Ok /b, it's on, I'm going away for good tonight, is this enough tramadol to go with class? Or do I need some more?

Hey, man. Listen to some music, I recommend Africa by Toto. Wait before you do it, at least.

And I live in this fucking pseudo-socialist hell called Ecuador, so no seconds chance, you lose once, you lose for ever, no comeback for this fat fuck

Don´t let your son grow without his father

Might as well live stream it.

>your son is going to find out his father just killed himself
>wonders to himself every night why
>may start getting an eating disorder or some other disorder to cope with the loss
>grows up depressed and alone
>goes out the same way his dad did

Do you want this OP?

be VERY careful with tramadol. doses above 500 can easily cause seizures.

seizure =/= death
>nofun

Just turn on some of your favorite tunes. Take the whole bottle and wait. Maybe write a note or something for someone to find. Best to enjoy your last few hours/minutes(?)

Restriction order, the fucking fat bitch got away with her plan, he will grow up without his father any way

>Man wants to commit suicide in a few moments.
>Africa by Toto

KEK

tramadol? what nigga that won't kill you
go buy a shotgun and stream it

I've od'd on tramadol before. You'll go delirious before you die act like you never have before. If you want class, you're better off slitting your own throat.

Shit I wish can't even get high off it

I'm also on sertraline, but that shit is not good as a way out

Faggot

No, OP

Tramadol doesn't restrict your breathing enough. What will more than likely happen is you will have a seizure and black out, then wake up.

If you want to kill yourself you need to either take a huge dose of real opiates (not a synthetic like Tramadol) ie Morphine, fentanyl, etc.

If you want to go in your sleep, get yourself about 4-5g of Phenobarbital. It's not easy to get, but if you can get your hands on it do so.

Take the Pheno, put your head in a large garbage bag and tape it tight. The large bag allows you enough air to fall asleep. Make sure you sleep on your stomach. If you can handcuff your hands, thats good too.

Pheno is needed because even in unconsciousness your motor functions are still active under just about all other drugs, except Phenobarbital.

So, if you took a bunch of sleep aids, you may pass out but as you begin to suffocate your hands will tear the bag off of your face independent of what the rest of your brain is doing.

Best of luck OP, there is nothing wrong with choosing to go out early. There is no afterlife, but imagine it as one very very comfy nap that you never have to wake up from.

Naps aren't all bad, are they?

Doctor fag reporting in.
I'm all for peope killing themselves, I could care less. It just pisses me off when people don't do it right. It takes up a hospital bed, money, and insurance rates go up if they are uninsured. Odd are the
Tramadol will make you have a seizure and you won't die. You'll seize since it's the number 1 side effect of tramadol and will probably puke up everythong you took. It's not a pure opiate so it won't depress your respiratory drive as much as opiates. Just get shot by a cop or shoot yourself tbh

Tramadol won't do much. I'd jump off a building or inject bathroom cleaner into your bloodstream

Fuck, I'm isolated so I can't get anything better, I guess there goes the bathroom mirror, pain killer plus cut wrist

How many mg are you holding there? A quick google search will tell you if that's enough. I see doses as high as 450mg being non-lethal. You'd have to be well over 500mg and maybe mix it with a bunch of alcohol to pump up the effect. Hate to end up fucked up but not dead. Choose wisely.

toasting in bread.

Post pictures OP, we need pictures for the screencap

So what. At least you feel something. You realize you were dormant for billions of years before now right? You'll go right to that again possibly forever. Killing yourself is silly unless you're in prison. Being able to feel anything is objectivity better than nothing for eternity unless it's blinding physical pain.

A never ending nap would be much closer to an after life than non existence. Your analogy is faulty even though I agree with h you.

dont do it op just give it a week go see family do what would make this pass over best of luck

Get yourself mad drunk, use a belt to hang yourself.

Come on user give yourself an other chance. Dont end it like this, sure things are bad today but maybe tomorrow shit could go better

Don't do it, seriously.

I had a daughter at 16, lost her 2 years later. Got laid off, stopped taking oxycodone and tramadol, lost my home and everything I had. Including my friends.

I didn't stop man, I don't know why. But things are a lot better. Do some drugs at least if you have to. You gotta realize you don't DIRECTLY want to die, no one does. They just want to stop all/any pain and that's the first thing that comes to our mind. Forfeiting your consciousness and sentience is a loss that tops anything you can fathom about.

And I'm here for you if you ever need me, I'll drop my e-mail if you want.

So when do we get the link for the An Hero OP?

You could care less?

Dont do it OP, give life another chance

Family was my kid, he was everything I have ever care for, now I will never see him again, you can't take a man's child, it's taking his life

Maybe he just misses the rains down in Africa.

Don't do it OP, I can understand things are feeling tough at the moment but give it some more time and see how things are turning out. Also that bottle won't kill you as stated earlier, just going to be a horrible experience.

Best bet is to pull a gun on a cop(if you're black this'll work, any other race it doesn't work) You'll get shots faster than a rich teen at a club

OP, your life doesn't sound too different from mine. Haven't seen son in 2 years, spent time in and out of jail, just lost a sibling who was one of the few people I loved, sober alcoholic and still crave it.. I'm always depressed, too anxious to be around people, have no life or friends. But being in jail deprived of freedom and always looking over my shoulder allowed me to appreciate life. Even if all I have is what we call "freedom" at least it's something. Just saying nobodies life is easy.. death is the only easy thing in life. Don't take the easy way out. You will be reunited with your child one day, until then work on becoming the person you want to be. There's always hope regardless of the circumstances. Hope you change your mind op. Plus tramadol is a terrible way to go and would probably only trigger seizures.

Found the nigger. Do you really think only black people get shot by the police?

I'm not even black. I'm whiter than Mitt Romney in a snow storm

I would go with something less expensive.

This. Honestly I would feel bad if I didn't tell you not to do it. You really shouldn't, it's a very selfish thing to do. Think of other people. But IF you're gonna do it get a bunch of Oxy or Heroin for some great warm feels, then combine it with a bunch of Xanax for bravery and confidence. You'll pass out and likely stop breathing if you do enough of both. Tramadol will be nowhere near as pleasurable. Have some tits to cheer up

Smoke some weed, get a hooker, order pizza, just enjoy life for a bit. okay?

OP, sell everything you have, go to thailand, and fuck everything untill your dick falls off. If you dont have anything to live for, then you are free. your life starts NOW.

This is all true, and I was gonna compliment you on your advice until-
>there is no afterlife
That's a bold statement to say as fact. Someone with intelligence knows that it's impossible to say that or the opposite as 100% true or false. None of us pleb's know the truth.

I don't think he has money at the moment, because of child support.

mom?

You know what's funny, I was the man I wanted to be, hard worker, good dad, good husband, no religious but did everything in the good way, good I'll one day, big mass on my brain, almost died, she left me, didn't cry, I could see my son, started a game collection for him, retro and actual, left notes on the manuals saying how much I love him, got high scores so he could beat them, tried to be happy, then she decided that I wasn't good enough to be his father, she paid the judge and my lawyer, the child support is 90% of my salary and is retroactive so I have to sell everything to pay, and the judge got her an restriction order in case I got violent (never did, never will)

Op. Take some shitty people with you. Dont be a selfish prick.

I think a rope would be the best option to be honest

Tramadol is the worst overdose ever. Its not a real opiate so you wont die from respritory depression. It acts more like an ssri on steroids and causes serotonin syndrome which results in seizures. When i was 16 i overdosed on tramadol in front of my whole family, had a grand mal on the floor lol

wouldnt it make more sense to drug rhe mother/kill her so yoy can spend your last moments with your son

Nursefag here. Tramadol wont kill you, you'll end up in the hospital with painful stomach and liver complications and your life will be even more shit.

Nope, he doesn't deserve to be orphan, he needs at least his mother in this world, I'm OK with dying alone anyway

hey OP

I dont know you and i don't really give a fuck but i can't sit here and tell you to do it. There's somebody, somewhere who loves you dude. you got a kid I know you love. dont put him/her through this. They'll never forgive you and if it will be an instant regret if you wake up from an OD. i know shit seems too fucked right now but a year from now you will be a different place. no matter what, you'll come out on the other side of this if you dont end it now. i know because a year ago i lost everything, i was looking at 5-10 years in prison. i was withdrawing from heroin and meth. i was fucked. but here i am a year later, clean and sober, not in prison and with a job i couldn;t have imagined. shit turns around for people. don't do yourself in. you only get ONE life and there sure as fuck is no after life. just stick it out and you'll get through this one. just hang tight Cred Forumsro

tl;dr hang in there dude. the only way out is through this pain and you'll be stronger in the end. be safe dude.

what is this shit about

Let's be honest, he'd legitimately have a better shot of suicide by cop working if he's black.

This doesnt actually sound like a bad idea, if I were in OP's situation, I would consider it.

Not black, also not in the USA, here cops only shoot people that is targeted by the government, I'm not as much as an dissident, so no luck on that field

This is one of the smartest posts I've heard on Cred Forums. Take out cash advances and credit cards, have a fucking ball at least. You only get one life. You need to live it exactly the way you want at this point and spend your moments in instant gratification.

>have an amazing time
>realize there's so much to life
>don't want to die anymore
>eyeballs deep in uncontrollable debt

yep it's solid advice, OP should follow it.

This

OP is currently looking at uncontrollable debt
>best advice on Cred Forums ever

You got there a good point

But I'm still in isolation, so no pizza, no credit card, and as I see it, wasted my time stealing that fucking tramadol, so shit got crappier

Fuck the debt, just have to sell everything and move to Thailand if he doesnt have anything to lose where he is now. Thailand is cheap as fuck and to me it sounds like a better option to do that and have a great time in paradise instead of killing himself

read this OP

I have legal prohibition to go outside the country, and I'm pretty sure that also includes Thailand

This 2
scribd.com/document/10035855/The-Freedom-of-Choice-Thomas-J-Chalko

I was thinking about doing the same. I have over 100 hydroxy zine 25 mg. 47 clonazepam .05 mg. 39 oxybutynin 5mg. 24 quetiapine 25mg. 44 fluoxetine 40 mg. What will do the job?

nigga you only need to make it out of the country once. Jump on a damn boat one of those giant cargo haulers is bound to have food or coke in them.

forgot wad cash from cash advances up and rubberband them then saran wrap and plastic bag then put up ass

You are an idiot. If you truly wanted to kill yourself you would do it with helium or nitrogen (type "exit bag tutorial" into youtube). The fact that you are attempting it with drugs (which have an extremely high rate of failure) shows that you are just a stupid attention whore. Why don't you go stuff your face with animal flesh while you cry yourself to sleep, fatty!

Just remember, as long as you are still alive, there is a chance (even if its the slightest) for it to get better. If you kill yourself, those chances are eliminated.

What if you have to experience life all over again if you kys? Incarnation is a bitch

Just watch this. not much but i hope it helps you OP...
youtube.com/watch?v=HKI_oYMUNK4

No luck there, search for Quito, even if I get to escape here, leave this house, there's a good chance that I'll get wanted for not paying the debt (here if you don't pay in 5 days after the judge order or you miss two months, you are going to jail), and thanks for that drug trafficking faggots on Colombia we have road blocks everywhere, if I make to the border is worts, if I had money I could pay a policeman out two but I'm broke, bank accounts frozen and 1 day left before going to jail

Tramadol gave me panic attacks for weeks.
I didn't care for it.

just say fuck it leave the country go somewhere else

What are you, a chick? Fucking be a man and use a gun or jump off a building.

user that was surprisingly heartfelt. Nice to see

How much money are we talking about here?

try some lsd first

You're stupid as fuck. Your child can CHOOSE to come live with you when he is 16.

Make a website for him, send him cards, do whatever.. he'll come looking for his real father one day and if you're dead then there are no chances to look for you.

You selfish cunt. What a stupid fucking reason to kill your self. Oxy-fuckin-moron if you ask me. I hate my life because I can't see my kid, so I'm going to make sure he can never see me ever again.... really? Fuck you.

>he fell for the lose your virginity to some dumb whore and impregnate her meme

You deserve to die

1600 dollar, not much on the US, but here the minimum wage is 359 minus IESS (obligatory health care) so is like 300 and my monthly child support is 280 so do the math, my bank account had 329 dollar and got frozen by judge order, I have a few magic the gathering cards that won't sell on this country (tried already) and my son's games, but that's his games, I would never sell something that I got for him

Dude, I get what you say, but the truth is that the mass on my brain is still there, my life expectancy is 10 years, when my son is 11 I'll be dead, had 10 years to live for him, but no any more

user, I feel for you. I have not gone through the process of losing a child, but I have been through some other stuff like you. No friends, no family, no one I cared about. I saved myself by joining the military, and while I know it is not for everyone it is something you should think about. You get a govt. issued family, instant friends, and more. That said, I see you are having money issues and I am in a spot in my life where I have more than I need. Shoot me an email and I will do my best to give you a handup through paypal. I wanna help ya bro

I did that shit every night for two years. Drank with it. I have no fucking idea how I survived. Shit was lame.

Pic related, it killed him.

Also, I think you should keep going. Just saying, you literally never know what will happen tomorrow. I don't care, either way. I'd just prefer you didn't.

If life seems dark now and the world heavy. You can't imagine how dark and heavy it will be when you are 6ft under having lost your sentience and soul. I've been there, spent 15 months in a coma, died 7 times on the operating table. Waking up was the hardest thing I ever will do, but at least I did. You go this path and their will be no waking for you no being a better stronger man tomorrow.
>pic related, shit second belly button looking scar I got from having a feeding tube 15 months.

Wow... I'm actually speachless...

None I'm my country had even offered me a hand without some interest, some even tried to make me hack or breach securities for a few dollars, you just offered me help for nothing...

God damn it, I'm... Just wow

I strongly believe that if I have the ability to help someone, and I do not take that opportunity I am not worthy of the blessings I have. Helping people is my calling, and I think you are someone who needs some help in a dark time

A true hero right here. More people should be like you

Post your paypal and we'll see if some Cred Forumsros can help you make this situation a bit easier

this

Don't do it op .

Don't do it. See a therapist

I would help aswell but unfortunately i'm broke for 4 more days... You're a good person Cred Forumsro

no the father is always available

You know what, I'm un debt with you just for the offer, OK, had this account for an emergency anyway

Here's hope, and man, I'm serious, if you ever, ever, come to Ecuador, there will be a cold beer for you, and a good place to stay, I'll work to get it, you have my word

[email protected]

Come on guys, those of you that have a couple of dollars left over, give this man a donation and help him out from this fucked up situation

you dun cucked OP, now you're just a wage slave for your ex. Do you think your child cares about you after a while when you've pumped all your money into child support and your ex is the one handing your child all the gifts? Lmao, and all you can resort to at this point is wandering around Cred Forums and whatever other forsaken hellholes in search for sympathy. Nobody is gonna remember your name after you die, eventually not even your own child.

Okay OP. On two conditions. first, post timestamp with paypal on it and bottle of tramadol, and second you have to live long enough for me to make it to Ecuador, because after that journey I know I will want a fucking beer bro

your best bet for an overdose is a large amount of real opiates, most effective would be intravenously injecting heroine and oral ingestion of medium to large (6-20mg of Xanax) amount of benzos. I recommend talking to at least 1 person in real life and chances are you'll find a reason to keep going at least for now

This is gold

That I know for sure, I don't want to be remembered, I want my son to feel loved, now from his mom and dad, someday from someone that will treasure him like no other can, my time is done, I just wish the best for him even if he never remembers this old fat fuck

are you being sarcastic? Just asking

Why would I? Time here is 8 in the morning and I should've gone to sleep hours ago but i've been monitoring this thread since this hero actually is willing to help a guy planning to kill himself by donating some money. Times like this I love this shitty board

>>someone is donating money
mfw when that gmail inbox is full of cocks

tramadol is non narcotic

Please, if you can, just tell me your name, I know I'm not in position to make requests but I really want to thank you by name

OP, when I was 16 I lost my little sister to suicide and when I was 17 my dad went out the same way and ever day I want to do this and every day I keep living. Live for your son. Kind soul. Much love.
-M

op i know you wrote that to sound inspiring or some shit but i just cringed so hard, trucking please kill yourself

My name is Jonathan my friend. It may take me a few minutes to get some money in paypal, but I'll make it happen. And I am serious man, if you don't stay alive until life is taken away from you despite your best efforts, I will shit on your gravestone. Your son needs a father, and even knowing that you are still trying to be there for him may just be enough. I know it would have meant the world to me

lol jk faggot i dont really care about you or your problems, enjoy getting doxxed lol

You know, I have being here for years, fapping to random photos, seeing people fight for ponies, at the beginning of the night I thought that maybe someone would be happy with my dead, at least I would entertain someone, never though people will actually help, or even care, here I was hoping for a bit of hell, and found heaven instead, you guys, if my son grows up to be like you, I'll be pleased like none ever was

OK... Well, no worries, at least I believed in people for a few minutes, cheers I guess

That other fuck isnt me. I posted right above that guy

Oh, sorry, I'm in a phone so is difficult to keep track, is the only thing I managed to keep on my hands

i like your collection of star wars figures on twitter

Ok OP, I am working on getting paypal to work but its being fucky. If the thread dies before I can get it to work, Ill send some cash after. I only ask that you make another thread proving that I did come through, not for personal pride or a pat on the back but just to show that sometimes, we do have hearts. Its a completely user board, I have nothing personal to gain from that. Cheers man, working on a solution

Yeah, I had them in my old office, I had all my SW ships there, tried to sell them, no buyer and a lot of trouble...

Will do, will do

>here I was hoping for a bit of hell, and found heaven instead

If you take too little your kidneys are dead and you are poisoned. Where did you get your hands on that? And also OP please don't do it

Jonathan here, Paypal definatly wont work tonight. I have to upload some information I dont have right now. Will you be around in 48 hours? You better fucking be

Thank you Cred Forumsro, thank you. I'm not OP but this is really making me happy, you have a big heart. And OP, i wish you all the best in the future. Signing out now, cheers

"Borrowed" from a nurse, they use it for themselves any way, I'm being treated for my depression, had a rough year as you can read, so I had enough, here, none to live for, my life in pieces, needed something to go for good, and this is all I got, this and a pencil, and my phone in case someone tries to contact me from de court

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And I am serious man, if you don't stay alive until life is taken away from you despite your best efforts, I will shit on your gravestone. Your son needs a father, and even knowing that you are still trying to be there for him may just be enough. I know it would have meant the world to me
I wasn't trying to feel tonight

You gave me hope, and I made a promise, I'll be here, today (since is like 2am) is my last day to pay the debt, but I'll get some legal mumbo-jumbo up my ass and wait, I trust you, and I will trust thant I can make it, will be here my friend, not waiting, but ready to fight for one more day.

Here's hope, you god damn user beautiful beautiful bastards, thank you.

And you my friend, that beer is waiting, thanks Jonathan, from my heart, my name is Pablo.

stay strong Pablo, I will contact you tomorrow when I can get this all to work. Cheers

Why dont you kill her?

Cheers my friend

My son deserves a mother, and she is in way better position than me, her father has shares on a mayor beer factory, also, I'm not likely to become a killer

[email protected]? I emailed you.

OP your son needs a father even if you're not in the picture all the time. Please reconsider.

I will email him too

Got the same bottle of tramadol, found it yesterday at my parents' house between my old stuff. I got it like a year or so ago, the expiracy date faded out.

The question is, may I try it or is it true I shouldn't eat drugs after expiracy date?

If you enjoy seizures and kidney failure, sure

I don't actually. Thanks for advice.

[email protected]
This is the actual email, you were off by a letter

OP, post a picture of your wife.

Sleep it off OP. See how you feel in the morning.

Also don't use tramadol.

Im noting the numbers on this shit, you're not going.

Erased every picture of her, you know, even if I didn't cry when she left, it hurt like hell, I tried so hard to be the right man, and then she just left me, went back to the comfy life on her parents house, and left me to rot, there's no way I'll be holding to act momento from her, she did enough damage as it is