Why do you want to die Cred Forums? Talk about what's eating you

The self destruction of mankind. We just act like a bunch of greedy animals and do nothing but invent better ways to kill each other.

We should be at the very least be exploring our solar system by now.

But no, still obsessed with the God delusion, race, and again greed. Why the fuck wouldn't anyone want to check out of this shit pile and off to something else. Whatever that is.

because i literally have nothing better to do. and misery loves company.

Lonely, just want to talk and hug someone.

Hang in there Brad.

>we just act like a bunch of greedy animals
Obviously, that's exactly what we are.

>We should be at the very least be exploring our solar system by now.

why? don't you realise that what we call "exploration" is just the primate instinct to shit up a place, move on and shit up the next place?

we've got fuckwits in africa killing each other with machetes, and you think we should export this to the rest of the galaxy?

humankind is a disease, and needs to be quarantined.

I just don't see things getting better, and things just gradually fall apart. It's not unbearable like it used to be, but it's kind of like me having no real hope for the future, and just kind of done with everything. I'm not necessarily sad, even though my ex comes to me for advice about a girl she ended up dumping me for, but I just don't see myself moving ahead.

I think I've always kept the mentality of "Life's a journey, and not a race." to use as an excuse, which never really bothered me because I think sometime long ago I already determined that when I die, it would be from suicide and not natural causes.

I do take anti-depressants for major depression and bi-polar, but sometimes I've wondered about whether or not I'm a bad person naturally, and my medication just kind of makes me somebody that I'm not really.

Here's something that I've thought of a lot about, too. It'll sound weird at first, but bear with me.

I believe in 'fate' in a sense. Well, 'fate' in a logical sense.

Here's what I mean by that:
Some people are born, or raised to have the mentality of being able to change, whereas people like me, no matter what I hear, I'll just naturally disregard it. I'm fated to have the mentality of not being able to change because I have the mentality of not being able to believe it.

I guess my idea of 'fate' is kind of better described as a locked personality, I guess? Something you can't change because you were born in a way to interpret it, or be influenced in a different way than others.

i dont... if i were dead then i couldnt fap to hot furry traps

What's eating me? Aggressive rectal cancer.

I'm saying we should have evolved past our basic ape behavior buy now. We still chimpin out Jesus and how gays are bad.

And have space stations, been to the moon, put robots on Mars. How much sense does that make.

they don't have to be furry though.

Subgeniuses

I cannot find a faithful man op

The fact that after being alone for so many years i've been making friends breaking out of my shell going out make social life and shit but i have to let everything go 'cause i'm moving to another city

fuck off gay

Evolution acts in response to environmental changes, and monkey idiocy is doing pretty well, so there is no pressure to evolve away from it.

if there was some kind of first-order predator that only attacked stupid people, we might have seen some change by now, but the stupid people are protected by the technology devised by the smart people.

we don't have "space stations", we have some orbiting cans that rarely have more than six people in them and which cannot survive without regular resupply from the ground (go read Neal Stephenson's "Seveneves").

we've been to the moon.. as part of a primate dick-size war with the soviet union. isn't it odd how the space program deflated as soon as the soviet union collapsed? it wasn't needed any more.

robots on mars. that's almost as stupid as sending robots to Nevada. now, sending robots to TITAN, on the other hand..

Even though my life is FINALLY looking up(Admitted into university, moved out of the cesspool of my hometown,...), I still feel that i might not change anything and repeat the story that i've been running away from for the last 10 years.
If i still remain an autismo, i might as well just end it. If not, hooray.

fucking brilliantly spotted there, asshole. what was it gave it away, all the fucking DOBBSHEADS?

The fact that I'm lonely, I've always been and will always be lonely.
The reason for this is a shit childhood with bullies, deceit and whatever else. All this has resulted in enormous trust issues to the point where I have never actually shared my emotions with anyone and I don't know if I can tell the difference between feeling bad or just slightly inconvenienced.
I've been on four different anti-depressants over the last five years. My eye-sight is going to shit, I see dots and lines and distortions that are not there, I honestly hope its cancer. I've got hemorrhoids, acne at 25, asthma, allergies, eczema, my skin irritates very easily, flat feet, greasy hair and skin, phimosis and bad fordyce spots.
I will be graduating next year with a masters in engineering though which, apart from shitposting thoroughly, is the only thing I've got going for me.

Life has constantly been shitty.
Most people describe life as good times, with shitty breaks and mine has been the opposite.
In the last two years, my best friend killed himself. My friend went missing (3 weeks still no word.) I lost my scholarship for college and will never be able to play sports again. I had to move back home to recovery from surgery and go to the shitty university everyone from highschool goes to in my home town. Still haven't talked to my dad in about 2 years. The only girl I ever felt any sort of real emotional connect (not just trying to fuck) moved to Colorado. A couple close family members I love passed away. School is expensive and my job that pays well I hate with a burning passion but it's good money so I don't want to quit. I had to kick out my mom's abusive boyfriend and help her get a restraining order and now I have a fear every night that the ex-army faggot is gonna break into my house and try to kill my mom and I. And probably some other shit I'm forgetting.

I just want a break. I can't kill myself because I saw what it did to my best friend's mother and her family and I can't put my family through all that.
I just want a break, that's all. If I could have not bad shit happen to me for a month I would be the world's happiest dude.

Nothing like watching a fire slowly fade away and accepting the fact that you may never want to rekindle it again.

isn't she cute?

>I can't kill myself because I saw what it did to my best friend's mother and her family and I can't put my family through all that.

which is why i am waiting for my mom to die, so i can kill myself without hurting her.

Why would I want to die? I got a 4.0 in undergrad, worked for 2 years in the profession I'd ultimately like to be in, currently in graduate school, making A;s even though I've heard stories about hard the professors are. Have a boyfriend currently abroad in Japan that I am totally in love with and have never felt more like I've wanted to of with someone for the rest of my life ever. Obvs have a good future ahead of me. Still want to die, why?

Bro, there is still literally a big need for engineers. Are you EE or mechanical? Doesn't matter, both are still needed. How do I know?
I'm an engineer. I see many positions everywhere from entry level to advanced. It's not as competitive as you might think and we're not in danger of losing the need for engineers any time in the near future.
It doesn't matter your age, you're educated thus needed.

Europa Would be better, Titan just as good I suppose.

$uicide

My life is unstable, I'm addicted to heroin, in general I've always been miserable. I have legal issues. I'm 25 at my parents house. Fuck man I'm broke. I get girls that I don't even like and use them. I suck and deserve to die. $uicide for life

The sweet is never as sweet without the sour.

your gonna die of hiv before you even get the chance to poz me

Ugh, this. Realizing killing myself would kill my mom too...

moar

Keep telling yourself things won't change and they won't. You have to make change. It doesn't simply come to you. YOU make your fate, friend.

True, I'm just sick of having a constantly sour taste in my mouth. The sweet moments are very sweet tho

Exactly. She's gone through too much shit for me to do that to her. As long as she's alive, I ain't doing shit.

Guys I don't condone suicide, but live your life letting the world know how much you hate living. Don't use words like I'm going to kill myself, etc, because someone can have you picked up by police. Anyway, be suicidal without doing it. We might see change, we might not. I've been ready to die for a while, I don't care. I can't do it to my mom and id rather be killed instead.

because everything but existing seems to be a choice.
because I can't relationship.
because the few times I had good things going for me I always self sabotaged it.
because after two years of going ghost, I realized life goes on and shit happens whether I am around or not.
because sleep has stopped becoming a reprieve for me lately so I am constantly exhausted.

Regarding writing, editing, and publishing....you bet your ass people care about grammar. This is especially true in the professional world. No matter where you are, if one makes gross mistakes, they look like an idiot. No one wants an idiot thus your skills are valuable there too. There is a plethora of opportunities that you just need to look for with that. In fact, consider technical writing for a company or engineering firm. Geez! That is so very.important and useful.

so what your suggesting is to live the life of a whiny emo bitch

Reality, it's all a lie. It's meant to change you from who you once were, and it was successful.

Are you a femanon?

RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT THE ANSWER. LOVE RUNS WITH BLOOD NOT EMOTION. FOCUS ON THE ONE FUCMKNG THING THAT MATTERS, MONEY. WE'RE WERE SUBJECTED TO THIS EVIL AND HAVE TO JUST SURVIVE BY HOARDING MONEY. MONEY IS HAPPYNESS. YOU'RE ALL PROBABLY BROKE

what the fucking fuck

Two of my closest friends slept with the girl I've had a thing for for 2 years within 12 hours of me losing my virginity to her. I can't find it in me to be mad at her for it. She didn't know how i felt about her and i didnt talk to her about it at all. just feel betrayed by my best friends, Its something that id never do to them

because i'm sick of having to wait 10 years for a few good hours

Yes and no. I act completely normal, even smile. I laugh, make friends, whatever. But I'm dead inside. And I literally tell people I hate life because...

>Been dying inside recently
>Recently taken up fapping to cuck porn
>Have gf
>Keep secret
>Get high one night and tell I fap to cuck porn

>Suddenly feel like not dying because she knows my entire and other secrets

>Feel great

>Hours later realize I told my gf I fap to cuck porn and she will probably cheat on me because im a useless sack of shit

Fuck

Nah, reality is just based on statistical norms

So sad. So true.

eating is a good word. the weight of time and routines eats away at me

i'm directionless like many people i know. it would be better to die than to walk in darkness

I can never let myself be happy. Now unemployed, have a girlfriend of 6 years. Relationship is solid, tho we are an unconventional couple. I'm probably about 67% homosexual. The straight guy I've had my eyes on will never happen.
Useless skills, pretty excellent at vidya and music stuff. Love them, probably too much. Wanna have a band and be a musician, can't sell out on the internet enough to do it.
Artistic integrity is literally what's stopping me from pursuing music.
i can't even pick it up now because I know it's pointless

Family hates me. Bipolar is constantly ruining my relationships. Life is meaningless anyways because we just die and all that happens is the energy from our bodies splashes back into the universe.

guapa?

Brought that shit entirely on yourself.

I'd say that I want do die because I understand the meaninglessness of anything I could ever do.

Except having having babies, since reproduction is the point of life, right> \\?

Why would anyone want to die?! once you're dead you are dead nothing after, gone for eternity there is no coming back. To be completly honest im scared as fuck to die, i would literaly give everything to be immortal just the thought of dying and be gone forever gives me hard feels man. Im i the only one?

i don't agree, the idea of dying is a soothing thought, many of us here have nothing right now and some have even less.
suicide should not be considered a bad choice for those of us that will never have what others say they can't live without, e.g. friends, loving family, and relationships

>become a trucker
>get replaced by autonomous trucks within the next 5-7 years
>?profit
>:D

Currently living in a paradox. I hate my life and know i'm worthless in every aspect, but i'm terrified of death. I would rather live here knowing i'm worthless than to be dead and never live again. I just can't imagine never having another thought again. Being dead sounds scary as fuck.

death being scary is just your subconscious speaking

Pretty sure i just don't want to die.

kinda sad to hear that bro, I've been having theses thoughts about death these past couple days and its terrifiying me, everytime i go to bed i feel like i'll never wake up even if life can be shitty sometime theres always something to live for man

better accept it quick user. its gonna come no matter what lol.

might as well try to enjoy life while u have it rather than worrying about it in the corner

dude are you me? every night im scared to not wake up this thought is haunting me

Dropped out of school early, have no job or friends. Idk what to live for, but i know i don't want to die. Pretty sure i'm just going to live a shitty life full of self pity and self hatred.

Am i sick or something? me and this user cant be the only one

this. I have no friends and nobody I can relate with. I only feel like I can relate to people on Cred Forums. I've been made fun of a lot at work for things I can't really control, and feel as if I can't control the fact that no one likes me. Being made fun of at work really jaded me to people. Nothing is worse then watching other people gleefully laugh at you without caring at all. It made me angrier then anything else has in my life, except for when I was made fun of in school. When I got my first job at 18, it made me remember how I was bullied for the same reasons when I was little. I've rung up some previous work places when I was drunk and asked to speak to some of the people I worked with, and the manager when I was there, they weren't working there anymore but I spoke abusively about them to the people who answered the phone, who knew the people I was talking about.

26, live at home, never had a girlfriend, cannot even get women interested in talking to me even though I'm not ugly or fat and everyone keeps telling me I'm good looking. Consider yourself lucky you can actually get women to sleep with you without paying for it. Probably only one or two women have ever been legitimately interested in me.

because some people are so miserable, nothing ever improving, the same shit happening over and over again, things getting worse as time goes on, that the only relief/solution they see is to switch it all off.

The only advice i ever get about this is "No point worrying about something you can't control" But it never helps. I really don't know how to get rid of the thoughts. I've thought about seeing a therapist but they'll probably just prescribe some medication i wouldn't take.

not sure which is being more bitchy. being so afraid of death you shit your pants when going to sleep or killing yourself

Fuck all you pussie. If you really wanted to die you would do it. Coming on here talking about it, proves that you don't want to die. So man the fuck up and unplug, get out and fucking do something.
#whineylittlebitches

>this

For me to care about existing I would have to understand why anything exists at all. Why not nothing? I'm tired of the way the world treats eachother. I can't stand the feeling of my own depression and I just want it to leave me alone but it won't. I try as hard as I can at everything I do and am very self aware. I just want everything to get better and I would do anything but ultimately my efforts don't mean shit. Like I could do my best to look good and stay healthy and take care of myself and hygiene and develope great social skills, funny, smart, caring, etc. But at the end of the day making friends or meeting a girl has a lot to do with luck. It's like even if you are purposely going the speed limit and monitor your speed and are completely in the right, you can still get pulled over and given a speeding ticket because it's their word over yours. Our efforts don't matter and there truly is no formula for happiness our success and there's no purpose for existing anyway. I'm not even being cynical. These are just my observations so far and have no reason to believe otherwise.

You're fucking stupid

40, no ambition, anxiety, all that fun stuff. Person I am closest to is 14 years younger and a guy - we share feels for each other but that age gap is huge and we live stupid far apart. Feelsbadman.

40 years old and saying "feelsbadman". There's your problem.

May this bring a smile to all you lonely fucks

it
is
never
ending

Talk to me like I'm a girl and you're a guy and I'll tell you what you're doing wrong and why you haven't been with a girl.

why

I've had everything. It's not enough.
I have more than I ever need, but all I want is to be a kid again.

I don't hate myself though. I'm choosing to die purely for ethical reasons. I think you're a pussy and scared of death. I've accepted it and feel no rush to do so. I made a thread to simply discuss reasons for choosing the option.

GOTEM

You - 1
That user - 0

same friends been telling me that shit the thoughts of dying and not waking up when i go to bed is so strong that i doubt a therapist would help me. the only way for me to not think about it is video games that shit been my cure when my father passed away 5years ago

life is great. i want to live forever bitch. go kill yourself its your problem.

It's not that easy though,,,what about the possibility of fucking up and not succeeding in killing yourself but succeeding well enough that you are no longer physically able to try again? Plz try and report back to me on your successes.

you don't want to live forever

Unfortunately, user.

why the fuck not? i would fucking give everything i own and beyond to live forever

i would literaly give up humanity to live forever

But everyone around you that you love will die.

I do the same thing, i play video games all day then lay down at night and my mind just shits itself. Lately though it seems pretty much everyone i know stopped talking to me so i don't even play games as much anymore. Been feeling like real shit, and now i'm in a depression thread on Cred Forums at 4AM.

That's because you're a pussy and scared to die. Lmao your faggot ass is gonna die anyway.

The sooner its over the better

giving up humanity and living forever is better than living forever and being a weak human shit

my father died 5 years ago i know the feels i lived with him all my life i fucking loved that man for sure its sad like you cannot imagine but you get use to it and eventually move on

I watch this video at least once a week. May it help someone here.
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I want justice

there really isnt though.
once youve lived a shit life of paranoia, depression, and trust issues for as long as you can remember there really isnt anything else for you.
how can you hope for change when change has been non-existent thus far?

ahahahaha tell me about it brother for some reason talking about it to someone who feels exactly the same way feels good

glad someone feels the same way

Yeah,that a good way to check

still trying to find even the slightest glimps of hope

youtube.com/shared?ci=loSicXE1-Uc

wonder who's the biggest pussy the one who's always telling everybody around him he wants to kill himself and make them worry and doesnt actually have the balls to do it or the one who wants to hold on to life

holding on to life isn't exactly the same as wanting to live literally forever

So, does this mean we should fuck?

I bring happiness

well kinda is in a way

it is definitely a sign that we should

I generally think life has no meaning
I'm not happy with anything more than 15 minutes
Don't want to have kids
Don't want to be rich
It all seems the same to me.. you die in the end and I'm just waiting for my parents to die so they don't feel sad
As soon they're both dead imma kill myself
Not even sad about it
Everything is boring as fuck
You get fed up by all the people, get fed up by the drugs, get fed up by drinking, get fed up of fucking, get fed up by achievements, get fed up of failing
I really can't tell if I'm a nihilist or just depressed or am I just being rational about who I am as a person

I'm convinced my wife and kids would be better off without me.

same. there's just the burden of existing and the continuous cycle of being hungry and fed, horny and satisfied, sleepy and energetic

it never fucking stops and just because one part of this cycle feels good it doesn't make the bad part go away

Well guess its time to give in i wish you all luck mofokas you guys are Cred Forumseautiful!!

technical writing is in demand and seems to be aligned with your work history

apathy is often a major part of what non-normie depression is
you could try anti-depressants but all they did was make me accept that life is a endless circle of whats best described as disappointment.
im ok with it now but will also off mine self in a couple of years, got the date currently set at 2020-01-18

i keep telling myself that if i had access to guns i would shoot myself soon after buying one

but i'm not sure if it would go that way

Not always.
Children have done nothing to me except pain.
When I was a child and onwards.

Everything is a bad part it's just exhausting I find it difficult to understand how some people have the will to procreate and are so afraid to die when you're already kinda dying slowly

I was on antidepressants they just made me so hungry and sleepy the feeling of apathy never went away
I was happy for a month when I did coke but that wore off too and it was just horrible after

Maybe some people just don't want to live
I have a friend who also thinks similarly but his only problem is he's afraid he's going to suffer when killing himself

I'm going to off myself with carbon monoxide, seems the easiest

How about you guys?

Thats nice and deep

yeah im with you on not everyone wanting to live, ive yet to decide my method but cutting wrists or jumping probably

suffering through college i can't understand one lecture i can't remember things well (in my college you need memory) and i can't get a peaceful night of sleep and i can only sleep after i fap i want to cry and let it all out but can't when i was a kid i was 152 and everyone made fun of me including my family and my teachers abused me hiting me calling fat every day............but hey it could be worse

Oven bag helium method. It's extremely easy and painless. Just go to sleep and not wake up. Maybe listen to some nice music as you drift off to sleep.

Never think that. I'm not saying you shouldn't do it but you should probably know you're gonna ruin their lives.