Feels thread, let's hear it

Feels thread, let's hear it

>Be me at college
>all other friends drop out or transfer
>one really good friend though
>Get along really well
>Always happiest with each other
>Close friends for two years
>Type in "kiddie porn" in Google images on his computer
>Gets angry, I laugh
>A day later, tells me he talked to the security people of the college
>They tell him it's the most malicious thing they've ever seen and that it's illegal
>I tell him it's not (it's not) and I'd never do anything to hurt him
>Tells his mom allegedly
>Says mom told him to never hang out with me again or she's not going to give him money
>I apologize before he tells me
>He says "He can't afford to make mistakes"
>We part ways
>Hoping that it's not really over

Bump

do you think child pornography is funny? really?

>be me
>orphan, grew in a foster family, I am adopted.
>physically and sexually abused through the childhood
>they're alcoholics and fight a lot
>20 now, diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder, social anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder
>I couldn't even do groceries due to severe anxiety
>I'm put on 6 different types of medication
>am I dead yet? am I a zombie ? Who am I...these pills are...are killing me
>I had 2 boyfriends(yes I'm a fag), I caught the first one with a hooker in his bed, the second one beat the shit out of me because ''he's the leader" then left me heartbroken
>I...I'm just looking for love,
>attempt suicide by overdosing
>gets hospitalized 3 days, I run out of hospital because I needed one month more
>under no medication right now, I'm anxiety free, patiently waiting it to return, I'm also in therapy.
>I'm thinking to start self-harming again
>when I'm not depressed I'm angry and vice versa
>family keeps telling me they're off of me
>I feel like I'm here only to suffer
>this world is just not for me....

There's one advice I wish I knew before, user.Be strong, FUCK other people, trust and love ONLY yourself so you won't get disappointed when others inevitably break your trust and focus on what you like.

he thought it was illegal thats why it was funny. i'm obviously disappointed in myself

I don't know where else to say this so here goes.
>be me
>hanging with roommates last Friday night
>movie night
>drinking and smoking
>suddenly one roommate puts his hand on my leg
>wtf is going on
>I move to push his hand off
>other roommate grabs my cock
>OMGWTFBBQ
>hey user let's have some fun
>both whip out their dicks
>too much beer and dank for this shit
>try to leave but they keep me on the couch
>how about it user, you wanna lick
>get forced to suck them off
>too inebriated to fight back
>other roommate get behind me
>pulls my pants off and penetrates me
>get double teamed by my roommates for about an hour
>when it's all over they go to their rooms
>have a good night user
>go to my room and shower
>still don't know wtf happened
>don't sleep at all
>been a week and they haven't mentioned it and act like nothing happened
>feel confused and worried

What should I do Cred Forums?

Report it to the cops man.

your on Cred Forums

dont forget

This seems like a low tier /hm/ bait but I'll take it.

First of all make sure to wait a few months then do a HIV/full STD tests.
Secondly, report them to the police and move out.
Lastly, go to a therapist and try to forget the trauma.

Or just embrace being a slutty boi and worship big black cock like the sissi you are and start transitioning.

pedophilia is the biggest of taboos on the West civilization op. normies will turn into murderers if they find a pedo, and no one cares about it. its "okay" to brutally murder and torture a pedophile.
was it a funny prank? yes it was. but hey. if your friend is a normie then he might not be happy about it, anyways just let it go lol yolo

I've built the friendship over two years, it seemed like he was going to cry when he told me too. It to me a lot to remain straight faced. When I apologized again he said
>"I don't know what to tell you"
>I replied "It's fine. I get it."

By gawd I think I know you..

I'm scared about my family and friends finding out about it. I don't where I'd move to anyways. Shit is fucking me up in school too, I can barely concentrate

Your real friends and family will support you if they do find out. I personally would swallow my hubris at any chance at justice

You were raped, dear, I know it's normal to be scared but don't worry they'll understand you completely.

The real question is, how can a big boy in college still be told by his mommy about who he can hang out with? Why is this all a big deal in the first place, you're grown adults for fucks sake?

Idk what to do. I fucking shutter at the thought of having to come home. I spend my days locked in my room now.

Yeah I don't understand it, but I was willing to understand his point of view to try to preserve the friendship

It isn't your fault, user. You're blaming yourself as a victim.

Should I message him tomorrow and ask if he'd "ever be willing to forgive me?"

I understand preserving friendship but does this guy constantly check in with his mom? What stops you from hanging out away from his house?

We're like 800 miles away from his house. I say allegedly because I thought maybe it was his own choice and he doesn't want to admit that.

This just happened, and I am so traumatized by it
>go to get some tendies
>want frosty too
>order tendies with frosty
>order comes up
>no frosty
>too beta to say something
I feel so betrayed. Should I just an hero?

>800 miles

It was his own choice. Sorry, user. He must take academics deadly seriously.

He doesnt though, my GPA is twice his. I dont know whats up. Should I try asking him to forgive me again despite the blow to my hubris?

I got class in a bit. School is the only place I feel safe. If I could I'd stay there all day and not have to be scared at home

>be me
>16 at the time, never had a girlfriend
>cute girls moves from a different school to mine, 10/10
>all the guys are looking at her, talking about wanting to bang her
>agreed with them and started to walk to class
>the hallway clears as class is about to began, but see the new girl is lost
>nowismychance.jpg
>"Hey, are you needing help?" I ask
>"Yes, we're is Ms. Reeser's class?"
>My face gets red and i stuttered a little bit to help and pointed to it
>She smiles and goes about her day
>Fast forward a few weeks
>I'm realling starting to crush on her
>Eventually ask for her number and she gives it too me
>Start to text and things are great
>We eventually go out, and she is nervous at first but we have a lot of fun
>We go on occasional dates, and I finally ask her out
>She is extremely happy that I asked her
>Fast forward again, I move in with her and things are good
>She eventually has to move because her mom got a new job
>I help her pack , get everything into the new house
>She says "user, I'd really like for you to stay with me but it's only a two person apartment." (Lives with her mom
>"oh , okay" I said. Now she isn't the type to let me go like that, something is up
>Next day, I'm about to leave for a cruise to Mexico
>Go to her house to suprise her, but notice a red mustang In the driveway
>OhFuckNo.jpg
>I find her cheating on me, and it's the guy I hate the most
>He stole $700 from me before, and she goes and fucks him
>I proceed to beat his ass like no other ass beating I have dealt
>I'm heart broken, don't know what to do
>I become addicted to Xanax
>she begs for me back, I tell her to fuck off, but I would occasionally fuck her and leave to let her feel what I have felt
>She goes around and fucks niggers and whites trash
>I join the army to get away from everything
>Make it to week 14/14 in basic training, and get kicked out for buying cigarettes.
> I come home, family is disappointed in me
>Spend over $3000 I made in the army on drugs
Continue?

Continue please feelsbadman

you can get kicked out for buying cigs in basic?

Report it then if it bothers you that much, it WAS RAPE, shit like that don't fly.

Its my first year in Uni. Why did it have to be me? I just wanted to go to school and enjoy it. I don't want to be here anymore I just want to go back home and forget it.

Continuing.
>After I spent all the money on drugs to cope with my depression, I'm getting close to running out of money
>I resort to cheap beer to drink instead of drugs as my addiction was expensive
>I call my Ex while I'm drunk, and she tells me she is a stripper on Arizona now making a shit ton of cash
> I hate her for what she did, but deep down still love her and know she can do better
>as my mind fills with emotions of her being a stripper and making money for being whore, I snap
>fuckthisimdone
>I tell her I hope she is happy for what is about to happen
>I start driving while drunk, and take some Xanax I had left over
>things are getting dizzy but I do not care if I wreck
>I'm thinking about how much of a disappointment I am to my family and how sad I was due to Ex
>I pull over to say one last goodbye to everybody
> See flashing lights behind me
>fuck...
> cop comes up and knows I'm drunk, and I go to jail
> wake up in drunk tank, not remembering what happened after the cop came to my window of my car
>dad picks me up, doesn't say a word
>I go home, and decide I'm done being a shitty and quit everything cold turkey
>bad idea..
>start with drawing from drugs, and hallucinating things that weren't there
>parents take me to hospital, thinks I'm going crazy
> hospital fines are outrageous
>I go home and quit hallucinating over time, only to go to court the next day for the DUI
>court costs are over $1200
>family fucking hates me as they have to pay
>Sitting all alone in bed after all this, and notice red bumps all over my privates
> go to doctor to get it checked out
> it's just bedbugs the doctor says
>I know it isn't bedbugs..
>I have a blood test drawn to make sure
>"you're clean user"
>Or so they thought
>the red bumps never go away, I start to get worried
>go back to Doctor a couple weeks later
>oh my user, you have herpes , a bad case of it
> I break down, depressed as ever
>Present day writing this
>that is my life

Yes, they are very strict. Or at least my company was

Fuck those guys though. (Sorry.) Worse things could have happened though, you resisted and they deserve to be punished. Pic related but I'm sorry that I'll never know how it feels most likely. Stay strong.

I wish I could say I'm as strong as you want me to be user. For the first time in my life I thought about suicide on Tuesday...