The feels bar is open, anons. Sit down, have a drink. What's on your mind?

My expectations are only low now because these are the three highest ranked programs, and I was rejected from all of my safeties. We’ll see soon enough.

Neuroscience. The competition is ridiculous.

i hate girl i'm still in love with (8/9months?). If I get any chance to see her I would spit at her face, then miss again...
i'm fed up with this feeling, also two friends succesfully commited suic not that far ago.
pass me vodka with glass, my fav one

I’m sorry for your loss, user. You can keep him in your heart as you continue to improve. It may not be the same, but he’ll be damn proud.

I’m sorry about your cat dude. My cat died last year, so I know your pain. Can you step away from the relationship?

I’m sorry for the loss of your friends, user, it’s hard to lose close people. Maybe you should keep your distance with that girl? Find someone who helps bring out more positive emotions?

i finally bit the bullet and had a chubby slampig over from tinder. it was, eh, rough but i've had worse sex with much more attractive women. all the threads on b and fit got to me.

i'm sorry user we are here for you

My life is turning to utter shit

1. GF of 3 yrs broke up with me 2 months ago because of financial reasoning aka im not rich enough for her. I'm not broke but yeah im not rich. I'm fairly smart and I think if she gave me more time to prove my worth it would have worked out. I realize now she was a train wreck but I loved her a lot and still miss her so much.

2. 2 weeks after she broke up with me my dog died... well we had to put her down. She has seizures occasionally and this time she wouldnt come out. 48 hours straight and we decided to put her down so she wouldn't be in pain anymore. She was the best dog I've ever had and the sweetest thing. I'm happy she isn't suffering anymore but I miss her a lot as well.

3. After all this and recovering I tried to get a good job. I started working full time and hustling hard to prove to my ex she was wrong and hoping I could win her back a bit. I've almost doubled my bank account in the span of 2 months. During this time I had an interview in my industry I went to school for. It dragged on for a month and I made it through each interview phase. The interview went well I thought but they changed the job description and came to the conclusion that they didn't want me.

I know I can change my future and work on myself for the better. But my whole life has been trying to make the best out of a bad situation. And all of them pretty serious shit. I'm just getting tired of all the bullshit. I literally just want to kill myself sometimes but realize that the pain and misery it would cause on other people on my life is larger than me dealing with everything. I'm basically living at this point to not cause harm to other people. I'm trying to be optimistic but it all feels kinda pointless. I feel like nothing is going to get better and I feel like I wasted so much time invested in others that don't give me the same effort.

I hope for you user

I'm furious and don't want to be. My fiancé's boss is a bitch, my customers are retarded, and I don't want to go to a friend's birthday party this pissed.

How’s it going old fella? Serve a glass of your best pisscunt on the rocks and make it double
I had a terrible week and i need to get my anus drunk as fuck i can’t take this life anymore

I think I’m in love. Or probably in “like”.

That awesome!
I hope you die

>I've almost doubled my bank account in the span of 2 months
Fucking doing what?

>I know I can change my future and work on myself for the better. But my whole life has been trying to make the best out of a bad situation. And all of them pretty serious shit. I'm just getting tired of all the bullshit. I literally just want to kill myself sometimes but realize that the pain and misery it would cause on other people on my life is larger than me dealing with everything. I'm basically living at this point to not cause harm to other people. I'm trying to be optimistic but it all feels kinda pointless. I feel like nothing is going to get better and I feel like I wasted so much time invested in others that don't give me the same effort.

I think most people feel like this

Don't take this the wrong way, user, but I almost hope you don't get in. 7 years of brutal long hours for below poverty wages, followed by at least 2-3 years of postdoc, only to most likely still not get a job in academia.

S.: Ex gf is a neuroscience PhD who got passed over after postdoc. Most miserable person ever.

IG/ @drpatrickflynn is a fucking quack who believes that vaccines cause cancer. I asked him for proof and he blocked me. He has like 3 young daughters and I think one got fucking chicken pox for like a month.

Took 10 loads at the glory hole this month instead of last month's 5.

Was trying to get with a girl. Sweet girl, but one of the worst reputations. Everything was going fine until her good friend gave misinformation. Have trust issues myself, know about her past (and the supposed past), so tried to ghost her... Next day friend clarified and tried to patch it up. However, think the damage is done because of course this would be the one time I was wrong in such a situation. See and know a woman who is a thot that actually didn't turn out to be one towards me... I simply can't catch a break.

And I know it's my fucking fault. I should have gone to her, but if she had lied, if that was the working, plausible assumption, what would have stopped her from lying about lying, as many do?

I've been on a booze/coke binge. Although really not doing much coke, just decent stuff. I'm really enjoying how intense everything is, but something's gotta break eventually. I just hope it's not my relationship with my lady. I wish all the best to all you anons struggling with terrible shit, I've been there, it will get better but maybe not before it gets a bit worse.

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I'm just worn the fuck out bartender senpai. I've got nothing left to give it feels like. I'm enlisting in the army soon. Hopefully I'll do well in it. Hopefully I'll get selected for officer school. 20 some years and I can fuck off and go be a hermit for the rest of my life. I've given up on finding a woman and having a family of my own. Cant trust women. Who knows maybe I'll adopt some kids and fix their fucked up futures. I'm just so fucking tired and empty.

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I start school again in two days and I'm going to suck shit and fail because I'm terrible at math.

Army might straighten out your attitude.

I felt this way about women all through my 20s, but wound up being a late bloomer. Had a lot of fun in my 30s, got married at 38, have 3 daughters.

It gets better, but only if *you* get better. Good luck, user.

I bet that cunt still made good money

Who gives a fuck? She isn't special. None of them are. Move on to the next.

Thanks fam. Best wishes to you and yours.

You don’t ghost women unless it’s life-threatening, cry-baby

Depends on your definition of "good," I suppose. She's not starving, but I make literally 10x more than she does.

>I'm really enjoying how intense everything is
Shit’s about to go downhill soon

Man I've been fighting waves of depression and anger at who I used to be and how I've treated others. I was always a fucking social retard who took out his anger on the wrong people. Lost what little friends I had because of my issues. But more importantly I pushed away the only person that stood by my side. That was my first and only real gf of 7 years. I thought she would be the one, but how could I possibly imagine her staying after all the shit I put her through. I couldn't even look her in the eye and say I love you back. She would try to cook for me or sneak something from her hob to cheer me up or after a long day at work. She would send a text or a picture of something she'd know I enjoyed out of the blue, just for the sake of seeing me smile. And when I was mad, even if it wasnt her fault or at her, she'd do everything in her will to make me feel better. But after 7 years of the shit I out her through she left. Now here I am 4 years later alone and angry still. Shes long moved on, but even after she did she tried reaching out to me. Shame i was too fucking hopped up on coke and booze to talk to her coherently. Ended up threatening her and her family and that was the last straw. Ever since then I've been plagued with the occasional dreams of "what ifs" what if i pulled my head out of my ass when i was younger. What if i apologized to her how, would it mean anything? What would life be if she'd only stuck around another year. Unfortunately I know any contact with her now after so long is just pathetic, and sad, but I cant help but apologize to her over and over in my mind, now that I'm clean. Now that i see what I lost. But I guess there is no turning back time is there. Now im just alone. Wondering if this is all life has in store for me, and if do if facing it another day is worth it.

I hope you die too

“Good” is being able to buy shit ~$100 without checking your bank account first

what if our perception of reality was just a construct of other realities and when we cease existence we are merely watchers.

Thank you!
I pray for it every day

These last few months have been absolutely shit. My mom passed, my girlfriend broke up with me, I lost literally all of my friends, I fucked up my face in an accident, I don't wanna be around anymore and I don't have anybody to talk with, what do, Cred Forums?

Thats me BTW, I went to school like that, ive been doing a lot of stupid things to get my mind off of everything that's going on

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>only if *you* get better
The fuck does this mean? Letting grown men treat me like garbage for years on end

Everytime I go to make a potentially life changing decision (Example: applying to a job in a different city due to better opportunities) I get really anxious and I start worrying about all the possible outcomes and most of the time I chicken out of applying just because im worrying so much. I wish i could stop being anxious about it.

Chicken or the egg argument my friend. If she was the one for you maybe you would have felt more comfortable approaching her. Dont hold so tight to the past. If I was able to find someone to love me and not care about my bullshit so can you.

Shut up, Chidi

Alright, she makes "Good" money by that definition. So does my plumber, and he didn't waste 10 years and any chance at ever having a family getting there.

I still love the woman that left me 7 years ago

>I went to school like that
Holy shit. No wonder your friends abandoned you.
Sorry about your Mom though.

At least you had someone, asshole
Go find another cunt to cum in

>48 / 3 / 22 / 2[
What's a chidi?

Many days i've been thinking about my ex girlfriend, she had so many errors and shits but i tried to be patient with her because my philosophy (not being shitty if the person is shitty) and i truly love her, i think she left me and she's now what i wanted her to be with me, but with somebody else...
Now i feel alone and i'm truly bored of being alone but the girls i met are so boring, and i still in love with her... i feel stupid about that because i know it's stupid to keep thinking about it, and even i feel better after we broke up, i still thinking about her, a lot and i can't carry on .
Many girls (and guys too) think i'm attractive but i feel like shit and i son't think about any other girl, and i have to see her almost daily with his new bf...

wait nevermind user i looked it up, i got it

As do I, even though she cheated on me and was a step away from being a full-blown misandrist

A character from The Good Place with the exact same issue as you

Whiskey girl I like is into my incel friend like literal incel of a friend

I dont doubt it. A levy can only hold so much. I really dont want that so I should just the fuck up and change it. Thanks

i'm 30 and i never had friends, or loved someone

i will die alone just how i lived my whole life

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Pic of her ass

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I don’t care about anyone. Don’t care about anything. I up-rooted my entire fucking life because I’m lazy to make something of myself. I may use spirituality or art to justify my indolence but the truth of the matter is I have wanted to die for almost a decade and I will self sabotage my way to stay on that path.

Run and coke.

Mostly it means having some modicum of confidence and self respect. The military can provide that for some.

Some men just need more time to grow up, get their shit together, and get comfortable in their own skin. That's how it was for me.

>never had friends
You've never even had a single friend?
How can this be possible.

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the absolute state of Cred Forums going from a board of tricksters and edgelords to cucks and ladyboys.

Everyone fun moved to Cred Forums and has to inject politics into everything which isnt as fun.

I wish the normies would leave.

To be fair, most men fall into the trap of reminiscing about the good times they had with their exes. And here's the solid truth; that's really dumb. We allow these misandrists to put us onto a pedestal, and then when they leave, we crave for their attention and the "good old days". Don't let this habit spiral into your downfall, realize the conditions that led to your breakup and recognize that perhaps there was some inevitability in that. She is now someone else with someone else, but during that past time period, she was a different person. Let that be.

Men will never get respect emotionally outside of art. 8 times out of 10, the average woman will always be more accepted in a social group than an average man.

Tequila with lime.

Terminally depressed for over 10 years, suffered for the last 17 on and off. I'm 36 now, too depressed to work. My health is failing, I've lost most of my teeth and yesterday I started shitting blood. Single, obviously, with no hope for the future or any prospects. I'm clean, never done drugs and I don't drink or smoke. I decided a few years ago that I could just about manage this life, but the last 6 months or so I've lost the ability to enjoy anything, anything at all. Most of my friends have abandoned me. I spend 15-16 hours a day in bed because I have nothing to get up for. I have nothing to look forward to. I refuse to die because I'm stubborn, but I'm not exactly living either. I can find no source of joy, and I have no energy, drive, motivation or aspirations. Nothing can move me. I paid for an escort a few months back to try to kickstart something but it just made me more miserable. I'm lost.

i'm a freak

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>Everyone fun moved to Cred Forums
No, you have it backwards.
The Cred Forums invasion is what ruined Cred Forums.
I'm pretty sure the constant ladyboy threads are started by polfags as well.
They constantly insist on posting insufferable political posts instead of having fun like the old days.

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To hell with her, she isn't special. None of them are. Get your shit together, user.

Unless pic related, I don't see how that's possible.

>They constantly insist on posting insufferable political posts instead of having fun like the old days.

Yeah, i miss that. Why does everything have to be about trump, the new communists, and lizardpeople?

I miss tying frogs to balloons and shit.

Not saying you're wrong, but it's a feels thread. Cred Forums always had feels threads.

I may be losing my mind. I may be in my bathroom talking through my phone right now but goddamnit I’m tired. The entire day no one cares how I’m doing unless I’m doing something for them. I’m fully aware which decisions have led me here. I’m also aware I wasn’t ready to face those decisions when I did. I don’t know what to do now and don’t have much time to figure something out.

Jägermeister.

I'm 23 and single, I want to have a traditional type of person but I don't think there are meany left
>I'm also drunk off my ass

>Some men just need more time to grow up, get their shit together, and get comfortable in their own skin.

Not everyone has the time to find their own way.

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>Yeah, i miss that
Me too, user.
Cred Forums used to be about making ourselves laugh.
Some of us still remember.

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not complaining about this thread specifically, just most of the other ones, degeneracy related:

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Men have more time than women. One of the few advantages we get. But it's not unlimited, and you can't just watch the clock and one day magically wake up all better. You need to choose to do it for yourself.

This man right here is a motherfucking scholar.

That’s why he was blessed with the double triple.

>Men have more time than women.
I thought women lived longer than men. What do you mean here?

Wrong, you need to go further back.
All the oldfags moved to Cred Forums many years ago, for two key reasons. One was because they grew up a little and started getting a little more serious, the whole anonymous movement started having an agenda, so it kinda moved to pol. The second reason was because Cred Forums became notorious for creating memes so newfags started flooding the place. At that time, probably around 2010, the oldfags retreated to pol.
Years later, as Cred Forums degenerated into stale recycled memes and anonymous fractured off, Cred Forums started to become influential in its own right. This drew notice in late 2015, and pol started being raided by powerful outside forces like CTR and shareblue. After Brexit and Trump happened in 2016, the level of raiding got insane, and it's never truly recovered.
Now pol and b, and indeed several other boards, have become completely contaminated by smart bots and paid shills, pushing all kinds of fake shit. Most of the porn on b (though not all) is bot generated. Shills on pol sow chaos and attempt to divide all parties. Even g has paid shills pushing intel and apple products.

>Most of the porn on b (though not all) is bot generated.
I’ve seen hundreds of pictures of “passed out” women on here
You’re telling me those were all bots?

>le anonymous
You have no idea what you're talking about.
Just go back to Cred Forums, then.

Hope it’s painless at least

Women's attractiveness peaks in their early 20s and goes straight downhill from there. The number of attractive, non-loser men available to them shrinks rapidly over time, and absolutely craters in their mid to late 30s.

Men get more and more attractive through our 30s all the way into our late 40s, so long as we have our shit together, and the number of attractive women available to us grows and grows the entire time. Even after 50 our options only decline gradually, and we don't generally hit a wall until our 60s.

My dad slayed hot women in their early 30s well into his 60s.

The fucked up part is you will probably survive it. God speed neighbor.

Well, this is only true if men maintain their health and appearance. A beat slob is as unappealing as a post-wall thot.

But otherwise, yes, men only ever become more attractive physically and socially.

This story just popped in my head, so I'll share because it is on my mind.

>be me 16 yo fag
>get new bowl with friend for 420 purposes
>go to smoke spot on lake
>take one hit of grass, and go to pass it to my friend

I'm no longer friends with him, not important just felt I needed to note that

>hes looking at me like deerinheadlights.wav
>ask dude wtf
>he says "youre turning green bro"
>said my hands, face and whites of my eyes were green
>look at my hand it's literally turning green before my very eyes
>feel vertigo effect, not like any weed effect
>green lasts for like 5 seconds then goes away
>friend decides we out this hoe without ever hitting the grass
>we are walking back, and have to hop over a ditch to get to parking area
>jump
>smash.jpeg
>bowl shatters in street, look at it like good riddance

Idk why I shared that, but I want to reach out to him, and ask if he remembers, really skeptical guy. Always really matter of fact, but he saw it too.

Cred Forums is mostly a joyless newfag shithole that doesnt even greentext anymore much less post genuinely random content. I wish morr oldfag style memes came back. Stuff that had genuine wit and joy to it. Something truly carefree and fucked up

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Thanks.

That's your takeaway from what I said? Fine. There are a number of different ways it's done. Many of the images are old and can be found online theough reverse image search. The one's that aren't it's not exactly rocket science. You know how easy it is for people to pull drunk sluts back to their place and take pictures without them knowing, to be posted later? You know how easily those images can be ai generated? There's so much of that shit around..... but anyway, I did say most. Some are genuine, but the more obvious fakes are all the other stuff, insta/fb/snap/vsco threads, loli threads, wwyd threads, blacked threads, smash roll threads, faproulette, dick rate, tributes, pics you shouldn't share threads, camwhore threads, slampig threads, celeb threads, it goes on and on and on. 95% of those threads are started by, and largely populated with, bots. Sometimes shills but that's far less common these days.

>be me
>eat cookie
>another
>eat half the plate
>realy late and cant do to sleep cus stomach hurt
>i want another cookie

b is porn, pol, and soc/adv mixed together now
I guess young people were just happier back then

Are you trying to say it never existed? Can you be that ignorant/new?

Did you start doing the joker face before or after you lost your frens and waifu?

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Replace cookie with dairy or bread

Even here I'm ignored.

It's much less about physical attractiveness and more about confidence and self-respect. Of course a man with self-respect will generally take care of his appearance, but that's not at the core of it for men.

My dad was a short, ugly guy with a lazy eye and a giant scar across his nose from having it literally blown off and sewed back on in Vietnam. He was an absolute legend with the ladies right up until he died.

Funny story:
> Be my dad, age 65
> Ask out 27-year old physical therapist, 4 inches taller than me, smoking hot with gigantic tatas.
> She says, "Gee, I've never dated anyone over 45."
> Say, "That's OK, neither have I!"

Fucking legend.

>That's your takeaway from what I said?
The idea of porn being generated by robots is truly frightening to me. Did you expect someone to have a response to that history lesson you gave?

>leave shift super cheery and smiling
>boss asks me whats up
>tell him gf asked me on a surprise date, don’t know what to expect but i love her so much she could take me to a dump and id be happy
“go get her kiddo”
>gets texted to meet at nice lil café i took her out for the first time a year ago
toofuckingcuteIddieforher
>we sat down
>she looks off
>ask her whats wrong
She dumped me.
Barely got an explanation.
Been in the shower on my phone watching old live shows for over an hour
Hot water ran out but idc abd the cold doesn’t bother me.
I lost my little tomboy gf she was my everything user.

Life really is beautiful and terribly fucked. It's worth hanging in to see what happens next. The middle path is most likely the right one to take, but it's not the right one for me on this trip. Hang in there user.

>men only ever become more attractive physically and socially
How so socially? By following a career/lifestyle/path of some sort?

7 and 7 please.

Very little porn is created, it's sourced, sometimes altered enough to not show up on reversemimage searches. The creation is not sinister - the motives behind the spamming however are very much so.
Also I guess I expected some response, but then realistically responses to corrections are usually negative in nature. I suppose I should take a lack of response as acknowledgement of its accuracy, which is a rare treat here.

Money makes men more attractive, always.

This user knows his history. Cred Forums in general has been getting raided by various intrest groups because we are more or less what the internet should be like. Completely free to do whatever we want with no consequences. The entire internet used to be like that before smartphones became widespread but it only became completely unbearable after the 2016 election once the censorship went into complete overdrive. There are actual literal fucking newfags on here that don't know who moot was that's how far gone this place is. Cred Forums started out talking about anime but Cred Forums was the pure essence of Cred Forums no matter what specific board you were on. The general chaotic nature and feel that what we were doing is for teh lulz. We're not like plebbit where they all circle jerk each other about how righteous they are. We do the most depraved and wacky shit because its funny and if it also has a good purpose to it then so be it. I think Cred Forums is suffering a spiritual death on top of the constant shill spam. We really need to figure out how to revive Cred Forums since the JANNIES are complicit in making Cred Forums shit. We need to bring the chemo back on top of talking about Cred Forums culture from the oldfag days

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I had to laugh about your hot water to not cry with you, buddy
Fuck, I’m actually crying now because I’ve always dated girls who were tomboys at one point or another
You will know when to make the next step when you allow yourself, go slow and be honest but fair.
Know when to give the next person trust.

Bless his soul. I miss my Dad too..

>money
So “yes” to my second question?
Also money doesn’t buy genuine social connections, dude

Big bro finally lost his battle to pancreatic cancer yesterday morning. It’s like i haven’t realized yet, ive been doing my normal things like i always did but i went in his room to show him a funny video i found and it hit me all at the same time. I want to end it just to join him anons, i dont want him to be lonely up there

Not exactly. Confidence and self respect are the keys - it doesn't really matter where they stem from. For a lot of men, it comes from our careers, but that's not the only possibility.

Also, some of us for whom social interactions don't come naturally (myself included) can learn to get better at it over time. It took a lot of practice and years of spilled spaghetti for me, but things eventually clicked into place.

I agree with you but I also love the porn

My gf gave herself shaved sides and a mullet, and kept half inch bangs on top of her head. She was so beautiful now I can’t even look at her. I’m making her wear a wig or I won’t fuck her

The based boomer arrived
What are you up to, user?

I have such a hard freaking time talking to females. I've been falsely accused of sexual assult 4 times in my life, 2 where the FBI got involved and it haunts me to this day. I feel like a creep every time I talk to a girl and it sucks but

Thanks. My dad died yesterday - that's why I'm hanging out in a feels thread. Can't believe he's gone.

>I think Cred Forums is suffering a spiritual death
No, it’s just nihilistic, ignorant, and too ironic now

Mine died in 2006. It gets a little easier with time. Where you can think about him and laugh about the good times without crying took me about 5 years.

This thread was right on time, bros

Depression sucks, it's obviously hard to deal with. Take a risk, approach a woman at her work. Be kind, complimentary but easy going. Try and see her once or twice a week, maybe less. Make her feel good and be patient. Great things take time, dedication and incredible luck/timing. You got this fucker, I believe in you!

So sorry to hear

i used to work with animals until i took a job that does similar stuff but with computers instead
on paper its a much better job that should open up tons of possibilities including ones where i can once again work with animals
but now theres no joy in i actually do
instead of interacting with animals doing hands on stuff im at a desk sitting down all day in front of a computer in a dark office
i have to do this for another year and a half

That's rough. Tomboy girls are a rarity now - they're all all being railroaded into being trans or "nonbinary" nowadays.

Hang in there, user. I literally married a big tiddy goth girl. If it can happen for me, it can happen for you.

Good to know I'm not the only genuine oldfag still knocking around this place. Also just noticed I was so close to a pretty epic get, I must have made a typo or something, a hair's breadth off absolute truth.

Major red flag. Eject.

He would want you to finish your ride. Find another way to honor him.

>it’s not the right one for me on this trip
You won’t play it safe?

Cred Forums always had porn but it was always less than half the total catalog. It was also the most fucked up shit you could imagine. Guro, loli, genuine cheese pizza and hentai. Hell half the time you could coom to some user shoving his dick in something no sane person would consider doing. Porn on Cred Forums is like a spice. You sprinkle a bit of it to add flavor. When you dump the entire jar on your meal now the meal is fucking ruined. We don't even have edgy porn anymore. Its all a bunch of goddamn normalfag social media tier porn. Its fucking stupid and posted by bots to dumb this place down
I'm hanging around here until the internet gets a pole shoved up its ass over whatever the fuck happens in virginia on the 20th. I miss the old Cred Forums. I miss the days when the main janny was moot that talked to us and made us kek. I fucking hate what this place has become but I can't leave because everywhere else is worse. Cred Forums is my home. I guess I'm just trying to get the newfags riled up about bringing back the golden age. Its not like the outside world is any fun without Cred Forumsros and Cred Forumstards trolling the shit out of it.

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Sucks knowing I’m probably the only black guy here.

Still a few of us around, user.

I don't believe you. Post benis and prove it.

I don't agree with racism, but I can't help being xenophobic towards Americans regardless of shade. They unironically make me so fucking angry

we're not talking for these past months, literally no contact, we broke up and then had a big argue.
i even felt i've over it and tried to make out with other girl but i only hurt her - i feel like shit for it.. also fucked my friend for fun, FWB durning making out with second one....i'm total mess but at lest i quit heavy drinking. eh, i had rules and plans but now i feel like joke from life to myself. i only hope my best friend(s) wont end with them so quickly - one close to drug add, sec with mental problems

What country are you from and what do you have against Americans?

that sounds fun im a newfag but i would like to experience the golden age of Cred Forums

Too many porn threads. Why'd they get rid of Censor? He blessed us with a single night of peace, stability, and order. I miss him so much.

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You're right, user. 2016 was Cred Forums's eternal September. But where else is there to go?

It's still the only place on the entire Internet where I can occasionally get a good laugh, even if they are ever more few and far between.

Every other place has been overrun by SJWs and their pathetic sycophants.

I did all of that after, I guess im doing stupid things and hurting myself to prove I'm still in control

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I'm so young yet so, so depressed. Every day I consider just ending it all, but I'm so used to it that I just get up anyway and go to school. I went two years without cutting myself and then relapsed a few weeks ago. I should've gotten stitches but I was too pussy to go to the hospital. I feel so alone all the time. There is no one who considers me their close friend. I feel invisible. I have no plans for the future because I fully expect to commit suicide before then. I'm terrified if I don't commit suicide my life will be bleak because I never applied myself to anything because I wanted to die too much.
Its a dead end, anons. Should I just die young and get it over with?

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Currently living in New Zealand, originally lived in Britain. I know that it's wrong and I do genuinely feel bad about it, but I've only ever met one American in person that seemed genuine and interesting reasonable, all I see in media and online is inane bullshit and irritating, dim-witted, badly thought-out comments and points of view from both the left AND the right. I know objectively not all Americans and like this and most are probably lovely people, but the few that get the most attention make my blood boil and that sets a subconscious expectations in my brain

Where else can you have real-time honest conversations?

my condolences user. I hope your father was proud of you, and who you will be.

>4 separate times

I’ve god bad news, user

user you aren't invisible, we're here for you. All of us.
All the real ones.
The Fascists, Nazis, Racists, Bigots, Sexists.
We're here for you Cred Forumsro.
You can't see us, hear us, or even know us.
But strangers through the internet care enough to tell you that there is another path for you.
Soon we will all have a purpose, they said the next Hitler would be in this generation.
He's gonna be coming soon.
Doesn't that sound like fun.
We should play vidya sometime.

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I think I'm capable of it, but it doesn't feel right for very long. My significant other enjoys me more when I'm wild, I'm more focused on and appreciative of her. I never thought I would live this long anyways. Problem is I survive in spite of myself. I'm grateful for it, but its fucking confusing. I should play it safe, but it's never been my style

double trips witnessed.
feelz.

Do you have an idea of how many thought provoking people of the last 100 years has been from America? Do you have an idea of how many people came to America who weren’t from America? What the hell even is your idea of an American?

trips witnessed

We can show the newfags what it really means to party on Cred Forums but we would need to create a dedicated thread for it. I made the oldfag nostalgia threads but other oldfags can make their own.
Timestamp with his nigger dick or he's lying. He also has to shove his dick in something
Ask the oldfags b4 jannies nuke the thread
If this place goes then the internet has officially ceased to exist. It would be high time to play with the local powerlines at that point
Cred Forums was never about control and order. You just hate threads that only serve to make Cred Forums miserable
If alcoholism and drugs don't fill the void then you have real problems. I'm not sure what to tell you since I don't know your life story

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>”formerly” monitored by the FBI
HI, HOOVER

How old are you?

>b4 jannies nuke the thread
Disturbing content aside, thanks for this reminder b has no archive

Double Double trips

thank you user.
its been years since I've heard the words "we're here for you."
its a nice change
22

Hey OP, thanks for starting this thread.

>disturbing content aside
user that's all Cred Forums used to be in the old days. We had genuine memes like pedobear and EFG but the disturbing shit was everywhere. Grow some thicker skin user

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yeah, thank you OP. I'm happy to see there's a few more decent humans on this wreck of a planet.

The most thought provoking people come from America because your country is so intensely fucked that some random citizen suddenly has an epiphany and everyone talks about it because "different is bad." People only come to America cos they're suckered in to how wonderful it is thanks to the propaganda machine, your country sucks

Well, if he had 20 and now he has 40...

I had a career. Had a gf of 6 years. Had my own place. Friend tells me that his sister in law is perfect for me and he knows I'm unhappy in life with work/gf. I talk to her for 6 months via FB and phone calls/facetime. She convinces me we're a perfect team and I should move with her. Quit my job and move. She tells me to leave 8 days later saying I wasnt doing enough to make her happy.
Have to drive back to my home state 400 miles. The girl I was with for 6 years is already fucking one of my coworkers. Tells me she loves me then blocks me on everything. So now I'm single, jobless, and have no place to live. Why did I let this happen?

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>the internet has officially ceased to exist
Is this is really the most free place on the internet?

That's part of what made it so great. It was a place to grow a thicker skin and learn to trade barbs without getting your little fee-fees hurt.

I'm so sick of fucking fragile victimlord crybully turbofaggots who think weakness is a virtue

The next Hitler is David Hogg

Is it? Youtube and newgrounds are about the only other sites that are really worth a piss that I know about but go ahead. Try and find another place that lets you get away with half the shit you can do on here I'll wait.

>Problem is I survive in spite of myself. I'm grateful for it, but its fucking confusing. I should play it safe, but it's never been my style
Just don’t put your life at risk user, despite how much you despise it

You are socially retarded, good luck

Dare I say it - OP appears to be heterosexual.

Got out of the Marines in 2016 and had it pretty rough right when I got out. Now, though, I have a good job in construction that pays almost 6 figures. Got married, bought a house, and I'm having a kid in July. Things are looking up for me finally. Don't lose faith anons. It'll get better if you work for it. One step at a time.

I had bad anxiety and started getting a panic attack so I left in the middle of wrestling training, anxious that when I return next training sesh that they will all bring it up and make me anxious again because I’m anxious when talking about my anxiety and even while typing this now.

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I cheated on my amazing girlfriend with a girl I might have more in common with. I’m about to break both of their hearts if I confess. I want to stay with my girlfriend but I’m afraid I have strong feelings for this other girl. I’m in deep shit and now I’m just drinking until I pass out

I'm proud of you, user. Thank you for your service.

Regardless of what you think, for a period of time America led the world
The country sucks now but goddamnit we did more in pop culture, business and science than anyone else ever did or could have

you're an idiot for just acting on urges before critically thinking about it. you'll get what you deserve

If you doubled your bank account in just a month, it means you had almost nothing at all, etc cannot do any meaningful thing with nothing.

My gut feeling is your lady was right about you, and that your views on yourself is warped ( not poor but not rich, but somehow double bank in just 4 weeks.....)

It's a lot like Cred Forums. It may suck now, but where else is better? Nowhere. Best we can do is fight for what's left.

If you’re gonna be sarcastic, make triple sure you’re right first nigger

You sound like a Chad but those don't have feelings so this is probably fake

>She convinces me we're a perfect team and I should move with her. Quit my job and move.
And you couldn’t just visit her why?

>What's on your mind
playin ROBLOX

Does this happen with everyone in the military who goes to school afterwards?

More like the next Stalin
Nah next based painter is Nick Sandman
I mean the fucking kid already has the necessary funds since last week development

She wanted to be together. She was talking marriage, family all that shit. I get down there and paid for a bunch of shit. Bought her and her kid gifts for Christmas and then bam we're not gonna work you gotta leave...I followed my heart when my instincts told me to stay.

I fucking pussied out of asking out a cute girl. I knew she was leaving for school soon, but I thought I'd atleast see here one day this week. But nope. Now I'm probably never gonna see her again.

Only real hope now is either

A) She gets my number from a mutual and reaches out

B) I end up stopping in the store Saturday when she's working

C) Gets penciled in for work in her day off

D) Let it go and learn not to procrastinate.

It sucks, we really got along well, with some flirty teasing thrown in.

Part of the annoying shit is that

A) I asked her out over a year ago and nothing came of it. But the dynamic was different.

B) Our supervisor tried setting her and another coworker up. (didn't work. Coworkers dumb as shit.)

C) I convinced a friend who was into her to ask her out. (didn't work out for him. He took her to McDonald's after work one night. And at the time the feels faded alot. But they came back a few months later.)

And my friend thinks that It would have possibly worked out with her

So now I am, feeling like shit and full of regret... Hopefully I get another shot

I can't talk to females without feeling like the biggest fucking creep in the fucking universe. I've been accused of rape 4 times in my childhood, two of which involved the FBI. It sucks but I don't want women to think I'm trying to fucking rape them.

Doing shots of everclear. Miss my ex. I've been drinking in hopes I overdose or work up the courage to kill myself

To be fair, you ain't wrong. Britain did also rule the world once and it could be argued they did a metric fuckton to spread western culture and business. In recent decades, however, you guys have made most of the hit movies, business. Scientific advancements I'd say you share with the Japanese, Germans and (as much as you might not wanna hear it) the Russians

Deja vu

Read Leaves of Grass and Huck Finn if you want to know why people like America

You let this happen cos you were being an idiot.

If gf was ok, then do not run off shithead :)

I don't have any close friends anymore. It's all just people desperate for relationships.

I'm just a sexual frustrated college freshman I got trusted into the adult world without any preparation now I'm just a fag who can't get a job and is basically a neet if I don't have classes

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Sigh. Bumb.

Idk why I feel so much worse this time around than when I'd wimp out in the past. It's weird. Legit depressed this time around

18 months isn’t a long time
Suck it up

Not the same user
The problem is that 99% of anons claiming to be oldfags are lying newfags, I think because they have reddit-mentality that they can seem cool and get respected, even though they're user, they just don't get it. That's why making dedicated threads doesn't work, it attracts the posers like flies to shit. I've tried a few times before starting threads only oldfags would understand, but they die quickly because there just aren't enough of us around at any one time. Not sure what the solution is, but I think organisation needs to happen on a different board. The goal is removing the porn spam, then we can foster creativity again and start converting newfags. Remember, we were all newfags once.

Okay for real Huckleberry Finn is a classic and you make a compelling argument

>Also, some of us for whom social interactions don't come naturally
No, I’m talking about social opportunities and where to find them
Can’t just talk to people randomly like high school

I lost my friend 2 years ago, she was only 16, and i miss her. Please help

Fuck I hope you saved what you wrote

Go on...

Whitman is to America what Wilde is to England

Talk to people
They like you more than you think

Yes you can. Try it. Just sit down at a bar and talk to whoever is sitting next to you. Male or female, doesn't matter, have no agenda, just strike up a conversation. It gets easier with practice.

I think i have ED jesus christ

I appreciate it, user

Go to your school’s gym, user. It’ll help you more then you think.

Why have I been feeling so fucking lousy?
Or well more than usual?

I weasled out of making a move on this girl. Now I won't see her again. And It put me in a depression, been like a week alreadt

In the past when I'd weasle out I wouldn't ever have any real issue. But not this time..

I'm 25, a youth worker. I adore my work, but I don't make a lot of money. I owe about $1900 on my credit card and i'm scared about budgeting. I make enough to cover bills and rent and have a few hundred left over but i struggle with finding the energy to cook real food. I end up eating out a lot, and its my main money issue. Thankfully I already don't eat much, I guess. But i'm extremely anxious. Is $1900 credit card debt at 25 a lot? Am i setting myself up for failure in my future?

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>Is $1900 credit card debt at 25 a lot?
You are basically in the 1% of 25 year olds. No, it's not a lot. Are you paying the minimum? If so, don't sweat it. Pay more if you can.

I pay the minimum every month at least, sometimes a little more if I can. I originally got it to use for work expenses so i wouldn't be out of pocket waiting on reimbursements but its accrued pretty much $1400 in vet bills and $200 or so in interest charges. Then a few odd expenses. So i'm not in any kind of danger? I literally lose sleep thinking about it.

I'm so sorry user. I hope you and your family find peace and comfort soon. Godspeed.

Boi, right now you're in denial. After that the road becomes more rough. Please don't do anything you regret. I didn't know your brother, but I'm 100% sure that he loved you and wishes you the best and only the best. As user said previously, find a way to honour him. You need to grab your pieces and rebuild yourself in a greater image.

Men, maybe you don't know what you like, but at least you know what you don't like. It seems trivial, but still can get a lot of introspection for that.

Don't pay only the minimun they ask you. With all the money you pay, the first part to which it goes is to the interest, so that minumim they tell you to pay is to pay ONLY the interest, not the debt per se. Pay a little bit more if you can, and you'll see changes (probably small, but indeed changes) on the interest you've.

been getting my life on the right track, got a girl i really like
but work's been fucking me hard as of late too and i'm kinda at a dead end atm
keepin my head high but i'm not too sure where to go from here at the moment, thinking college or trade school, maybe plumbing
i want something that'll ensure me that any family i have will be pretty well as long as i keep up the good work, not something that may fuck over once the weather gets bad

Thanks, user. I really appreciate the advice. I'll start making sure to pay more on it

You’re right, user. I’ve been making some lists about things I want to do in life. Trying to rediscover topics I’ve been interested in since youth but have kind of pushed back. There’s a lot of undoing I need to do before I can start going forward, I just need time to think.

As long as you're not behind on the payments, you're actually building credit. But you should be working on a budget. Once you get the card paid off, use it to buy things like you would with a debit card, but pay it off right away. It won't take too long and they'll upgrade you to a card with cashback rewards and shit.

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Oh, that sounds really sick. My credit line isn't very high, but i'm not late on anything. I've always been deathly afraid of even being so much as directly on time. Apartment complex loves me because i'm one of few residents that's always on time, because I pay a few days early. I haven't had a chance to build a savings yet but I get by.

a normal person o.o

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>Not sure what the solution is, but I think organisation needs to happen on a different board. The goal is removing the porn spam, then we can foster creativity again and start converting newfags.
I agree but you're basically saying gas the jannies mod war now. We would really have to organize somewhere else for that but how the fuck do you organize without attracting shills and jannies? We'd basically have to convert in code on here where the jannies can read it.
>TL;DR Jannies need to clean up the shit pile or we'll do it for them

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I think life is meaning less, a embarrassing shit happened to me and I don't know what im more sad, about that situation or just life existing is weird, also I want to go back to my old school with my friends but chances are I am failing that test, idk how to deal with nihilism, I feel really lonely

Yeah, you're doing fine. Keep it up.

Get another job and live like a Mexican in college.

Three months and you're good. You're in danger of a poor magic lending risk number and a rainbow of sternly worded letters. Get a burn barrel and use only checks and cash awhile.

The magic number is important

still I am feeling optimistic about the future will se what happens

asking janitors to clean up shit is the purest form of retardation there is

keeping it organized is alone a job that demands respect, as all shit looks the same, I'm sure.

What you want is MODeration and way too much shit flows through this dump for any ten people to stay constantly high enough to not just want to burn it to the ground.

There is no revenue in quality threads. zip. It's all diverse dnough to bring as many people as possible like a spiders web of low rent advertisement and shaky crowd testing

Well here goes.

When I was a kid I was a more emotional and sentimental bitch. I always trusted people. I always tried to help and always got hurt from every direction. I always wished I could go on without suffering much.

So I began detaching myself from everything that had a potential to hurt me. First from girls and relationships. At first I was treating the girls with most respect, and try to make her feel special and shit... Now I treat them like shit If I can get sex from treating them like shit good for me, if I cannot, begone bitch.

Same with friends. When I was a kid I always tried to to befriend everyone, I always tried to be around everyone and help as much as I can. I tried to be the one that always kept everyone lively and united. Now I couldn't give a fuck if someone wants to be around me or not.

So my wish had become true... I can't be hurt right now, no one can touch my heart anymore. I am always single, I don't commit to relationships anymore. I don't have friends anymore, I just have collaborators that I can get jobs done with the proper payment. I respect people only if they can be of service to me.

But even if I'm untouchable I always feel a slight ... guilt that things aren't how they're supposed to be. I can easily shake that off often, but it always comes back.

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I don't think you get what I was implying in my post. The jannies are letting bots constantly post normie shit tier threads like clockwork. The jannies are most likely paid off to keep Cred Forums miserable. Any sacrifice is not too great to revive our home if you catch my drift.

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Make it happen. Be ironically casual about the hoops you jumped through to meet back up.

No would be better then "better go die now"

My mother died in my hands (I'm an EMT) after a car crash, and since then everything went to shit. I'm a fucking shitwreck. I weight 240 lb+, haven't had sex in at least 4 years, 90% of the things on the house to pay debts from my mom and my 2 dogs had to be adopted because I can't keep them. I feel like I have wasted this last 5 years (20-24 yo) of my life.

I'm starting to frecuent the gym and trying to eat healthy, but man it's hard to keep on when you have your failures on your face every day.

I don't think you catch what IIIIIII said.

Imagine living a half functional life.

Now imagine being interested in using your free time to wade through shit and pick out corn for more than....three months.

They aren't letting anything. They're janitors. They clean obvious automated posting and forum system abuse. They don't give a fat dong about content and your hehe save it looks the same as $0 watches, black cock, or an alice thread.

It's only special to a few anymore. You're dying. It's over.

eat, work out, budget, and ignore everything but hygiene until you want more

it's gonna hurt a long time

user, I don’t think you’re a failure. I think life handed you a very hard deck and you’re simply trying your best. The gym, a proper diet, you’re on the right track. Do you have the money for a therapist? I think that may do you some good as well, someone you can talk to that has a face, rather than just us, walls of text. I’m not saying not to talk about it and continue talking about it here, but human interaction is helpful.

Just came home from my gf's apt. 4th day in a row seeing her without sex. Getting sexually frustrated as we did it daily. Not sure if I'm actually growing distant or it's the frustration.

You'll eventually get bored of whatever lifestyle choices you chronically make to shake that feeling off, if they don't kill you.

Or, you won't and you'll start regularly making threads here insisting you are apathetically amused.

consider how much you actually like her vs how much she normally provided for you inversely proportional to the probability something fucky is afoot.

test

> if they don't kill you.
They are going to eventually do it. But That's the way I want to go out not with suicide or ill death.

beep bop
im a sad robot
how do i into life, when existing in itself is hard?

beep bop
can't find job cuz there is 4 robo years of blankness on my resume
deal with my robotic feels with smoking huge amount of robochronic to deal with insomnia and depression

beep boop help a robobro out
how do i keep going if i can't even be passionate about anything particular but just knowledge in general?

i just miss my brother so fucking much, guys please don’t kill yourself

A Wisconsin Old Fashioned please.
>Be me
>nearly 21
>It's been about a year now that my relationship of 4 years went up in flames.
>Dont miss her
>All I miss are the small things
>I am better for having left it but I still wonder if it was worth.

Fuckin' A right.

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a womans love is material, mens love is physical. this is the way.

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>They clean obvious automated posting and forum system abuse.
That's a fat lie but your reddit spacing also gave you away as a massive faggot. Go choke on a chode oh wait you would like that you faggot

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Hell Is Other Robots (18 May 1999)
TV Episode | TV-PG | 30 min | Animation, Comedy, Sci-Fi

Hell Is Other Robots (1999)
Bender joins a robot church after fighting an addiction to electricity, but reverts to his pre-addictive behavior of cigars, booze and robot hookers, leading to a musical confrontation with the Robot Devil.

beep boop medicore feels meme #55

Thanks. Now that you mention it, maybe I'm also dropping out my hygene. I will change that too.

I have sporadic thought of it in these years, but I haven't given it a shot. Maybe you're right the human interaction part. Thanks for the advice. I'll try to get in touch with one.

Anyone got any reasons to live? Ive abot totally lost hope. Ill never be relevantly skilled at anything which is all I care about, it is what i believe to be the measure of worth and power. This unachievable combined with my general mindset being personally life isnt worth living as I dont care for what it has unless its success that I can have, im out of options and really offing myself seems to be the thing to do at this point. Its rational at this point, cannot win = no purpose. Hard to look to others as I dont care for gods or boyfriends/girlfriends. Sorry abot the spelling I got broken keys bt i tried fixing a few of the errors.

the bigger things are usually made of the smaller things. but people change, and even though we can reminisce - it's important to not get stuck in the past. everything is constantly changing, so adapt user and grow.

i know being with someone creates a certain routine in mundane things, that just makes them special. and i know how easily a smell or just the way the light shines through the window can bring back memories. but those are just memories user. you can cherish them, but don't get stuck in a loop because the past is the past and you have to move forward.
beautiful things are ahead of you, so go and be open to living fully in the present because that's all that is to it. don't miss any opportunity because you're standing in your own way and scratching at old wounds that could have already healed if you'd let them.

love ya

>haha he uses the enter key

Got banned for flooding three days ago. Oh no! The world is a conspiracy!

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I sincerely wish you nothing but the best, user. Hang in there.

actually not a meme but didn't feel like writing more

kinda in an existencial crisis right now

cigars, booze and hookers sounds nice though
at least for a while

dont EVER prove anything to some bitch, either she wants to be with you or she will find what ever the fuck reason to not be with you

You have to make them. Sounds stupid but have things to regularly look forward to.

the reasons other have aren't your reasons to live, are they?
just as the goals of others aren't your goals and shouldn't be.
you can care about something and not be good at it, it's okay.
but you can always practice and get better, you know, everyone at the top was once an amateur at what they were doing. just look how many artists (music) came from big struggles.

i don't think you don't want to live, i just think you don't want to live your life the way that it is now.
so go and change it, do something just for yourself, don't put pressure on yourself

Same ol shit make bad jokes online and shitty pols only to lead to racist touhou shit being sent my way i gotten quite a nice collection otherwise still goin

nothings really wrong. im just un interested in living

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+1

>literally posts npc feels
>not a meme

bro are you old enough to post here (◍•ᴗ•◍)*。

Yes. Even tho it's not a reason most can accept. I don't give a fuck about anyone around me, I couldn't care less, but I made a list with the things I want or want to experience at least once in my life. I raised a high bar. Like supercars, or living in a modern house somewhere near an calm ocean or sea. Riding a car to the highest mountain top and shit like that. But there is no easy way there for me, so I have to keep going. I need to experience stuff like that. Or even simple stuff. I want to see how shit in past work, get old shit, fix, use for the experience. None of it is easy, you gain a lot of skill, it keeps you going.

That's my goal for now. Experience shit. And you know what, the list is still growing.

Ive just been hurt so much in this life some from within but mostly things that happened to me. Also, can i get a shot of jack and a coke?

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and no success comes easily. shit, you have to grin hard and fail more often than advance before you finally succeed.
don't give up user. switch your environment up, practice the things you aren't good at, find new things you're passionate about and get better at them. grow as a person, don't succumb to being lazy, you're the thing that makes you great but also stands in your way. overcome yourself because you can do anything if you really put your mind into it and don't give up

>he still knows what day it is

hey user, thanks for your words, im not the one you answered to but im also feeling down because of a girl and your message went right into my heart.
Right now i feel betrayed, confused, and hopeless, i got so many questions and ideas but as you said i dont want to get stuck in the past.
Anyways, thanks again, hae a nice day

Thanks, user.
It's maddening that she still has an influence on me.
Even the slightest amount of feeling over what happened pisses me off because that, in essence, is her still having will in my life.
But I look forward to the future.
Such a destructive break up can do a lot to make someone try and improve their life.
Ive picked up a workup, quit my shitty job, am more invested in my school work.
As I said, it was for the betterment of my life.

just coffe and a cigarette, maybe not, i need to quit
going to meet with a friend im not sure hes a friend anymore. i don't have a lot of friends so it feels like shit, but i have to decide after today if hes really my friend or not,because im not getting dragged into his shit again.

Hello my fellow based oldfag

I completely agree with that internet part, thats why I keep coming back here, even if its 80% cancer nowadays

yes

to word it in a different way

How do i go about living my life when just the simple act of being alive and just existing is sometimes overwhelming?
Im interested in knowledge in itself but im not really passionate about anything peculiar, so i just lose my motivation as soon as i get bored.
Moved as a kid to a different country, learned language in under one year, had top grades, got bullied, lost motivation to more than bare minimum -> then it turned into not really having the energy to do anything, cuz why bother?

Was doing an apprenticeship in media design and advertisement but i dropped out before my final exam, haven't worked in the past 2 years because unable to find a job that's something other than fast food industry. The growing gap on my resume also isn't helping.
Plus i don't think i would ever be happy working a 9 to 5 because that shit was making me miserable.

I was abot to type a longer post however ill make this do. I suppose these words help though its nothing new. People tell me my failure comes from having not defined success. All I want is to simply do all things effectively and correctly, and to have relevant skill in them. However ive tried many and it seems im not even competent enough to even learn most times, its rather disheartening and is the reason for my lost hope, if I had any of that.
Sorry to take all yer time however I sppose I was asking for yo to do so.

No you are not, you have a army of black trannies on Cred Forums so dont worry

i also feel her too close to me in some way its hard to forget her, but youre right, keep looking forward to the future, and remember not always is your fault, and sometimes there will be reasons we will never know.

WIth my last relationship i thought well i have to get up and be better for the next one. This next one have been a complete fkng mess even if i tried to be the best part of me that i could. Because she still played me like an idiot and used me. Dont get me wrong we all do bad sometimes, but just remember you can be a beautiful soul and still get fkd up by people you thought you knew.

Keep it up user, grow better and stronger, as you said youre now better and your life is improving, im happy for you user

People don't often use the right words user. We tend to see success and failures as black and white, extremes. Look at life as gambling dude. Gamble with life. In gambling you'll never win if you never use a strategy. Not winning = failure, right? No. Not winning should give you the view of what went wrong, and how the system can be defeated. You get failures staked up just to see on how you can win. You take the bad paths to see how you can get to winning. After you find the patters, win streaks will come down pouring. And guess what? Things change, just do it all over again.

no one's going to fucking read this

I've had more exceptional shit happen in my life than I deserve to divulge

fell in love with a 15 year old girl, why? circumstance, I suppose, but mostly because I'm stupid. now all I have left of her are Lana Del Rey songs that somehow seem to connect to her. I usually forget, but every once in a while I get drunk and bring up her music on youtube and remember... fuck me Cred Forums

I'm just a straggler waiting for the next train to come in Cred Forums, I've been waiting too long, too long...

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i feel you.
i was in a beautiful relationship where we lived together and it felt like a family and that i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life, like i knew that in 5 years we still gonna be there and life is gonna be good (first time thinking about the future in an non anxious way).
but it turned toxic, really toxic.
like hating on all my friends, guilt tripping me, browsing through my phone while im asleep and accusing me of cheating while i was so depressed of not seeing my friends and other shit that i didn't leave the house for 2 weeks.
then when i broke it off she got together with a guy that has a similar name to mine, and who was kinda shadowing her the whole time while we were at a festival once (where i left early because of a huge fight we had because of my friends that were there - and after that it was all downhill)
and i started to overthink a lot of the things, picking at everything that didn't make sense, asking myself if they had already hooked up at the festival and that's why she acted so bonkers - and it made me fucking crazy before i finally let go.

there is no sense dwelling on the pain from the past, unless you use it to learn - it is poison.

i don't know your situation, but the more hurt there is - the more anger - and then that creates more hurt and more anger. that doesn't make it easier to let go, but it's what you have to do.

I just read this, so in your face user! HA!

Now why does bringing up her age matters?

I miss old Cred Forums so much. I miss m00t and Snacks.

push everything away and invest in yourself

focus on making the material improvements in your life hippies whine about

you'll have your choice of spoils after five years of that kind of patient self independence with plenty of rewards leading up to it. Then you can sit and let your energy charge all the live long day while your bullies say fuck all about their downhill shit rolling lives, deciding new things to do every week because you focused on your foundation first.

Or just start doing drugs because its all too hard and overwhelming, have society and God's eye turn from you (fuck em right) and die in a chair somewhere.

Hello. I am a new fag. You see, I've been tryna get with a girl for months. I really thought she was the one for me, so I played it really carefully. But as soon as I was boutta slide in, THIS BASTARD slide in and got her before me. Though, they talked a lot, everyone I spoke to said they wouldn't be a thing. You see, now I'm fucking pissed. And I could just "move on" but once I set my heart on something it stays there. So I kinda want to punish the guy that ruined it for me. I want to, capture him if you will. Possibly the same for her. Just let all hell break lose. I know where she lives and could track down where he lives possibly. He's a cool guy but pisses me off sometimes, especially cause he blew it for me. I wonder if I should capture them or just talk it out. I'd also like to mention I have seen his dick. No homo, we just get crazy sometimes. It's just the thought of him banging the girl I legitimately thought was the one for me angers me and makes me want to do something significant and impacting, yet I hold back because I care too much about her and want her to have fun while she still can.

lol

fucking guess you pussy

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Been thinking bout how much I don't want to get married, I'm terrorfied of my marriage becoming like my mom and dad's. I'd rather be alone forever than to have the chance to go through the things that my parents have made each other go through.

>Hello. I am a new fag. You see, I've been tryna get with a girl for months.
underage b& detected.

Didn't feel like typing it out but this is what I said earlier when my friend asked me why I asked her if she got depressed from time to time.

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dubs of truth
>and i started to overthink a lot of the things, picking at everything that didn't make sense, asking myself if they had already hooked up at the festival and that's why she acted so bonker

This part feels painful since im struggling with that right now. I know this feel wont kill me and i will let it go at some point, but this feeling of overthinking and "what if", and whys? how? and getting no answer to my questions and then knowing she has a boyfriend a month later (who knows since when they have been together) and why did she not tell me truth and just left me like an idiot and blocked me as if i was going to harass her or something, i feel so insulted and betrayed...

Thanks for your words user, really apreciate yeah, she didnt deserved a kind person like you

Pretty true yes. But I see success defined by those on top for the most part, so of course what they have is what matters. even the smallest ones matter, for it is all value. Not sure where to start. Bt right now I have two things bothering me, one is a friend gave me a pen tablet and I am not skilled in art at all so I jst see it as another failre. The other being I had downloaded FL stdio for a meme and I have no idea how to operate sound software and was unable to do what I want. Actally I sppose I could try learning to use it but gh idk maybe ill start there. It sucks thogh. Additionally having hndreds to p to 1 or 2 thosand hors on certain video games shows me that im simply not good enogh for anything considering the variety they come in.

Leave.

I feel like you can't decide which stereotype to be. I'm getting underage, black, repressed, autistic...all from one post.

Feeling pissed comes from a place of feeling hurt and betrayed. It's okay. But don't let it taint you as a person. The only influence it should have on you is to learn. Feelings are a tricky thing and there is no way to master them, but it's definitely easier if you don't blame yourself. And in some cases, the other person isn't to blame too. All our lives are complex as fuck, sometimes it doesn't work out, sometimes people grow apart - and sometimes someone or something comes between two people and the dynamic changes.
Life is nothing but a constant change of states.

I love that you're using it to better yourself, keep it up! You're not only doing this for the people in your (future) life, but most importantly - for yourself!
Whatever happens, always, always, ALWAYS - be the best version of yourself. No matter what the circumstances are.

And don't forget:
relationships shouldn't be there just to fill a space and make you less lonely

it's about two people pushing each other to be the best versions of themselves.because you want to be better for your partner, and because your partner helps you become the greatest version of yourself you can be.

don't settle for less because you're lonely. you deserve more, you deserve to be understood.
sometimes it's people that are similar to us, sometimes it's someone totally different - but look for people that bring out the best in you and push you towards your goals no matter what they are

this fuckers terrorfied bros

Marriage. Hah lol.
Do you need papers to prove that you're in a relationship user? Do you need papers to stay together?

Fuck that religious mumbo jumbo user. You can be in a healthy relationship without paperworks or shitty ceremonies.

>those on top
Everyone is on top of the other, so small steps while you set your target on the big one. Just like video games. You don't get to fight the boss from your introduction in the game so that you fail. The secret is... baby steps. Slow but steady, and gather whatever you can, knowledge, skills, etc.

dont feel like reading it

doubt she did either

Yeah. Probably. I don't mind. Needed to get it out.

good thing you sent me a copy of an image of what you typed at some random time in the past. Had to be relieving.

Eh. Not really. But typing it out was relieving.

thanks for your kind works, i feel youre so fkn right and at the same time i feel hurt and confused because i dont understand so many things and there are others that i understand but just blame myself for them and wonder what did i do so worng as to end up like this and how im i going to improve if i dont know what was the problem, or if the problem was not mine (because of life) then why leave me? i can be blamed of being too supportive but since when that deserves to be blocked from someones live and throwed in the trash, she knew my feelings and than that would hurt me, i know she could do better than this.

well, i dont want to start crying in here. Thanks again and again for your posts. Do you really think i should keep being the best i know with further relationships? ive already tried once and both ended the same way, got any suggestion for me?

The only thing I know for sure is this place is fucking dead. Things die. Figure it out you weaklings. I had to, and it's the only reason I'm not some bassackwards guilty member of society.

And if you want to fit in? Get off the goddamn internet. A wage cuck job answering telephones will get u sum fuk with the teenie bopper working next to you if she likes your music. The sky is the limit

youtu.be/mB_0FXiFHd0

I had a dream last night that I was fingering this new girl I’m talking to- we haven’t had sex- and I could feel a sharp or pointy object inside her in the dream. It’s really fucked me up and I cannot tell anyone besides u fucks.

eh? really?

wow you're so apathetically superior how can you have problems. I imagine keeping your nose so high keeps your oxygen more saturated than most.

without reading the first world problems you're playing off more than i am, this is why no one likes you.

last dream i had i was in combat and went into the grenade box and all the grenades were water damaged and rsty idk why.

The spear of destiny user.

the "what if's" are the biggest poison.
the thing is, we humans just take everything so personal, and it's sometimes impossible not to.

but just breathe out and imagine going into 3rd person, zooming out of your house, out of your city, out of your country till you see nothing but the earth. then zoom out further to other planets, galaxies.
im kinda not sure where i was going with this, but i do it whenever im struggling with my problems and it helps me 'scale' them down a little bit.

But i get your situation.

>live together for a year
>i had one cat, then we got a second
>she hated cats though
>everything was good, we went on a festival
>camp either at my friends ("i don't meet enough of your friends!") or with one of her friends and like 10 unknown people
>obviously she had to have it her way
>didn't get along with those people
>went ahead to my friends, drank a beer and participated in beer bong
>gf mad, leave back for our camp
>blah blah, you gonna get herpes from all your hoe friends
>and all you male friends are just wasted losers
>go back to camp, where the people that are there are slamming ketamine and mdma at 10 in the morning after doing cocaine all night
>fight some more, leave 2 days before while she stays at the festival
>afterwards she is just bitchy in general, always guilt tripping me
>also told a story of her friend that hooked up with a guy there while being there with her boyfriend
>tell her that's something stupid hoes do
>gets mad as fuck at me for it
>gets more downhill from there
>accuses me of cheating constantly
>asks me why the fuck i wished XYZ a happy valentines day
>XYZ is a good female friend and was spending the day with her brother she didn't see for 3 years and they had a huge cake
>wait, how did you know that?
>"umm, i browsed your phone while you were asleep"

Dude... If you need someone to tell you how to be a human being (as stated by you) you're a dumb fuck. Sorry to tell it to you. You said you are not religious, good, why aren't you? You saw some flaws there didn't you? That's why you gave up on religion? But when you left the religion behind you didn't had the guts to try to at least get it fixed, in your mind. That shoud've set a basic set of rules. Also, look around you. Pedos, trannies, faggots, every - fucking - one lives the life as they want. There is no good, nor bad, it's your set of points of views. What you want, how you get it.

Cred Forums was always dead. Stop being a faggot.

>reading the first world problems
Well they're all problems no matter how you look at them. All that matters is your level of understanding. For a rich guy a problem may be a leak in the 8000$ jacuzzi, while for others having a loss or cancer can be problems. It matters how you handle them. If you handle problems like you do now, you're basically a faggot. For the rich dude, you can offer technical help on how to fix a jacuzzi and get some cash out of it, and for the poor fag you can offer kind words to sooth the pain. It's that easy. 1st world problems aren't different from 3rd world problems psychologically.

I had an online friend that has been through a shitload of bad stuff in her life and i was pretty much the only person she could confide in and not feel judged.
My ex apparently was bothered that we talked because she wanted me to block her a lot, she would bring it up a lot even though i kinda lost touch with that friend.

Kinda guilt tripped me into blocking her, but i got into touch with her after i broke it off with my ex.
Apparently my ex was writing her constantly asking if she ever met me (different countries), if im cheating, why the fuck we are writing, she should gtfo my life, etc.
I saw a message where she wrote "you know, we're just good friends and he is pretty much the only person with whom i can share everything at any time. don't take that away from me"

that was shortly before she guilt tripped me into blocking her or she would break up (huge red flag)
i was so stupid, and it devastated me when i saw the screenshots.

shit man, that's not even half the story.

>got together with the guy who was shadowing her at the festival, he has a similar name to mine
>threatened me to take away my cats (she hates cats?)
>got herself 2 cats that look just like mine lol
>has been posting rants on social about finding me in bed with some bitches
>had a shitload prank calls at night
>occasionally sent me a message how she regrets every second with me before i blocked her

man it's hard not to overthink that shit, i know where you coming from. but just don't, it will eat you up

They really are first world problems. Thats probably why I'm like that. Everything's been handed to me without much effort so I gotta make up a problem in my head to feel like just as human as the kid living on the streets

>calls person idiot
>calls person calling idiot out, an idiot
>ur a faggot

This is what it looks like when shitposters convince themselves they're intelligent and noteworthy

Thanks for the advice.

>triage is a silly concept

to a faggot that thinks arguing everything while acting like a dainty fairy is an accomplishment

>shitposters convince themselves they're intelligent and noteworthy
Because you are a faggot. Cred Forums is a over glorified personal blog and image sharing platform. Get used to it faggot. People express their own opinions whether you like it or not.

Even if i see differences in our situations, i really appreciate your shares, reading how other people struggle and feeling supported makes me feel better.

Good luck on your life, hope next time things will work out better

>Samefagging this hard in a bumpless thread.

Man, you really are a faggot.

You don't have to suffer to be real.

Don't blame yourself, sometimes it just is what it is. And i know having closure and getting an answer seems like it would help, but it rarely ever does if you even manage to get your answer.

Relationship work both ways, sometimes it just doesn't work out in the end. Sometimes there are problems you can see, and sometimes there are problems and you don't talk about them until it's too late to fix anything. We can never know. Proper communication is key, if it fails then there was never a chance of saving it.

Blocking someone instead of talking seems immature, don't dwell on it user.
It hurts when someone close to you just ignores your feelings like they don't know you at all. You wonder what you did wrong, but sometimes there is no definite right or wrong but just a series of choices that both people do, and sometimes the outcome isn't what you hoped for.

Just be yourself user. Do what you do - BUT in the best possible way. Don't give up on your morals, passions and what makes you - you.
Sometimes you will fail, but you will learn from it. And you will find people who truly appreciate your effort and you being a 100% the best version of yourself that you can be.

>you're currently writing in a forum!

me calling you out for summarizing shit, adding an insult, and being proud of it is just as legit you fucking deal with it faggor as your shitposting.

Great job bill.

>is just as legit you fucking deal with it
But you're the only one being butthurt here. And getting all faggy as fuck.

thanks user, im really hoping for this:

>And you will find people who truly appreciate your effort and you being a 100% the best version of yourself that you can be.

You are right, even if i dont get it, even if it hurts, even with the storm of feelings in my heart; never stop moving and never being the best we can be.

Youre a generous soul user, i wish you the best

You mean from the part where no one was talking to you to the side conversation you pulled me into out of nothing? Yes I'm upset. In real life I would turn away from you and you'd have to stand dejected in public to continue being ignored by me. If you kept interrupting, I'd punch you.

Here you can be a woman all you want in the security of your lecher den. So yes, I am relatably upset, and your power to only shit on things and call it intellect is very special.

Good luck to you too!

The struggle kinda had me at one point, you know, not being able and not wanting to forgive someone, feeling replaced and not enough and just being generally on my worst.
When i heard through some friends she got 2 cats that look like mine even though she always hated cats, it felt again like being replaced and the feels flooded. But when i was crying about that, i just thought that damn, im just crying over a toxic ex getting 2 cats - like for real?
For me that was kind of a point where further thinking about it became just ridiculous in my mind, and i just kinda used it as fuel not to take anything so personal.
Right now im on my way up again :)

>you'd have to stand dejected in public to continue being ignored
You mean, you'd go away alone from the group, just to state that you're butthurt and act like a brat. kek.
>If you kept interrupting, I'd punch you.
Yeah yeah yeah, top 10 anime fights right here folks.

Plus..Im being faggy?! Im taking advantage of the place I am in. Yell at the good vibes pay it forward 17 year old first loves wading through a river of denial before you yell at a weeaboo on the weeaboo board.

Christ. save b! fuck is b faggy!
Dumb. Asses.

>Christ. save b! fuck is b faggy!
Even this board is rejecting you. Lol. I bet you punch kittens in the face now for being this butthurt.

>I'll just explain the world to myself

the shitposter opus

>shitposter
Any other words in your limited vocabulary?

oh no? the one guy too fragile to ply his trade until after a thread started auto saging? I'm really feeling the rejection. From piss ocean. My ego.

>auto saging
Bump limit, faggot. Moot is gone, and so is your hiding place.

come on special friend

you're telling the this place is dead guy....that this place is dead.

I want to feel sorry for you but I know your life is automated shit posting so gooooo jaaaaab fuckkooo ^^

Trying to have a last word by samefagging. Not today buckaroo. This thread will 404 with you still mad.

>when the most rejected chad sits on top of shit mountain, he is a king again

kek

Some people watch Maury, this guy has to be involved personally though

...

When it 404 you can be free, fag.