Tell me about the last time you questioned your sanity Cred Forums

Tell me about the last time you questioned your sanity Cred Forums.

I've been feeling mine slip so general going nuts thread I guess.

wooo
>paranormal activity
>government denies knowledge

Tell me about it
Ever since she left anxiety and depression set in
I have no close friends, no one to talk to
I get panic attacks frequently
Can't eat or sleep
Fucking losing it bro
Too pussy to kms
Its either twitching and spasming cos I can't sit still
Or staring blankly at a wall for half an hour

Everytime im trying to visualize the endlessness of space or anything that just is and doesnt have a start or end.

Like if you have a circle, it just is a circle. Trying to walk to its start, you wont find it. It has no start

Last time I'm been lurking for some gore thread.

Also, this one time i swear it wasnt a deja vu. It felt way more then that. And then i start thinking about how everything is just a endless loop. If i die i start again doing evrything the same as the time before and so does everyone else. And i think thats whete deja vus come from. This slip in time where you conciousness connects with the same paralell timeframe in which the same happens and here we go again

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Last month i went out on the weekend.
Im only 26 but anyway took lots of drugs coce pills .....took me days to recover. The fear was so bad. Must be the years of drug abuse catching up on me. I couldnt even go outside ny house in fear of meeting someone i knew and having a panic attack . Overdosing on 2cp one time dosent help either i suppose ?

what sanity

22nd of September when i saw this post (without the painting added).
It leaked everywhere on my bed that day.

I stopped question my sanity, when I realized other people's madness

I've been there man. All I can say is love heals like all other wounds.

I've found that at the face of great existential depression, sometimes the answer is to go all the way in, to the deepest darkest depths and you will emerge anew. Basically turn some sad music on, wallow in loathing a bit and eventually you'll probably get over it.

That comma is unnecessary. Insanity confirmed.

Two months ago, when I was in hospital coming out of a medically-induced coma and hallucinating to fuck.with a tracheostomy tube stuck in my neck

I've had some very convincing déjà vu myself. Sometimes explanations like that loop you're describing seem like the only possibility despite being ridiculous. Makes me hope we are in a simulation.

Elaborate

It's the dramatic pause to give emphasis in the second sentence

That sounds too shitty. Story?

after my first time taking LSD the voices in my head got louder each and every day

Well i was checking some rule 34 thread (i haven't checked one in ages) and i find this pic.
Most of the folder names, especially how much fucking Sonic porn was in there literally made my brain melt, for some reason, i'm very easily triggered by Sonic. At first i cringed hard... Then i laughed seeing bee porn (Charmy).
This is when i was thinking something is changing in my mind.

I had meningitis, I was fighting all the doctors and nurses, throwing punches and trying to pull tubes out of myself. They put me on a ventilator, gave me so much sedative it suppressed my cough reflex. Apparently that's really dangerous so they had to insert a tube in the front of my neck so I could breathe.

Tracheostomies are fucking awful, I couldn't drink, eat or speak for two weeks. And fuck knows what they put in me but I was hallucinating that the doctors were zombies driving hot nails into my hands. I realise now it was the cannula for a drip but at the time I just fought for my life.

Idk after years ofconstant pain in different parts i broke i guess

Sometimes I'm in half-awake state, questioning if everything is a dream. I found myself in a car once in front a shopping mall once, still in my pajamas.
I can't discern dreams from reality sometimes.
Especially when reality is really weird and dreams make sense.