I really need some motivation please

i really need some motivation please
i study
i work
but my anxiety just throws my timing under the bus
i just bought 20$ worth of fish and chips and threw half of it up
i am addicted to the politics, youtube, reddit and Cred Forums
it takes me 3 hours to wank and sometimes i wont cum (thanks ssri)
i'm 22, had sex with a girl for the first time a few weeks ago, and am currently dating a guy that i like to touch but don't really want to fuck, i just want to touch and fuck women but of course i don't know how to make the first move

this looks horrific but it's what came out of my head edit-free
i'm not suicidal, but i need your help Cred Forums
thankyou.
videos, authors, strategies - anything
i am your creation internet, now fix me

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youtu.be/TrxRgpsrpGg
twitter.com/AnonBabble

I think its fair to say we have done this "your way" enough.

bumping 4 Op.

thanks

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bumping bread

twisting thread

Dude I'm in a similar situation as you are.
I have 2 girls one admitted she likes me the second asked for my number and flirts with me.

I legit can't start a relationship, I feel like I'm missing out on life.
I fucked a guy in the ass while high, then felt like shit, I can't love with out pain. I just want a girl that will be loyal to me with out all the need to invest time and emotion in her. I know that is unrealistic.

I'm not some degenerate I'm working as an electrition in a factory for drones and studying CS.

Im constantly in depression. And want to just kill and hurt someone. But in reality I'm a nice person and don't think I can do that.

My advise, see a therapist. I never will because I don't want to be diagnosed as a psycho. I will just suffer silently.

Two recommendations for you OP. Watch in order please. Take some time with them.

1. youtu.be/TrxRgpsrpGg
2. Revolver (2005)

This set of ideas has helped me learn so much about myself and how I interact with people.

I'm very similar to you and I like what you said about being a creation of the internet. Best of luck to you brother.

thankyou for your story.
please make sure you see someone, talking and medication are available and we are a very lucky generation to have access to it.

Can we share our stories here too?

thankyou, i am watching this now

it's shocking, i am an ADHD child of the internet, born in 1993.
i'm addicted to music, breaking news, the now and anything that is the antithesis of patience.

no-one thought putting me in front of the monochrome monitor when i was four would be damaging, but it was.

of course, friend

telling fred

trump is just gingerbread

your own farmstead

building a twin bed

buying more pencil lead

> be me
> is black, constantly tries to avoid stereotypes
> currently in small high school
> insecure and has a deep inner hatred for the idea of mating and reproduction
> studies biology, insecurity only continues to grows
> enjoys shitting on others and their autism beliefs
> only believes girls have interest in me because A. Media influences B. genetic searching. I am the thing I hate so fucking much? alpha? fuckthat.jpg
> drinks cheap wine mix with green tea every night.

how fuck i am?

do you enjoy the company of others if they're quiet, reserved and humble?

the trouble i have with people is if i'm too humble they think i'm not interested or see me as a betafag - and if i exaggerate it comes across that i'm 15 years older than i am

designing another letter head

this video is very relaxing

choosing further bed spreads

laying by the riverbed

admiring a thoroughbred

send it through the infrared

don't be a figurehead

you'll never drop dead

there's no need for bloodshed

sift it for the brown bread

never been a bobsled

put it on the sea bed

she just caught a flathead

I admire those who are humble and reserved. But I don't enjoy their company as I start to get nervous and tense.

It's been awhile since I actually enjoy anyone's company, but the last time I could remeber was a boy who was anti social and constantly made jokes with me.

we're gonna have to retread

at least you polished the masthead

now we need more rye bread

i don't have a swelled head

let us find a featherbed

quick before it's widespread

i am such a blockhead

he's such a hardhead

watch out a triple threat

station here, go ahead

take it off the test bed

how about venetian red?

go ask the department head

about the electrified magnetic head

you are in great stead

for the coming

of the maidenhead

enough cheese on your bread?

i'm going to have to go kanye

10/10

> i need your help Cred Forums
that is your first mistake OP
>my anxiety just throws my timing under the bus
Seems normal. don't believe all those " ï'm so alpha" posts here, they are lies. the majority of people are anxious and insecure
>it takes me 3 hours to wank and sometimes i wont cum (thanks ssri)
shit man. stop wanking so often. seriously
>touch and fuck women but of course i don't know how to make the first move
that's a big one. try using some of those PUA stuff. don't become a douche like most of that scum but their "break the ice" techniques can help you build up confidence.

i've been talking with this girl on tinder for like four days, i think we click
how do i ask her to come out for a drink?

too late already asked her, let's see what happens

now i'm watching this wikileaks conference to kill time but i'd love more responses please

and killing time is exactly what it is doing