Cred Forums i think i may go crazy and i like it

I see, so this edgy rant about society stems from being let down by society while going through a difficult personal situation? Are you just venting, or is there something you're looking for?

Have you ever considered you're an NPC in this simulation. People who are "compelled" don't act out of self volition. You are not real and are being controlled by a function.

The only real way to know is to off yourself but you can't because you are driven by forces you can't explain which define you as being different.

You're essentially a sim. Deal with it.

One for aggressive moodswings where i randomly, out of nowhere, just got so fucking mad that i sometimes kicked the door or threw stuff. It could happen at any moment, for no reason at all.
The other was because i kept thinking people were out to get me or hated me for no reason. Like i could talk to someone i knew for years and i randomly thought they hated me for some reason.

But appearently thats okay because i dont need fucking medication for this shit.

So you are 12 and girls bully you a lot? Do a couple push ups and maybe guys will feel you are worthy of bullying.

What meds are these. Like whats the name of them?

I have other issues, the stuff i said just now is just something that happend in only 3 weeks.

Want to know my living situation? Lets just say both my neighbours are drug addicts and there were 2 people shot in this fucking crap neighbourhood in 1 month.

Pipamperon and sertraline. Both were decent dosis.

If OP is serious then just seek more help man and for the love of god leave that therapist alone, she is trying to help you.
Its hard for a therapist because they have so many people that need help, so many people arguing with them and backstabbing them and being angry at them, and then you just make it worse for them too... come on dude...

Okay interesting and did they diagnose you with anything before you were put on those meds?

I lived in a place like that once user, I lived in a tent in a friend's backyard in that shitty neighborhood. I've had medication taken from me too, specifically medication that prevents my body from attacking my brain and killing me - they took it away 4 times, all of them clerical errors, all of them took months to resolve. My parents aren't divorced, I'm lucky there, but they also found out I'm a pedo.

My point is user, life is full of shit. All of it matters, just none of it matters here. Looking for sympathy will only lead to despair.

imagine being this edgy

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Social anxiety but that was 2 years ago, im over that now. Also scitzophrenia which i dont even have but they said i do so i was like fine whatever then i do, and then they wrote it down on paper and now its official: Im a scitzophrenic appearently.

Yeah imagine that, people with a different mindset from your fairy candyass mindsets with your flowers and rainbows in your room.
What the fuck are you even doing on Cred Forums if you dont like "edgy" stuff? Hypocritical cunt.

Your kind is exactly the kind that needs to be shot.

And yes im OP, fuck you.

Imagine samefagging so hard

If you don't mind me asking what was it that made them think your schizophrenic?

Someone shoot this fucking dumbass before he shoots up a school or something..

I told them that i occasionally think that i want to randomly attack people (as in: I know i didnt want to do it, i know i wouldnt do it, but i felt like i had too) so they asked me if i heard voices or saw stuff and i said i didnt, only ghosts (as a joke) but apparently they took it serious and ever since then began to use "ghosts" against me. Fucking assholes spin everything around and use everything you say to them against you.

Atleast you're honest and intune with your animalistic behaviour ONLINE, let it all out and feel free.
Still, i bet you're a hypocrite and you tell your familly that "i hate violance mummy and dada".

Shit man. You really shouldn't be taking those meds if this is the case. I mean how do you feel when your on them vs off?

Simp

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On? Tired all the damn day, too lazy to do anything. Thoughts are still there but im too tired to care.
Off? Thoughts overwhelm, sometimes making me fear myself and i try to contain my anger as best i can on my own. Nightmares constantly.

>trying to change the mind of a qualified therapist
What a fucking edgelord. Everyone on this board laughs at sick shit. Your therapist probably goes home and laughs at gore after she’s done laughing at you.

This, so 100% fucking this!
I had this too dude, where i felt like i was going out of control and just attack people for no reason, fuck man i even felt terrified of myself.
Therapists told me its normal and it will go in due time... yes, 2 years later and im still with these thoughts and im a hermit now, i live in closed doors, afraid to go outside because im fucking scared i may lose control.

I've been there, im still there dude.

To make a long story short and not provide you with more attention than what is good for you, here is the gist: you are a young kid, immature still of course, trying to act edgy, and are pretty cringe-worthy.

I suggest you stop posting and just lurk until you are about 30

Its challenging and i think its fun to do, got a problem snowflake?
Everyone can break.

Oh look its the "im an adult, let me tell you whats on my mind" typical internet grandpa who thinks he knows best.

I'm 37, want proof? Yeah i cant provide that, which you can use for your next funny message.

you should probably do the planet a favor and just kys

>watches Joker once
You’re the only person oblivious to how much of a cornball you are. Grow up, you brainlet.

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Sounds like you're dammed if you do and dammed if you don't. Have you discussed with your psychologist about taking different meds?

see this

The planet would miss out on a lot of cool new technology then.

>Implying the OP didnt say he had other stuff on his mind prior to watching lé Joker

Read the thread doofus.

Also to OP get a girlfriend who takes care of you, it will help.

Yes but they refuse because why should they care.

Damm man, sounds pretty shitty. Have you tired to taking the Pipamperon and still taking the other one. Or maybe dosing half the time with Pipamperon. Those anti psychotics can be a real drain on ones energy

see, the problem with that statement is that it is extremely unlikely that you are remarkable in any useful/positive way. You are here rambling about your dysfunction, how you barely cope with life - but you are going to change the planet with your tech? One of the most dysfunctional geniuses we've had, is N.Tesla. Dude definitely had to have had a couple loose screws and by the end of his life, it was evident. But he was brilliant, and driven, and is a cornerstone of modern society. What the hell have you ever done in your life other than shit-post and beg for attention? Nothing. You are unimportant. Unremarkable. There is no secret inside you that the world is missing out on. In fact, keep yourself hidden and save us from having to deal with cringe lords like you.

Go watch MLP.

*tried not taking

this is officially a cringe thread

I know this is Cred Forums but shit man. Do you really feel cool fucking with someone who has mental issues. Cause thats some edgelord shit right there.

This dude actually thinks he is being smart with his reply.

>Go watch MLP

Thats such an awesome insult, right mr.i-watch-the-smurfs-but-thats-okay-since-its-not-MLP?

what you call mental issues, is really just immaturity. Problem is, every kid who's parents didn't raise them right, and grew up effortlessly thinking they are special, eventually hit a wall. Life has its way with you, and you prevail. Immature shits like this, complain and want to be coddled. They need to just grow up.

so your plan is to disregard the entire statement before that, because there is nothing to argue there, and instead just ridicule yourself arguing about the silly part of my comment?

If you cringe any harder you might bend space and time so be careful.

>What the hell have you ever done in your life other than shit-post and beg for attention?
I can't tell you that and remain anonymous user, but I can give an example of something I'm working on. I'm leading a team that's attacking the problem of fake news online with machine learning. We're using the paraphrases of an open source model to create the training data for "fact" detection - essentially we're looking for semantic content and not the words that describe it. By tracking "facts" as they appear and develop online, we intend to provide a free tool that automatically sources anything you're looking at.

Also I saw the first season of MLP with my daughter, it was actually pretty good. The movie she made me take her to was shit.

Hmm, I guess I'm probably too late in replying. That's the hazard of actually having a life I guess. But to be clear, my life was shit. I went through struggles. They made me stronger. It's a story old as time. I was speaking in the past tense, not the present, as I attempted to console an obviously young and still suffering individual I identified with.

Le edgy

hmm. most likely retarded