This is a description of my life right now:

uhhh how about get a job you useless piece of shit? Who the fuck goes to college and doesn't work. Sounds like you are too rich to realize how stupid your problems are

Luckily for you there are several trillion wen in the world that are not 10s. Fuck them instead.

Haha stop thinking about fucking people all day long you wierdo. People are picking up on your wanker vibes.

It's nice to have sociology or simple arithmetics as your core. Step aside pleb.

I mean I don't really. I understand that there is a biological component to this and that they just naturally aren't attracted to me. It just fucking sucks is what I'm saying. It's demoralizing. I mean my face is enough that I could pull some decent 7-8/10's who are the same size as me rather than noticeably shorter. But I just don't feel friendly. To do that , I would have to be throwing down game which just doesn't seem in my cards right now for whatever reason. I've done it before but I just feel fucked in the head and like I can't relate to anyone.

Because I already worked up enough money to be able to take these classes and literally don't have enough time or energy for that matter to work while doing 18 credits. You bum. Don't offload your shit onto me.

So what vibes should I be giving off?

I'm not even being sarcastic.
What do people think of normally, throughout the day? I feel like everyone is constantly thinking about others and what they're doing, but that I am thinking about things way too objectively. Almost like I'm observing it rather than actively participating. What body language should I be giving off when I walk and eye contact etc..

sorry to say it wont get any better if your brains fucked from past trauma or actual head trauma thats it your fucked and depression is set for life, in 10 years you might still hate your life but will realize its better to be drunk and or on drugs than being dead

But even if I am fucked. Isn't there some way I can hack it ? Fuck maybe I need to see a professional..

I know I'm being a bit of a prima-donna but it just feels nice to talk about it and have people weigh in.

Thanks everyone.

may be you can i always thought it was a pussy move to ask for help, better deal with yourself than running to someone else but thats just me, i know people who say getting help made things better, thats just not me

Yeah , that's how I've always felt too. But I just think it would help me get back on track honestly..

What is your 'deal', if you don't mind me asking. I know that's pretty personal so I understand if that's too much.

thats fine if i can help, im now 31 and nothings changed for me, getting married having a kid, job i like, still cant shake it. moved to a new country but cant make friends here so on my own now for 5 years, started drinking to cope, if you find i solution let me know

Still can't shake what exactly? The depression or just the aversion, as I put it.

I guess for me, it's a little bit of both. But I'm just not sure where one starts and the other begins is the thing.

Always interested to hear from others who are in relatively the same boat. It helps me gain some insight into my own problems and if I can make someone feel better then that's just a bonus.

Exactly its a bit of both a predisposition to a depressive mindset plus an aversion to being social, i replied cause of your description of how others think compared to how your thinking, seemed like the same as me. It wasnt so bad in my home country i had found other fuck ups who didnt fit in like me, now im in a new place i havent found that so im on my own, since i was 15 i spent most of my time on my own so thankfully im pretty used to that. I just seem to keep getting worse than getting better or staying even.

Why do you think you're a fuck up? Don't you think that the drinking has most to do with your self described decline?

I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I've always felt like a fuck up too. Ever since I was a small child from my father yelling at me. I've always felt like a bad person and have played the part.. I don't blame him though he has been good to me overall and he did the best he could considering his upbringing

Have you tried Legion? Best xpac in a while, lots of shit to do.

tbh, I had to look that up. I've never been into the whole mmorpg thing personally. And just in my opinion I think it wouldn't be the best idea for me. I feel like I'd spend to much time doing that rather than taking care of my uni obligations.

no i cant blame the drinking as that has been going on for less than a year but this has been going on for most of my life

i didnt drink at all for 14 years after growing up with an alcoholic

height weight fitness?
sounds like you're just insecure honestly

Yeah I'm short. Around 5'6. And I guess I am insecure in a lot of ways, you're right. Maybe that has a lot to do with things. But tbh everyone I've slept with (4 girls , 2 guys) have been pretty attractive. 7+/10. I'm 5'6 ish, 135 lbs and in very good shape. This is what I'm saying , I can see the people who want to fuck me. I can tell by their body language and eyes. But I'm in a place mentally where I feel like I just can't relate with anyone.

So if not the alcohol, what is it then? Do you feel like you have some sort of condition? If so , any ideas as to what that would be?

When you stop trying to force connections you will feel better. Your problem is you have no real inherent self worth so your only recourse is recognition from other people, who won't notice you because you don't have an identity.

Find stuff you love doing, get good at it, and love it. Then you will just make friends naturally and you'll have some self worth.

Thank you for your input. I think you are pretty much spot on.

High school + this mindset - You need to read up on social psych and stop being a faggot.

18+ years old + This mindset - Kill yourself twice.

Start going to the gym and running. I hate people too but you gotta pretend to be happy even if you're not.

get on some anti-depressants and stop being a whinging ass bitch.

Yeah ive come to the conclusion it only takes a certain amount of head trauma like some pro boxers or mma pros get to suffer depression or bad life experience and thats it your fucked, there is no repairing the brain after that. When it comes to not being compatible with others socially its more complicated i still dont understand it

300% this

Dude what the fuck same here. I fucking hate it. I just push through every week till the weekend to get drunk and forget it all for one day. Fuck everything

Faggot.
As soon as you want success as much as you want to breathe you'll have it.
But you don't even want to be breathe you want to wallow in self pity. Why don't you try making yourself worth something. If that's too much then end it so you don't burden everyone else with your shitty personality.

If you man the fuck up and find people to talk to you'd meet new people and maybe find someone who would like to fuck you. Back in my younger days I was known as the follower with barely any friends and got picked on. Now years later I have plenty of friends and I'm positive I have females who want my dick. If anyone fucks with me I'll fight, I may not win, but I'll sure as hell try.

Shut the fuck up. I'm older than you, smarter than you, and have accomplished more than you. Also more autistic. So suck on my dick fucking tween faggot. Move to the greater LA area and start doing gay porn already like we all know you are going to.

Yeah those don't do very much for me.

Thanks man. You're right. I'm going to start going to the gym more regularly. I do always feel better when I've sweated and got a good workout in.

Yeap.. Still trying to work it out...

You're right.

Can't really relate to that if I'm being honest. Last part maybe.

>finance
>thinks anyone is jealous of him for it
At least your internal thoughts of everyone hating you are true

Its ridiculous. The girls on college campuses are fucking drop dead hot. We have to develop a sane way to approach them and get their unbiased attention while their walking to class.

I've been in college for some time and the best green light I got was a girl straight staring at me in class. Yeah I bang her whenever I want but I can do better. Problem is I can't figure out a way to not look like/ sound like a jackass getting at one of these straight 10's.

Gavin McGinnes says to just utter shit out loud. Like you see a hot piece walking and you just fucking say it, "Wow.." or something like that. Problem is I don't want to come off as a professional cat caller as a first impression. So bottomline we need to develop a way. Back in the day we used to ask for the time which today would be borderline autism...

I've been in school for years now and this still bugs me. I notice some male professors suffer as well.

Im glad you agree. There is hope for you then OP. You have to make changes before you feel better.

Op I do not date a lot, but the women I have dated have all been as damaged I am and all equally beautiful. Worry about yourself first.

All I said was that I'll be making a lot more money than you in a few years, which is true. You fucking bum.

Indeed. Thanks for the encouragement. It means a lot to me.

Lol then we have something in common. All the women I've dated have been equally fucked up haha. I agree though, in all seriousness. It's something I've been trying to do for a while now.

I'm not the guy that called you a faggot for having a mediocre job initially but I'm the faggot that told you that your job, and you, are extremely hated. Kill yourself

You need to stop your negative thinking op. That's 90% of your problem... So what if they never fuck you, or date you... From experience, you won't want most of em anyway. Be confident, dress well, speak well, and be yourself bro.. There's someone out there

You are miserable because of the way that you think, not because of the reality of the world around you.

Just remind yourself of that. There is no magic pill that will make you change. Go out there and do stuff in the world.

What do you like to do or would like to learn to do? Take a class, join a club, then meet bitches at those places. Since you are all there because of the love of something else, you'll be able to be more 'yourself'.

Acting fake just so you can fuck hollow brained fake bitches is not going to make you happy either.

Enjoy life in the moment, not necessarily your scorecard. You'll be much happier and you'll probably find that things will start to work more in your favor as a result.

Life is just a big mind game.

Thanks man.. You're totally right. I definitely am way too negative. I guess that's kind of the whole point of my post is that it's hard not to be. Everything has been negative in my life for so long that I don't know how else to operate.

Screw it. I'm going to dress in a fucking nice ass button down and shit tomorrow and make an effort to be sociable.

Thanks man. You just dropped a knowledge bomb on my ass.

Uhh... Okay? You sound like a fucking douche. refer to my previous response fag. And know that you're an even greater representation of the word 'fag' than me, an actual homosexual.

>Screw it. I'm going to dress in a fucking nice ass button down and shit tomorrow and make an effort to be sociable.
Browse fa

>"It's nearly impossible to make *any* connections"
> only goes after hot girls

C'mon, dude.

You live in capitalistic paradise ans still do not satisfied?
Иди нахуй, тюлень ебаный.

Something tells me you're ugly op, show a pic

Bro.. I look good as fuck in a button down.

Don't question my fashion sense.

Not true. I don't really go after any one right now. or ever tbh. It's always sort of just fell in my lap. But that's girls who are in my wheelhouse. My point was that it's just kind of demoralizing seeing these beautiful girls that I don't have a chance with.

I know man. Fucked up isn't it? It's my opinion that we will always fill the gap. Sort of like how if you have a task with a certain time limit , you will either expand or contract to fulfill that time limit.

What? You want to see my butt ?, you fucking fag.

I'm not ugly lol

>Bro.. I look good as fuck in a button down.
>Don't question my fashion sense.
Honestly you sound like a massive loser that has to be overly hostile and alpha. Enjoy Being a loser.

Just a fact. I look damn good in a button down. You don't seem to be very friendly yourself there pal.

Fam if you think fashion sense ends at a type of shirt than seriously browse fa.

There's too much in this life that you CAN'T do. Ride an elephant. Meet JFK. Swim across the ocean. Don't let that list stop you from doing things you CAN do. You can enjoy little things in life. You don't need a girlfriend to live happily. Get a pet to connect with.

Where do you live? You really just need to open up, strike up a conversation. It doesn't have to mean anything or lead to anything, just start something up

I don't think that. I also don't really think about 'fa' at all tbh. All I'm saying is a button down can go a long way.

Thanks man. I appreciate your kind words.

I live in west US. And I think you're completely right. I've had some random conversations with people in my lecture halls before class a few times this semester and it just felt so nice to just talk with someone and relate. I don't know why I'm so hesitant. I am pretty insecure I guess like that guy said previously.

step 1) everytime you think about killing yourself, stop yourself, and say something that cheers you up. For me, I like saying phrases like "I love you" and little names couples give you eachother like "sugarpie" and stuff. I dunno I stops my train of negative thoughts and probably confuses my reptile brain.
2) Set a bed time and stick to it. Don't stay up past 10. I get 9-10 hours of sleep and wake up before I need to rush to class as a result, it lets me have more relaxed mornings, shower and eat and stuff
3) Ok now you're probably getting enough sleep, and intercepting your depression. Now just pick up one hobby, like going to the gym, that you've been meaning to actually do. Set goals and track your progress, and every time you succeed be like "fuck yeah I'm awesome".

Overtime the little congratulations and nice things you say to yourself will start to feel true again instead of forced.

source: I overworked myself in college and now make bank. when I'm stressed I just remember to do these things again, and it works

Thanks man. I appreciate your advice. I will try that! :)