Mental Health and Society

I was just diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder. It reaffirms my prior beliefs about myself being weak. I'm only 18 and am already having delusions of reference on top of severe social incompetence and similar shit; I'm essentially one step away from becoming a full blown schizo.

Now Cred Forums, I don't give a fuck about stigmatization of mental illness in the modern world. It's normal to shun those who aren't normal. So, with that in mind, what's the point in me living? I'm only alive because of the crutches provided by society, and EVEN THEN I'm still mentally disturbed. I was NEVER capable of interpersonal relationships; that's not hyperbole, as of now I'm even distanced from my own parents.

But regardless, I don't know how to feel about society propping people like me upright. I'll never be "healthy". And it's the same for all the other schizos and low functioning autists. What if beneath all their issues, is a normal human fucking being that can't communicate his/her issues and is living in an eternal state of hell? That's horrible. The Spartans had the right idea. They did what they did not solely because of the view of the weak as inferior, but because why would you allow someone to live as an inferior member of society?

You're still somewhat sane though, so you can still try and make your life work. I'd avoid having children though in case you give it to them. If you're about to go insane you might as well kill some Muslims or niggers and get taken out in a hail of bullets.

You need to find a purpose in life. Clearly, you know that you cannot live the "normal" functional adult life that you wish for. However, your personality type/disorder may allow you to follow a path that would be difficult for neurotypical individuals, or others with their own issues. You are not necessarily inferior, you probably excell in areas most regular people do not. Figure out where you excel and go towards it 100%. If you are truly weak, death is the easier option. Good luck.

I feel as if though there's something to be salvaged in me but there was never a sense of normalcy in my life. Everyone says that but few people know what it feels to live with social disconnect.

I've been considering group therapy but I don't know at this point.

I'm in the same boat as OP and I have interest in math. I don't want to be a teacher, I just talked to one and they actually have no fucking clue what they're doing. I want to apply it to something like music.

>Schizotypal personality disorder (STPD) or schizotypal disorder is a mental disorder characterized by severe social anxiety, paranoia, and often unconventional beliefs.

So what. Maybe you feel like you are weak but only means you can only get stronger. Keep reaching for the top brother and don't worry about your mental health shitting out on you every challenge is another trophy.

>Vague, circumstantial, metaphorical, over-elaborate or stereotyped thinking
This is listed as a symptom in the DSM. From a third person perspective my thoughts would be garbled insanity but the metaphorical connections I have between things make sense to me. My mind is really just predisposed to thinking about things symbolically; corny or not it's the truth.

write a book, sell it to english teachers. you will rake in the dough

Youre fine. Take a menial job and shut the hell up.

My delusions are reaching the cusp of Truman Show syndrome, though. Not 'my life is a televised production' really but more in the vein of 'what if everyone in my life is an actor' and 'what if the things that occur in my life are laid in front of me outside of my control' . I have to escape/rationalize these fears by getting very retardedly philosophical about free will and shit like that.

The point I'm getting at is, these fears/delusions(?) I have cripple me to the point where I can't formulate any purpose in life for myself because of how stuck on them I am.

Are you sure you're not just feeling like this because of the recent diagnosis? It is always a shock to the system when something happens, leaving you feeling a bit more broken than all the rest of the humans.

That all sounds a bit similar to Plato's ideas on society too - kill off the sick and make the best of your allotted place in life. But societies like that rarely happen in real life because most people have at least a shred of compassion, especially for people they like and want to help. And no one is a perfect person, most people are good at some things and shit at some other things. Don't you have things you want to do in life, even if it is a bit harder?

Don't be a fag, you can communicate with others. Autism and being schizo is not the same thing. Concentrate on looking into treatment for it.

Brother, you're part of an entire generation that has been told you have something wrong with your brain chemistry.

There was a study done of kids who had fled Chernobyl to Belarus. They showed HUGE deviations in destructive behavior from the norm. Almost all of them smoked. All of them drank to excess. Many were full blown junkies and lived like tramps. They'd been treated as "broken" from Day One, and eventually regarded themselves that way too.

There have been some brilliant people on this earth that were a bit fucked in the head. You can't even estimate them, in politics, the arts, science, etc.

>>Schizotypal personality disorder (STPD) or schizotypal disorder is a mental disorder characterized by severe social anxiety, paranoia, and often unconventional beliefs.

oh fuck i could be in the same boat, i actively plan what im going to say to people, even to the extent of preparing to talk to the subway people, i have very little social life or skills
i definitly have the paranoia part, im constantly worried people dont actually like me or think think im a cunt behind my back
im on here ffs so unconventional is a given. jesus christ now im a headcase fucking great

Sounds like you actually need a therapist bro, I would say dumb shit like just forget about your problems or surely you know it is delusional (thats the kinda shit i tell myself) but if you really are worried about your brain bother just go and see a specialist. Its much better than suffering through it just because you dont want to be a bother or whatever. Your life is for you.

>i definitly have the paranoia part, im constantly worried people dont actually like me or think think im a cunt behind my back

that's normal. Start worrying when they start saying it to your face.

Live because you clearly give a shit about yourself. Normalcy is overrated. Be productive and contribute in the ways that you want to. You pretty clearly aren't at the severe end of schizo, so just fucking deal with it.

This is pathologizing normal anxiety and stress. Stop it now before you enter a spiral of uncertainty and psychosomatic illness.

There is no "normal" state. Plugging you full of anti-anxiety drugs will not approximate this fantasy of normality. You have doubts, uncertainties and fears like all healthy human beings.

I want to be rich, travel the world, live next to famous people in 6mil mansion, Im I normal?

iv never been to a doctor for it, or taken meds or any shit,
i can talk to people about nothing shit, small talk type stuff, i dunno i just cant get any real deeper connection with people,
im quite detached even from close family, like i love them, but id never even considor talking to them or anyone else about anything remotely personal.
i dunno iv just always felt distant no matter how long iv known someone or been mates with them
i also have zero intention of going on meds, altering my brain with shit just doesnt apeal remotely, i dont even like being drunk or high because i lose that feeling of full control.

'no'

stay and shitpost until happenings arrive. As for your mental health, I'd say to eat a bit more greens, work out, and try to go to a social environment 3-4 times a week. Stand tall, brother.