Feels thread? Feels thread

so this girl I like is someone I can't be with cuz her ex is my best best best mate.

I am pretty sure my best mate would be okay me dating her but we both love the same guy.

She's somewhat not over him, but at the same time is on to me.

She's someone I want to be with but not her.
Every time we have moments, I feel conflicted and just baww the night off. She would then too.

We just then drink it off and go separate ways. Maybe in the future. But damn is too long and hope she finds someone and I find someone like her. But I know there is never going to be anyone like her.

I fucking hate the feeling. She does too. I even proposed to commit sodoku together and she jokingly agreed.

I saw the girl I had I huge crush on a two years ago, and now I cant stop thinking about her ;_;

Can relate Cred Forumsro

Ok, this'll be a bit longer
>so that shitshow should've made me quit
>but little nigger 14 year old me wanted to still get my nut
>we keep going and progressively things begin to decay
>we get into fights everyday
>just screaming matches
Also as background I was in 8th grade and she was in 10th so I didn't see her that often
>despite all of this we still fool around a lot
>more and more her parents start to bear down on her
>I'm made to think that all of our problems were my fault and that I'm a horny piece of shit
>things go on like this for 5 fucking months
>she kept telling me, things will get better user, don't be so horny user
>bitch you were just as horny as I was
I've got more, I'm gonna try to be quick

Be fast boih

I'm actually mobilefag, also, nice trips

bump

Ayy im also a mobilefag

interested

nway,
ill probably just drink for it
get absolutely smashed

keeping this bread alive. finna read this story till the end of it Tbh

Ok, so things really go bad here
>it be May, and we honestly loathe each other but won't say it
>well, not exactly loathed but couldn't get along
>we still fuck around, but it's honestly to let off steam
>then one day
>Wednesday, June 11th
>remember it clear as day
>"we need to talk"
> she breaks up with me
>never have I felt worse
>I felt cheated, betrayed, because I treat her like royalty, put her on a pedestal and bow down to her
>and she walks all over me
>crying, "I love you user but I can't do this" blah blah blah all fucking bull shit
>I can't handle the stress, almost anhero
>but I pull through all the shit she and her "friends" threw at me
>then came my relief
I'll continue

Alright this is a bit unrelated but ties into the story, I was a boyscout at the time working at a camp called Powhatan, glorious place and I love everything about it
>I learned of a staff training program while camping there a week after the break up
>I sign up, not really expecting much and I did it cause I didn't have a gf anymore
>I have the time of my life when I'm there, two weeks of doing everything I love and almost forget about her
>almost
Moar coming

bump

You're surprised that when you bow down you get walked on ?

some unrealated feels for you bois

some helpful inspiration for you guys

Alright
>so I'm back from camp
>and I sink into this depression for a while
>don't really know what to do
>one day I go in for uniform fittings for marching band
>and she's there...
>we lock eyes
>and every single emotion of hatred, dread and regret I ever felt hit me at once
>I had to walk out and get a breather
>I then work of the courage to walk back in
>see her tits, holy shit they got massive
>makes me want her more
>her sister and her uberbitch friend Simone keep glaring at me
>please kill yourself
>anyway, I get my uniform fit, she and I keep awkwardly looking at each other
>during a lot of this she and I still talked but we mainly fought
>one day I go overboard, realize what I did was wrong and sent a huge ass apology
>the mistake I made in sending that text
Essentially it started another year of fucking torture, ill type it up

T-t-t-to-to-to-tod-tod-today junior!

Well this is recent, so I'll do it.
>be me kissless 19 yo
>mess around after work on my phone
>get on alot of anonynous chats
>eventually meet a girl online who is the same as me
>never kissed anyone and she always talks about how she really wants to do those things
>we chat for months and days
>eventually we get really close and chat on the phone daily
>one day she just stops texting me and we dont talk for a week
>I text her telling her that I miss her like a beta
>she eventually texts me telling me about how she got asled out by a guy at her new job
>barely knew each other for about a week or two
>Talks about him and how funny he was
>didn't know how to react and just stopped texting her
>about a month after I get on with myself and make money/get over her
>she calls me telling me that she made a mistake and that she wanted to be with me
>goes on to saying that he just fucked her then left
>I don't answer
>I just move on with myself
Not really a feels story but I really don't talk to anyone. Nor do I have friends, I just work all the time and having someone to talk to felt nice. Even if the chances were small that her and ne could've been something I liked the idea of it. Good thing reality hit me the way it did.

Yeah, when I think about it now it just pisses me off at how ignorant I was

Cred Forumsump

Okay so here is how it comes back up
>one day thinking about how I'd respond in case she texts me back
>well what do you fucking know
>"hey user, I just wanted to tell you I got your message"
>I fucking freeze, I don't know how to respond, I almost didn't
>then betafag me responds
Ironically in doing this I basically rejected easily a 9/10 that had a crush on me in over a year, yeah, I'm a fucking idiot
>we talk,
>"oh I miss you user, but my mom is threatening to disown me if I get back together with you"
>I'll have to admit I missed her a shit ton
>I take the b8
> for a few months she and I secretly date and eventually it gets her moms blessing
>we start back up again
It didn't get better

bump(?)

I fucked up and lost contact with a girl that I guess I fell for

Basically she acted like she lost all interest in me, so naturally I thought she's playing and I played along. Things got out of hand after a week, when I got pissed off about it, because our every conversation ended after 3 sentences. I was drunk texting her later that night, which only made things worse.

I stopped talking to her at all for 2 weeks. She texted me 2 or 3 days ago, asking why I wasn't talking to her, to which I answered with "I was busy" bullshit and said, that she could've called or texted me. We got into an argument and stopped talking to eachother again. I asked a couple of my friends what should I do about it, one said just end it, the other said she's still playing and that I shouldn't care, and the last one said that I made things worse and there's no coming back.

Girls are complicated

Well now it's the same basic story repeating itself, except we were way more sexual and I got more head than a fucking hydra
> so now it's when I go back to camp
>she doesn't like it but she knows I need to
>literally a week away and I get a text
>"user.... I might be pregnant"
>REEEEEEEEEEE.jpeg
>here's the thing we didn't even fuck
>but she's fucking adamant the precum I had got her preggers
>no test to prove it and I don't believe it, it's impossible
>then she misses her period
>SHIEEEEET.jpeg
>I freak out for about a good 24 hours, wondering if I should just kill myself
>then finally one night, the bitch finally bled
>the relief was like a thousand blow jobs happening all at once
>for the rest of summer she just complains and bitches like she usually does
I'm nearing the end

Post her tits.

Contributing.

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THIS!

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Sometimes you cling on the last hope you have to not commit suicide, yet these people tell you to.

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Feels thread. Fuck you this one gets me.

I'm on tears user

QQ damn you user im at work too

Fuck this thread is a rollercoaster

I've cum to this video before.

So, essentially she got upset and cried at every little thing, and one night it just got to be enough and started the single two worst months of my life
>at bowling alley
>Hang with my nigs for a bit
>and she starts to bawl, and all of her friends are shooting dirty looks
>I finally get the balls to call her on her shit
>and things get better for a week
>and then a viscous cycle begins
>she gets mad, I call her on it, we make up, repeat 8 times
> One night, she texts me saying that I needed to fucking be more mature and step-up, and be more two-sided, etc. bullshit like that
>I almost fucking ended my life right there
>until gf gets scared and texts my mom that I might hurt myself
> and then I tell my mom what was going on
>she tells me how to handle the bitch
>I get in the phone, and yell at the bitch for a straight hour
> tell her how's its gonna be, "ok user I'll change etc, more bullshit"
Thing is she had to fucking please everyone and she could never form her own opinions and I was basically having to constant self improve to meet her parents standards
>anyway the next day, things end. Abruptly.
>I couldn't have been more happy, and that happened today a very long time ago
> I honestly think her parents made her do it cause it wasn't like her to flip like that all of the sudden
And that is the story of my two years of wasted life. Sorry it was anticlimactic

Girls are like black holes

What the fuck has become of society

Wish I could, unfortunately I don't have pics. They weren't even that good to be honest

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Didn't waste 2 years you learned a lesson

>▶
Installer: Ah needs tuh put the wahrs
Me: Everything's done. GTFO
Installer: But the wahrs need tuh be all over. I makes muhney from the wahrs
Me: No, it's already been done correctly. You aren't getting your grimy hands on this house.
Installer: But ah needs tuh put the wahrs to the picher box and the teevee.
Me: *slap* Bad wire monkey. Get back in your truck and go bother somebody else.
Installer: But mah paypers. Yew needs tuh scratch on mah paypers weeyuth wunna theyem sticks what makes mahrks
Me: This paperwork says that a lot of things happened that didn't actually happen. I'll sign nothing until you bring me something that isn't full of lies.
Installer: ahmma tell momma on yew
Me: You do that.
Installer: Yew aint nahs *sob*
Me: On this we agree.

The service worked perfectly, BTW.

Yeah, plus I had some nice honies lined up after that

Proud of you user. Fuck that hoe

Be me 18 at a random party at my university (dutchfag)
>see girl 6/10 but kissles vergin me wants to be social
>we talk all evening
>she gets drunker and I stay kinda sober because I want to stay clear for my conversation with her
>things go great until I got to the restroom
>I left my phone with her unlocked
>I have 1876 picture of Cred Forums cancer, rekt videos, best gore, deathtupe and from the old days hiddenlol
>she gets triggered like a motherfucker and shows it to everyone
>I get back and they throw me out >everybody in my class ignores me >eventually I change studies

great story, really. spent past 50 mins on thread bumping it from time to time and story got to end on a fairly good note Tbh

Tfw no great struggle

oh boi you done fucked it up

I don't know what to do anymore, user

The first 2 weeks we didn't talk were great, I spent all my free time with my friends, we went clubbing, drinking, they took care of me, because they knew what was going on, but since she texted me 2 or 3 days ago I feel like complete shit when I'm alone

Sorry man, that's life I guess. Things aren't gonna be so epic

Someone please screencap this

Well Cred Forumsros, I appreciate this, you really helped me blow off some steam

>13
>wasted two years of my life
>15
>thinks he has ''real problems''

I'm a young faggot too, stop bitching. It was a mistake and it wasn't real love. Testoserone got the best of you. Learn to fight your urges, idiot.

I never said I had real fucking problems, and what do you think the purpose of this fucking thread was? Go smear your edgy autistic shit somewhere else

i have wasted all 23 years of my life yet i don't moan about it....i just hate everyone.

Your classmates are fucking pussies and that bitch shouldn't have invaded your privacy like that. Fuck humanity.

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Just be happy you never had cheese pizza kek

My feels....

>be me
>orphan, grew in a foster family, I am adopted.
>physically and sexually abused through the childhood
>they're alcoholics and fight a lot
>20 now, diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder, social anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder
>I couldn't even do groceries due to severe anxiety
>I'm put on 6 different types of medication
>am I dead yet? am I a zombie ? Who am I...these pills are...are killing me
>I had 2 boyfriends(yes I'm a fag), I caught the first one with a hooker in his bed, the second one beat the shit out of me because ''he's the leader" then left me heartbroken
>I...I'm just looking for love,
>attempt suicide by overdosing
>gets hospitalized 3 days, I run out of hospital because I needed one month more
>under no medication right now, I'm anxiety free, patiently waiting it to return, I'm also in therapy.
>I'm thinking to start self-harming again
>when I'm not depressed I'm angry and vice versa
>family keeps telling me they're off of me
>I feel like I'm here only to suffer
>this world is just not for me....

There's one advice I wish I knew before, user.Be strong, FUCK other people, trust and love ONLY yourself so you won't get disappointed when others inevitably break your trust and focus on what you like.

Ok I saw this exact fucking thread, is this copypasta?

Got one two
>be me about 13, 14 years old
>being in school
>there is this one 7to8/10 but very shy girl in my class
>we get allong quite well but I am never really interested in her
>me being a hormone fulled teenager only drooling over the 9/10 with big tits
>beingastupidyoungfuck.jpg
>so I never really realize the shy one has kind of a chrush on me
>I meantion once in class that I really like blondes
>the next day she has blonde
no shit, kinda strange I know
>a week later she is back to brown
>time is passing she never realy has a bodyfriend or anything
>I date a girls form different town
>my gf at the time is becoming friend with the shy girl ... ok lets call her tina
>I hang a out a little more with tina because my gf and her have commen freinds blablabla
>tinaisactuallyreallycool.mp3
>I start to kinda liking her but never do anything because gf at the time
>fast forward 2 years almost down with school, I break up with the gf because I find out she cheated on me
>being on a school graduation trip I have one moment with Tina but nothing sexual not even kissing but a moment
>I move away after we graduate but I am in constant contact with Tina
>I meet different girl and start to date her
>never stop talking to Tina, sometimes more sometimes less
>we agree to meet up at the around christmas when I would come home
>I guess tina knew I have a girlfriend at the time its on facebook and shit
>christmas comes
>I am being a fucking pussy an cancel meeting with her
>Iamafuckingretard.png
>go bacl to normal life with the normal gf
>contact with Tina decreases to 0
>I break up with the gf about two years ago
>no more Tina talk
>no girldfriend since then just tinder and fuck shit
>I feel shit
>feel like I fucked up
>Tina might have been it
>dont know how to contact her

What do ?

No, it's the same dude :(
I keep posting it because nobody replies and I feel lonely.

how about getting professional help there buddy ?

The problem might be because it sounds weird and fake af. But what the heck do i know

Read the greentext, I'm already in therapy.

I dont want to be here, but i cant stop coming here

Oh shit

I've had countless intense struggles.. count your blessings. We were made to struggle so deep down we look for the struggle. When you have no struggle it's truly a blessing. Smile more.

I'm sorry then but it's not really fake....this is the exact reality. I wish it was fake, I wish I was just a normie...

I just got out of a relationship a little over a month ago. Ive had girlfriends and shit before, but this was the first girl I ever really loved, and man did I fall for her.
Its beyond complicated, but to sum it up, things were amazing, then one day out of the blue she tells me it "doesn't feel right" and between her studies, strict family, and issues with anxiety, she couldn't handle a relationship. Felt like I shat out a lightning bolt of disappointment when she told me that. She told me about how "It's just for right now" and how "in the future" she wants to start things up again, but I'm not a dipshit, I know that's all bullshit to let me down easier.
Didn't know how to deal with it, since I've never put all my cards down on someone just to have them shit all over me before, so I just started drinking all the time. Made me feel better at first, but I started to realize what a pathetic piece of shit I was. I'm still getting over her, but feel alot better.
She's been doing little cutesy shit to me recently, like trying to start things up again, or maybe she just wants to keep me around so that I can make her feel pretty or some shit, but I'm not biting. Dumb cunt.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. You and I stopped seeing these women because there's probably someone better coming soon, OP.

Always the case with girls hey.

They invest all of these emotions in a guy, and then just go fuck the next thing that gives them a bit of attention.

Contact Tina, try talking to her, but dont try to make it seem like she was always the backbone. You got this user

Also, her name was... Sarah

>every night before bed have a relaxing smoke on my porch
>look at the stars on clear nights
>often see falling stars in the sky
>whenever I do, feel like maybe she's out there looking at them too, remembering me as I do her
>finish smoking and go to bed

Maybe I'll see her again

This is OP btw

but i cant love myself user

what a total skank name

>james: ey dood woddop
>sarah: DUN TOLK TU MEH U CUNT

Aww user shieeet, i feel with you. Hope you're becoming better by time, maybe start doing some sort of activity to take your mind of it (I know that sounds really fucking gay but hey).

But how, what do I even say? Just "havent heard from you in a while, you since I pretty much told you to fuck off." Also we live 500km apart from each other

user, I wish I was there to hug you and tell you you're gonna meet your true love.

You just answered your own doubts.
>"She's been doing little cutesy shit to me recently, like trying to start things up again"
After telling you
>"It's just for right now"
?
user, don't be a cuck. She needs the validation and the secure and comfort you provide to her but she doesn't want to get complicated with you.

I bet she already started to date other guys and when she meets the first guy she'll ignore you...this is the exact thing that my ex did but he just left me because I got depressed after he beat me up.

Congrats on pulling through brave user.

Women are crazy.

Date them, but don't fall in love.

And NEVER tell a woman you love her.

I'll talk to you mate. I'm 18 and feel the same way except I just quit my job because I hate having some pile of shit job be my entire life.

Where do you work? I had a min wage accounting job that was 3x more effort than it paid

Me neither, love is destructive anyways so why bother, ey?

Ok, buckle up brehs.
>20
>just got replaced at work
>live on my own, have to pay 80 units of currency for a room in a shared house
>no place to go
>I can afford rent for this week and two more if I cut down on expenses drastically
>If I don't find a job soon, I will be on the street with the clothes I got on now
>no friends, no place to crash in
>will try all work agencies tomorrow morning
>if I find nothing, I am fucked.
>Might an hero in 3 weeks brehs
Wtf do I do? I was never taught how to live. All I got was a kick in the teeth and a fuck you.

Installer: Ah needs tuh put the wahrs
Me: Everything's done. GTFO
Installer: But the wahrs need tuh be all over. I makes muhney from the wahrs
Me: No, it's already been done correctly. You aren't getting your grimy hands on this house.
Installer: But ah needs tuh put the wahrs to the picher box and the teevee.
Me: *slap* Bad wire monkey. Get back in your truck and go bother somebody else.
Installer: But mah paypers. Yew needs tuh scratch on mah paypers weeyuth wunna theyem sticks what makes mahrks
Me: This paperwork says that a lot of things happened that didn't actually happen. I'll sign nothing until you bring me something that isn't full of lies.
Installer: ahmma tell momma on yew
Me: You do that.
Installer: Yew aint nahs *sob*
Me: On this we agree.

The service worked perfectly, BTW.

to be honest bro all you talk about is getting your dick sucked, and how these emotions are more or less getting in the way. aybe she was right, maybe you were being two dimensional. girls like romance and shit, you learn to balance things.

also you sound way young fam

> find 10/10 gurl from my town in the internet
>show her photoes to ur shy friend, he finds her 'ok'
>i cant chat with her because im even more shy
>he does
> i almost forgot about that fact
>finally i got into the party with her ( and my friend)
> got fucked up, although she turned out fucking disgusting person
> ur friends shows u the message by her 'i really like you'
> that blended feeling

Well the distance makes the meet-up part kind of akward doesn't it. Tell her how,s it going and shit, but dont make it too stale. If she moves in on the subject of love you can try to smoothen her up

Tbh im just a lonelyfag thinking up useless strategies. You shouldnt really be listening to me

>be me 23 years old have a kid
>divorced with babys mother
>about a year and a half ago
>we got together when i was 15 and she was 13
>back to point currently live in small outskirt town of sacramento
>Work a basic 8-5 selling carports/metal components
>hate job
>make money but only enough to survive feel like im stuck in a rut
>ex wife loses her appartment so i take her, her mom and sister in
>mfw i have a 1/1 appartment
>happy my daughter is there all the time with me
>shitty ex wife acts like i owe her something all the time and tries to walk all over me
>finally get so depressed and angry i decide im going to quit job and move to LA taking my daughter with me (i have full custody)
>cant deal with her shit anymore
>still work same job until lease is up but it feels like im losing my mind
>contemplated suicide.. and not like easy suicide like i hang myself from the door but theres enough slack to where if i just put my feet down ill live
>if i do it i want whoever finds me to know how bad i was suffering

Nah there was some actual romance, I just didn't think it would be that interesting, plus I'm not too much of a romantic so it didn't help

can't get over a girl ive known for like 5 years now. cant take care of myself. dont know what do anymore

>When i was 17 i met a girl (looking back a 6/10) online,
>she lived across the state from me with her mom but her dad lived in my city,
>managed to convince her to move.
>We start dating and everything is great
>First girl ive ever fucked, and fucked her in the ass before i fucked her in the pussy
>date for a couple more years, things are going great
>1 year after graduating HS im tired of being poor so decide to join the military to be able to afford college
>We get married
>After bootcamp, she moved to where my training location is and things start to go off the rails
>She randomly says to me one day that she had a miscarriage
>This is a scientific impossibility, i say it was just an abnormally chunky period
>WTFSHENAMEDIT
>Says im insensitive to her loss
>get out of training, find out i deploy in a couple months so no point in getting house yet

TO BE CONTINUED

Well right now I'm stuck in limbo. Don't know if I should go back to my old job wich requires me to establish relationships to sell them stuff. Atm I'm just working at a restaurant as a host.

Yeah I'm usually used as a confidence booster. I just don't care anymore, I might aswell grow up buy a house in the middle of nowhere and just stay there.

Watch porn.webms and go to feelsthreads has helped me for the past 2 years haha

Cont

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yes the distance makes it weird, there is no reason of to talk to her other than me wanting to talk to her. maybe I am just being a fag bit it feels weird.
I dont think she would move on the subject of love, not something that would happen, also she is super shy. I dont think she ever ever had a boyfriend, def. not during the time we were in closer contact and from what I can tell from like fb not since then

>27
>had gf since age of 16
>went to uni for her
>uni was abroad
>didn't care about uni, didn't study, made music and enjoyed myself
>mother killed herself while I was away
>didn't learn shit at uni
>gf got job abroad
>i came back home
>lost everything
>live with father
>debt up the ass
>no friends
>no human interaction
>no job
>no money
>only enemies
>family hates me
>i hate my dad
>he is an ignorant fool who doesn't know we fucked up big time
>tried to kill myself 3 times
>have nothing left
>counting down the days

latest shit i made, probably will be one of my last.

soundcloud.com/airbornmartin/kenji-kawai-making-of-cyborg-airborn-remix

and you fuckers here talk about "I miss her" and shit.

a lot of hte time when i jerk off or see other girls/people i think about her. i dont know what to do anymore holy fuck

you handled that like a true man, user. I'm proud of you.

Well in that case i would say forget her. Its probably some better alternatives nearby you. Good luck user

>tfw your struggle is the lack of anything interesting in your life
>tfw you are 19 and so far nothing notable has happened in your best years

social anxiety made me a lonely weirdo

>We are staying with friends in our old hometown,
>i am commuting 3 hours both ways every day to go to work and still be with her every night
>She suddenly goes baby crazy, crying every day about her fake miscarriage
>No sex for months
>I start chatting to girls on dating websites, not to ever do anything, never did do anything, just to feel wanted (gay i know)
>She goes through my phone and finds it
>Feel like shit, apologize profusely, right before i deploy she accepts it and we are fine
>Last day before i deploy was fantastic, like back before any of this shit happened
>First couple months of deployment I am calling her every day, she is emailing me and sending me shit all the time, its great

than shit took a turn for the worse.

If only it was that easy to not love someone.

yeah, happens to me too. Best thing is to just empty your mind, stop thinking about girls and shit.I was in a relationship with a qt that ended up cheating on me with the same guy twice. Can still remember her when i watch porn. Feelsbadman

my god man...

user, move to LA. Start a new life with your daughter. Leave that bitch

I love you, user.

I think u just have to do or try things u ve always wanted. Like dont give a fuck about anything, just do it over and over again. It sounds primitively, but it really helps.

yeah, often the ones that hate themselves the most is the ones that got the most love

Fucking hell that was gay

I thank you, user :'(

I have been telling myself that as well. but then again in the back of my head there is this voice tht tells me I am making a misstake.

Well we'll see, never say never. Maybe I get job in the city were she lives - I have lots of freinds and family there becasue its close to where I grew up

Cred Forums I'm gonna ask for some help on something.

I have the opportunity to get away from my city and go to a state school and start over. I wanna live the single life there and experience life. On the other hand, there's this girl I've been into for years and I would love to have a relationship with her, but we're best friends. I just want to have some closure if I can, but also I see a good life going away too. Fuck it, I'll probably just ask her regardless and if not I can always do my own thing and keep her as a friend.

Sorry, had to vent and didn't want to start a new thread.

i dont even know why i do anything anymore or why im alive. sometimes i think about being in a better situation where im happy with my body and i can do nice little hobbies and be happy but it doesnt seem like a possibility. i need her so bad. i dont have to marry her or whatever but i need her in my life. she wants me to move in with her and she says she loves me but it's complicated

>be 13

You're sobbing over a girl when you were 13?

WHAT THE FUCK? You fucking baby.

And fuck every beta max that supported this shitty thread.

FUCKING SAGE

Ask her. If yes you stay. If no you move, keep your friendship lowkey for about 3 weeks and then start to build it up again. Real fucking tactics

>About 2 months in, Out of nowhere she tells me she doesnt know if she is going to be there when I get back
>feelsbadman
>We go off and on like that, one day she loves me and cant wait till i get home, the next she isnt sure
>Says i have 2 months after i get back to prove im a better person
>6 months into 9 month deployment, she tells me she cheated with one of my friends
>Says it was only once
>Do some snooping, grilled her on it, and she admits it was for months, constantly
>She talks about how the sex was great because he had a pornstar dick but she still regrets it
>Decide to kill myself
>Grab 440v lead in my left hand and bite down on ground
>Knocks me the fuck out (should have killed me)
>Get put on suicide watch
>Keep talking to her for some dumbass reason
>Getting a divorce
>Try jumping off ship, people drag me back
>ItsNighttimeWhereTheFuckDidYouAllComeFrom?
>Back on suicide watch, strike 2 before psych ward
>Get home, fucking depressed
>Become heavy alcoholic, living with old friend who also joined and his wife
>Think about killing myself every day

Happy ending coming up.

/thread. if op is an adult and he's crying over something that happened when it he was 13 he should kill himself

If she says she loves you and she is not a basic twat, you should keep her of she seem to mean so much to you

I think u have to move. Just put an end to the situation with the girl. Confess to her, even though its some kind of challenge. U have to do it. It will give u 2 ways, to stay or to move. If u wont put and end, ull fill down for ur whole life about that moment.

Thats what happens most of the time when you get deployed and you have a twat as a wife/gf. Sorry to hear bud. Pls cont

your shit's awesome, user

Kys

did you even read the thread? also what if you were raped when you were 13 or your parents died or something you dont think that can have an impact? and in any case you tell him to kill himself? what is the matter with you? sounds like you were touched as a kid or something

this

shut up betas this is Cred Forums not a make me feel good counseling session

> sodoku
> I will commit puzzles

Top kek faggot

this song fucking had me in tears.
gets me every time, and this bomb-ass mix is next level
fucking feel for you user

shut up faggot white knight bitch

I kinda do wanna stay in the city for friends and trying to start a band. So that would be cool. Thanks user.

Are you saying I might be wasting my life by getting with her or something? I wasn't clear, but thanks man.

>riding OP's dick hard

go eat a dick

Cont

newfag

>telling people to kill themselves in a feels thread
you guys are obviously emotionally damage

Goodnight Cred Forums

Where do you live?

> Im just trying to say that u wont be satisfied for ur whole life about that moment if u dont put this story to end.

>Now ex wife calls to brag about her new boyfriend and how big his dick is (im not tiny, just very average but ive always been self conscious because i am very much a grower not a shower and she knew it, gay i know)
>New girl in my division real cute, 8 or 9 out of 10
>After a couple months of trying, finally fuck her.
>She breaks up with her scumbag boyfriend and we start dating
>Bit of a prude sexually, but WAY tighter and i cant even use my entire dick except in very certain positions
>Find out about alienation of affection laws, currently in talks with a lawyer about suing ex wifes hookup from deployment for a lot of money
>Live with new girl
>Turns out she is turned on by kinkier shit
>have to hide our relationship because it is illegal fraternization
>Other than that, life is good.

Oh yeah, ex wife was 5'9 or so, no tits, no ass, and a meh face. New girl is 4'11 and 100 pounds, almost all of it in ass and titties, super small frame with 32DD's I have never seen tits that great even in porn

Night

Good night my friend

I get you. I still think it's worth a try though.

>you guys are obviously emotionally damage

Do you realize what site you're on?

I don't really hate my self that bad. But I was in love with a girl, who just out of nowhere ended everything. Everything was going great, we spent a lot of time together, we got so close. And literally 2 days later she turned cold shoulder towards me. I didn't know why, I thought I made her happy, but I guess I wasn't enough for her. She fucking destroyed me, played with me like a toy and left me fucking broken. I've been depressed for few months, but she's together with another guy. We attend same college, so not seeing her and stuff like that is out of the picture. It kills me, seeing her everyday, yet not be able to be with her. Even after all the things she said, I cannot feel any hate towards her. Maybe I should, but I simply can't because I still love her with all my hear. She was my lucky charm...
Literally everything reminds me of her. I don't know what to do. I sleep like 4hrs a day, because only way for me to fall asleep is if I'm really tired.
One day she started to talk to me like nothing ever happened. I know she's still with her bf. I miss days when we texted each other from morning till the night. That will never happen again. Fuck, I don't even know what I want to tell here.
I have no motivation to do anything, my grades are failing, and I feel so empty all the time.
Any suggestions on how to motivate myself to do stuff? I was motivated when I was with her, but now that she's gone, I just want to die.

test

Oh yeah, and the dumb bitch signed a seperation agreement that I wrote. She got 500 a month from me for a year and thats it. Not so bad when you consider i was making an extra 1600 just because i was married. Only thing im upset about is she kept our dog, but that thing was dumb as a box of rocks anyway.

Fucking A, user

>Be me
>Underage in a relationship
>GF lives on the other side of the country
>3 hours away
>Have a crazy grandma that's shitting on her all the time, saying she's a slut and a drug user
>the same bitch drinks a shitton, even goes to work drunk (construction, doing the plans and stuff)
>no credibility.
>GF is exhausted physically, that bitch just goes on and on and on, same with her grandad which is shittin on her constantly just because of the grandma.
>Can't do shit, literally no time because of school unless weekends but it would be more fitting for her to come over
>She has no money on hand
>possibly can't make it this weekend
>The same thing keeps going and going..
>Can't do shit from distance, just write to her to cheer her up like a fag

what do? I just can't cope with it. The worst feeling of all is that you can't do shit about the most important person in my life. She's been suicidal before, I just can't loose her, Cred Forums.

You used to work as a salesman? That sounds like one of those jobs that seems really fun but is only good if you're good at it (i probably wouldn't be)

You sound like you have people skills man, being a restaurant host is pretty hard too especially if you're an autistic assburger, so what is preventing you from normal socialisation? In my case it's the almost complete lack of actual talking skills, nobody finds me interesting like a real person, I'm kinda just that guy you pass by and might at most notice or the corner of your eye.

Love is nothing more than a chemical reaction to make men want to fuck women, because otherwise men would see through womens bullshit. If you get older the Hormones don't kick in as much and you'll see women for who they are and how they manipulate weak minded fools. We as humans don't matter, neither to the universe nor to evolution. It's all just a ruse being played on you by nature, so get your head out of your ass and stop thinking about a girl who's been fucking some other guy since two years. Sorry if this was a bit harsh but wake the fuck up dude.

welcome to the human condition, user. You can't never win

>That sounds like one of those jobs that seems really fun

Working for the public is never fun...

And that there kids is why you lock your fucking phone

Thanks user its already happening my lease is up at the end of november but its so stressful sometimes i feel like i cant even breath

B/ro.. You'd be surprised how similar of a situation I've been going though.. Hang in there, you need to find an object that's addictive and one-time purchase e.g. PlayStation. That didn't help with my anxiety attacks or depression/ suicidal tendencies though, meditation did.

I think about suicide daily. Not too sure how I'd go about it being poor. I want it to be painless.

more than the rest of us, lad

helium mask

Doesn't work.

well shiiett.
imma just overdose on pills
fuck it

Very rarely works

those same chemical reactions are what's giving you consciousness though. what is the point then? lust after a women have kids and then die?

>two years

try 9 years

Block her. FB, text, voice, everyfuckingthing.jpg - be done and stay done. MoveOn.png

You came here to say that or do you have something you need to get off of your chest too Cred Forumsro? Just because you feel it doesn't make you a beta, just makes you a human.

whatifshejustignoreyouevenwithoutdoingallthat.webm

Do it anyway

>wasted two years of my life with this bitch
either fake story or a 15 y/o

GTFOoH

*damaged

consciousness =/= neurochemistry

even plants have chemical reactions to stimulus..
true consciousness is something only we have
They don't know if it's in our synaptic connections, our dendrites, the thunderstorm of brain activity, or even the brain neurons. What human consciousness is 100% mystery to science. We don't even know where we ourselves are...

anyone have the husks of humans picture?

Pretty dam good..

Copy pasta is stale fuck off faggot

where do you live user?

it gets better

soundcloud.com/cyanproject/kenji-kawai-airborn-remix-guitar-solo

>be 19, at a friend's party
>be straight edge faggot
>convince my friends to get drunk
>they get to drunk
>the girl I like arrives
>My drunk friends start to get a feelings attack
>get an Anxiety Attack because of my friends
>go inside for 2 hours to take care of my friends
>get red eyes because anxiety
>get outside to get soda
>everybody things I am on drugs/drunk
>The girl I like avoids me
>nobody talks to me in the rest of the night
>feelsbadman.jpeg
>sit down and thinks about life
>leave the party with bad impression, with anxiety, feeling guilty and no girl

>Make feels post 2 years ago
>Comment in my own thread giving myself support

Bumpin

good job ..some girls are just nuts, sounds like you have a keeper now though.

so your ex was telling you you needed to be a better person while she was fucking someone else?

user dont kill yourself life sucks sometimes but youve gotta live on for tomorrow you never know whats round the corner when you're at the bottom the only way to go is up

fucking hhhhnnnggggg

Nice quads bro.

holy fuck. this is insane to me. like jfc. how do people sleep at night

people have been telling me this for 3 years
sounds poetic
not true though
when you fucked up as much as I have, things aren't the same anymore

kekers! ..for real? did you take your advice though?

3 hours away? Get a bus there dude 3 hours isnt long get a motel whilst your there its not a permanent solution but it'll cheer you and her up

so smooth breh
don't kill yourself
first make this track

Yep, said the only reason she cheated was because i was insensitive about her fake miscarriage. And constantly guilted me about thinking of cheating while she was actually cheating.

Theres nothing i could possibly say user to convince you otherwise but i wish you well whenever you may be also i listened to your soundcloud your music is tight

thank you
it's the only thing i have left
hopefully people will enjoy it

girls always do that. if you do something its the worst thing in the world and you are a shitty person.

but if a girl does it, she tries to make out like you're the reason why she did it, so it's your fault not hers.

Exactly, she has gone through boyfriends like used tissues in the couple years since we split (almost all of them old friends of mine because she cant meet people on her own), while ive been rolling steady with one. Each time one breaks up with her they call me and agree that that bitch is insane.

There was this girl I loved, and stuff happened, we broke up, and now I'm not as into girls anymore. I used to be a happy person but everything is gray now and I really dont give a shit about anyone other than myself.

Quick guys my relationship with my gf is circling the drain and i need to save it. We both have off from work on wednesday and out of impulse i told her i was taking her out, my idea was 6 flags but when i actually looked it up it's closed until sept 30th. Fuck me right? What the fuck do i do? also i'm on a $150 budget, 40 of which will be going to her so she can buy weed (i quit smoking to look for a new job) pls send halp. I'm picking her up in two hours so i need something fast, it's time to fucking panic.

Take her out for steaks, then shopping at Victoria Secret, or another clothes store. Maybe buy her a new dress and tell her it's for the next time you go out.

Good ideas friend but iv'e been there and done that, literally exactly what you said. i need something fresh.

cry me a river faglord

Aww shit nigger, then you gotta do something neat. Go to some local ice cream shop. Like not a chain one, find one that's only in your area. Then go to a park and hold hands or some shit I don't fucking know kek.
Source: none, never had a gf in my life (18) good luck m8

Drop acid and fuck like monkeys. Also, you mention six flags, which one? are you in chicago area?

post pic of her user i'm intrigued to see how a 7 or 8/10 has not had a bf since then

Just immerse yourself I making music, man.

Never ever was a pair of doubledubs ever more wasted.

I've been the same for 6 years now, and I'm only seeing the end of the tunnel now, you'll find someone else but it will take time, good luck

No the one closest to me is in new jersey. And i tried to get shrooms but my nigger dealer never delivered. Cant do acid anyway, my gf is completely afraid of that shit.

shit this music is good, and i'm not saying that out of pity, this tune is actually something amazing, looks like you have something going for you

kek it's my first gf so you're not very far behind me (i'm 20) i have no idea what the fuck i'm doing. Apparently you have to put in work to make a relationship last more than 2 months.

That's why I don't have a girlfriend. Lol

Well, get some Nbome or X than, that shit is easy as fuck to find. Or just do something romantic, like a botanical garden or a hot air balloon (they are cheaper than you would expect)

Have you at least had sex tho? It's the bees knees.

Take something she is into and take it to an extreme. She into cars or adrenaline? Rent a shit car for a day and enter it in a local autocross event. you are gonna lose but you will have a fantastic time doing it. Into nature? Time for some horseback riding lessons. i could go on and on.

Nope I'm a fuckin loser too. No social skills whatsoever. When I was a kid I stayed away from other kids because they were hyper and by the time they calmed down, they were way ahead of me socialy so no one talked to me lol.
My 11 y/o nephew with a speech impediment is more well spoken than me haha

That's exactly what i was thinking actually, my first thought was to go into philly and hit their botanical garden or an aquarium. She's a pot head so i think she would enjoy making fun of stupid fish rather than looking at flowers all day.

2 words. Anime Convention. You can be as weird as you want there and you will fit in. You havent taken yourself completely out of the game, you have just shrunk the pool

Like I give a fuck.

I've actually thought of just becoming a single parent so I never have to deal with another woman again.

Sounds like me actually. As depressing as it sounds the only reason we're in a relationship right now is because neither of us could do better. I'm sure you can find disgusting happiness too. btw it hurts like hell when you put yourself out there.

kekkity kek kek someone gave enough of a fuck to reply. Shove a tampon up your cunt, hopefully it will reach your bleeding heart. pussy,

God user, this is a feels thread, he was just contributing his part in this thread which he has the right to.

Also, besides that, your replies made me kek hard, good material user

I just don't feel sad anymore, disappointed sure, stressed out yeah but I used to be sad almost every day for 3 years and looks like I finally got over it. Still when I'm alone for more than 5 hours I feel like I'm losing my mind start singing jumping and acting mentally ill unless I tell myself to gain control.

Like I give a fuck.

>be me, 22
>alcoholic
>dropped out of university
>lost every job i had due to alcohol
>just got sentenced for dui today
>thousands of dollars in fees
>mom insists i go to rehab
>i want to hold off on the rehab and find a job
>dont want to get car reposessed, want to get job as soon as possible
>mom says if i dont go to rehab, i must live on streets

why do i do this to myself? atleast i have a loving and supportive gf. c-can i make it guys? how behind on car payments can you be before they repo it? cant i ask for an extension for a few months? shit, my life is absolutely #REKT

Just smoke some weed dude

I'll be 30 in two weeks.

I work at two dead-end jobs, 7 days a week to support myself and my disabled mom from paycheck to paycheck.

I'm getting fatter by the day, and I've never been even remotely good looking, funny, or charismatic.

I'm going to end my life when my mother passes away. I just don't want her to be left alone in the system without a family member to care for and be there for her, and I don't want her to have to bury her son.

It's too late for me to do anything with my life, and I'm too old to be with the sort of women I'm attracted to (even if they would have me).

I lost the genetic lottery, and then my mom was hurt. Life has just been a shit show from day one.

Glad I have my mom though. She's funny and caring, and I've killed myself a long time ago without her to kind of keep my spirits up.

Sell your car if you wont be driving for more than a couple months and you can get at least what you owe on it. And go to fucking rehab you worthless alchy, ive been there. I drank myself stupid every night, only reason i stopped was because i met my current girlfriend. You have one already and you still cant keep your shit under control

If you are just gonna kill yourself anyway, take some fucking chances. Rob some drug dealers, cook some meth, you know, something interesting. Or just join the fucking military and have bitches crawling on your dick trying to get some of that BAH and Tricare.

IKR.. I often wonder how people can give in to beliefs of religion and what not when science is a million times more magical and mysterious. No need for fantasy, the things happening in the cosmos and even in the sub atomic world all around us is pure abstraction.

Very into the story lol. Saw take the bait and had to post .png. I think a lot of us had similar experiences.. that first heartbreak is ruthless.

Me and my girlfriend are possibly breaking up at the moment. We're in a huge argument over text about how she can't say no to people. She said that shes afraid if some guy came up to her and offered her sex, she would say yes. Wat do? Don't wanna end things but I also don't want her doing stupid shit like that

Ok i have plenty of feels to share and i have a fucked up past but let me give you guys the short story and maybe you guys can give me some advice for my current problem.
>munchausen mom
>drunk dad
>always sick cus mom, had to leave school and get my GED on my own
>step brother and "friends" were abusive as fuck and now i can't make friends (they weren't haha we're teenagers lets poke fun at eachother. no.)
>literally went insane, was in an mental health facility. Still have demon voices in my head.
Fast forward to now
>work job for a year without making friends
>Bi manager tries to fuck a coworker
>she says no
>i'm the rebound
>lost my virginity to her in the backseat of my car
>become fuck buddies for a week
>can't take it
>ask her to start dating
>she says yes
>going well for about a month
>she starts becoming more distant
>2 months in
>she doesn't talk to me, kiss me, tell me nice things anymore
>relationship is dying
>Start losing my mind again
>tell her, she calls me a pussy
>know this can't continue for my own mental health and her happiness
>did i mention i'm 95% sure she's cheating on me?
>can't end it
things will get better right?

Not fucking worth it, that's a load of shit

Loved reading it and definitely empathize. Brings back memories of a 7/10 cheerleader I dated in high school for 1 1/2 years. All of that wasted time, missing out on so much pussy, missing out on partying with bros etc. Will be typing that one out soon when I can find pics for supreme feels.

>be me 25yo faggot
>meet the girl of my dreams
>fuckisthisreal.jpg
>have sex every now and then
>shitscash.cfg
>shes been my girlfriend for 3 years now
>3 years
>get a text 20 mins ago
>"i'm sorry user, we cant go out anymore"
>feelsbadman.png
>"b..but why emily"
>"i've been going out with other dudes for the past 5 months"
>heart drops out of my asshole
>still crying about my cutie who left me..

Emily.. Please come back..

I'm excited for that man

die alone

I don't watch anime though famalam

Anime convention is a really loose term, there are just as many vidya fags there as weaboo fags. The main thing is, populated by weird people.

I don't get it, was that an insult or actual advice?

>be me 17
>year ago i met a girl
>7/10 redhead
>things start off great and all is well
>starts telling me about her past
>this is where shit goes bad
>history of therapy, self harm and ODs
>I support her and try and help best i can
>starts acting strange and i mean really strange
>get random messages at night telling me people are in her room and she hears voices
>what have i got myself into
>months go by and our sex life is almost completely dead
>says it's because daddy tried shit with her when young
>although she never shuts up about sex or her sex history with her exes
>get pissed and we start arguing alot
>i start feeling like its all my fault
>start self harming
>she for some reason encourages this so i continue
>starts asking me to cut her during sex and asks if she can cut me
>whattheactualfuck
>i keep trying to break up but she says she'll an hero if i leave her
>what the fuck do i do
>cheat on her to try to get her to end it with me
>backfires and i end up trying to commit but fail
>months go on of arguments and more failed attempts
>her sex drive for some reason increases the more damaged i become
>continue on for months having sex even after we finally broke up and hate each other
>still not recovered even though i have a new girlfriend
>life's still not looking up and still have strong urge to end it all
what do?

That's rough. I couldn't imagine how you feel.

loling at both our lives, i'm sure this shit is gonna happen to me and i'm positive my girl is cheating on me but i can't end it. Lets drink and shove things up each others assholes because apparently we're too faggoty for our women. Cheers!

>edgy autistic shit
Yup, you're not lying about being 15.

OP here, my gf tried to do the same thing when I broke up with her, she had some issues as well, her dad was a drug addict and her mom was an overbearing psycho, she tried to say that she loved me so much that she'd anhero. It took me a while to realize she wasn't right for me

May the sun soon shed light upon the shadows in your life

The last two months have been a roller coaster man.
Fuck girls, fuck having emotions, fuck all of that shit.
Why is that I can't find anyone attractive, and the people I do are just fucking asshole who talk to everyone.
Life is over rated.

sorry to hear that man. my parents could see this girl was a nutcase from the moment they met her and warned me a ton but i never listened because 16 year old me was horny af and she was really experienced (she lost it at like 13). She almost completely destroyed my relationship with my family and it's still recovering. girls suck

youtube.com/watch?v=Bh3UJOHoxK0

Yeah, hopefully they all aren't like that, but life has yet to show that

Those truly are the kind of experiences that enlighten you.

Isn't it better to have loved and lost?
Do you truly want to be with her if she cheated on you?
Didn't she cheat on you because of who you are and you need to be better?

You now get the most precious gift of all, yourself.

You are now free to do whatever you want.
Fuck that bitch, you're better than her.
Become so great you forget about her.
She's just another human and there's been trillions of them on this planet.

I feel bad. There shouldn't be any reason for this. Despite my parents divorcing when I was ten, I shouldn't be like this. I've had a relatively normal childhood. I acted like a big idiot so I got bullied. But other than that I had no actual problems. I have a loving mother, a job, I guess I have friends.
But it doesn't feel like I'm here. Everyone tells me that I shouldn't feel this way because of the above reasons. I want to agree with them. But it doesn't ever seem like I can get myself out of this slump for more than a few days.

I can ignore it, bottle it down. But then my work week finishes, and it all comes crashing down again, the crushing despair, the self-hatred that's slowly projecting onto other people. I push all of my friends away without any clue why I do it. I never talk to them. I just stay in bed whenever I'm not working all day - only going outside to pick up pizza or to smoke.
What if it's like this for the rest of my life, I wonder. Those times it really kicks in. In those times I can't even use my laptop. I just curl into a ball and avoid the world.
I fell in love a few times. Every time it ended badly - either because she's batshit insane, or because I overpercieve every issue, turning them over and over into my head until the smallest irritation turns into a massive annoying thing existing. Jealousy, paranoia, too introverted. I escape into my own mind just so I can sleep. Sleep is the only time I feel something other than pain nowadays.

I'm sorry. I just needed to write that out. Never was any good at talking with people about it.

I'd tell a story but It'll be shit so I'll just lurk hope this'll be a good feels thread havent cried in a while

Very well spoken, user. Thank you.

Dang, really close hexes, and don't worry about not being good talking about things, at least you're trying

A lot of people feel that way these days.
Life is suffering.
It's completely normal.
But you can overcome the suffering if you try hard enough.
You do it to yourself and that's why it really hurts.
You could live a life of pure bliss if you want.
It's not material you seek, or any place you need to go, but one single step.
You must step inside yourself.

I lost 2 family members this month and my good friend's dad died this sunday Feelsbadman

rip thread

Can I have your possessions?

Sorry to hear.. just remember they live on inside of you. You hold pieces of them in your heart and you can share them with the world. We all die two times, the first time is physical and the second death is when people forget you.

(pic totally unrelated) I always browse these threads. Looking at all the feels. Man they fuck me up. So I'm gonna share a little story. (first time doing any story shit so I apologize if I fuck it up.)
>be me 15yo
>insecure as all holy hell.
>meet a cute girl.
>I'd say 7/10
>try to be all "alpha"
>walk up to her and chat.
>end up getting her number
>talk to her a bit but not to much
>end up going out with her.
>things get hard at home and it becomes hard to hide my depression.
>my "alpha" breaks as do I.
>tell this girl about it.
>I expected her to help.(fuck was I wrong.)
>bring her to my place.
>she admits to using me for sex.
>heart drops
>tries to talk her out of leaving.
>4 months and she cheated on me twice.
> I hit rock bottom and she moves on.
>a week later I was in the hospital for attempted suicide.
>be me. 18yo(now)
>with a perfect ten.
>can't help but get depressed
>cries myself to sleep over the thought of her leaving.
>fuck my life.
>can't tell her.
>don't want to tell her.
Goodnight Cred Forums

The best day of your life is still to come.. all suicide does is transfer your pain to the ones closest to you. I tried to kill myself a few times and ended up losing my arm permanently and breaking dozens of bones. The look on my loved ones faces hurt the worst of all though. Tomorrow might be the best day of your life. Where there is life there is potentiality.

Got another for you.
>Be me, spanish guy, 14.
>See this 6.5/10 asian girl in the choir of my music school, she always wears this really hot school uniform. A friend tells me she plays guitar and she's good. We exchange some looks but never talk.
>Next year turns out she's in my music theory class. She sits next to me and asks me for help bc she can't speak spanish very good. She's really cool and I start to crush on her (I'm dating another girl at this time)
>Two months later, December, she says to grab some beer after class. I kiss her, we start dating.
>She tells me her religious parents sent her to Spain with her older brother against her will a year before. She poor af here. She doesn't even have a mobile phone so we talk on fb.
>So they have an apartment and we go there when there's no brother or tenants. We play together. She plays guitar like a goddess. Have our first sexual experiences. I'm having the best time of my life and we really fall for each other. (I eventually break up with the other girl).
>February. We are alone having sex in her apartment. Suddenly the tenants call at the door. They weren't supposed to be in the house anymore. She goes open, we stay for a while and then go when we think its safe, but..
>Couple days later, i got a call (remember we had never talked on phone). She is crying as hell. The tenants have told her brother the situation, and given she also is repeating school year here, and smokes and drinks, their parents are sending her back to Taiwan. She can't convince them. I feel like dying. Try to talk with her or her brother, but can't reach them on that phone line.
>She's leaving next week. The day before I go find her. Sad goobye, she gives me a letter and a chocolates box. Etc
>We keep chatting on fb. I am really depressed. I want to go meet her in summer, but flies are very expensive, no money. We eventually stop chatting in summer. Miss her too much, can't do nothing...

Heh. Thanks, I guess. It's just so confusing for me nowadays. Things have been really chaotic the past four years, moving everywhere meant I haven't really felt like I had anyone close enough to really reach out to.
I can accept that life is a painful experience, and a blissful one.I just don't understand why I would just be so mentally self-destructive. I have a friend who is physical instead of mental, but is that any better, or worse? I feel like I'll go insane long before he does.
With endless days of work it doesn't feel like I can step inside myself. I get the impression that stepping inside requires some bullshit from me like going to fucking Tibet and listening to some bald motherfucker telling me how to go om. While I am introverted and always in thought, they're never solid thoughts. I don't think about how I could make my life better and how to make myself a happy person.
If you have any idea how I'm supposed to look inside myself and find an answer to my problems, please share it. I feel desperate for some closure to this ridiculously long chapter of my life.

>she admits to using me for sex
be weary of any girls confessions.. women will retroactively "admit" to things just to get a rize out of you. They do like drama, manipulation, and making you agonize. It is what fuels many of them till they grow out of it.
Do you really want to waste your precious mind on people like that?
Just make sure you learn from this and don't get attached next time.
Ignore females and work on yourself for a while.
When I look back some of my greatest moments were bumping into ex gf's that saw me after I worked out and got fit, dressed really well, and had the biggest smile.

>be me 17
>lurked Cred Forums for months but never posted
>don't see a point in life, seems a meaningless task with no goal
>none stop existential crisis
>i argue with myself in my own head and my moods swing so bad
> i think i could have manic depression
>too scared to get checked incase i get put on medication
>Planned on an heroing next week with an exit bag
is it worth it anons? or is there something in life i'm missing?

Whenever you look at a female remember they are lovely creatures but also don't forget they're a ball and chain.
You lock yourself to that chain the second you depend on them emotionally.

Fuck user. I have to screen shot what you just wrote...I feel you saved me from myself. If I could I wish I could hug you, sorry if that comes off as gay or whatevs. But damn, thank you for writing that.

I can't tell if this chick is interested in me. She glances at me, and I tried talking to her, but the conversation ended super quick cause it was just me asking questions. My chances talk to this chick are gonna end soon.

I'd just ask her out if I could, but I'm too fucking beta

Do you guys ever have that feeling of numbness? Like youre not really sad or anything but just want to end it all? Been going through that since i graduated high school. Ive seen everything i needed to see in life basically. Ive loved, ive lost, traveled and had fun too. Promised someone i wouldnt end it but at this point that doesnt matter to me anymore. Idk i might do it one of these days, or not. Im not sure yet

I can point you in the direction:
youtube.com/watch?v=8MAXvlJ9Jr0

you've had moments of enlightenment and bliss, you just need to learn how to stretch those moments out.. ill look for a few good things real quick

I've been there. Infact I've here there for a long time. I Dont really know what to say about it. Just don't give in user. It's not worth it.

i just turned 18 a few days ago the"help" that i got put me in a mental institution for half of my senior year half the time its not worth it and i have a very harsh manic depression to the point that one day im fine the next i have no friends im moving across the country once i get my diploma i would already have it but the institution stopped me and when i move im cutting off all communication with friends and family so I can stop burdening people with my existence that is all i have to say

I literally almost died. I don't know if I already fucked. I accidentally press the blasted camera button on my instagram and it scanned my download folder. It showed every content in it. I quickly press home screen and clicked close all. I hope I didn't fuck myself. I hope none was posted in story mode or some shit. For what its worth, I didn't click any confirmation to upload anything.

Have you tried any psychedelics? I think 99% of the people who are suffering in this world need to reset their computer. LSD, Mescaline, DMT, and Mushrooms are all hax for depression. Don't do the psychedelic and party, do it and use it as a tool to find a piece of enlightenment and bring it back with you.

I've always kind of known this but, at 29 I finally now realise I am a spineless little bitch

>It's been four years since we stopped talking, and all in my life has only got worse. I thought I would forget her but I just can't. I've been with some girls (not many) but nothing like taiwan girl. Too much drinking and smoking, depression, family relationships fucked off, friends relationships fucked off, 0 self confidence.
>Everyday I think of talking to her but I just don't know what to say.. In my mind it sounds even better to just show up in Taiwan....

We all are..

I guess im "not old enough" but i dont really care. >be me
>be 13/14
>have a crush on a girl
>considered the 'fat girl'
>finally grow the balls to ask her out.
>she agrees
>all my freinds are super happy for me
>don't socialize at all
>two days later we break up because im a fucking social retard and a unable to communicate properly
>im not suprised
>havent talked about this ever since
>still friends and talk a bit.

youtube.com/watch?v=jfumqpkpRhQ

youtube.com/watch?v=lRiKLkH7pLI

OK to those suffering here is your answer. Don't be a lazy pussy and run away from this. There are ways to end suffering and it's up to you to do it, nobody else.

I remember a drawing that had some dude coming out of a computer screen saying do it faggot and hugging the guy on the other side. Anyone know what I'm talking about? Thought you guys would

Somebody find this. Im curious

I actually feel for you user, I was a late bloomer. I handled it fine and didnt care, dated a few girls but it didn't work out. Eventually I met a cute nerdy virgin a few years younger than me and invested a lot of time into her, getting her ready and even passing up other opportunities. We had some fun and I popped her cherry, but I think if she had lost her virginity to someone else I would have completely lost it.

You made my day knowing I helped. Thanks

Thank you for bringing this out. As soon as I sleep and get a clearer head I'll give it a listen. Please continue posting links, I'll use the watch later button for 'em.
Funnily enough I almost had the chance to try some mushrooms. Unfortunately the guy who was gonna take me shroom hunting ended up getting fired from being high at work. Not excited about spending the year with just nicotine and alcohol. I have no idea where or how to get this other shit.

i got a story

>be me
>be 9
>walking with dad
>fucker is a boxer, never seen mom
>whatever.jpg
>see truck about to hit old man
>OHFUCK.GIF
>push him out the way
>truck swerves
>it falls over, the back comes off
>chemicals go everywhere
>it gets in my eyes
>ITBURNS
>later in life dad dies because he wanted me to see him win for once
>sad
>get raised in nursing him
>old man teaches me shit
>get mad and beat people up to cope but just say i am hero
>i am daredevil

Also sort of related, I remember an old feels thread screencap that said a bunch of shit like "this is for the user shitposting in his mom's basement, this is for all the normies who got chicks" FUcK I cantr member shit

>more head than a fucking hydra
kek

its the effects of growing old on our little fucked up space rock. birthdays lose meaning, friends drift away, retards both younger and older than you making common retard mistakes.... it seems like a never ending cycle, and it unfortunately is, as we have been at it for at least 50,000 years now. Even sadder is that despite our best efforts, 50,000 years from now, there will still be fucked up groups of fucked up people fucking up things for everyone else.

> tl;dr history repeats itself, all we can do is facepalm and try again tomorrow.

Clinton has good fighting points. Feels.

am i too late

What instrument do you play? I'm guessing a cuck like yourself is a percussionist.

We're still open for business, user.
How can't we help you?

I hate the fact they're so hard to get in this world. i wouldn't want you to get in trouble... but life has a way of bringing you the things you need.

Do you go to Creekland MS

nigga just say "hi" dont write a novel or make some grand romantic gesture. Whats the worst that could happen?

I'll pray to God and maybe He will drop a bag of DMT.

You're on the right path.. I like the way you think user. Nihilism is a good mental stretch to put ting in perspective.