hey user, I lost the love of my life after 5 years. That was 3 years ago now, and I'm still not "over her" because what I've learned is that there's no such thing.
When people tell you to "get over it" what they're suggesting is emotional suppression, which can be very dangerous to oneself, as you've already tried suicide.( so did I, don't worry)
If you want the solution, luckily for you it's a really straight forward one, but it will require lots of time and patience and effort on your part.
You need Self Love, OP. Your partner was your everything, and now that they're gone, you are feeling the hole they left behind
We often fill ourselves with our partners, and this creates suffering, as you can feel. Your partner left and took with them a great deal of "you"
I say this in quotes because it's not really you. Nothing is gone, they can't take anything away from who you are - and you will understand this in time. in time, you will understand that they did quite the opposite. They helped you to grow and evolve.
With self love, user, you can begin to fill this hole with an authentic you. You can fill it with anything you wish; passion, love, intrigue, curiosity, Understanding, knowledge.. or you can fill it with hate, anger, isolation, suffering, numbness..
the choice is entirely yours. I still dream about her nearly every single night. The more time I spend away from her, the more I realize I love her even more. I have tried 3 relationships and nothing ever feels like it did with her
And that's all ok. It takes time. We must be patient with ourselves if we are to feel whole again, and each day, as I practice, and read, and reflect, my capacity to Love grows.
You can use this pain to create much healing, user.
Be well
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