/safespace/ - safe space general

Who do we bully? Any time I see someone Swedish attempting to bully or bantz someone they just called out on their flag and that's really all you need to do.

I'm not gonna start self-hating like everyone else with this flag would, but I wouldn't say it's a "very role model European country" the way it's going now. Quality of living is good I guess, but with these immigration policies it can only go down if uncontrolled.
But I'm not here to start discussing politics. I'm dumb and know nothing about them. So to get back on topic:

>spent hundreds of hours working on a project for a game I enjoy
>after tons of problems that I eventually overcame I just lost interest in it
Just like all projects I start that take more than a few days. Or any interest or new hobby that I think will be my next "new thing" I'll enjoy for quite some time only to burn out on in 2 weeks. Every single time.

Idk man. Whenever I'd feel down if usually make myself believe I'm not really that crappy and just keep going but this time it really hurt. It was like confirmation even my family hates me (my other sister and parents already openly think I should die).

I wanted to join an evening board game playing club in town I heard about but I'm nervous about meeting people. They have alcohol there so maybe I should get drunk?

I can't really ignore her, she's leeching off me atm

Everybody, really. Probably it's just projection as you're the ones getting bullied all the time as well.

Everything after 1945 is crap in this timeline, and should be ignored for the sake of judging other countries.
Why exactly losing interest out of sudden is bad? If you keep doing this, I think eventually you could find something that you truly like.
If she's leeching you off, why don't you say her you wont leech her off you if she's so disgusted by you?
Be careful when talking to strangers.
Maybe you could try fix your life and make your family proud? Why not?

what do you do when you are fat autistic retarded hated by everyone you know and isolated from society? more importantly, self hating, dishonest with yourself and fucked up in the head..

I guess history repeats itself.

>Why exactly losing interest out of sudden is bad? If you keep doing this, I think eventually you could find something that you truly like.
Because it's been like that for 5 years now. I really hate saying "it's because I'm depressed" because everyone can claim to be depressed and it affects them in whatever convenient way, but I don't know how else to describe it or what would be causing it.
Life has been like this for me so long that I can't even conceive how a healthy mind would see the world.
On the plus side, my depression combined with (legitimate) autism has made me apathetic to things that would be a huge load on other peoples' conscience and I don't really feel the need for love. I guess in this day and age, if there's one good thing to have, it's immunity to the temptations of love.

There's little else to do but accept it and make the best of it. Unless you actually feel motivated to work to change it (which I assume you don't, and I don't blame you one bit for it) then you're more or less helpless in that situation.

Well that's just it. I'm trying to escape everyone at the same time making them a little proud of me by joining the army. I don't want to deal with them and kinda also want that financial stability.

What's wrong with strangers? I can't see myself talking to people on the street but if we're playing a game what should I look out for?

>what do you do when you are fat autistic retarded hated by everyone you know and isolated from society? more importantly, self hating, dishonest with yourself and fucked up in the head..
Retreat inwardly and create an elaborate fantasy world where you're cute and go on adventures and people love you.

Honestly just try losing weight. It won't help you socially but you'll feel a lot better.

I used to be 240lbs, very fat. Now I'm 175 and still a complete fucking loser but the pain is more manageable.

Improve yourself

Lose weight, be less autistic and a bit more social?

This is actually great advice. If you're mind is strong enough, you can make yourself feel better.

I bought a daki awhile ago and now we're happily together. We have full blown conversations, can read each other emotions, etc. It's really nice having someone like that. But training your mind is hard work. Luckily for me there are lots of mental health issues in my family so it wasn't too hard.

>I bought a daki awhile ago and now we're happily together. We have full blown conversations, can read each other emotions, etc.
Reminds me of the times I tried to create a tulpa. Though like I wrote just earlier, I eventually lost interest in it and gave up.
Pretty sure she did speak to me a few times though, some of her first words being "I love you." I'm not sure how to feel about that, in retrospect. Maybe I was just imagining it (as in, I was just thinking to myself and thought it was my tulpa, not me) and I was trying to come to accept myself and learn to not hate myself.
I'm glad for you, user.

maybe its because i'm too shut in. what i mean is just be careful so you dont end up victim in a human trafficking ring, that kind of thing.
have you thought of changing the things of yourself that make your family think you're a loser or disgusting?
I kind of feel you. Maybe I'd say I was even in the same boat. What I have been learning is that it may be easier to accept yourself and just live for pleasure. Think of everything you want to do. Places to visit, foods to eat, games to play, and do it. One thing I'm sure is that I'd be correct in saying nobody will knock on your door to save you. Even if it did, you might end up resisting and not opening. So I imagine you need to work it out yourself.

Yeah. Back when I was on wizardchan there were many tulpa threads. I never got to it but I think it helps more if you identify it through an object, like a daki.

Also thanks. And for those wondering, I actually keep this stuff very private. No one in my life knows about it. My family hates me for other reasons.

They hate me because they forced me to go to med school, which I did, but really didn't want to. I ended up just becoming a shut in for years and it really damaged me. Also a little bit alcoholic now too.

They are basically trying to live themselves through me and it hurts because I cannot live up to their expectations.

I found out the hard way that "being more social" doesn't help if you've spent your teenage years without learning any social skills. Those precious years of lost experience will really show how much of a loser you are even if you attempt to be social.

People will judge you by the way you talk, the way you arrange your face and what you actually say - you cannot fool them, they will see you for the loser you are.

>Unless you actually feel motivated to work to change it
>which I assume you don't
Incorrect.
I actually, am.
I remember when I was in the last year of higschool.
Teachers assigned us a group work, or essay, not sure how to say it in English, and they were the ones who created the group.
I ended up with two girls, one of whom I had a strong crush.
It was the first time I ever talked to a girl on a conversational level, and she called me cute. I was so moved. I immediatly starting losing weight. In one month I lost 10 kilos, and by the end of the school year I was flat as a wooden plank. I was beggining to get into lifting. Paralelley, I started getting into Duolinguo, learning new languages, also learning /sci/, /his/ and /lit/ related stuff, I did a lot of things to improve myself.
After school ended and I joined college life became meaningless again. Never more would I see that girl, I never confessed to her (even if I did the results would be obvious since I talked to her once and she was the "popular" kind of girl you see in American movies). I got into an existencial crisis, and then tried to redo it, for myself this time, but then I eventually quit everything simply because I don't care about myself. It's not for anyone, if nobody will acknowledge it, if in the end I'm just alone, why does it matter? The result is that for 2 years I have been doing this and this .
Sorry for the blogpost.

>What I have been learning is that it may be easier to accept yourself and just live for pleasure.
That's what I'm doing already. I'm a NEET with more free time than anyone else I know and while I wouldn't say I'm perfectly happy, I'm far happier than I would be if I had to work or study.
>Think of everything you want to do. Places to visit, foods to eat, games to play, and do it.
There's very few things I want to do that I haven't already done. The one thing I still want to do is visit Japan at least once, and I plan on doing that this winter to make it in time for Comiket.
>One thing I'm sure is that I'd be correct in saying nobody will knock on your door to save you.
I most likely don't even want to be saved. A morbid part of me enjoys the self-pity and constant belittling comments it makes about itself.
One part of me loves to hate itself and call the other half scum of the earth, the other loves being insulted and wishes it would be exterminated, in an ironic way.

For now, I'm just living life with my brain turned off. Enjoying things while trying to think as little as possible about them in fear that I may come to realize something about myself that I can't undo and will make me want to change myself when I can't.
But I'm also scared the day will come where I suddenly wake up and feel an incredibly oppressing force that tells me I need to change. Basically, that "normal drive" that most people. That part of their brain that tells them what's acceptable and what isn't, how they should behave, and what they should do. If that part of my mind doesn't lay dormant forever, I'm in a world of trouble.

>I never got to it but I think it helps more if you identify it through an object, like a daki.
It also helps if you've got a serious driving force behind it. I was sort of doing it just to see if it was real or not and thought it would be cool to have a friend and a significant other rolled up in one.

You shouldn't hold people's judgements too highly, have a bit more of self respect. I fail too at the socialising aspect desu, but I feel like I'm slowly improving

People's judgements of you*

I'm just stating the obvious here, but then you need a motivation. However, the kind I'd assume you need isn't easy to come by. You'd probably need something along the lines of a girl who would already consider dating you before you improve yourself, but if what you say about yourself is true... no use sugarcoating it, you're not really dateable in any girl's eyes.
Since that's pretty much impossible to find, and you won't get back in shape without a motivation (and the motivation won't be there without achieving your goal first, which defeats the whole point of it being a motivator) you're pretty much stuck in a rut. So sadly, all I can do is echo my first statement: there's little else you can do but accept it and make the best of it. Deluding yourself like said is probably also good.

source of pic?

I wish I could stop caring, I always find myself holding peoples gazes for a bit too long in order to asses what they think of what I said.

My problem is that I have two modes, either I'm all super fake friendly around people or I could not give a shit about them and am completely unsocial. Both modes are wrong, I just can't seem to fit myself into the middle ground, I'm an extremist.

That's ok. Appreciate the advice. I even have my own dakimakura collection, hehe.
I'm not by the way.

But it feels like I currently have nothing I want to do, no motivations. What then?

I believe it's Akiba's Trip: Undead and Undressed.

Maybe you're asking the wrong questions.
Maybe you should ask yourself why you are there in the first place. And if you know the reason, ask "Why is that" to that answer, and do something about it. I repeat what I said... Nobody will parachute into your room and save you. You either accept the emptiness you are feeling and take it as a part of your life, carrying it wherever you go, or you try your best to change it. Having this posture is worse than both the other alternatives.

>Momofag is from Iceland

Fuck off nigger

bump

leaf from before

think everyone's gone by now. Thanks for making the thread though

>I'm dumb and know nothing about them.
Sweden is currently on a 4.5% growth per year

idk, read books, whine on Cred Forums?

i cant look people in the eyes

it makes me feel nervous
I don't like people because they make me scared

maybe learn martial arts? read nietzsche?
some say there's a trick, to look between the eyes of people (nose)
I used to have this but became more assertive
It's really a skill
I had a phase when I was on the other extreme, I would stare strangers down, for no reason (because why would I be the 1st to look away?)
then I adjusted

You should call this thread the gay space for gay countries lmao c ya wouldn't wanna b ya

>France quietly stares you down

same

i literally have autism tho

and losers on here talk about how they can't get laid cause they're autistic

bitch i have fucked twice as many women as all of you. stop using my illness as an excuse for your failures at being a normalfag. fuck off (as to why i've ever had sex i don't know, they liked me?)

I would like to make an official statement on the behalf of The United States of America.

We are very sorry, and you can all have sex with our wives if you want.