my mind at times. Like, I'm that fall down drunk guy stumbling down the street at 9 AM, still drunk from the night before, on my way to the liquor store so I can get my fix, and stop shaking.

I'm young, too. I don't know how my life got this way, or how I burned out so fast. I'm on the tail end of a monthlong bender right now. Currently sober, at the moment, but hating every second of it.

I've ruined almost every relationship I have - all my friends are alcoholics too, mostly in recovery, but due to my constant relapsing they avoid me. I'm totally isolated, I have like no money at the moment.The shame is unbearable, and I can't stand myself anymore. The drugs and alcohol have changed me so damn much. I'm not even myself anymore.

I'm just constantly in survival mode. Living from day to day, drifting through time. I don't know what keeps me going. I'm just living - it's not much of a life at all though.

Hang in there, I guess is what I'm trying to say. You're not alone. Ten percent of people have addictions.

Awesome. I've been in situations like that when I dated this Russian dude. At first everyone at a party would speak English to be polite. But once the first bottle of vodka was done, I was surrounded by nothing but Russian cursing and everything became a game of trying to interpret based on body language alone.

I just came in here looking to swap stories.

Like I said, I'm here to swap stories. But I really appreciate the time you've spent writing out your little masturbatory interpretation of my intent. Thanks Cred Forumsro

All junkies should hang

Thanks Cred Forumsrother. I think we'll wind up okay. Maybe we won't. But I think we will.

kek. you rekt him OP.

good luck on quitting, i was addicted to drugs for 4 months before i quit cold turkey

>lol 4 months

shit was still intense

It's funny, in spite of the fact that I do heroin and sometimes smoke crack, I don't think of myself as a junkie. I have a job, a home, a car, a family. My bills are paid first and foremost. There's food in my fridge. I'm definitely an addict and I know everything I have could be snatched away because of my addiction. But I think being a junkie is more of a state of mind than anything else

Here's hoping! Stay strong! Remember, that despite all this shit in our lives currently, our intentions were always pure. We're not bad people.

Fucking amazing. My friends dad made it himself in his backyard. I've also tried some great rakija from bosnia and Montenegro. Dunja rakija is my favourite
How do you find traveling in Russia as a woman? Would you solo travel there? How do you find their hospitality?

I don't lol at your four months. Once this shit has its claws in you, time is meaningless anyway. Congrats and I hope you stay on the wagon user.

>How could I have come to this?
Lack of self respect. You need rehab.

>How did I become someone dealers look at and assume I'll trade a blowjob for a fix?
Lack if self respect is very easy to sniff. In your current state I give you tops two weeks before you are on your knees sucking and dying inside.

>And the most important question of all - do I even care?
You're not in rehab so obviously you don't. Hence why you shouldn't care about camwhoring for Cred Forums.

You know you want this, be a good whore and drop the last-minute-ego.

im kind of jealous of illegal drug addicts cuz it's so hard to get it seems easy to stop

whereas im an alkie and i got 4 mini bottles of stoli before work today for $5.00 at a nice, well-lit store by the highway and it was all perfectly legal and the clerk told me to have a pleasant day afterward

imagine going out to dinner and being handed a "heroin list" that's literally what alkies deal with

god alcohol is FUCKING EVERYWHERE

I didn't travel there. The guy I was with lived here in the states. So I can't say.

Sauce on the movie please

Ah fair enough. Slavic men are pretty great eh?

Jesus Christ. You twelve steppers are fucking awful. Rehab doesn't work for everyone, and honestly it's hit or miss depending on the type of center you go into.

Not only that, but do you have any idea how much a good quality stay at a treatment center costs? I'm not talking about a shitty ten day detox. I mean like, a place you stay for 90 or more.

It's ri-goddamn-diculous. You're shelling out thousands of dollars for a two percent chance that you'll stay clean.

There's so little proof that rehab actually works. It's a business - a multi-billion dollar industry.

Yes, it works for some people. But on average, it's like one out of thirty.

Apparently I still have enough self respect that the dealers who actually know me know I don't get down like that. Or did you miss that part of the story.

You seem like the kind of dude who knows all there is to know about whores though. When did you first realize the only sex you'd have was the sex you paid for? We are here to swap stories, tell us your desperate tale user.

Requiem For A Dream

That's got to suck user. Alcoholism is a nightmare to recover from, as I understand it. No matter how shitty a heroin addict feels going thru withdraw, we can't actually die from it. But alcohol withdraw can kill you :(

I agree with the other user. Let's see your fucking whore body, bitch. I want to blow my load looking at you.

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I enjoy them. They're a lot of fun. But that dark, heavy side (think of Russian literature) can be a drag.

Overrated slang jokes
Irresponsible as fuck
Most serbian guys are european versions of stupid russian guys
Serbian pride is based on literary nothing
Racist as fuck
Your women are whores (even wel after you played your macho brate card they will fuck your idiotic serb brother)
And last but not least your cuisine is turkish, all thoss cevapcici and rakija along with your coffee and halva
All turkish ottoman
You had identity when it was yugoslavia, then you sucked american dick and leg the world use your religious fanaticism against you
You wanna hear the best part? A bosnian muslim is STILL better than a serb
No wait

A fucking shqiptar gypsy from tirana STILL is better than a serb

So in conclusion fuck you and fuck your shitty rakija.

Baby you can role play all you want
End of the day you lnow fully well that when money runs out you Will be that whore.

Anyways good luck and enjoy that ego while it lasts. Like really try to hold on to it.

You're a real charmer user. You get much pussy with that approach?

A princess gets royal treatment while a peasant gets a facial in the slums.

I actually do get a lot by treating women how they deserve, if a girl wants royal treatment she had better not behave like a fucking cheap whore.

>split in two
>by day, a loser
>by night, also a loser

Everything you do is boring.

If I ever get that desperate, I'll become a criminal and start stealing instead.

Or you know, just actually fucking quit.

What you call ego is actually just self-confidence. Not all of my life choices have been bad ones, lol.

She's a fucking whore. I want a pic of her in that suit and the heels she spoke of. Don't even need to see the slut naked

I know, right? I definitely need to shake things up a bit.

Help me understand, because I don't get it. How am I a whore?

>quit
>heroin
Oh god I seriously want to cuddle you.
You poor soul
Listen in gonna go sleep
Get help
Sorry I attacked you
In my head you'll always be the cocksucking tart.
Goodnight

Shut the fuck up
Let us see what you look like. Big tits? Bald cunt?

Wow I can't get rid of your smell from here... Desperate people do desperate things it's not necessarily because they are "Whores". In any case you only seem to be referring to women - men also trade sexual acts for drugs, money, food, shelter, etc...

The problem is with our society and people like you who feel that there is EVER a reason to justify treating another individual with such disregard to their overall health. There is NEVER a reason to dehumanize/devalue/debase another individual...

kek user ignores these faggots this is b

Fuck off, kike.

You can't even answer a simple fucking question but you want me to drop pics? You realize a whore expects payment, right? Or do you not actually know what a whore is, just that it's a way to insult a woman?

Please go back to fapping to traps or shottas or whatever the fuck you're into. I don't feel like dealing with stupid tonight.

I just want to see if he's actually got an answer. Surprise surprise, he doesn't.

Uh-huh, okay. I haven't behaved like a cheap whore but you've still been a douchebagel. Your more full of shit than a porta-potty.

props to fucking that. it's Cred Forums my dude, jus full of faggy edgelords who haven't an ounce of respect for anyone, including themselves. don't let 'em get to you.
in any case, how'd you get into drugs? i'm kinda curious.

Your more full of nigger cum than a jailhouse "girl"

Well basically when i was younger my mother used to smoke a lot and would have men come and go from the house a lot, selling herself for drugs as i figured out.

So i had a chat with her about whether this would be an option for me - i was 14 at the time - and she agreed. So i started seeing men who would come to the house but for money instead of drugs, as time went on i ended up using to numb the pain of having 2 cocks in my asshole at once, and i guess it took off from there really.

You're more pathetic than a euthanized puppy.

lol, did you just answer for me?...

and I've never used hard drugs like that. I've only smoked weed. Idk, I like the idea of psychedelics but haven't had the opportunity yet.

And I'm sure you'd know all about that, wouldn't you, faggot?
Go to bed, you have school tomorrow, you illiterate cuck.

you NEED to get on acid. that shit is unreal in the right environment. my experiences were almost life-changing

i quite like you OP, definitely chill with/10

because sooner or later you're gonna end up raped and murdered in a dumpster so show us some tits you dumb bitch

i quit. all it took was my dealer moving away. been 5 months. fuck i want some heroin

fucking agreed. lsd/most kinds of street acid is the SHIT my dude. tripping redefines "profound". it's less for a tab then it is for a g of weed, so. i definitely recommend you do your research and shit first though, yo.

Wound up in a crackhouse, waiting for my dope. A middle-aged crackwhore in a bad wig tried to get me upstairs to blow a man for drugs. I graciously declined. She looked at me like I was crazy. My life's a mess.

When I go buy dope, it's usually a super fast "hop in, spin the block, hop out" kind of deal. Today I had to come inside while my shit got bagged up.

I was so confused when that crackwhore woman was trying to get me to go upstairs. She was like, beckoning to me and mouthing something thru the doorway from the other room. Suddenly the guy who owns the crackhouse snaps at her to go away and my dealer was like, "tell Q she ain't like that". That's when she gave me that look like I'd turned down a career-crowning promotion.

I looked at my dealer and asked what the fuck is going on. He looked down at his hands and said, "there a man up there, he wanna holla at you, you know, trade you".

So there I sat in my suit jacket and classic pumps (I'm an administrative assistant at a bank), watching my d get bagged up while I smoked a little crack with the house's owner. A small tv quietly played hardcore porn in the corner. I pulled my stem out of my classy black leather coach bag, the only white girl in a 5 block radius without a mixed kid. I've never felt so out of place. Not like I was better, because here I sat with my crackpipe waiting for my bundle. Just out of place inside myself. How could I have come to this? How did I become someone dealers look at and assume I'll trade a blowjob for a fix? And the most important question of all - do I even care?

Make this a mem

This is OP. That post wasn't me, but im gonna answer your question.

I'm not entirely sure how I've wound up on heroin. I mean, I was addicted to painkillers first, but my tolerance got so high that I started switching to heroin because it was cheaper. I got hooked on painkillers slowly. At first it was just a 5mg Percocet here and there. Then it slowly became more and more. I liked the way they made everything feel okay, like nothing really bothered me when I was high. I'd always smoked weed and now and then I'd do a little coke at parties or whatever, but this was better.

I was in a really fucked up, abusive relationship for a couple years. After I finally got out of that, the opiate addiction took off. I guess I was self medicating the depression I'd developed, and being high made me feel confident. The abuse had shattered my self-confidence and I needed the crutch.

Now I'm just addicted. I have a nice life otherwise.

That wasn't OP. This is OP. But I agree whoever it was is pretty cool.

whats the bigget dose of pain killers and did you eat it or snort it?

oh, damn. that's kinda tragic. i'm more of your run of the mill 'it just seemed kinda fun' guy myself. congratulations on getting out of that abusive relationship though, yo! just got outta one myself.
that being said, i STILL recommend acid. shit's like being in a different realm. it's good for fun/wanting just to get away for a bit.
don't do it if you're in a bad mind state, though. you'll have a bad trip and that depression will get a hundred times worse, trust.
just drop, in every sense of the word. let fear and anxiety fuck off for a bit.

i bought mine off the dark net. find a reputable seller and you'll get top quality stuff for a decent price

it's a bit more work than just buying it off the street, especially if you don't know who you're getting it from

I've done acid before, but it's been years. What I'd really Iike to do is trip on mushrooms. I've known a lot of people who've had life changing experiences because of shrooms.

Probably like 5 or 6 perc 30s at a time. So like 150-180mg? I usually would snort one and eat the rest because the high would last longer when I ate them.