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Owls are neat little things.

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owls a cute! A family of owls lived in the tree outside my window where I grew up, I always loved watching them

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>Except talking to Cobalt for the first time in a couple of months, and then being happy to see you. I guess that helped?I dunno.
Maybe, maybe not, who knows. But I like to think that I may have an itsi bitsy tiny part on that :3. Social shenanigans helped me a lot getting better in retrospect, maybe the same is true for you.

Is cobalt still around here sometimes? I'd love to talk to him again some day.

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The psych I went to at the hosp put me in a similar situation.

"I can't not tell you parents if I feel like you're in genuine danger".

Which is a really sneak way of saying "If you want to pursue this line of self kill, I'll threaten to tell your parents".

So I had to back off and feign okayness so she wouldn't do that.

If I ever do attempt it, I'll make sure it's absolute certain death so I won't have to put up with more of that bullshit. Soon I will have access to firearms and explosives as military personnel, so that shouldn't be too difficult.

It's ironic that all these measures in place to prevent suicide (widely-accessible psychiatric help, laws in place to discourage attempts) only serve to make us more determined to succeed, since we know that there is a mountain of bullshit and red tape that we have to put up with should we fail.

Thank you, I need more equine pics

There's a family of owls that live in my back yard at the rest of my family's house. It makes my doggo flip her shit when sees them and they start making noises, it's funny.

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Owls are cute but don't piss them off. They chimp out on you quick.

s/fur you cuck.
Two dicks sliding up against each other as they enter an asshole is almost literally the definition of gay.

Pretty decent show, mate.

>Social shenanigans helped me a lot getting better in retrospect, maybe the same is true for you.
I wouldn't doubt it really. When I was young and not so depressed I was pretty outgoing. Then being around shitty people made me feel like shit as well. I guess I was always somewhat extroverted, but was never well enough to even know.

>Is cobalt still around here sometimes? I'd love to talk to him again some day.
He was here about a month ago. I had emailed him for a while, but at the time I felt so bad that I just couldn't do it anymore because it was so exhausting. I hadn't emailed him in like 2 months. This morning while I was checking my email I decided I was finally going to email him again after finally working up the courage and getting past my anxiety.
Anyway, he said he may come around again this weekend.

post raw memes

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I think that dog might have autism.

>> almost literally

Pretty sure it IS gay

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I find all MMF to be pretty damn gay, but this really pushes the envelope.

Any more like this, with girls embarrassed/covering themselves?

Sorry, can't do requests, my folder isn't organized.

I really hope you never go through with it, I'd very much like to think there are changes that could be made in your environment that make things better for you

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Upvoted :D

That's kind of like saying there are changes you can make to a Commodore 64 to make it run Crysis 2.

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I know that feel bro.

All of my Gordon shit is organized, I could probably take chef requests.

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Me too. Again, it's cliche but things will get better. I promise.

wow those dubs. I am super jelly D:

>Then being around shitty people made me feel like shit as well.
Yeah that. That's even worse than being alone.

>I guess I was always somewhat extroverted
No doubt there heh, considering the pics you've posted some days ago.

>his morning while I was checking my email I decided I was finally going to email him again after finally working up the courage and getting past my anxiety.
Glad to hear man! The anxiety must've been strong on that one, two months is a while.

The anxiety I had before coming back here after two months was really awful as well, am real happy that I eventually managed to do that as well.

>Anyway, he said he may come around again this weekend.
Cool stuff!

yeah I know...

I wish everyone was in a position where they could change their surroundings to support a happy healthy lifestyle but that is pretty much never the case

if you're at that low point again, I hope you'll consider making a radical change, ie moving to a new country or something, before you resort to self harm

I know I don't really know you or anything but I do kinda consider you and a lot of the other posters here to be friends, and I'd be sad to lose you

No, it's more like "I don't want to have to deal with the bullshit of life so I'm going to kill myself". I wouldn't say that suicide is cowardly, but in your case it is. You have an opportunity to become a better person but you're too blinded by your own depression to see it. Yes, it's fucking stupid that you have conscription, but you have to realize that they're trying to help. And by you killing yourself, do you know what that means? It means they win. If you're way of seeing it remains the same that is. By persevering and not letting mandatory military service bring you down, you're saying "fuck you!" to the people that try to break you down. *That* is courage: not letting the world drag you down, and doing what you want. In your case you want happiness, so after getting out of those 2 years of hell will make the forthcoming years seem so much better.

>タンクとしてダンジョンを暴落、私であります
長い間、ダンジョンをクリアし、ずっと何のために>いつもの穏やかな沈黙
> DPSの1がボスの間に地面にshitから死ぬ、「気付かなかった」標準を伴うBRESを要求すると言います
>他のDPSは、「それは本当にアドオンの名前である "ので、彼も、それについて失礼でも謝罪ではない、彼はより速く反応することができますGTFOアドオンを取得示唆しています
任意のアドオン - - クラッチがあり、bottingやハッキング、それらを設定し、それらを更新することが価値のない雑用であるためにそれを比較>死んだ男は、すべてのアドオンを使用すると主張しながら、他の男の一般的な侮辱を呼び出します
>ヒーラーは、 "彼はただの提案を行ったWTHの男、そのように反応する必要はありません"になります
> "私はあなたが私が前に見たことがない侮辱が続いていない、あまりにもアドオンを使用して賭けます
>私は、彼らが主張し続けている間、男はrezさと引数に彼の地面を保持するために精神遅滞の新しい状態に超越します私のトラップを閉じておきます
>最終的にはちょうどダンジョンはまだそうでない場合はスムーズに実行されているので、チャットログに注意を払って停止し、それは私が気にすべてです

>私は突然、私はむしろ進歩を作り続けることになるため、新しい友達を作ると、前方インスタンスを押す代わりのを逃した実現、自己意識の私の大規模な自閉症のになるTFWは「無意味」ばかと彼の怒りを下にピン止め

だから、私の一日はかなり平均でした。どのようにあなたはどうですか？

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I don't really keep raw memes around, but here's your shit. youtube.com/watch?v=dUZJqNwG74k as a bonus, yeah?

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Trips = Life

>The anxiety I had before coming back here after two months was really awful as well, am real happy that I eventually managed to do that as well.

Wew sometimes I forget how to English. I should read that shit before I post.

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English motherfucker
I don't speak nintendo

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>No doubt there heh, considering the pics you've posted some days ago.
You know, I never even thought of it that way. I only posted those pics for others to enjoy. But now that I think about it, I guess that's what extroversion is all about: sharing happiness with someone else.

>Glad to hear man! The anxiety must've been strong on that one, two months is a while.
A little bit. I was more or less just putting it off because I didn't want to bother him. I don't even know why I did it, but it seems both of us are glad that I did.

>The anxiety I had before coming back here after two months was really awful as well, am real happy that I eventually managed to do that as well.
I'm sure it was. Your anxiety seems to be a lot worse than mine, so I can only imagine what it was like.

I always looked at that like she was high a fucking kite.

>botting
Aight, that's how you do it meng.

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>ランドセルのためのいくつかの英雄を暴落、私であります
> ubrs
> DPSの忍者は、他で忙しいイムは、他のゴミパックにつながるバナーを殺すことはありませんしながら、1ゴミパックを引きます
> ohgreat.jpg
>スタンゴミ、ポップCDS、AOEダウンゴミ箱
>他のパックにトップDPS
>最初のボスに到達、DPSは、xをしていないためにお互いを呼び出しているように見えます
ヒーラーのマナがいっぱいになった後に>戦いを開始
> DPS 1」はどのような何の準備ができてチェック？ "文句ありません
>コンジットがアクティブになります
> DPS 2は、それを無効にダウンジャンプ失敗し、死にます
彼に> DPS 1＆3笑い
> DPS 3は、それを非アクティブ化し、バックアップを取得します
>次のコンジットアップ
> DPS 3は、ダウンジャンプ1を不活性化、他の1が、ロス・ヒーラーに行き、AOEに死にます
>彼がダウンして取得するDPS 1を伝え、誓います
> DPS 1は、死ぬ前に二度AOEを介して、斜面を流れ落ち
> DPS 3＆2は遅彼に電話します
>非常に彼をひっくり返す彼は非常に懸命に試みた方法についての暴言に行くと、それらは彼の楽しみを作ります
> 6分後、私は最終的にすべてのコンジットとのボスを殺すために管理します
> hesのはまだ起こっています
>我々は彼を蹴ります
>彼は/私wはあなたのたわごとのあなたの平和をファック
> MFW
性交は、人々と間違っているもの

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>I wouldn't say that suicide is cowardly, but in your case it is.
Sorry, that's a very myopic way of seeing it. I have to remember now that depression is fucked up and you can't control that way of thinking.
What I should say is that it's courageous in your own mind, but not to others because not many others see it that way.

Stop speaking in nintendo faggot

its like I'm back in /acg/. Damn do I miss that place

The government considers all radicals to be criminals.

Radical changes are illegal.

But I also win because I don't have to put up with their bullshit.

Whether they win or not is irrelevant. Why do I care?

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one of these days when my 3d modelling skills become not shit I am making a lewd animal crossing clone

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This is an idea I can get behind

Fucking ants

Please do! And fill it with extra sexy Whitney

No, you're not seeing it right. By doing that, you quit playing their game altogether. But by persevering, you beat them at their own game. Life itself is a game after all. How you choose to play it is up to you. Now look at it this way: if you have no challenges, and you just get to do everything freely in a video game, then you'd grow tired of it, right? Nothing will be a challenge, thus it won't be fun. However, if you choose to play the game of someone else and beat them, then you feel very accomplished.
That is the reason why Dark Souls has a cult following: it's so much harder than most games, thus it's that much more rewarding. Those Chad's and Stacey's who live privileged lives and don't have to work for shit? They miss out on the real opportunities of life. They don't get to feel those true feelings of accomplishment after life throws everything at them, and then fight through it. Life wouldn't be fun if everyone had everything they want.

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The main objective of any solution is to make a problem be no longer a problem.

Running away from a problem makes it not a problem. Therefore it is a solution.

I don't care how I solve it, just that I solve it. This is not a game that I launched and played on my own accord - I have no reason to beat it in the conventional way just to e-peen about it.

I dunno. Juicy mare butts though. That is totally a thing right now.

I have not the slightest idea what animal crossing is about but the words animal and lewd together in one sentence sure sound promising.

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I agree with this. I spent 5 years in the US Army (my choice) and it was some of the toughest days of my life but I made it through and I'm better for it. Got me in shape, taught me strategic thinking, got to see the world, killed some people, and now life is a lot better.

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Except I don't care about any of those things.

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>y tho?
Why I saved the thumbnail like a retard? Dunno, brain fail.

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eh it'd basically be an town management sim / harvest moon clone with furry sex scenes

I'm fluent enough in c++ that I could put something nice together now, I just have to work on my artistic abilities so it doesn't look like shit

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>Running away from a problem makes it not a problem. Therefore it is a solution.
That's one way to put it.

Yes, yes they are.

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>Running away from a problem makes it not a problem. Therefore it is a solution.
No because the problem will still exist whether you choose to ignore it or not. If you want to get real technical we can talk about quantum mechanics and Schrodinger's cat. For all you know, the day you kill yourself is the day conscription gets outlawed.

But you want to fight Capitalism, right? You don't like that the world hates you and wants to break you down, right? So you say "fuck you" and fight it. Don't be a coward and let them win. Show them that you've had enough of their shit, and show them that no matter they do, they can't make you stop trying to achieve your goal of happiness. It's not like you're happy right now, so how do you know you won't be happy after you go though all that shit? You need to learn to see things from a different perspective, Alex.

Thx!

>eh it'd basically be an town management sim / harvest moon clone with furry sex scenes
I'd totally dig that!

Oh I see it's for the 3DS right, I'd imagine running a homebrew game on that to be real tedious but I only know the DS-Lite. So I'd only totally dig that if it were for PC.

I'm going to need all the new krystal you have alex...

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1. Except death solves all problems.
2. So what?

3. There are some beasts that when fought only get stronger. The only winning move is not to play.

it'd be for pc and maybe android since I'm only familiar with unreal engine and unity at the moment

honestly I didn't think anyone would really be interested in it, might actually have to buckle down and put some work in on it, I'll post progress here if I do

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>honestly I didn't think anyone would really be interested in it, might actually have to buckle down and put some work in on it, I'll post progress here if I do
Cool!

I'm not at all aware of what kind of work/time you need to put into that so I don't know if it's viable to create that for a bunch of weirdos but I'd try it. Doing that in C++ even with Unity sure sounds like a shitload of work.

Alex, that is fucking stupid. Death doesn't solve any problems, it only creates more. Think about what your family will feel. All the people who care about you will feel terrible and guilty that they couldn't help you. The people who don't understand what you're feeling will call you a fucking coward. I don't agree with that, but I don't think you do either. Everyone loses in that situation, except the government and Capitalists who benefit from it. Do you really want them to win?

>new

lol

Damn, right. Small thumbnails are small. Still cute, and reminds me a bit of your socks. Seems like you'll need a collar to go with those!

I want to get one actually. Cockwizard showed me a website earlier this year where you can get nice custom collars. Collars are quite a bit more expensive than I thought, but whatever. I want one, and I want to get a tail plug too.

You should just do it and stop fretting. Its only two years. Go in, do the bare minimum, and get out. Whats so bad about it? You'll get paid (I assume) and when you're done, pick back up where you left off. Would life be much different if you wasn't going? Why is this such a deal-breaker for you?

Would take a shit-ton of time and resources, mate. If it'd be something actually serious, I'd suggest setting up a patreon (hell, even if it isn't, people will throw money at anything).

Death solves all problems for me. I don't care what problems it creates for others, because they are not my problem.

Gov't doesn't benefit because the suicide figure goes up by one. Capitalism doesn't benefit because they lose a long-term investment: Me. Although they make a bit of moolah from funeral expenses.

In the strategic long-term they still lose, but even that is irrelevant to me, why do I care when I'm dead?

yeah it'd probably take two or three years or so, unless I outsourced for a lot of the assets

not really something I can work on full time at the moment in any case

but hey, who knows, if I make some good progress maybe I could set up a kickstarter or something

The bare minimum is absurdly impossible to accomplish.

And no, I don't get paid. It is slavery.

Look, if you're not willing to look at this from a different perspective then I can't help you. If you don't care that you're going to hurt all those that care about you, including all of us, then whatever. That's very selfish of you, but I guess I can't stop you.

So you get conscripted and they don't pay you?
What kind of third world country do you live in?

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Your perspective is logically flawed.

North Korea.

I support all of that! ...and I hope you'll post some pics once you do,,,

Agreed. You can't change someone if they don't want to.

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How? I'm viewing this from a very objective point of view, and considering all viable options. YOUR perspective is flawed, and you can't see that because you've chosen this one thing without considering any other alternative. Your depression has you seeing black and white. I'm not even saying that you shouldn't kill yourself, I'm just saying that you need to take a step back and look at everything from a truly objective point of view; not the point of view that you want, or what your depression has made you think you want.

Of course!

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I'll be back in a few

"Objective"? You concern yourself with irrelevant and illogical "victories" at every turn.

If you were truly objective, you will see that it really doesn't matter.

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I do see that it doesn't matter, Alex. That's the thing: nothing matters! That's exactly why you should do what you want. You want to be happy, and obviously this isn't the way, so go fucking do something that will make you happy!

Please tell me you're kidding. I'm not even joking when I say this but you'd be better off killing yourself if you really do live there. I'm sorry you were born in such a shit hole. On the bright side, you manage to go south, South Korea is amazing. You should go to Songton. Nice shopping district.

He's just fucking with you. He lives in Singapore. The Norks don't even have access to Cred Forums.

alexgivememorepicturesofkrystal

norks don't get to post on Cred Forums

I am kidding, of course.

But the reality isn't far from it, though this country's politicians do a good put of putting up a facade misleading foreigners into thinking we're something we're not.

I'm sure Big Kim does

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Ok, so basically at this point you're just looking for attention.

So you can either:
A. Stop talking about it and just kill yourself
B. Stop talking about it and don't kill yourself
Or
C. You can let people try to help you without being a giant cock

This is coming from someone with severe suicidal thoughts for over 5 years before I got some anti-depressants and other shit to help me out so I've been though it all before. At this point you're just talking in fucking circles. I don't care what you do, but stop begging for attention in a porn thread.

I have the opinion that its your life and you can do what you want with it. People who say "its selfish to kill yourself" are being selfish themselves. I know what it feels like to wish I were never alive and live with it for years and it feels like shit

fumyu?

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Well....good. Fuck the DPRK
Regardless, I know Singapore isn't all it's made out to be but its better than some places.

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My perspective is that if somebody wants to kill themself, they shouldn't say anything more about it than "how should I do it?" If they ain't getting the answer to that and keep going, rather than asking somewhere else, they're just being an attention whore in the vast majority of cases.

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Fuck. Gold. Hats.

Personally, I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting attention, but ignoring everyone's answer while just wanting to hear what you want to hear is dumb. At least allow people to help.

It's not me who's not letting people help me.

At least those places are what they're made out to be.

I didn't even ask for help. These faggots feel self-entitled to give it to me.

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