Feels thread. Need you Cred Forumsros

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Damn....my feels....

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Hey man, I am 42, crippled with a degenerative nerve and muscle condition. I feel constant pain every day, some days I can't even get out of bed. I ambroke on disability and basically get all my social interaction through the internet. I am divorced and haven't seen my daughter in 4 years because my ex wife is a fucking trollcunt. But you know what? I still find a reason to keep going, something to make it all worth it.
Shit happens, but it could be worse.

Damn

I've been there man. I thought I had found the one and I held onto her for as long as I could but it just wasn't meant to be. It's been over a year since we broke up and I still think about her from time to time but honestly I don't miss her as much as I miss having the connection. You'll get through this and be a better person for it. Best of luck to you friend

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Explain how is a normal day for you

>You'll get through this and be a better person for it.
What if I already got throught this several times and I'm just a worse person every time?

What do you mean how is a normal day? What, my usual routine?

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OP here. Girlfriend and I have been on a break for a few months now. Things are only getting worse. We made plans to meet one day and I love as gonna break up with her cause I know shes better off without me and there's better than me. I think she's just afraid to admit it because it'll hurt me.
We didn't meet up and didn't talk for a week, she recently messaged me and said that she's been in a shitty spot and told me her depression got bad and that she isolated herself but I know shes been with her friends and shit. She asked me today to come over and comfort her. I feel like a piece of shit for saying I cant but she keeps pushing me away then all of a sudden wants me around and im just so confused cause she has yet to tell me how she feels. Idk guys

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Just lick the jizz out of her and pretend you didn't taste it, just keep playing along

face it, she's gone man let's just add eachother on steam and game and talk about it.

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I get it dude. I really do. It's hard to find a silver lining in all this but in all honesty the only thing that's gonna help you through this is you making the decision to change your situation. You have to decide that feeling like shit isn't gonna cut it anymore and do something to fix it. Its not gonna be easy but nothing is easy in life so you just gotta buck up and deal with it

Don't let her play you like that man, give it to her straight and either get back with her or don't. I've never understood the term "break" because to me it just sounds like a way to go out and have sex with other people without repercussions except it's usually the girl getting dick. Don't be confused, if you want her then go get her, if not then don't, and if you don't know then take some isolation time and figure it out.

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When my ex broke up with me she tortured the fuck outta me. Three weeks after the break up she came over to see me and then tried hooking up with me and my dumbass thought we were gonna be ok but she stopped in the middle of it and said she didn't know why she was doing that. Every time she wanted to see me she would either be all flirty with me and act like I might have a chance to make it work or she treated me like total shit and made me feel terrible. I put up with it because I thought she was just going through some stuff and had cold feet because we got together so young but all it accomplished was me doing everything for her and getting shit on in the end.

>Girl I liked a year ago texts me and apologies about what happened
>I talked to her for a few days and she seems really happy
>A few weeks later we discuss personal things
>She tells me things she's never told anyone before
>I tell her things I've never told anyone before
>She tells me that she's interested in me and I tell her that I'm interested in her as well
>She tells me she wants to know me more before we go on relationship
>Continue to talk to her for a few months
>Things are going great until some depressed fuck comes
>Depressed fuck guilt trips her into talking to him
>She stops talking to me and does what we did with him
>She starts talking to me for about a hour the other day
>She tells me she doesn't have feelings for me anymore and says she has feelings for depressed cunt
>mfw

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No breaks. If things can't be patched up now, go your separate ways. Maybe things will work out in the future once you both have experience under your belt. Sometimes you need to do that to understand what it is you want, and sometimes you realize that what you want is what you had. It'll work out if you get your confidence up.

Same. It's getting worse every day.

Sorry man I'm an Xbox fag :(

Thanks dude I think I'm just gonna keep to myself for abit and see where it goes. I don't understand the break either.
This is exactly how I feel rn bro.

I could go into more detail about the entire thing. I was just typing too fast and wanted to post what happened with a girl I fell in love with.

Oh fuck.. you got me....

:(

This. My wife and I got married after splitting up for four years after our first time together. We both carry some wounds from other failed relationships, but we learned enough from them to know what we wanted and make it work on the second try.

I'm currently in a relationship where I feel alone but I can't bring myself to get out of it because I still believe she's the one for me. So here I am, sitting in the living room, drinking myself to sleep yet again.

Same, I typed that from experience. My girl and I grew apart and ended things after 6 years, and almost three years apart made us realize that we wanted what we have had the whole time. It's been a few years since that point, and we're doing better than ever.

Crushing as a kid. Probably one of the most painful events of my life.

What's wrong? Why do you feel alone?

Japs have a word for everything. Germans have some ridiculously descriptive words too.

>fall was our favorite season
>comfy movie nights in the bed eating good food
>reading in the afternoon
>visiting her familyand eating even better food
>now it's just a cold empty bed
>i don't have any family

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i've gotten this before too man, i'm sorry

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Just got this from a slut who wanted me to treat her like my gf but she was out seeing other doods.

The life of a beta faggot. I want to end the pain.

Its not fair...

We just don't talk or acknowledge one another anymore and sex is nonexistent. She's in the bedroom right now sleeping and I'll be having another night on the couch.

>be me
>be 15 and low self-esteem and fat
>meet beautiful swedish girl at the beach
I live in the US so this was weird
>we start talking
> we actually hit it off pretty well
>Get her kik
(too beta to ask for her facebook or number)
>message her like crazy, like all we do is message
>She leaves back for sweden
>We keep talking
>I start falling for her
>Learn she has low self-esteem. depressed, cuts herself etc
>We get closer and closer
>She sends me some nudes and we skype and stuff
>feel better about myself a bit
>We talk about are hopes and fears, what hurts us
>one day she tells me she loves me
>I love her too
>Then I start getting into drinking and drugs
>start demanding more and more from her, more nudes more shit
>She doesn't like that, push her away
>Last straw happens when I message her drunk asking her for nudes
>Says she doesn't want to talk to me anymore
>I fucked up
>Go two months without her
>can't take it anymore
>message her like crazy begging for forgiveness
>no response
>For another month I do this
>one day finally get a response
>Its not her, its her dad
>He tells me, she's dead and to stop messaging
>I break
>Try to kill myself several times
It kills me even now, I pushed her so far away and now she's gone. Whenever I'm drunk or sad I message her, begging for her to come back even through her phones long been disconnected. I'm dead inside

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If anyone needs some people to talk to for a while or is in need of advice, please come pay us a visit at the shrine, we'll be waiting!

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How did it come about? Why not join her?

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You get to choose the role you play in life. That's the beauty of it, you can try new things and reinvent yourself. I was a loser before I grew comfortable with myself to realize that ppl were only going to take me seriously if I took myself seriously. I started to carry myself more confidently, like I had shit under control (even if I didn't.) .some people call it faking it til you make it, but I call it ironing out the wrinkles on who you've always been, you're just discovering it for the first time & once you're familiar with it it,l come naturally.

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Im going to an hero. And don't know what I should do with my motorcycle. Should I post it for free on craiglist? Should I give it to a friend? Should I just let who ever scrapes together what little belongings I will have left take it?

Fell in love with my girls best friend over the 8 months we've been together, we both feel the same way but will probs never be together though

>Be me
>Have nothing to do; don't want to waste money on more vidya
>Decide to go out for once
>I hit up some facebook friends
>I find one that's having a party
>He says I can come
I go to the party after cleaning myself up a bit
>After I get a little more comfortable with the situation, I try to find somebody to talk to
>Few actual friends offline
>See a girl with 2 others
>She is 3rd-wheeling hard
>Go over to her
>Say hi and introduce myself
>Get some stares from her friends, but she brightens up after I talk to her
>Turns out that she's actually a lot of fun to be around and talk to
>Into anime, vidya, etc., and actually pretty hot
>At least 6/10
>We start talking more
>I go over to her apartment the next week and we play some vidya
>She's a console fag, but I'm fine with that
>It gets late and I decide that I need to get home because I have work.
>As I'm leaving, I ask her out
>She says yes
>I'm so happy, I've barely talked to any girls since high school
>We kiss, then I leave
>A week later, the relationship is going great, I go over to her apartment to hang out again
>We're in the middle of a show, and she pauses it
>I'm confused as to why
>She says she wants to do a little more for a change
>I finger her and eat her out, she blows me
>I leave that night feeling like a champion.

Continue?

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Go on

I used to sniff heroin when that margins room song was playing bc I knew my girl was away at school and was fucking other guys. I felt like she was the best I could do, and I was just a drug dealer that was settling. I snorted $10000 worth of dope that summer. That was in 2011, and I've since moved on from all of that. She wasn't worth getting upset over to the point where I started abusing hard drugs to numb myself.

She just started becoming really distant and I've brought it up with her before but to no avail and it's just been gradually going downhill. I don't join her because the lingering silence just depresses me even more. I'm at a point where I'd rather be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone. It's a very unhealthy relationship to say the least.

Had to put my dog of 12 yrs down yesterday. Couldn't walk, couldn't hold her bladder etc. Fucking sad shit man. Cried like a girl on the way home.

I feel ya man. She's a pretty pup. Good luck, user.

Fuck man, you're gonna make me cry. I value dogs more than I value people tbh, if anything happened to my dog i would probably lose my sobriety and overdose on fentanyl

How come? What did she have to say when you brought it up? Any relationship that lasts is because there is good communication between the two, my mother always said that there was a heavy silence with my father and that's what killed their marriage. Can you think of anything as to why she started becoming that way?

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Damn sorry for your loss there. I had to put my pup to sleep a little over a year ago. I still miss him sorely. Had him for 12 good years.

Thanks user

Just cut that fucking tumor out of your life man

Feels? Oh god you made me remember this. Me and this girl had hung out FOREVER in time. I had given her a ton of texts also. We'd stay up till 3 am havin nice talks n shit. At some point we'd even discuss porn(I know, weird) After-get this- 2 fucking years I finally ask her out. "user you're ok but I have a crush on your best friend"

Mfw

I believe in love. I've never experienced it, and I don't believe anyone who says they have, though. I'm not just talking about bawww I have no girlfriend and every girl I've ever loved has cheated on me -- I also mean that my family was abusive growing up with both of my parents alcoholics that only cared about me insomuch as they could brag to the neighbors about me.

I keep doing my best to meet new people and keep hoping that one day I'll find someone who at least gives a shit about me, but after 26 years of it, I can't help but wonder if I'm just chasing a ghost. Maybe everyone really just is selfish and incapable of caring about whether other people are happy. I'd like to think I'm not alone in wanting to help my friends when they're in a bad spot, but nobody has ever been there for me.

Is this s user me ,fuck right in the feels man. Shit spot on not gona lie shit hurt reading.
Have had my ups & downs but fuck man fucking saying to my self it's best to be alone feels real shitty now. This antisocial life fucking sucks & I can't figure out how not to be.

Ok, I'll continue

>I go over the next day for the same thing
>I pull out a condom
>She says she doesn't want to do anything like that yet
>Fine by me, I'll do whatever she wants
>I go home a few hours later, still feeling good
>I get home and get on my PC
>I have a few notifications from Facebook
>All chat messages
>All different, but almost say the same thing
>She's cheating on you, user
>I saw her phone, she was getting pictures from another guy
>Etc....
>Brush it off, just rumors or a prank
>2 weeks go by and she doesn't invite me over as much as usual
>Don't even think about it
>After that, she slowly stops wanting to do anything sexual
>Perfectly fine with me, I understand that we might be comfortable with different things
>I'm still as happy as can be
>More messages
>More detailed
>More often
>I tell them to fuck off, I don't believe any of it
>The next time I go over there, I ask her about it
>She says that it's nothing, just some old friends
>Say ok and move on
Over the next 3 weeks, the same things happen
We still play vidya, watch anime, read, whatever together
She just seems kinda.. out of it
>I finally tell her that I love her
>She's at work and won't see it for a few hours
>Browse Cred Forums for a while
>It's 6 P.M., she should be off soon

Cont.

Don't give up. I'm only 18, but I too haven't experienced love. My uncles and friends of my dad didn't find love until their 30s. Some of them were still even virgins. I hope that I'm a "late bloomer" just like them.

Give it to someone you really appreciate. The motorcycle will mean a lot more that way. To someone that loves/likes you it will be the memory of that user. Give this shitty world one last piece of yourself

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She didn't have much to say and I don't really know. Maybe she wants it to end but can't bring herself to end it; maybe I should end it for her.

Things are too complicated to explain right now and attempting to do so would just make things worse so I'll just post some pictures.

I'm guessing that book was no good

Maybe not yet, try and talk to her, get her to open up until she does, if she refuses to then you'll know she's not interested in keeping your relationship alive, if she does open up, then you can work it out from there.

How does your nigger arse not pretype this shit?

just happened to me yesterday

Muh doge

After 15 years of friendship i lost my bestfriend today. He fucked my ex behind my back who constantly talked shit about me. He then started dating her and i just found out today and its been going on for 3 weeks. He says he didnt tell me cause he knew it would hurt me and i said thats how you know its fucking wrong....i wish i was dead guys. I really do. I trusted him more than anyone. Matt man if youre reading this cause i know you lurk, im sorry but i cant forgive you. I didnt even feel this low when Faith left me. I think im just going to end it...

Thanks, I needed that

How does one not hate themselves ? Its really hard not to since ive been told that im not good looking at all. Idk what to call it but i just keep hearing a voice in the back of my head telling me im never going to be good enough. I just want off this wild ride.

Using her hands to chew

I've heard about the lonely whale in 5th grade, i couldn't stop crying. classmates AND bullshit teachers told me to grow the fuck up. i have a fear of being alone, so thats probably what fucked me over so bad.

Damn son that is some soul crushing shit right there.

Wow...

>left me 4 years ago
>still have dreams reminding you she was the only one who made you feel safe
>haven't fallen in love since
>suicidal ideas every day
>look at the future
>plentyoffish.jpg
>whogivesashitanymore.png
>all love and relationships are just a flash of time
>after that all will be left are memories and emotions connected to them
>why bother
>she taught me life was worth living for and now I'm stuck in hell
>I know someone will turn up eventually but all that's there is pain
>living with my pedophile rapist, can't prove shit because it was too long ago and not remembering shit doesn't prove anything
>find out I'm schizophrenic
>I think I can hear other people's minds
>scariest part: I actually can, it's worked dozens of times
>find out stepfather raped me
>find out mother sucked my dick
>find out the world is run by devils
>find out it's my sworn duty to save the world from all its fuckups
>I just want to kill myself
>find out god exists
>ask him why I can't kill myself

Good advice, thanks user.

Gonna cry, dogs are practically my will to live. I wouldn't function properly forever if mine died. I got my current one as a new not really replacement but you know good dog- from the 3 years ago my old one was put down.

Please pet and hug your doge extra today. The other user's loss depressed the fuck out of me.

My dog died at 13 years old when I was 15 and I barely cared then. I was an idiot. I wish I could go back in time and tell her how good a dog she was and I cared deeply about her like she did for me. Super protective. Always happy to see me. Well behaved. I miss my pup. I wish I cared more then so she wouldn't have died without me there to tell her I'll miss her and she means a lot to me. I just hope she forgives my selfishness. It has been almost 15 years since she passed and I never got another dog. I can't replace her.

Feels kind of dumb talking about a dog like that, but they're the best family.

Too many feels...

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You had a whole entire day! I am sorry about yer troubles though. Now I have troubles...waiting to find out what happened to you kek

I know that feeling. Mine got me through a lot, cancer twice, divorce, all kinds of bullshit. Coping has been rough without him.

Stop dude, it hurts

Funnny mini story btw to set the context

>its senior year of hs
>get decent grades A's and B's
>dad walks into room one day while playing video games by myself
>what he says next just kills what was left of my self esteem
>"you know son its good you got good grades since smart people dont have to be good looking and plus they make alot of money"
>wakemeupinside.exe
>t-thanks dad.

I know he knows im a loser. Just wish i could have been the son he wanted. Not one he is stuck with now.

Hey, just what I need, a late night feels thread. Love you guys.

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I'll give her a hug and a kiss for all of ya

Well basically i havent had a gf in about 4 years because my last one really fucked me over. But over the pasr two months or so ive been trying again and ive had two girls practically mine but they always choose another guy at the last second. Sucks.

Why would he have had her phone if she was dead
She probably lied to you because she still didnt want to talk to you
If you don't have her Facebook or anything like that you'll never know

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Love you too man. Whats on your mind?

The main thing you ought to remember is that love is a reasoned state and a willed choice, if you both choose to make it work then it will, if she doesn't then you can't carry it all on your shoulders. It reminds me of this priest I used to listen to on cassets, he said relationships aren't 50-50, because the day one stops giving it's 50%, only half is left, he said relationships are 100% from each, so when one can't give out 100% the other can, but again, you can't do it forever especially when the other doesn't want to. Also love is reasoned, love is a recognition of the highest virtue, you see her as beautiful, honest, kind, loyal and all the rest, the most of all these virtues and that's why you love her. But you also have to realize at one point she isn't loyal or kind or honest or whatever then you'll stop loving them. When you're in that limbo that "I love her despite all they did and I want her back." it's just that you haven't truly accepted yet that those qualities she used to have aren't there anymore. Either way, I wish the best for you user.

Yeah I needed it too. I usually lurk these threads every night, usually contribute too, but tonite I just feel like shit.
On a lighter note I'm sure Cred Forums loves you too.

Angie is a slut

Thanks user.

I know that feel Cred Forumsrothers

Why do you feel like shit?

Go to a fucking therapist you fucking idiot you can't read anyones minds your delusional and probably retarded for recognizing you have schizophrenia and still not recognizing that half of what you think is true is actually all lies

>march
>to June

How tf do you not text your gf for three months

>finally getting over a relationship that ended when I was 21 (I'm 25 now)
>meet girl at work that I start to fall for over a period of months
>she's on and off with this musician guy
>don't think she even realizes how much I care for her
>realize even if she were to want to be with me she's the kind of girl with a lot of baggage

Life sucks sometimes.

Just wanted to get this off my chest.

Because its fake as fucking fuck

Post nudes

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Lots of reasons, main one right now is I slowly lost the very few I had in my life, and now I'm completely alone (other than a bit of family) with no idea how to make new friends out of nowhere. (Already tried a billion things, joining clubs, working, going to college, etc)
Thanks for asking btw always nice to talk about these things.

Isn't that true for everyone?

>Continue browsing
>8 O'Clock
>Send her another text asking if she's ok
>30 minutes pass
>Get really worried
>Call her
>Straight to voicemail
>Tell her that I love her and I want to make sure she's all right
>Wait a little bit longer
>call again
>Really worried
>Drive over to her apartment
>Her car is there
>Another car by it
>Never seen it before, and it's in her space
>Go up to her apartment
>As I approach, I hear something
>I get to her door, and I realize what it is
>She's having sex
>This explains the car
>I leave and go home
>Drop onto the couch as soon as I'm home
>Phone in-hand, hoping she'll call
>Cry myself to sleep, hungry, and alone on my couch
>Wake up to my phone.
>It's almost midnight
>I unlock my phone
>She said thanks for the concern
>She says she had to work somebody else's shift
>The place she works at isn't even open past 10
>Eventually fall asleep

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Fuck..this got to me

Been missing my ex quite a bit, even though she did kind of destroy my self esteem and heightened my anxiety. I guess I just like the idea of being with someone, not specifically with her. I've just been really lonely lately, I guess.

>Be me, 13 years old
>In school
>gossip about a new girl
>next week she comes in
>beautiful, brazilian
>we talk and get to know each other
>I discover she has depression and cuts
>We start texting, and get into a relationship
>we plan to go to the mall with other friends
>at the mall, she seems nervous
>we were screwing around and me and her ran from our friends
>we go to the parking area
>we sit there and talk for a while
>she got closer to me
>hesitation.exe
>i finally put my hand on her cheek and we kiss
>she smiles, and we kiss again
>later that night, we start texting and she mentions her ex
>tells me she feels bad and still has feelings for him
>ohno.jpeg
>next day, we talk about random things
>in school we are kind od awkward but its okay
>stays awkward for a few weeks
>we get into a fight
>blame it on her
>feel like shit
>we brush it off
>another fight
>my fault, but still,blame on her
>last fight, blame on her, and now I feel like fucking shit
>in school we wouldnt even look at eachother
>i want her back
>ignores me completely
>abouttokillmyself.png
>to this day i regret every fucking thing i did wrong
>i wish i could just go back
But I cant. Shes happy now, but I cant, I need to learn to get over it. I made this happen, im an idiot. Shes dating her ex now. I think she gave me her depression. Did I fuck myself over, or did she? I cant blame her for shit. this was my doing. Cya Cred Forums

>madly in love with ex
>dated 4 years
>broke up with me to fuck a friend
>met beautiful smart new girl a year later
>with new girl now 4 years
>still think about ex frequently
>still never loved anyone as much as ex

Extremely successful these days, and I consider myself a high value male. Own my own house, nice car, good income, intelligent, pretty much any girls lockdown dream. When i think of the ex, i want to rub it in her fucking face so hard, but it doesnt matter. at the end of the day, i still dont have her.

One time I went with my room mate to one of these house auctions. Hey pretty much put a price on everything inside of a house and you can buy it or try to haggle.

>be inna stranger's deceased house looking at his shit to see if anything is worth buying
>going through some handmade stuff that had the guy's name on it
>people buying it for $2--$10 a piece
>items are not anything special but you could tell they took a while to make
>looking through a portfolio
>drawings of people, happy, dancing and portraits of people doing what they love or used to do like car racing or flying old military aircraft
>drawings are exceptional and their prices reflect that, all signed by the dead guy
>move on to the living room where there are no pictures of people like on a normal house
>instead pictures of trees, birds and other interesting things
>walls are full of them
>move to a studio and find the dead man was pretty smart, had a Ph.D. and served in the military, he might have been some sort of engineer
>there are pictures of him when younger and other pictures of him as an old man with what seemed coworkers
>never did I see a picture of him with a partner
>find some old books and this is where it hit me
>books are "how to make people like you" "how to make friends", "how to better yourself"
>found other self help and books alike
>there must have been 20-30 of those books
>realize this man lived alone
>realized that this man was by all means that guy women would want as he was well off and owned his own home
>realized he died alone and now strangers were rummaging through his shit to make a fucking dollar

Fuck, I felt sick and left. The "surviving family" was probably his brothers, sisters or cousins not wanting to deal with his shit. He wasn't even worth a day of their time to deal with his things. Instead they thought about making a quick buck of his death.

How did you lose them? And yeah, making friends is hard, I read some article about how men lose almost all their friends in their late twenties, there was also an article a few months back about how most young British men don't have any close friend.

The fact that you didn't kick the door down and lose your mind shows you are a more willful man than I.

Maybe he isn't American. I know, hard to believe.

Everyone else uses DD/MM/YY

So 3 days

Wow that hit me right in the feels

>Go through life getting rejected or cheated on, eventually give up.
>I get a bit older, decide to try again, get outright rejected over and over again.
>eventually just stop caring, almost hoping I'll be wrong again so I can be the one who gets to leave
>somehow end up in a long term relationship
>love my fiance but deep down inside I feel that I will be betrayed
>I feel this way about almost everyone I meet
What the fuck happened? I just can't bring muself to fully trust anyone, even my loved ones. I never express these fears, but they're always at the back of my mind.

>Wake up to light
>10 A.M.
Call in sick for the next 2 days
>I know she isn't working today so I go over there
>I hear shuffling and another voice as I knock
>After a few minutes she opens the door
>Messy hair, in bra/panties
>Oh, hey user, I thought you had work today
>Said I have the next few days off
>Ask her why she isn't wearing much
>She just says she was lazy and invites me in
>We lay on the couch together and play vidya
>I see a gleam on the floor
>It's a condom wrapper
>I stop playing and start to cry
>She asks whats wrong
>I ask about the wrapper
>She tells me that she doesn't want to be with me
>Says she needs a break
>I know she just wanted better
>I leave
I hear Chad come out and start to fuck her again
>Go home and cry
>Don't move other than to go to the bathroom and get water for the next 6 days
>Dad comes over to visit
>I don't hear him so he just walks in
>Sees me on couch
>Asks me what happened
>I've never liked my father that much or told him a lot, but I told him everything
>Tells me to get over it and calls me a pussy
>Remember why I hated him
>She texts me and says she wants me back
>I instantly cheer up, and I clean myself up and go over there
>We talk and I feel like she really wants me in her life
>We get back to dating, and get back to the usual stuff
>She tells me that she wants to start getting sexual again
>We do over the next few days
>3 days later, I decide to treat her to a surprise dinner
>Go to where she works at the end of her shift
>I see a familiar car in the lot
>Chad's
>I park and wait for her to get out of work
>She walks out with Chad
>They're kissing
>He takes her to his car and drive off
>I cry and sit in my car until it's dark

Cont

One just drifted away, another I was friends with forever and we ended up dating, then realized she was one of the worst people I've ever met (did horrible things, accusing me of rape, cheating on me multiple times with my best friend etc.) One was her friend, and the last moved really far away got a wife and kid.
Funny thing is though, as what you said, I'm Canadian and 19 lol, so it doesn't match up too much.

*wronged
*myself

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>Talk to her about it the next day
>She makes up a bullshit excuse
>I call her out
>She tells me how she's felt this entire time
>She doesn't like me at all
>Uses me for money
>She felt bad for how low of a human I was
>Told me that my body was a complete dealbreaker
>Hated every bit of me
>I go home
>Cry and cry and cry
>Today
>Boot up PC
>Get on Cred Forums
>See this thread
>Tell my story
>This is all I have now

Old friend of mine lives in Charlotte, goes to UNCC.
Riots and shit all day yesterday and today, accidentally read the news about it. Technically "can't" talk to this friend but I know he's super close to all of it.
I'm just super worried and wanna make sure he's okay. Fuck the world lately man.
Will, if you get on here for some reason tonight, I hope you're safe.

dont to it man, you can kill him instead.

Man this is gonna sound cliche, but the best thing to do is to get you a hobby and work for something. Stay busy and its harder to feel alone espically if you have other people around you working towards the samw goal.

Not everyone uses a backwards dating system like you do, most of us use it the proper way.

I'd forgotten how good I've had it for the past while. This thread kinda reminded me of that. My soul goes out to you m8s out there. Some day I'll greentext my story. Some day.

Fuck, I'm sorry user, this shit is why I don't date I find comfort in technology instead.

You're still young then, are you in college? Maybe you'll have an easier time make friends there. Which province are you from by the way?

I cant i wanted to hit his goddamn face.....but i just couldnt....i hate him now....but i still love him. Me and that son of a bitch have been through hell...

That kind of shit is unforgivable. You didn't deserve it. You shouldn't have gone back. It doesn't matter if you're 700lbs and the biggest neet/neckbeard wizard there is, that's unforgivable.
I feel for you user I really do.

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Thanks. I shouldn't have even left my house that night

Man up user my dad still gives me shit at 23
When I go see my family just give him shit back its just harmless fun. Kinda like a older brother

Yeah I'm in college, but I'm an anxious and depressed fuck so it really is hard, but I've been making a go of it so hopefully it'll be easier.
And I'm from Ontario, in the GTA.

I know I shouldn't have, but I loved her. I really thought she felt the same, and I couldn't help but forgive her.

I just can't even. I feel for u bro i really do! Keep your head up

>riots/protests
>Trumpsters and Hillbots
>roommates
>college life
>have the shits
>etc going on
So much shit going on right now, I don't even want to go back outside

Fuck, this thread needs a bit of a pick me up.

I get you, I really do. I did a very similar thing. Don't think any of it was your fault though, the way you told the story it sounds like you did all you could so good on you for being such a good guy in a world with people like that.

to everyone in this thread with ex feels, it gets better. It never fully heals, but it gets better. Some it takes longer than others. But I promise it gets better.

Can somebody screenshot all of this and put it together? I want other people to hear my story and learn from it. I know I won't last much longer, but my story might

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i am going through the exact same thing right now. i am pissing out my ass with food poisoning and after repeated attemps to call her just to talk i get "well i hope i don't get sick". i don't fucking get it. her job literally relies on being empathetic but she seems so cold and distant from me.

the other night she was going out to get sushi and ended up going to watch her fucking ex play guitar. she told me about the sushi but never mentioned anything about the guitar until earlier today. i practically worship this woman, but i'm not gonna get fucking cheated on again. i hope. what the unholy fuck have i become...

All you fags do is cry, just be happy you can still cry, because eventually, you won't be able to even if you want to. If any of you guys recognize me from /adv/, no, I still have not managed to cry, and it's horrible, I don't think i ever will.

anyone want a greentexted feels/happy story not that long?

The last gf I had was 11 years ago. She's now married, has 2 kids, a GED, and weighs around 300 lbs.

Feels pretty good, really. Thinking about it, she may have divorced the father of those kids, so there's that to consider as well.

Fake it till you make it. Eventually it'll come more or less naturally. That's what I did at my job, used to be introverted and quiet, got promoted then I had to be more open and deal with lots of people, you get used to it. But for friends you can't really force it, but it's easy to miss if you don't nurture it, being all alone is one the reasons why I left college, it can be tiresome. Hopefully it'll go better for you than me.

Lol, you faggots are so fucking hilarious. Feels threads are the new ylyl.

why didn't you call her out before? Forget about her man, why do you still love her? she's a piece of shit who's going to get what she deserves one day.

Screenshot. Will take some time to compile as my phone is shit.

where is that gif from? i like it

The guy I'm dating is the most selfish person I've ever met and I'm starting to feel that I'm only with him so that I'm not alone.

lmfao thanks

Thanks, Im glad you like it. At least I have one positive thing going for me.

Thats fine... Just post it when you can. I would, but it might only be a few minutes until I disappear

Yeah I hope so too. Thanks for the advice. I'll definitely take it to heart

Yeah user go ahead

why would you do this

nooo

Went through a rough breakup my final year of college. I thought i would just quit, i didn't want to do anything. I emailed my professor letting him know I was going through some shit. you know what he said to me?

> Get your shit together, you made it this far. Be a fucking man

I never forgot that interaction. He inspired me. I thought i would get an email like i did from other profs saying "sure you can have extra time on this assignment etc" but damn was that a slap to the face.

At the end of the semester I sent him this pic (He was my 'espionage in history' professor, a big history guy) when I got through his class with a B, and he hung it up on his door.

Get rid of her if you catch my drift.

It happened to me, pretty much the same, difference is that I now have a gf who is like a mix of my ex and me. My gf is perfect. Good luck.

Earthbound/Mother for the SNES.

hahaha jokes on you, she died in 07, fgt

YAY!!!!!!! You got any nudes of her?

Goddammit, Nappa.

You're really gonna an hero? Why? I don't get why people do that. Doesn't matter how hurt you are, I get the feeling, but there isn't anything good that will come of it. You can't get better by dying. You won't be happy again by dying.

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yes, but they're too encovered in my own fap juice to see anything. at l;east the ones from the funeral are

But I won't be sad, either

Jokes on you, MacBooks vent out of the top right by the number keys

>cat just likes warm things

Wow that's some powerful shit.
Sounds like a good guy to help you like that.

Be safe, user.

we have "butthurt" to illustrate the resentment in an internet fag fight...

We are all currently living in a hell, if there could ever even be such a thing. In most circumstances we can never come close to truly knowing another person. Even our closest friends, that we love all the same, aren't who we think they are. Some are psychopaths, manipulators and liars with horrible secrets about themselves that they almost never share with another individual. I have never entered into a relationship because I've seen what it can do to people. Never rely on anyone but yourself for your own happiness in life. Smoke DMT while on MDMA.

+1, posterity

I'm always late in my relationships. I need time to trust and open to people, even more to fall in love (can't fall in love when I'm not in a relationship). So everytime the girl loves me as fuck, madly, and I just like her or loves her a little and then when finally I fall madly in love, am ready to really commit, 1 year, 2 years have passed and she truly knows me and all my fucking flaws and love me less and no more.

Don't. Live and don't let her win.
Get better. Get happy. Live for your own sake.
Do it for yourself.
People care.
Even if it's through a moniter or screen.

Do you wanna get revenge?

that's an ipad retard

Fuck you

Thanks, user

lol

Damn... waht in the actual fuck..

Dude just post some nudes of her, they'll be all over the internet soon, its the perfect revenge.

Honestly no one cares. She won't care if you're happy she won't care if you're sad. She won't care. Women never care once they're "done" with you. Remember that. Stop treating them like they're anything different and your life will be much better.

After tomorrow, I'm dedicating Friday and the weekend to studying. I'm studying everything I need to; not going out for a 'long walk' or anything other than weekly grocery shopping at my favorite Asian-owned grocery store. Everyone knows me there, and they look forward to me showing up....plus there are free samples for various foods and drinks on weekends.
>There's also a Korean worker whom I'm fond of, and she may be fond of me. She's a little heavier, but I like heavy women.

Anytime. The point of these feels thread can be taken two ways. Wallow in dispair, or learn, fix, rebuild and get better.

>Did tons of psychedelics from junior year to the end of highschool
>Had mild depression and pretty bad anxiety, but I kept it under wraps
>Was pretty popular, was friends/knew most of the people in my highschool
>19 now
>Mild disassociation from the drugs
>No more anxiety, depression is replaced by complete apathy
>Anytime I see someone from highschool they say stuff like "You totally went off the grid! I've missed you!"
>Nobody ever gets into contact with me except for one guy I was acquainted with since grade 9, has now become my best and only friend
>I feel like I peaked in highschool and I'm now going to be a fucking loser the rest of my life
>Disassociation doesn't allow me to emotionally register with myself unless I'm drinking

I never asked for any.
I didn't see the need.
I thought that, for whatever crazy reason, that I'd be able to have her all my life.
What an idiot I am

People who are decent beings care. Women who could do that may not, that even sounds sociopathic, but friends, family, they care. I don't care if I sound like a white knight but I want to help rather than hinder.

I like your style, nig.

I second this.

Watch this guy.
youtu.be/1NMY2ZAcBDQ
Serious. He's goofy as fuck but has it right.

how?

nice dubs
>be me 20 y/o from florida
>good, good friend of mine died in august
>we used to sing old blink 182 songs all night to pass the time when we closed
>smoking with a buddy of mine
>gets real quiet says he hears a friend of his that died not too long ago talking to him
>toohightocare.jpg
>next night listening to old school shit at a tiki hut
>crossfaded as hell I'm really drunk but happy good vibes all around
>we smoke
>friend says, go check my phone
>1%
>fuckit listen to music anyway
>songs go by, First date comes on
>start singing at the top of our lungs (surprised we didn't get the cops called on us
>i get quiet
>Rob is singing with me
>Friends girlfriend snaps me out of it
>"wtf man I was singing with Rob"
>oshit
>we all start singing again
chris got quiet soon after next morning he tells me she was singing with us too ( they went to a blink concert together)

a sesh i'll never forget
I miss my friend..

This: You need to talk to a doctor.

My dog got hit by a car before my eyes 2 days ago. I can't stop crying.

For what you have told us, she's a slut, maybe she's even cheating the guy she cheated you with. Ask them now, since she's a slut she will probably give them, then you can get revenge.

I wish she wouldn't care. She often asks a friend if I'm okay. It's probably just guilt but still I'm in her mind.
(the friends doesn't lie to her tho.)

Your dad's a fucking faggot. Why you would ever feel like you need to be perfect for him is beyond m, especially considering your high grades.

i crushed my parrot to death when i fell asleep with her cuddling in my neck. Went through the same thing, didnt stop crying for weeks

I wanna do this when I'm an old man

well tits

I will

Not today, though

I snuck out for the first time ever twice this week to meet up with a girl and look at the stars, and makeout and all that shit. Boys, if youre still that age, this shit is magical. If you can't do that type of stuff, just know a Cred Forumstard like yourself got some fire pussy and finally spent his youth well. Cheer up lads. I used to post about how I'd miss that part of my youth. You can change it. I believe in you, user. gl buddy

That's worse, I'm sorry for your loss Cred Forumsro

Holy shit, fucking feels user, that's amazing. May your friend rest in peace.

> Tfw college
> Every girl is a living piece of shit
Congratulations though my friend, you did good.

thanks Cred Forumsbrother

Thanks mate, means a lot!

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bump

To bump I'll post some pics.

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Ouch, right in the feels..

I wish I could move out of my parent's house. But job hunting has been difficult because not many fit my mom's specifications, and she monitors my finances.....

I'm trying to start some sort of small business so I can hide the profits and save up. Hell I'll whore myself out if it takes that.

I don't like it here. I want to get out. I love my parents, I really do, but they both have severe mental illnesses that they rarely acknowledge and refuse to seek treatment for, and a rocky relationship which isn't fun to be around.

I would have just straight up left already, but my dad controls the medication I am prescribed (because their shit is genetic and I realized I had a problem and got help) and I would be leaving my two younger siblings alone.

My ex and I had a happy relationship for two weeks until I found out she was feeding me a bullshit relationship cause she didn't want to hurt me. Then a little while later my best friend since fucking kindergarten and her started dating her and he started to gloat about it. Earlier today we were messaging in a group chat for the shits and giggles with some of my other friends, when one of my friends go inactive except my ex and I. We started talking when we got onto our relationship and then we started to argue and when my friend came back he had 200 unread messages and then she told me that I was worse than her ex before me.
I need help
She was the first gf I have ever had and she was gone in the blink of an eye.
We never kissed
Why
Why me

Alright I'll cheer you guys up I'm on a iPad so might fuck up abit
>be me 21
>had 7/10 girlfriend
>loving life
>skip 1 year
>both in my room I'm playing runescape she's playing skyrim
>go back 6 months before this me and my best mate at the time where fucking around while I had my girlfriends phone
>drunk as fuck
>think it's a good idea to change txt message tones
>every time my mate would msg her phone it would make a sound only we knew
>back then he never called or had my girlfriends number
>back to in my room runescape and skyrim I hear the msg tone
>tell her oh it's user lemme see the phone
>she tells me it's her friend
>tell her what me and my mate did 6 months earlier
>she then tries to delete what he sent her before I could read it
>grab the phone
>he's asking her when she's coming over and when she's gonna leave mine
>Blind rage mode start going off at girlfriend jump in my car while she's crying
>go to his house ask him why he's texting my girlfriend
>tells me she started it first blah blah
>punch the fucker in the face get into a full on brawl
>he ends up bleeding all over the floor I'm missing 2 teeth
>that's how I lost a best mate a girlfriend and 2 teeth

>cost me $2300 to fix my teeth but it was worth it

I know. I need to. She found out I got depressed then offered to stop liking him for my sake and I'm just here like ?????

Man the fuck up you cuck. Get a new whore and stop crying over some bitch you hardly even dated.

>Waiting 2 years to ask someone out

Its like you want to be fucked with.

Your entire post sounds like one huge excuse for why you refuse to take any action to change your situation. Sounds like you've just given up.

It's been two years since I last talked to her. We held a lot in common though I never realized until after. She was really smart, even smarter than I was. Which was new, I never had met a girl who was better than I was at school. We seemed close friends but for some reason I could never bring myself to tell her how I felt. I texted her once to see how she was doing, not long after the last time I saw her, but she just kinda brushed me off, and hasn't replied since. She left me a note once, telling me that I was funny, and that she thought whatever I did, I would do great.
I don't think she was wrong, but I've got no motivation left to work with. Nothing seems interesting anymore. I guess I browse Cred Forums, but it just feels like the same shit every day. Never anything interesting. And even the things I have done, I did shit at. I failed two semesters of college, I've done poorly at 4 jobs and am now just a fucking janitor with things I wish I could do but no money or inspirsntiob or motivation...

What do?

so relevant to my life rn

do it right now, save yourself a buck bc of inflation.

fuck you

find a hobbie that's more productive than jerking off and going on Cred Forums and keep doing it.

Girls are sociopaths. They'll lie cheat and steal just to make you feel pain.

Caleb?

If I had given up, I would have killed myself. I wouldn't be trying to fucking squirrel away money like the goddamn El Chapo and ending up spending a fourth of it on my baby sister and brother anyways because my dad just kicked the shit out of the dog or my mom and dad are fucking arguing about some inane shit and then they take it out on my baby sis when she asks if she can ride her bike to school and maybe if i get her that new hardcover warrior cat book she has been wanting then that will remind her that at least someone cares about her and her interests im trying to take fuckig action man im fucking tryingn

I guess I had hobbies, but I don't really have anymore motivation to do anything with them, they just... Don't seem interesting. And I don't really have money to get into any kind of expensive hobby either

Going through similar minus the drugs part

suggest thinking you're starting a new part of your life and will have many adventures if you take some risks

Autistic child detected

In order to get through the day I play the same happy song in my head to supress the depression

bitches be tricky dude. keep your chin up. i know it's hard, ive been there before, you've just got to push through, go back to work, go out to parties, have fun. but DO NOT text her, dont call, nothing. get her out of your head and out of your life. i promise, it's hard now but it will be okay. youll move past it.

>you

Ow

My fiancé died months ago and I've had this empty feeling in my chest ever since that can't be filled with even drugs, booze, sex, I think I just need to kill myself.

Then she shows up in my dreams which is great but then I wake up and can't go back for X amount of time, I want to see her again, feel her, hear her voice..

Anyway I'm just posting this because I'm not doing anything better, just getting drunk again. Not looking for pity, I didn't respond to any of yours anyway so I really don't care. For all you who have someone, anyone, even family, enjoy it while it lasts. This expression gets played out but you won't know how important them being around was until they're gone forever and you can't bring them back..

I miss you Yuki, I'd give everything to have you back again

Not the same guy, but not a dissimilar situation. And one quote I've always remembered is that its hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember.

keep trying new ones, read from the public library, save up to try something you've always wanted to do but never could.

maybe get a gym membership those start at like $10 month

Why bother, honestly?

Did you lick Chad's cum out of her pussy tho?

fucking kek

I mean it probably wouldn't be hard, but it takes a lot of effort to read a book. I was an avid reader as a kid and really up through highschool, but I haven't read a book in forever. I don't know what'd I even read. And s gym membership takes commitment, I don't feel like I could see myself going there all the time, and I'd just be wasting my money. And every thing I've tried so far has just waned in interest after less than a week has past

I don't mean to sound like a whiny bitch but I guess that's kinda how it is. I don't even know what I hold on to in life anymore anyway, maybe some obscure hope I'll find someone and it'll somehow magically get better? I mean, its obviously never going to happen but still....

God has abandoned all of us

>I'd rather be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone
i had to do that choice
i`m alone now, but at least i have some fucking hope.

kek

I just got this. I've never understood what it meant. She also said we never see each other. Why didnt she want to see me so we could?

>
>She didn't have much to say and I don't really know. Maybe she wants it to end but can't bring herself to end it; maybe I should end it for her.

Hey, bro. Get in bed with her, get real close, and hold on tight to her. Tell her how she's feeling, kiss her, make her feel wanted. Don't spend the night on the couch, man. Maybe she wants your attention? What would you lose? If you really love her, hold on to her. Make her feel special, tell her you miss her even when she's around because you love her so much.

I've been through this, trust me. The more loving you are, the more you show her you are trying, tings will get better. I promise.

Now, put that drink down, and go show her you love her so much (:

>Many things will catch your eye, but few will catch your heart

It's great while they're there, but holy fuck, when they're gone it hurts like a motherfucker

I probably can't give you the best suggestions as a student, but what I can say is you'll never find that someone unless you go out in your free time. I get you probably work a ton to make ends meet but there's gotta be something that will interest you, you just got to keep looking

thanks for your post. much love. and you're right, as bad as anything is, it can always be worse.

i watch documentaries on the slums to contextualize my own suffering and lot in life appropriately. and research stats on access to resources, to see that though i've never made enough income to be taxable in my state, i still have access to amenities that much of the world doesn't. computer, internet, electricity, toilet, water plumbing, etc.

Thanks for the words though, at least its something. Who knows, maybe my pipe dream will come through. And maybe I'll strike it rich or find a real job or something. There's so many things I wish I could just try again. I guess it's like they say though.
>you don't regret what you do as much as what you don't
I would give so much just to try again and try not to fuck everything up like I always end up doing

Too much feels tonight ..

Goodnight Cred Forumsrothers

>similar feel
>dream walking her around the airport before our trip
>get embarrassed about being with her
>forces me to hold her close with my hands around her hip
> so warm
> face to face
> wake up

Good night mate. I should be off as well. I tell myself every night that I'm gon to go to sleep before 1AM, but every night it's the same

Goodnight /b and may love be with you all

ty mate

bottom kek get the fuck out of here you faggot

YO! friend! we should hook up and lulzifyour gratitude toward humanity for the win, and betterment of alll!!!!!

she told me she loved me
i dont know if i can take it anymore its killing me inside that she just left me and doesnt care about me the way i care about her
how do i cope

late to the party but what ever (havent greentextes in a while so bare with me)
>me,18,kicked out of highshcool, virgin
>ive kissed girls just never fucked
>my two best m8s both have both lost their wizard cards
>im incredibly depressed about it and am told ill get the pusi one day
>months later now about to be booted out of school after moving no job and im even more depressed what with losing the only really real friends ive ever had and moving away from the one girl who was considering saying yes to dating me
>im now sitting on the back porch of my moms place crying
>god fucking take me

Kody?

This.

gdi

RAID RAID RAID RAID

>be me 24 yr old white male
>graduated 6 years ago from high school
>Went to a UC right out of high school
>Partied for a whole year and got dropped out of school
>Parents almost kicked me the fuck out on the street
>Went to a junior college for the next three years studying engineering
>Realized i hated engineering and was only trying to get a degree in it for the money
>Did bad in some important classes (FUCKIN MATH)
>Ended up working shitty minimum wage food restaurant jobs and paying my own way through school with government loans
>I transferred to ASU two semesters ago
>Met my current gf over a year and a half ago
>Moved in with her after 6 months and havent been back home
>Still doing school and working to pay for everything bills, car expenses, groceries, etc
>Not doing so great in school again
>Changed major to Spanish with a double major in Communications
>Even if i do ever finish my degress will still be worthless i know
>Now just passed 30K in loans
>Maxed out both credit cards for new apartment three months ago
>GET A FUCKING DUI LAST WEEK
>Its my first one and i have court on the 30th of OCt.
>Parents forced me to move back in with them after living with my gf for an entire year completely self sufficient
>its only been a week and I dont know how i am going to last
>Parents are forcing me to go into the military after I pay everything off
>Its my last chance
>Dad doesnt even want me to see my gf anymore
It could be worse. I know it could be. But I still want to give up every single fucking day. BTW only 5'6" Italian and Portuguese Manlet here. Doesnt help my situation at all. that and my gf believe that after this whole DUI gets sorted out that I get to come back home. Still havent told her that my parents dont ever want me moving back in with hereven after I take care of all this. I know your feels man. I know them.

thx for making me cry, asshole

This thread needs more puppers. Daisy my beagle

This thread will shortly die.

Make a new one pls

>18
god isnt gonna take you anywhere
give it a few years and then see where you're really at
Fuck the virgin part. Thats not what you should be worried about. Getting thru school and getting yourself a job so you dont get fucking booted onto the street is what should worry you. I didn't lose my virginity till I was 20 dude. Since losing it ive fucked a bunch of girls. Pussy is pussy but you gotta have your own priorities in check or NO PUSSY will consider you.
>Just a thought man

>parents split up when I was 6
>live with dad dont see mom until I'm 14
>visiting over summer between 8 and 9 grade
>up late one night
>in computer on a yahoo chat room
>meet girl, we start talking
>exchange pics
>exchange numbers
>talk for months
>she visits me once
>I visit her
>decide to stay with mom and abusive step dad to stay with her
>were together for years
>about to graduate HS and she's driving down
>before I go on stage, reveals to me that she's had a BF back home the whole time
>apologizes tells me she's pregnant
>asks if I want to start over
>fuck no
>cheated on every GF since

It's hard, yes, but a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.

Never give those bitches the satisfaction of your failure to move past it.

how about you guys stop being little beta faggots, and these "problems" will literally become incompatible with you.

So...

>be me, biscum
>got contacted via fb by a dude I hadn't seen in 10 years
>we get together, catch up on things
>he stares at me like I'm the most beautiful thing in the world
>we end up in the middle of the mountains, staring at the sky while hugging from the cold
>second time we go out, he kisses me
>middle of nowhere, in front of a waterfall
>we go to his car, we end up having sex
>we talk everyday, I'm happy
> fast forward to a couple weeks ago
>he has to talk to me, he says he hooked up with some girl
>I knew it was going to happen, he had said before a "friend" was going to his place
>he has never invited me there
>I say of course it hurts, but that he's free to do whatever
>he says we were never going to be something serious, but that I deserved honesty
>OK.jpeg
>this whole thing overlapped with a depression attack I had
> feeling miserable, suicidal, all that jazz
>he starts talking to me less and less
>he only talks to me when he wants sex
>apparently at least I'm a good lay
>we haven't seen each other for weeks, I stopped attempting a conversation two days ago
>he hasn't talked to me
>I wish I had told him he was my sky

Hold me, Cred Forums.

For me it's not about women, or materialistic ideologies, or much regarding that broad scope.

I'm just sad.

Ever since I was a child in third grade I realized that the world was unfair, incomprehensible. There was no wrong or right. "The best things in life are free" but "nothing in life is free".

Now at 20 I'm equally sad. Equally if not more lonely than before. I don't feel I ever relate to anyone. I don't even fit in my family, I'm the black sheep regretfully.

I am sad. I am depressed. And most of all, I am lonely. I realized that I would always be like this, alone. Alone in thought. Alone in living. And learned to accept it.

But now, I've lost my way and forgotten my own advice. Three years into college, and with the pressure of being the oldest, I sit here now, as I often due when I'm sadder than usual, on Cred Forums.

This rant has no meaning but I felt the need to type. Maybe somehow my cry for company and help will be read. It really is hard for me to truly manifest a voice in the real world. I can communicate with others but expressing myself is a daunting task for some reason.

I am just sad, and will be for a long time. I have accepted it.
So why do I feel more empty than usual?