Woke up

>woke up
>went to work
>came home
>watched a couple episodes of anime
>jack off to ginger banks
>finished thought how boring and mundane it is
>thinking
>thinking
>thinking
Anyone else having a day like this?

kind of, yeah

Spirited Away was awesome.

I only have one class I'm dicking around with, nothing else to do all week. Just have been floating on "looking" for a job I know I need to get already, but apparently am too fucking busy doing fuck all for some reason. I've only had a few gigs in fast food or retail, and I think I'd go nuts if I had to deal with these kinds of people again.

yep, pretty boring

think my friends bailed on me because one of them is probably fucking our other friend

i'm a bit jealous because i've wanted to fuck her for a while, he was just in the right place at the right time

but i'll jerk off soon and not care about it anymore

pretty boring day

kinda

>woke up
>went to work
>understaffed as fuck, a nightmare
>came home
>played some MGSV
>i'm never gonna unlock everything fuck this
>play smash bros
>get my falcon ass kicked
>fucking spammers and campers
>mfw i still get rekt after 15 years playing this effing game
>why am i even playing this ffs
>shit isn't fun anymore
>realizing i just need to win somewhere in life
>realizing games are a compensation for the failure that is my life

What kind of skills do you have? Want to team up?

>Just went through 3 straight weeks of very high anxiety.
>Got so intense that I really thought an heroing would be a better option.
>Meds finally started to kick in last night.
>Today my head finally cleared itself and it felt like I was awake for the first time in 3 weeks.
>Feels good man.

OP here.
I'm not one to talk but
keep the head up.
I work in customer service for the newspaper if that gives you any solace Aren't we all, hopefully love will come you way, me, I don't think I can anymore.
Thanks for pepe, finally think I understand the meme, me too bro, I've been playing Diablo 2 for the last 14 years, and still am nowhere just wondering an empty world.

what meds?

Clinically, I have no mental problems, so I don't nor doctor's think I need meds.

A bit of a medley of anti depressants and benzos. I'll come off the benzos in another week and just stay on the SSRI for quite a long time.

Not even love man, just lust. I haven't gotten laid in over a year

but yeah I hope something comes to us soon, there are some problems even jacking off won't fix

on a different note, why does a newspaper need customer service?

Sometimes people call up and complain that the paper isn't soft enough.

jesus

you trying to bait me dog

Doctors will hand out SSRI's like candy. Benzos on the other hand will need a consistent showing of anxiety and multiple visits.

You're all so fucking pathetic and you could turn it all around in a month without fapping but you're too addicted.

fapping is a symptom, not the cause

plus, not fapping just makes you even more depressed

I havent had sex since high school years 8-5 years ago and even then I could never get it hard. Undelivered papers, damages, billibg information anything the customer didn't find satisfactory. It's not blow my brain out terrible just not stimulating.
Not to me haha
If only, I don't even find porn stimulating.

>woke up
>shot some meth
>worked on programming my game engine
>watched a couple movies
>shot some more meth

And here I am.

Then find another doctor. SSRI's are not addictive and if you're feeling depressed, there is no reason they shouldn't let you try one.

You don't need to be suicidal to go on anti depressants.

That's it I'm not depressed, detached or even rage is what I feel on average, the latter to less degree. But still I know depression isn't what I feel.

*that's just it
Thought I'd fix it.

Hey at least you have drugs, I would suggest something a little more less toxic to yourself and environment. But you don't tell a man how to live his life.

>SSRI's are not addictive
Guess again lol

they're not addictive in the sense that they get you high and make you want more.

they're addictive in a way that long term use makes them extremely difficult to continue, and often involves protracted withdrawal that may never fully resolve.

>to continue
*discontinue

The meth replaced my previous heroin addiction, I essentially traded one poison for another.

Well, I implore you to swap just once more, don't be a bitch like me.

You could keep going down the line. Maybe swap meth for lsd next time.

LSD just isn't the same. Don't get me wrong I've done a /lot/ of hallucinogens in my lifetime, including dmt, but I do them for the experience more than for recreation

Ever try picking up a colouring book? Last time I went mute for days I did this helped center myself.