Can we get a feels thread going? just generally feel like shit and I need a good read
Can we get a feels thread going? just generally feel like shit and I need a...
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Feel my hard dook, crying faggot!
Have major feelings for girl. Girl and I used to date. Now she's with another guy but she says she still has feelings for me. I'm going into Air Force. She says that I'll be gone too long for us to ever be more than friends. Only girl I've ever loved. Shit hurts.
Tfw in your way to becoming wizard unwillingly}
Tfw too coward to hire a slut out of betaness and fear for ITS
Tfw they are all sluts either way
As you as you blow shit up and enjoy it, who gives a flying fuck?
I'm sorry bro... :(
I created a telegram group for us from feels threads to hangout together, maybe be like a support group. join if you feel like.
I just miss her you know...
Anyone here just hate themselves ? I litterally 0 self esteem. Honestly my parents still have hope for me but damn am i sure gonna let them down by being a fucking loser. Im thinking about when i move out i might just off myself. Idk i just hear this voice in my head telling me everything that is wrong with me. Like i look in the mirror and i dont see a good qualities i see everything eveyone wants to avoid. I just want off this wild ride now.
okay I'll greentext if there's interest
be a vegetable in third world
paralyzed below chest
Do it for the quads
Same here. But my parents don't have hope anymore or rather my father doesn't. My mother is mentally ill, crazy and I lost touch with her years ago.
I am emotionally instable as fuck and suffering from depression as well.
I don't even want to drop this here because my English is crappy too what makes me a bigger idiot than I already am.
holy shit, what a co-incidence
well life is utter shit. i don't know which story to tell because it's been 8 years and feel like i can write a book. off course my fingers don't work so can't really type fast enough to do that.
Ask away if you guys have any questions
Why us ?
can i join without revealing my cell number
A really close friend of mine got shot just an hour ago,stray bullet.
I may just be a simple nigger, but Jesus fucking Christ it hurts
I don't know. Searched my whole life for answers. Now I believe that there are no fucking answers. It just happened, all this shit within my life and my head. It's not even destiny. It is. That's it.
yes telegram requires a phone number during sign up but when you join group your number stays hidden from others
always had really bad depression
sitting alone one day like usual
girl walks up to me, ask me if I'm ok
talk for a while
we become friends
depression goes away
develop major crush on her
plan to ask her out on Dec. 31st
two hours before my deadline
her friend texts me
user you're friends with (femanon) right?
Well, you aren't going to like this...
sends me over 50 screenshots of femanon bashing me
not even "Ha ha, he's a loser"
full-on hatred, bitching about how I ruined her life
utter rage and sadness
most depressed I've ever been
say thank you for telling me
lie down and contemplate suicide for three days
There's more, but not really feels-y. Actually kind of funny.
Rip bro, story please? :(
My father passed away last Saturday. Still think about him everyday and how badly I wish I could have one last conversation with him. Don't take your parents for granted anons
kind of feeling the same, father died when I was born, and now my mother is divorcing my abusive step-dad of 8 years (I'm 18) after he blamed for us being poor and calling me a stupid piece of shit and stuff. also recently got in a car crash (just when things were looking better) and am now in insane debt. I've never had any friends that have willingly wanted to hang out with me and I'm too socially awkward to talk to girls and paranoid that I'll never be good enough for a girl... so yeah I'm not feeling too great either, but I guess you just gotta push all that pain deep down and forget about it since people will call you a pussy if you kill yourself. life's a bitch, eh?
Which is worse knowing what love is and having it fade away or never knowing it at all?
Keep going I wanna hear more. Not BC it's funny but BC I wanna hear what happens
Both are shit trust me
Id egg her house or some shit and progressively get worse and when she comes to cry to you about it just hug her and tell her its okay... but ruin that bitches life
I second this
Re: Zero not sure which issue
fucking rip, dont do me like that annon
Yeah I thought that was a powerful one. Found it today so I figured I'd share it with you guys.
heres a feelys song
Me two years ago have great life with gf and lots of friends. Move away because of work gf cheats on me with my best friend contemplating the good ol one two bullet to the head because nothing makes me laugh or smile anymore I just live hating my life
I feel you Cred Forumsro similar thing happened to me a while ago. It gets easier very slowly, lots of antidepressants help, being sequestered doesn't. Speaking from personal experience.
Slowly coming to terms that people do not like me or want me to be around unless I come in useful. Honestly, that's what I do with my life. I let my work show that I'm worth being around. Probably one of the reasons why I'm doing a startup on my own. Might be why I have some friends. I probably make them look good and feel better.
Not only that, I'm coming to terms that I won't find a girl that I can actually trust to be with. Given, I've never been in a relationship but it doesn't help with what I've seen and how people have looked at me growing up and worse in college. College has really shown me how cruel people are and how unforgiving they can be. Also, the dating scene is horrendous with the simple rules being: 1) be attractive and 2) don't be unattractive. Translated to have everything and you're fine if not you're a creep and loser.
I will say that it has made me into a better person. I'm more patient and understanding than the majority of people I know. Even if I do get hurt, I don't bother getting angry anymore or strike back. It's really coming back down to that I don't understand people.
Snap out of that fucking mindset bro. Same thing has happened to me, time heals everything. And I promise you, you will look back on this period in a few months and be so fuckin happy that you pushed through. Your life is gonna be amazing man, you just gotta look forward to the good times
It's better to have loved, it might not feel like it many times, but the sheer emptiness of feeling nothing is the worst in my opinion. Although, I do remembering wanting to feel nothing again right after some heart breaking happened. It's a tough one.
You underestimate me.
after contemplating suicide I feel motivated
anger is the steam that turns the turbine of my strength
go to gym every day, work out
go up to her friend (she's a lot hotter than other girl was) and ask her out
she said yes, self esteem bursts through the roof
lose virginity, feelsgoodman.jpg
get a part-time job as a mechanic
able to get awesome gifts for new gf
graduate from High School with all As
bitch sees us every day, visibly jealous
meanwhile gf is glorifying me to her
saying I'm the best boyfriend ever
drive gf up to Lake Tahoe for a week, stay in small cabin
while there I get a call
contact is labeled "Fuck Off"
pick up the phone
Heyyyyy user, it's me!
Do you remember when we were friends?
been planning this for several months
pull out speakers, plug in shitty 4th gen Ipod and start playing a special song
If you had
Or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted
In one moment
Would you capture it
Or just let it slip?
she hangs up
I will forever torment her with the knowledge that she almost had it all.
Then don't give her the satisfaction of offing yourself. If you do, you won't show her anything other than that you were miserable.
This is what I like to see
user gets screwed over by femanon
instead of offing himself, turns it into rage
bangs femanon's friend
friend makes other bitch jealous af
run destruction.exe on femanon
That's how you do THAT.
Thanks, I was quite satisfied with her reaction afterwards.
well if this is true then I'm very proud of you user. No sappy shit but even just reading that gives me motivation... not that I'm going to do anything about it it's just nice to know that some people still have it good <3
god there's no escape
i don't drink i feel bad
i drink and i feel compelled to go until i black out and sometimes even then im not satisfied
then i wake up hungover and feel worse than before
my FUCKING BRAIN
Listening to the music now, OP. Thanks. Got me thinkin'; its got me feelin'.
I'm in between jobs right now. I'm awaiting to hear back about my bar results, but its hard finding a job. Running out of money. I'm just tired. Being a lawyer is stressful.
I just miss being a kid. Having no cares. Where fall meant that you would see your friends every day again after a long summer apart. The weather was cooling down and christmas was a couple months away. New beginnings. Leaves would crunch under your bike tire as you rode down the sidewalk, the laughs and yells of your friends filling the air.
Now its changed. I feel alone. I miss it.
At least Fall is coming.
No problem m8, I love to give out some motivation.
That was an epic win, I'm proud of you, Cred Forumsro
Personally I try to go it without drugs. Raised straight edge by constant reminders of how badly it fucks you up.
Not how I force others to be, just how I am. Not tempted to do that stuff but I get how you feel, in those scenarios it feels like there's nothing you can do to relieve your pain. And I personally think all you can do is try to alleviate your pain in other healthier ways.
Again, just my opinion not what you have to do.
yeah you're right
it's just pure suffering sometimes that way though
i have to come to terms with the suffering
oh sweet christ make it stop
I call bs.
There are a few things to do, none of which (of the healthy ones) will be instantaneous, but will ultimately be much more effective. You could see a counselor if you think the reasons are psychological, you could get antidepressants if you think it's chemical or you could go the less complicated way and go out of your comfort zone to do whatever will help I.e. excersise or meeting new people or taking initiative to make a big change in lifestyle.
Shame that he didn't pick up.
To continue off this, I'm sitting on the porch, listening to the crickets. Im thinking of the times I came back to the suburbs during college and drove around, getting ready to drink. Party. General mischief. Now I'm sitting here doing nothing. Those people are long gone. Those times are long gone. Where does time go?
Where did the best friend go? The one who laughed and said he would be there for you.
Where did the woman who loved you go? The one who said she would be there forever.
Again, where does time go? The happiness?
Similar situation only much more recent. I'll be getting this book to help me through it. Maybe it would help you too. Betrayal is a horrible thing I know.
For some it doesn't happen. I get why you're down but you don't have it as bad as some.
Alternatively, in my opinion things like that fade quick leaving painful scarring, so I absolutely get what you mean.
Having them fade away.
Man bitches be fucking cruel. They seam to fool us so easily but I'm starting to think they're all pretty much heartless.
For some it doesn't happen. I get why you're down but you don't have it as bad as some.
I understand. It doesn't stop me from feeling. Being a lawyer sucks. Being young and carefree was bliss.
Alternatively, in my opinion things like that fade quick leaving painful scarring, so I absolutely get what you mean.
Tell me a bit about it user.
Also, what city is that? I'm from and live in Chicago; it looked familiar. I suppose all urban areas begin to look alike from a niche shot like that though.
Sounds about right
Always more room to create more scars and memories on though. Even as painful as it may eventually be.
Fuck bitches man
nigga make a discord fuck telesham
You still here cripplebro?
I'm here people, trying to drown my depression in honey.
You said you wanted a good read, here you go.
nice pic user
i love that time when the autumn hit or early spring
the when the night hit after a small rain the empty streets
or the night walks in general or when i get home from night shift its 5:30-6:00
my favorite time so quiet so few people the air smell different so fucking good
i love that time when the autumn hit or early spring
the when the night hit after a small rain the empty streets
or the night walks in general or when i get home from night shift its 5:30-6:00
my favorite time so quiet so few people the air smell different so fucking goo
I loved that too. Life was so comfy in Fall with my gf. She left and now it's the worst of times.
confess my feelings for this girl
claims she's aromantic
crushed but continue to talk as friends
we connect at every level and have a lot of common interests
she's texting me how she likes this guy but is too shy to try and talk to him
encourage her to go for it
they're supposed to skype later tonight
So this is what it feels like to want to die.
Ditch her. She's obviously not into you, and it will suck to hear that but it's the truth. Being just the friend won't help. I did it, I always regretted it. I did it for years. Do what I didn't.
tfw you find the one
tfw she's the cutest thing in the goddamn world
tfw she actually laughs at your jokes and enjoys talking with you
tfw you can't stop thinking about her
tfw you keep imagining spending your whole life with her
tfw there's a small ray of hope, indicating that she may feel the same
tfw you walk down the hall and see her kissing her boyfriend
tfw you ask yourself why you keep thinking that could ever be you
She will fuck him. She will tell you how good it was... Then she'll probably cry on your shoulder and still she won't fuck you.
small hands and feet
never been with or kissed anyone
suffer from social anxiety
dad left when I was 8
live with drunk mom
was working as waitress but got fired
live in the ghetto
can't even go out without getting harassed
feel so helpless
can't look anyone in the eyes
really shy in public
Just want friends
I feel alienated
use video games as an escape
reality is so shit
suffer from severe depression
I hate feeling so alone
hug my pillow at night
day dream a lot
Just wish I would die in my sleep
ugh im such a failure...all I want is a single friend in this fucked up world.. :/
reason I use steam is because whenever i give out skype people pretend to be nice to me and then flash me and ask for dirty things :x
Well. My best and only friend moved away. We did everything together. We never drifted apart or fought once. They just called me and said "Good bye user. I'm moving a few cities away." I know we can Skype and all but I'm really sad
I've known those types. Horrible manipulative and sadistic creatures they are. Pure evil.
If you truly feel that way, confront her. Tell her how you feel. Carpe diem. You could die tomorrow and if you died knowing that you didn't take the chance how devastating would that be?
GTFO of here with that bait! The other thread you tried starting is still up dumbass.
all I want is a single friend in this fucked up world
Check em. Link to other one?
Honestly, it will happen. Just live your life. The more you try and push friendships and relationships, the less likely the are to happen.
I was in your position almost a decade ago. You'll be ok Kassidi.
two weebs already posted on this dudes account.
Thats how you can tell they're fucking newfags.
BRB going to change my steam account to fucking Adolf hitler.
You will all fall and hurt, only to pull yourself out once you get sick and tired of feeling it every day, every minute.
Focus on yourself. And only yourself. Period. Not for forever. But for right now, it's time to be a little selfish.
There ya go :)
After 2 years of trying to fix a 7 year relationship, I realized that I fell out of love with a decent woman. (Obv.. there were probs. Hence fix.)
Now living out of a one room (Okay, one room plus bathroom) apartment with no furniture, (I miss sleeping in a bed) and barely making ends meet due to college loans from 2010 that take close to 15% of my income.
Bright side? Chick I've known for a while started showing an interest. (Or rather I noticed it finally) Got to talking and she says her and her boyfriend recently split and she wants to live on her own for a while.. but maybe start with a few dates.
Fine by me. I prefer the slow and steady.
Oh wait.. nevermind. Her ex threw her out later that day. She is moving back to her parents a state away.
Back to being alone and poor.
Actually pretty helpful. You're fucking cool
Throughout the course of a day I hate here intensely then I miss her with the same veracity. It's so damn tiring and confusing. Can barley get from one moment to the next. And somehow I get the feeling that it isn't effecting her at all.
Truly loving and losing it is worse. Trust me.
Goodnight anons. Steam is Lord stormy if you wanna talk or shit. Mine isn't b8
I think I will do that in a matter of time. But for now I can't just leave her, regardless thanks for the advice bro
Check em. My story didn't get recognised. Goodnight
No problem, just don't let yourself get hurt by it. If you insist on staying, just take things with a grain of salt.
dubs and i suck my own dick on oovoo
30yo oldfag here
I've been through the rough all my life. Shit just doesn't make any sense sometimes, but you must, and I mean make FUCKING SURE, that you take care of yourself first.
You MUST be ok with yourself before anything else can happen. I, or anyone, don't have any specific prescription on how you model yourself, but whatever you honestly think makes you better, then do it.
Because, really, it all comes back to you. You, and your self worth, self value. As the saying goes, it all rolls down hill. If you can't like yourself, you cannot expect anyone else to. Therefore, that is your goal, right now, to make improvements.
And don't let a god damn thing stop you.
Night guys, thanks for the awesome thread, hopefully I could've helped some of you, if not it's cool just to chat with you guys.
my personal feels. i'm fucking wasted. I'm sorry Jessica
Like I said. Steam is Lord stormy
I'm a white nigger, I'm sorry about your friend that sucks.
Kissless 22 virgin
live with divorced dad
dad lives like a bachelor and has a new chick over every week and I can't even talk to girls because I'm an aspie retarded fuck
Contemplate suicide daily
Self-Righteous feels thread bump
I don't have close friends, this makes me feel lonely and fucking useless.
My only friend, a female, got angry ate because of a confusion. So I said nasty things to her, stupid things. I regret it now.
I miss her, I even cried.
Be me, married, 34.
crying for a friend
wife says I'm better off without her
female friend was pretty, but miss her friendship
wife suspects she wanted something else
I will be visiting her city. I miss her! She hasn't texted back for a month, I feel embarrased to just show up and say "Hi, I'm sorry, I really need your friendship, I need you".
more fish in the sea Cred Forumsro
It wasn't her fault, I'm the one that fucked it. I have come to terms with this in the last month or so. I fucking hate myself for it.
Did you cheat on her? Did you beat her? If not then there's no way it's all your fault. If so well....
have feelings for grill
talk a lot and get pretty close compared to most
she comes over one night
we stop talking after a little while
talking a lot again
go on date tonight
talks about how the last guy she slept with
talks about how he could even make her legs shake
detach myself from the whole rest of the date
go on Cred Forums
Have I really become this beta guys? I tried so hard to not feel this way for her or anyone for a while. Howd it happen so quickly again
I hope yall are having a good night though.
You either have to ALPHA up and go after her or forget her. These are the only options she wont expect any less
Well the forgetting her was going well for a few months, I just dont know what changed. maybe just the desire for human contact on an emotional level.
For the last 15 months I've been in love. For the first year we were together, but he lied and betrayed my trust so many times. We're trying again but im having a hard time trusting him and coping with it. Everything is going to hell and I really need him but all I can think about his him lying right to my face. He says he loves me and I'm the only girl he's ever loved, I have been with him the longest now out of all his exes. It just kills me knowing he can be looking me dead in the eyes and still lie and not be phased. He said stiff was different and it took him losing me to realize that he cares about me more and he'll never do it again. But god damn it, it hurts. I never lied or did anything wrong.
Sounds like she was shit testing you. They really can be cunts.
Let your feelings overcome you or you have to overcome your feelings
Some of you will recognise my story from before. OP is back Cred Forumsros. I have updates, mostly good ones too. Here goes
haven't hit puberty yet
constantly picked on/ beaten up for it
chads at my school make fun of me for not having hair on my balls yet
humiliate me publicly by beating me to the floor in the boys locker room, drag me outside and pull my pants down
basically constantly humiliated in front of girls
hate myself, want to an hero
one day after being beaten to shit on the way home from school, I felt a presence help me back up
heard the sweetest voice i've ever heard ask "are you ok? do you want me to get you some bandages or something?"
open my one good eye (one was kinda swollen shut I remember)
just kinda smiled and said yes
prettiest thing I'd ever seen
forrest seeing jenny for the first time is a good analogy
she held my hand and walked with me to her house
first time someone who wasn't in my family showed me affection or compassion
I fell for her right then and there
she took me inside to her living room couch and sat me down
brought me some ice, band aids and a glass of lemonade
just kinda laid back while she iced my face
that was some warm ice
end up just watching TV together while she tried to get me to open up and talk to her
eventually broke down
close to tears, just tell her everything
tell her I hate myself, I don't know why people are like that to me, never did anything but be nice to them
she just hugs me
after a minute she whispered "well I like you, you're nice and I think you're cute"
what the fuck
I was cute
a girl liked me
watched TV until 8 or 9
she fell asleep on my shoulder
didn't want it to end
eventually her dad came home from some dinner thing he went to
wasn’t mad or anything that I was there
I think he pitied me
got home at 9:15 or something
parents were pissed at first, but they saw that I got beat to hell again and let it go
start going over to her house everyday after school
become closer as the year goes on
her family eventually gets to know me and adores me
almost like part of her family, over there so much
gets to the point where we are inseparable
chads begin picking on her too because she's seen with me a lot
she doesn't seem to care but I feel terrible because of it
slowly cut off contact because I hate seeing her get picked on
She catches on and tells me she doesn't care and to stop
cave in immediately
sometimes when I had a really bad day I would sneak over to her house at night and cuddle with her
thought her dad caught me sneaking over one night, turns out his family knew a lot more about what was going on at school than I thought
her dad kinda knew already, totally fine with it
tells me I'm always welcome there
I've moved on, but she cannot stand being around me. I want to find love again, but she will loom over my choices. Why can't she leave me alone?
says just ask if I need something
cuddle her to bed a lot more
life went on like this for a while
summer came and things got better
did everything together that summer
got invited on a road trip with her family to the grand canyon
a lot of the trip was her sleeping on my chest or me sleeping with my head in her lap in the back of a suburban
when we got to grand canyon national park we spent 5 hours feeding peanut butter crackers to chipmunks with her brother
walked around some trail with some BS special significance to see the sunset
it was special to me for a different reason
held her hand
basically just walked around smiling like a tard
trying to go somewhere with no people
got to this half ledge thing and sat down
kinda stared off for a while, very scenic to be honest
then she leaned over on me and whispered
"you know user, I love you, really"
kinda froze for a sec
I don't know why, looking back on it, but I wasn't sure what to say
she seemed to get kinda nervous
"do you love me back, user?"
looked at her and told her that I loved her since the day she put ice on me when I got beat up
stared awkwardly at her for a good 60 seconds before I finally worked up the balls to go in for a kiss
I wasn't very good, but she was
Aint that the truth, then texts me saying if i'm okay because I said I have to deal with some shit.
ma boy is drunk and had to have a heart to heart.
The battle of the feels
She is the only one that has evoked any feelings in the past half a year or so I think if I alienate her i'll be doing good again
i want to dream again Cred Forums
we sat there for a long time after the sun set
I just held her in my skinny arms
kissed her a few more times
we forgot to go back 5 minutes after sunset like we said
her dad came looking for us but was relieved to see we were just sitting there, not dead or stuck
kids had their own tents that trip so I got to cuddle her to bed too
rest of the trip was a haze, don't remember the trip much, but I remember her on the trip
the rest of the summer was magic to me
I loved her as much as a 13 (and 14 later) year old could love someone else
people picked on me less during 8th grade year
didn't pick on her at all, just tried to steal her away from me
so many guys liked her, didn't understand why she would want me
to be fair, I didn't either
Towards the end of 8th grade year, we figured out that we probably wouldn't be going to the same highschool
didn't care too much, saw her every day for 5 hours afterschool anyway
but we promised each other we would be each others homecoming dates and prom dates and everything
but as highschool went on we naturally drifted apart without realizing
still close, but couldn't always see each other, busy with school stuff
she played volleyball and was a cheerleader, which took up lots of time
eventually, some guy was always around when I came over
she always insisted it was just a friend, at the time, i'm sure it was
summer after sophomore year she asks if I'd be ok with her going on a date with some guy
says it doesn't change anything between us
obviously, it gets more serious, she eventually becomes his girlfriend
at this point my balls have dropped, I'm rapidly gaining weight and height
agressive as fuck, nobody in their right mind dares touch me
yet I can't say no or even be assertive with her
just kinda watch as that guy starts to control her more
he eventually gets her to block normal contact with me
I came over to her house when he wasn't around to ask her a few things
she seemed almost surprised that I was there, like I wasn't supposed to show up
she tells me it's no big deal and she just wants to date around, that it wont change anything between us
point out we hardly see each other anymore
she says it's "because she's busy with school and sports"
I know it can't be volleyball she's going to on sundays
tell her the guy she's dating is a bad person controlling
just makes her mad, she yells at me
start to break down
tell her I love her and I don't know what I did wrong but I just want things to go back to the way they were
she says she'll always love me
says she's gotta go but we will talk again soon
I wish that had been true
we never talked again for a year
I start becoming very angry, start blasting steroids, constantly eating and working out
I've become the freak I always wished I was so I wouldn't get picked on, but I don't care just want her back
Everyone at school is afraid of me now
I have no friends now because I'm 6'4, 215 lbs at low body fat and rage at almost nothing. total dick for little/no reason
complete asshole to everyone except little guys that get picked on by chad
got suspended for fighting 4 or 5 times before I start to calm down a little
life is still generally the same though
angry about that fuck who stole her away
towards the end of the year I start hearing about some girl who got in huge trouble because a bunch of nudes and shit of her were leaked and circulating
Eventually it was cleared because she didn't consent and was apparently sexually assaulted by the guy who took the nudes or videos or whatever
that's what got my attention, hoping it wasn't her, but deep down it sounded like the exact thing her asshole "boyfriend" would do
of course, it was her
I was actually pretty calm the whole day at school I heard the news
but I was gonna fuck that guy up beyond recognition
I knew he was a huge stoner and druggie in general so I consulted the kid who I bought my roids from
he was also a stoner and knew all the other stoners
he knows his friend and him pretty well
get the kid to get his address from his friend
it's fucking going on now
showed up the friday night of that week at his house
pretty big party going on
perfect, nobody will call the cops and I can walk in without raising any eyebrows
he's in his backyard with some other girl
I'm sure they were about to fuck or something
swing at him before he even sees me
KO'd on the second punch
sit on him and beat his face in
That night I felt better, but the next day I knew I may have ruined things with her
I guess she was relieved I gave him a free facelift because of what she told me next time we talked
3 weeks later she showed up at my house at night bawling her eyes out
mad at her but of course I can't say no to the only thing i've ever loved
let her in
we sit on the couch and she dumps all her feels
says she's sorry she left me for him
I was right, he was terrible to her
apparently he hit her a lot and raped her
made the school think she was a complete whore
she told me she still loved me and just wanted to go back to the old days
fell asleep on my couch
I slept upstairs, I was pretty upset to think she fucked me over like that and now wants me back
I came down the next morning and she was still there
I figured I should at least communicate with her exactly how I felt, regardless of how things were gonna end up
sat down and told her we needed to talk
was honest about everything and told her she really fucked me up when she left me for that guy
of course she was apologizing profusely the whole time
She gave me that look, like at the grand canyon
"user, do you still love me?"
fucking melted right then and there
since then I've been talking to her again regularly, she always wants to see me
i'm kinda torn though
I still love her
more than anything
but she gave her virginity to the other guy
something about it just doesn't seem right
something that was flowing freely before is dried up now
the next night she came through my bedroom window at 1am or something
Freaked me the fuck out
Was about to lunge for my shotgun
but then I heard a sniffle
knew it was her immediately
"sorry user, I just needed to come see you"
she kept telling me she was sorry and she loved me
crying hysterically the whole time of course
eventually just told her to calm down, grabbed her and pulled her over to me
cuddled to sleep
felt so nice
she pressed her face into my chest like she used to
wake up at about 7
have to wake her up and walk her home so my parents don't come in and freak out for obvious reasons
She knows how to fucking melt my heart
Obviously, I still over her. A lot
I'd gladly sweep her off of her feet and steal her away, but I have just one reservation
Could she do this again? I know it's not likely but I don't even wanna take a chance
I won't be able to do this again unless I know she's 100% committed
decide to drive with her to a mountain ridge that overlooks the city
just told her I wanted to see her again (even though I had seen her the day before)
figure I’ll just tell her exactly how I feel and why I’m hesitant to get back with her
quietly left my house, drove over to pick her up
got to her house, snuck around back to go to her room
familiar hand on my shoulder
her dad stopped me again
tell me he knows about all of it, appreciates me beating the shit out of that guy
tells me she’s up all night crying about me most nights
she’s still a complete wreck from that guy
he really beat her bad twice towards the end of their relationship
her dad was trying to track him down but apparently I beat him to it
tells me she needs me more than anything, and he’s glad i’m still trying after what happened
ask him why she left me
he says he has no clue
go inside, to her room
just kinda brushed her hair off of her face to wake her up
she just smiled and got up
hold her hand and walk out to the car
I kinda keep the subject on unrelated things on the drive up
want to save it for when we’re sitting up there
only thing I really remember about the drive up was almost hitting a massive bull elk
sit down on a rock wrapped up in a big blanket together
Feels really good
you have no idea
feeling her warmth, cuddled up against me, looking down at the city
”why do you still love me user?”
tell her because every little thing she does makes me happy
ever since that day in middle school I just feel like she’s the greatest part of my life
ask why she left me for that other guy, and tell her it’s the only thing holding me back
can’t understand why she would do that
she says (holding back tears and sniffling, gets really emotional now) that she doesn’t have a real answer
she was just acting on physical attraction and his chad personality took easy advantage of her dumb teenage self
not some magic fix-all answer I was hoping for
but she also told me I did nothing wrong and she was sorry for everything
made me feel better
since Cred Forums put it into perspective and I gave it some thought, I realize how childish the whole virginity thing is on my part
I love her and that's all that matters really
figure I should just 'make sweet, sweet love to her with my chad body'
-quote from some user last thread
not gonna be like that guy, obviously
wait until she's comfortable again
started to get windy so I took her home for the night
fell asleep on the ride back, so I carried her to bed
she woke up halfway once we got inside
laid her down on her bed, kissed her on the forehead
start to walk away, and hear "please stay with me"
can't resist for a single second
nothing happened that night, we were both tired, out right away
wake up next morning
make pancakes in the kitchen, which we used to do a lot after school
screw around and play fight with all of the ingredients, make a huge mess
eat and then clean it up
"you should probably shower, I definitely beat you"
make some joke about how she cheap shotted me, tell her I have no clean clothes
"I'm sure I can figure it out, let me show you how to work it and where the shampoo is"
I was actually too retarded to catch onto that cue
"I can wash your clothes"
give her my shirt and shorts
she tossed them outside and just stared at my SuperChad physique for a sec
not gonna lie that made me feel satisfied in a cocky way
looked up at me and smiled
I kissed her
took her shirt off
primal instincts and excessive testosterone/DHT levels take over
carried her to her bedroom and tore the rest of her clothes off like an animal
I did stop for a moment to just look at her bare body
I was extremely horny and wanted to absolutely go to town on her, but it was balanced by me being afraid of hurting her or being too rough
ended up making love to her for almost 2 hours
totally exhausted afterwards, fell asleep with her on top of me in my arms
woke up a little while later and went out to lunch
Took her back home and made love to her on the couch in her living room
watched TV on the couch together until her dad came home
he was really happy to see us
I had to go home for a while, but he asked me to come back for dinner
Ate pot roast with the stupidest grins on out faces, a few other people came by for dinner
her dad says pretty much out of nowhere "I really appreciate you and like you, user, I hope you become part of my family"
I felt at home for the first time in a while
that night she asked me to sleep with her again
I was totally depleted after that day, so we pretty much just cuddled
talked about what we want to do in life
Talked about our dream house, dream job and what the perfect wedding would be like
tells me every secret she’s ever kept
says she doesn’t want anything between us
asks if I have any secrets or stuff I wanna get off my chest but haven’t told anyone
tell her I used steroids, but make clear it was light cycles at minimum doses
tell her how badly I wanted to tear into her like a fucking animal, but was afraid I’d hurt her
tell her I was afraid I wasn’t doing a good job
she laughed and said I was more than plenty and was glad I was gentle
says she doesn’t care about the roads, just wants me to stay healthy
fell asleep on me like usual
I was so blissfully happy that night
fast forward ~two weeks
she'd been acting increasingly remorseful for leaving me
if I ever brought up that I was worried about trusting her or I was scared she would get anxious and nervous for the rest of the day
constantly trying to prove she was 100% loyal
one night she literally broke down crying on my chest and told me how sorry she was and that she loves me
told me that if I want to have another girl then she understands and is fine with that
I calmed her down, obviously, and told her she's all I need, I just am afraid of losing her because I did once and it hurt
tell her I'll never leave her and I don't want any other
seemed to make her feel a lot better
about two weeks after that incident
my cousin and her aunt were coming to stay at my house
cousin flew in night before aunt
I had to pick her up at the airport
hadn't seen her in a while, she looked like a woman now
nothing like her but she was attractive
got her bags and went to my house
all I did was help her carry bags in and get settled in
but I didn't tell her my cousin was staying
she thought I was mad and wanted a second girl
ran home before I noticed she was there
call her because I was expecting her to come over about this time
head over to her house
get to her house, walk in
her dad isn't home
call out for her
walk into her room
the light is on in her bathroom, door closed
I can hear muffled sobbing
knock on the door frantically
yell her name
after a few seconds I hear her faintly say "I'm so sorry user. You deserve her, not me."
ask her what she's talking about
just more sobbing
pretty freaked out
kick in the door
she's in the bathtub
the water is bright red
flipped the fuck out because I thought she had/was trying to kill herself
grabbed her out of the tub and ran into the kitchen
set her on the table, trying to find where all the bleeding was from
she just had a few shallow cuts on her wrist and thigh
wrap it in some gauze I found under the sink
calm down a little and realize she's probably not dying or even close
ask her why she did this
ask if her old boyfriend did something to her
she says she couldn't bear to see me with another girl
ask her what she's talking about
don't remember exactly what she said, but at this moment I realized she thought my cousin was a girl I was seeing
explain that she's my cousin
explain the situation with the airport
she believes me after I explain
carry her to her bedroom
set her down on the bed
drain the bathtub
help her get dressed
broke down because I was so scared just then
yelled at her
told her she can't do this to me, I already lost her once and I can't bare to not have her
the yell eventually reduces to almost soft enough to be a whisper
tell her I trust her now and I know she would never leave me again
don't want another girl
I'm just terrified she'll love someone else someday
she reassures me that will never happen
tell her to forget about that guy and leaving me, it's in the past
I need her now
eventually reduces to just some sappy "I love you more, babe" shit that would make most of you cringe
I realized then that the guy she had been with probably fucked her up mentally too, to a good degree
our relationship has been a lot more stable since
no more than a few nights after that, she asks if I'll ever marry her
hadn't thought about that until then, but the thought of it made me pretty happy
"Sorry, that's probably really pressuring. I didn't mean it like that"
tell her to shush, and say of course I'm gonna marry her
her face lit up
didn't even make love to her that night
just kinda laid there and felt each others warmth
slept really, really well that night for some reason
next morning she asked where I wanted to get married
brought up the grand canyon
told her I didn't want to decide yet, but I wanted to go to the grand canyon with her again
a road trip, just her and I. Soon, asked if she wanted to start planning the trip now
she said yes right away, got all excited
spent that afternoon planning a trip out on google maps
thinking about what it would be like to marry her one day the whole time
a little while after that we had the trip planned for the day after my birthday
going grocery/supply shopping few days later
kinda early but I just love doing stuff with her
going to costco is fun when i'm with her
since the trip is still three weeks away, we decided to go on an adventure in a pickup truck to the mountains that night
put blankets in the back and pillows
drove up a secluded and scenic mountain road
laid there and stared at the stars and moon reflecting on a mountain reservoir
made love beautifully to her there
eventually fell asleep
woke up just before sunrise which was cool
watched it come up over the mountains with her
told her I'm so glad she came back for me
promise her I'll marry her one day
forgot that stuff like that makes her really emotional
she burst out crying of course
at least it was a good crying
held her and told her sorry for upsetting her
told me she feels loved and is just overcome with emotion
says she can't wait till we can be married one day
play with her hair there for a while
eventually head down the mountain, but wander around woods for a while in the truck
super cliche, but we carve out names in a heart into a tree
yeah, continue. it's not like you had to ask to continue before, user. come on.
love you user but you gotta do something about that shit. Change your hairstyle or something, maybe your clothes. even the ugliest of fucks can get some pussy if they try. Good luck.
keep going faggot
My dad caught me jacking the fuck off earlier this afternoon
It wasn't the ol "hey bud good job jerking it to my old playboys" type deal either.....
ok then. Here come the upd8s faggots. thanks for reading btw, I actually do like the feedback even if it's just insults.
a little backstory first
my parents were fine, obviously they were a little distant and inattentive but they raised me right for the most part.
we weren't too much of a family though
my mom was kind of a unpredictable stereotypical liberal
had these periods of going into a fuck you mode, where she decided she was a "strong independent feminist" and decided to be absent and hang out with these ugly lesbians
didn't think much of it as a kid, just thought she was a moron for that
my dad, however, was and is a mormon who has strong religious beliefs and is every bit as stubborn and unwilling to accept other ideas as my mom
drove them apart over the years
I can't prove it, but I have a lot of reasons to believe my dad was seeing other women "through the righteous authority of the church" basically a BS loophole that allows you to leave your spouse if they weren't married to you in a mormon church
long story short, they drifted apart over the years
eventually just kinda existed together
didn't divorce for a mutual understanding of how that would fuck everything up for them and me and my little brother
at this point, my parents obviously know about me and her
my mom could not give less of a fuck
my dad disapproved quite openly
constantly lectures me about how "the holy spirit won't follow me if I do things the church forbids with her"
tell him to mind his own business and to fuck off, obviously
at this point he's pretty much sure I'm fucking her
gets mad when I come back in the mornings now because he knows she's not just my friend anymore
eventually escalates like this until he has missionaries and the bishop of his church come over to lecture me
they were waiting for me on the couch after I came home from getting ice cream with her
asked me to sit down
He caught me just as I was cumming and he saw the content I was rubbing to.
my dad left when i was 8 and mother died when i was 18 lel i have nothing to take for granted.
same, i never fell in love or knows how it feels but sure i went out with a few people just never actually felt like i needed them for me, they were just an option, cant say ill never feel it but who knows i just dont believe in love cuz i havent felt it and i secretly hope someday i will.
He began yelling and swearing at me while I was trying to cover/clean up. I was sweating my fucking ass and cock off. Began to get kinda scared...
about 30 seconds in, I'm too pissed to sit still
turn red, veins dilate
"user, are you alr-"
"stand up so fast I knocked my chair back
blow up, start yelling at them why I think their entire religion is bullshit and why they need to fuck off
tell them everything I think is wrong with their "church", including the whole 'you can cheat if your wife isn't mormon and your mistress is'
tell them they are anything but christians
tell my dad I found someone I love more than anything and if he can't leave me be, we're gonna have a problem
stop and look around and think for a second
they are visibly scared, don't respond
walk upstairs without another word
He gives me a bit of a grace period to gather myself. Then he tells me to stand up. I do . Then he goes nose to nose with me and starts yelling again. He smashes my laptop (Mac) and acts as tho he's going to hit me with the motherboard .....
told her everything that happened
I decided I'm gonna leave home, maybe for just a little while, but I'm an adult now, may as well just leave for good
told her that too
I have a job with good income for a kid who's barely college age
pack all of my meaningful/useful possessions
put my shit in my jeep and drive off
made me proud to have worked for pretty much everything I had right at that moment
I was self made
I was free
At this point I'm angry as all hell. I start yelling back at him. At first he's a bit shocked (bit of a beta) then he comes in for more nose to nose
I fucking lose all my shit and I take my belt back off... Ooh man the rage took over my body, all the humiliation up until this point was enough to push me into psychosis ....
I take a good step back (almost falling over with the mixture of rage and utter fear) .... I have the buckle in my right hand (big solid buckle too btw)
drove to her house
she was kinda freaked out, waiting out front for me
took me inside
I sat down with her, her dad and sister
they wanted to know what was going on
told them the story as bluntly as I could
they ask what I'm gonna do now
"well, I've got plenty of money, I'll look for a place to have for a few months here until I go off to college or the military"
her dad told me he was in a similar situation when he was my age
said an apartment or condo just isn't the same as having "home" to go back to
goes on to explain why it's good to go home, not just the place you sleep
"well, you make a good point, I'm gonna find home then"
no, user, you don't understand what I'm getting at
"well, what are you trying to say then?"
you love my daughter, don't you?
"well of course, more than anything"
this is home, user.
at least until next fall, I want you to stay with us
I just fucking swing it with all of my might and anger, the buckle flies straight up and I pull it back down onto his head splashing blood all over both of us...
He as usual starts losing his fucking shit like I had just killed him or something. Charges at me with the speed and force of a fucking silverback. This is where it gets fucked up ......
3 months missing fucking her
start to missing her a little less?
ho no I was wrong! still miss her like I'm dying
not even my first gf, even starting to date(well that's probably why...)
I had my bed window open as I always do when I fap, it was wide open. As he came at me, I fucking ducked and crouched in the fetal,(always do) and he was stuck in the bug screen from his shoulders and he couldn't move. ...
normally, I would be very hesitant to accept because I'm super uncomfortable accepting things from other people, or having others do stuff for me
but she was there
these guys felt like my family
my little brother was family too, but he was old enough and big enough to fend for himself now
still had regular contact with him afterwards too
I never felt so full of joy, so warm inside all the time
I used to only feel it when I was with her, but now I loved coming home at the end of the day instead of dreading it
did things like a family, ate, went out, watched TV and had conversations about anything and everything
got a lot closer even in that first 8 days before our road trip
It was my time Cred Forumsros... All the pain and anguish he just caused me had built up into anger and I grabbed his legs and just pushed a tiny bit. He slid out the window (2nd) story of house...
i love her with all of my heart, yet i hate myself more
I never understood these threads. Why are you guys trying to feel sad?
I looked down at him..... The feels tho..... I ran down yelling to my mom. She didn't care. I was scared I didn't want to open the door and check on him at first
not always, just trying to feel emotions we can't anymore, or relate to people, or even just hear a good story. readfor example
To this day, I feed him and clean him and shit.... It's bad. I want to end it all some day soon. Life's not worth living I can't bring a girl over, I have zero friends ( other than the occasional Cred Forumsro
Always lurk these threads, gonna finally post.
Got with a girl for about 3 months
really liked her, we clicked.
decides to leave me because apparently she was scared of I don't know what.
Got back with her later that year for another 3 months.
Got super attached to this girl
In those 3 months, I fell in love
Never felt something like it before
She leaves again, this time I think for good, says she isn't happy with me.
It's a bad feeling Cred Forumsros. Not a day goes by I don't think of her. Been almost a year now. Don't have problem getting with other girls but I actually have trouble performing, sometimes don't get hard at all no matter how hot the chick is. Feels hopeless sometimes.
Another one of my sad tales was before I accidentally rekt my own dad (I'll try green text )
at school with sis and younger bro
always walked to school not bad at all
at the field talking with little bros friends
I'm 3 yrs older than my bro
one of the girls in my grade joins us in our little convo about rare Pokemon
kinda get friendly with her, show her a riachu card I had
her "bf" throws a rock in my direction
hits my younger bro in the fuckin head
I fucking lose it... Bros bleeding real bad
girls are fucking screaming
bro looks at me says he's ok
niagra falls of blood coming out of his face
I know exactly who threw the rock cuz every girl there was screaming and yelling his name
I see him walking inside the school
run at his little bitch ass with the speed of a fucking silverback.
i fucking bail and eat shit pretty bad
girls all laugh at me and bro does a bit too
see the rock thrower in my same phys Ed class that same day
It's the fading. It eats at you. Chips always at the soul, the heart, the core emotional level of a human being. It makes you want to die. It makes you feel hopeless like nothing in this world really fucking matters and all you wanted was her. And now that she's gone you don't know what to do. You feel like like dying just to see if that'll get her attention. Because maybe then her family can relise for once that they aren't all that fucking matters in this god forsaken shit hole.
But you do love her friend right?
told my only friend in our class about what happened in the field earlier
he gives me an elastic and a couple "hornets"
pretty much sheets of paper folded into a small wedge for elastic
see kid in our run
run up to him and unleash the anger hornet
kid falls balling
blind in one eye
expelled (least of my worries)
get beat the worst I've ever been in my life
2 broken ribs
Go on, im emotionally invested now, and plz let it end you happily together
plenty of other "feels" tales but I gotta go to sleep
me and hornet friend saw a guy die and we easily could have helped
other shit like that
Trips, you gotta finish the story now
Loving and losing is better than nothing at all.
What does friendship/ relationship feel like?
I remember when you would wake up at 2 in the morning and roll over and give me a little kiss on the cheek. I always wondered why you did it and when I finally asked you said you sleep better knowing that I'm by your side. I miss you so much and I love you.. rest easy Jess..