Life has been difficult. I'm lame. Ask away

Yes How re you. How was your day

Happy early birthday

Do you have a job? Or a gf?

Thanks!
Yeah, I'm a bit apathetic. I play music and write, but there aren't really too many projects I've actually completed. I'm writing the soundtrack to a game for some college kids, but who knows if it'll ever be released. I've been going to the gym lately, too. It's great. I used to be in shape. I'm not overweight, but I could really benefit from carrying for my body, you know. Anyway, the more regularly you go, the easier it becomes. You eventually reach a point where it feels good to go.

Do you have any talents? Can you whistle?

where do you get heroin? how do you get heroin? it's supposed to be easy but everything I hear when I actually look into it looks like it's actually harder than I would think and risky

Naw, I used to sleep with this older woman, but I didn't like how clingy she was getting, so I left. I kept letting her know all along that I didn't want her to be my exclusive girlfriend. I'd like another lover, though. They're lots of fun. What about you? Any lovers around?

Yah I'm a hard worker and getting my real estate licence in California. Trust me I love being alive. I'm just sad and unsure. I have no one to talk to about my insecurities and I need that. I'm scared. I'm human. I'm alone

I seen one too many die and baically be living dead from h and meth. I won't even talk to someone on that shit. It makes you want it. It isn't something to want

As for a job, I do construction. Restoration, mostly. It's better than retail or restaurant work, but it gives my body such a workout that it keeps me from going to the gym. And hard work isn't the same as focused exercise. I'm trying to learn C# so I can make games in Unity. I've already made a few simple games in PICO-8, but its a limited platform.

I've been off it forever because of Kratom, but now Kratom is being made illegal

I have no life, it practically hurts to live unless i'm on something. Well that's not your problem, and honestly I was just asking a question completely irrelevant to your post

continue to be lame, god speed

>woman
I'm similar in the mind set and most likely like you I love working out or skating and frisbe. Being able to run and work is awesome.

Yeah actually I whistle well! I can do the kill Bill black mamba whistle on point. Is 30 hard? Is it definitive?

Listen to this dude. Try something that won't ruin you. Get some mushrooms, grab a few friends or lovers and have a night.

But that guilty mind keeps me for being "too" lame. Man why is life like a metaphor for play I cards. Its either a bad hand or a good one!

I've ducked with lsd, 2Ci and shrooms heavily. I'm feeling like I found my mental strentght. Like I know where I'm "good" with trippers but I don't need to do it often. Its become a treat kinda thing. I got into Molly then my parents died from meth so I dropped it. You feel me?

>Get some mushrooms, grab a few friends or lovers and have a night
my biggest problem is having 0 sex drive

I've taken up running and ddr every day but god damn, without a sex drive you have no motivation to get out and meet people

also I'm kinda ugly

Hah, it's not hard, but it is a bit of a landmark. I never thought about it until it happened, you know?
Do you have any artistic outlets? Like I said, I write music and make games. What do you do/make?

(OP)
-Less jerking off to porn.(it makes real girls suck.it's like compairing actresses to real woman in the acting field)
-gym even if it's for alittle it helps alot! Din

I actually rarely masturbate

maybe once or twice a week, not interested in porn

like I said, my sex drive is kaput and I don't know how to fix it

Try a good detox. The recovery period for molly can be a while. It's like spending all of your serotonin at once. It likely is effecting your sex drive. Have you ever had a sex drive?
I dabble in drugs now and then, but not too often (alcohol is the nightly exception).
I don't know how to get through what you're going through, but I do know exercise can only help. I have issues with getting close to people. It feels like a chore to be around people, but I crave it anyway.

hey, last post

I really didn't come here to hijack OP's thread. Didn't realize the life of one stupid Heroin junkie caused so much concern

thanks I guess? but i'm leaving now, carry on

I skateboard (8y) I'm good at public speaking! And I'm good at sales. I have an AA but never tranfered because my mom passed and my life FASFA grades suffered. So I chose to take a year off to try to regain focus hand I became a hard working alchoholic sex addict.life is fucking stange

Viatiams maybe supplements?

What's going on user?

Dang, I wish they'd bring back the ID feature. I've been confusing everyone for someone else.

>Have you ever had a sex drive
I have, but feels like a brief moment in time now, years ago. I still refuse to get into the whole asexual thing though. I'm worried antidepressants messed me up. I'm not on them now but who knows what that shit can do to you long term

I figured it out, s'ok
also I'm a fucking liar

Life . How do you coupe

I've always wanted to skateboard, but never had a board. I think I'll have to give up the booze at some point. Sometimes I go long periods without. I'm not quite a sex addict, but when I have a lover, we end up having sex 2-4 or 5 times a day.
I suffer from ADD or ADHD. Diagnosed long ago, but haven't been medicated since high school. I live in America where it's pretty damn expensive to have any kind of chronic issue. I basically can't focus on things that don't interest me unless they pertain to my immediate (like, minutes) survival.

>24 yo male
>lived with depression all my life
>tired to commit suicide (failed)
>finished university
>working 2 jobs
>trying to get into grad school
>hate myself and feel like I've accomplished nothing
>substance abuse problem
>don't see a point to life/living
>maintain a general disposition of contemptuousness and somehow manage to get through the day

I'm also in America. Ca Bay area(SF,Oak) i know you can figure it out man. You seen to have a strong head on your shoulders. I dont have anything comparable to adhd. I proably have something similar but I always talk my way out of medicine. I don't like pills. Good luck! Sounds like you might have a motivation issue. Try doing thing so far out of normal that normal has to be redefinined

Life's a bitch bro. I try to keep my life simple and set goals. Always lived by this rule...stay single as long as you can and stay in school as long as you can. Currently working on my MSc in environmental engineering. Plus, a mild-moderate alcohol addiction keeps things in check/takes the edge off.

What's your choice ? Like the thing you "have" to come home to?

Mine is cigarettes and hard booze

Maybe check with a doctor. You may benefit from seeing an endocrinologist. But the doctor may have more to tell you. I remember having a period in which I felt asexual when I was about 18-19. It was shortly after losing my virginity to a woman that had initiated everything, I sort of felt empty. Then, at 19, I decided to just take some chances and start asking girls out and it worked. At the moment, my sex drive is great.
At the very least, a doctor can tell you if it's low testosterone or not. But that may require money you don't have,

I wanna go back to school cause I really like school. Social, constant, different. I just have become comfotable maybe? Like content with Life being less difficult

>Sounds like you might have a motivation issue. Try doing thing so far out of normal that normal has to be redefinined
Huh. That might work. Thanks, stranger! Best wishes.

Feels, man.

Has to be hard alcohols, preferably whiskey, and pain killers. Tend to mix both when available.

Oh man when I was 20 I would mix bendrill with popov vodka it was so Fucken bad on the brain

Now I have to had at least 2 packs a whole bottle to feel comfortable.

I've got the same issue bro, I sometimes wonder if it's low testosterone or something. It fucking blows

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You too!

Seriously don't beat it and you're good

Bump

Totally feel you there user. Academics is great for expanding your knowledge, the social aspect, motivation, etc. It's not fucking easy at all but it's worth it in the end. I kind of like to think that the farther you go in your education, the easier life will be. Though, that's 100% not true and it all depends on what you study, but there is some merit in that statement.

user, elaborate on yourself, perhaps we (Cred Forums as a collective) can provide some solid advice...not likely but it's worth a shot.

They should still see a doctor. Low T is a thing. Abstaining from masturbation may not help those folks.

That's a great statement. I appreciate your input. School is hard but nothings easy in my opinion.

My life is great but sad. I was blessed with a great mom who applied me with confidence and love. But 2 days before my 21st she overdosed on meth and I tropes perform cpr and failed. Since then I'm just an apathetic addicted mess. I want more(don't we all may down and wish for more) but I'm a creature of habit.

You're right everyone one is different and an opinion is still just a judgement off of experience. Can't blame others for not having the same experience

When I tried to OD I finished a 26er of some shit vodka and took more sleeping pills and codeine + ativan than I though humanly possible. Woke up in the hospital and they said it was an anxiety attack...wtf. Literally felt like death but still went into work that same day.

FUCKKKK

You still fucking with that shit

Dude, sorry to hear about the shit you've had to go through.

Humans are creatures of habit, don't feel bad about that. I know what it's like to turn to drugs to not have to feel what's going on in my life/the world around me. I work with a guy who underwent something similar...dad had a heart attack, he performed cpr but paramedics arrived and said that he had passed. It's hard as fuck but you need to persevere and fight it...addiction and drugs are easy, creating a better life for yourself is hard. Your mom probably wanted you to make a life for yourself. The fact your posting here and willing to share personal shit is a great start. Get off the fucking drugs, find a support group or a good group of reliable friends and get your life back on track. You'll feel much better doing so.

A drink or two a night, but that's about all nowadays...wish pot was legal in Canada. Still deal with depression on a daily basis but I've come to terms with that and have learned to deal with it.

this song is amazing.