I want to die but can't kill myself

how fucking young are you if you were happy in 2004? what are you like 16?

Me too

Its 1am here, I'm in bed

Hopefully il go in my sleep

Farewell friends

>tfw still haven't fulfilled my dubs quota
>will probably lose my Cred Forums license

22

aaaaaahhaaha kid you don't know. you just don't know yet. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha

Take these, broski

I was 19 in 2004 (I know I'm too old to be on Cred Forums) and was pretty happy back then at certain times. I was still clinically depressed but was upset about dumb stuff like girls and parties and not being a professional and financial failure like I am now.

>he doesnt have any lifetime goals
>he has no inspiration
>he has no friends/gf
>he has no job
>he thinks shitposting is fun
lmao @ all of u pathetic losers

thats the thing
I know in 5 years life will be much worse

I just want to die now so I don't get there

>failed to meet my monthly 1200 (YOU) quota
>tfw demoted to reddit.com/sports

Looks like I'm fresh out of dubs

you should read Pessoa's Book of Disquiet
it's literally 500 pages of him talking about how real life sucks and much of a pathetic fag he is and how he spends his days daydreaming and wishing he wasn't alive.

I want Chad to leave NOW

>tfw kettle licence runs out tommorow

don't get paid till next Friday either

no i'm just saying you're really dumb.

man up, weenie!

im not even a chad
i was a pathetic neet like you a year ago
now i actually have goals and found a will to live

find some inspiration itll go a long way

Well stockpile tea then!

>jannies ban the last of my russian proxies affecting my livelihood as a kremlinbot
>just before dropping into despair I remember my services are actually compensated and I can just buy another socks5 pack

Feels ok

then why are you on Cred Forums?

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I heard Antonio Lobo Antunes is a pretty good depressed Portuguese writer too.

I haven't enjoyed myself in nearly 10 years and I do absolutely nothing about it.
I've just been coasting by and I can't get any further like this anymore

Toronto?

No this is, Patrick

I have a job, some friends and think shitposting is fun but I'd rather have the top 2

yeah

YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO HIT BACK. I SUE YOU

Dubs and the girl I ask out tomorrow says yes and we have sex within a month and I don't kill myself

>tfw waiting for my dad to die so I can finally kill myself

here have mine

>in a month
nigga
Chad will talke of her everynight by then

but i like your lyl threads

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i can tell you faggots are all really young. when you hit your late 20's you just stop giving a shit.

>want to kill myself but don't want to see my mom go through the aftermath

Literally the only thing holding me back

what if I take ice cold showers

Weak fucking faggot. You really are a waste of space.

>tfw take 15 minute showers

JUST

for me it gets worse as I get older. I really don't want to make 40. I have a job that pays little and where I'm always on the verge of getting fired, I'm ugly as sin, terrible at everything, completely lacking in any redeemable qualities, and yet I have to keep going? why? fuck this. Being a loser at 18 is different because no matter how bad most of us had at least some hope. When you're fucking 30 that hope is dead and you genuinely have nothing to live for without it.

Same, my family is what's stopping me.

This tbqhwyf

Go make a Tinder and meet people or pick up a hobby and find groups in your city of people who like that thing too.

If you want to get better you know what to do, but you clearly enjoy feeling sorry for yourself more than you desire to change your situation.

>canadian
yeah, I'd want to off myself too

How do you find your passion lads

Same here. Think about offing myself every single day but I can't do that to her.

Whatever you take enjoyment in doing in your free time

Watching tv/movies, playing vidya, getting drunk, jerking off and gambling?

>he thought Cred Forums stood for suicide prevention

it's probably stupid but i finally realised i want to settle down and have a family in 5-6 years time and i need a good education or job to sustain my family as i don't want my future kids to be depressed shitters like me.

for the record, i was never a NEET. just wasn't enjoying my working life which made me depressed but i'm now back in education as a 20 year old. only 3 years late.

>playing vidya
>smoking weed
>jacking off
>watching youtube/movies/shows

I'm a degenerate.

>watching tv/movies
Get into audio/video production, screenwriting, or acting
>vidya
Get into competitive gaming
>getting drunk
Learn to brew your own beer or distill spirits
>jerking off
Get into porn
>gambling
Get really good and win loads of money

I just gave you 5 ways to pick up a hobby and improve your life.you have no excuse now but your own laziness.

I failed two separate years of college due to fucking around, but I'm going to get my degree soon. Two years late, but who cares. I'll pay my parents back the extra tuition fees.

Add growing cannabis to this list then. It's very rewarding process and very profitable.

Just fucking do something useful to keep your brain busy its not hard

Don't just dismiss this but have you considered religion?

That's what has helped people for centuries who were struggling through the worst times.

I shower twice a day lol

I feel like not having any long term goals fucks with your head and you start losing track of large portions of time so a year can feel like a month a week like a day and so on and you feel like nothing is getting done in your life.

Or you fill your voids in your life with unhealthy habits like playing video games, smokin weed, hanging with bad people all day but if u had a normal mindset you would leave that shit behind. My past 5 years has amounted to nothing

Im in my 7th year of undergrad and finally gonna be done in December if I pass my classes. It's embarrassing but fuck it at least I'm almost done

Try cutting weed out of your life first. Make a rule like only on weekends or only with company.

Then try to cut the wanking down. Bad for testosterone. Not wanking for one whole week can increase testosterone by as much as 27%. The increases aren't that good after that point though, so you might as well wank every now and then. Just keep track of the last time you did it. If it was less than two and a half days ago, it's too soon.

Playing vidya and watching movies isn't that degenerate really.

The immersion must be on round the clock

There is nothing wrong with weed or video games unless you're doing it while blowing off important shit. Just like anything else.

>Playing vidya and watching movies isn't that degenerate really.
>tfw used to play video games/watch movies for 15 hours a day and now I just browse Cred Forums for 15 hours a day

can't even tell which is worse

gtfo self righteous normie piece of REEEEEEEEEEEE

Comes on automatically in the morning and at night ;)

iktf

How do you deal with the feeling of not being good enough?

By hating myself everyday and living vicariously through my favourite athletes

Can "dealing with" involve feeling sorry for myself, being generally depressed and drink/drugs? If so it's that

I occupy my mind with stupid bullshit like video games and browsing Cred Forums for 12 hours a day so I don't have to think about it

painkillers kill the pain for a few hours

Do you guys ever just wish that someone else had been born into your body/life instead? Someone that could've just been happy and appreciative of their life.. A person your parents could be proud of.

By getting better because I'm not a defeatist

Not until this very moment no

Check these fag

yes

I'm on Xanax right now, which helps

T-thats just a meme right?

>Go make a Tinder and meet people
Holy shit get a load of this chad

Get good.

No honestly, I've decided that i want to get really good at one thing and so have been practicing it endlessly for months. If im good at just one thing i won't feel useless anymore. I don't even need acclaim for it, just the personal feeling of knowing I'm talented at one thing

i wish i had a soul, i'm not even that bad looking, assburgers rendered me to a life of mediocrity

Not a Chad, just not willing to accept defeat and wallow around feeling sorry for myself.

You can't spill spaghetti talking over the internet

>You can't spill spaghetti talking over the internet
You underestimate how socially autistic I am

You can always have a bitch take a screenshot of you being cringey and post it online making you a laughing stock

embrace ledeckyposting, it will cure everything

Old meme is old

?
its not a meme

Hello based Ledecky poster

Can you or someone else post that webm where she's sitting down and dabs or dances or whatever. Haven't seen it in a good while.

this?

Thanks famm

Reminds me of my chinese cartoons

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Yeah, if you start off saying shit like "ayy bb want some fuk"? Just have a normal fucking conversation and see where it goes.

There's also the old connect 4 emoji trick. 60% of girls i send that to eventually respond.

FUCK OFF

Become a race car driver