Let me tell you the story of my life Cred Forums

Let me tell you the story of my life Cred Forums

> be me, currently 29 years old
> my whole life I've been a social sperg
> got picked on everywhere; every school, every job, even the army
> was retarded when it came to girls, way to shy to talk to them
> one girl I had a crush on for years, I started hanging with her heaps
> we'd go to town every weekend, to clubs and pubs and stuff (not on dates though, just what people our age do). I wanted her so bad
> am still virgin at this point, only ever kissed a girl, never touched
> get close to crush pretty quick
> every time we go out, we wind up back at her place, in her bed
> never once touch her because of all the thoughts in my head
> friendship could be ruined
> she could kick me out right now at 3am and I'd have to walk several KMs home in the cold and dark while drunk
> she could laugh at me
> over time she gets more comfortable, to where she's sleeps in her knickers only
> I still never do anything
> 10 years later, current day, have gained some social skill, in long term relationship shop, getting married in a few months (different girl)
> find out last week I have aspergers
> think back to ally autistic moments in life, can't count that high
> all these moments of autism can be explained by the fact that I literally have autism
> doesn't really change anything, but it explains so much about myself
> cannot stop pondering all the times this has affected me in social situations

My entire 20s went by in the most dull way possibly because I was too retarded to talk to girls. I wish I was born normal :(

You are ok OP.

Well you're a sperg but you're still getting married before you're 30. I don't see what the problem is

Well it still affects me a bit. For example, aspergers has some ocd characteristics, and if something fucks up my routine I get really stressed out. I'm also still socially retarded. I've only got 3 friends, and one of them I very rarely see

Try to calm down.
Get relaxed or as some people say don't give a shit about it
If you play your cards well the social interaction wont be an issue,just don't try or do something wierd or childish it can fuck you real bad.


Sorry if this advice is not so good..
I'm just really bad at some stuff

I actually don't give a shit about most stuff, it's why I have few interests. It takes a lot to hold my attention.

So in what are you intrested in?

i think i'm in the same boat, i'm currently 22 and i've always been the odd man out. never asked for any help so i was never diagnosed with anything. i don't do normal people shit, and i'm at a point in my life where i don't enjoy socialising with people at all, even with friends.

what made you decide to get tested/help?

I listen to metal, but I counted the other day and I only listen to 23 bands, where most people listen to at least that many per genre.
I play a small number of video games (elite:dangerous at the moment, waiting for Gears 4 and ME:Andromeda).
I like Lego, but there are very few builds I want. I have several Star Wars and Technic sets, and the ones I would like are a technic heavy lift helicopter, some big digger thing, and the Disney castle that's coming out soon (while gay as aids, it's a really cool set design).

That's pretty much it.

I did that, then that made me think about it, so I looked up all the signs and found I had pretty much all of them, at least to a degree so I talked about with my missus who's a clinical psych and she thought about for a bit and said its almost guaranteed that I have it, or at the very least, I'm sitting right in the fence of have it/don't have it

Try to gain intrests arround thosr things.
Maybe you can enjoy architecture or animation/desing/drawing,try to read some books that you may find intresting with some chill music or maybe get a little bit more "cultural"
And i sugguest trying other types of music besides Metal.

I don't like other types of music. They're either boring or just sound like shit. But that's why I only listen to 23 bands. Most music I listen to in general is boring, even metal. You can put on the most evil fucking music in the world, stuff that scare the shit out of the devil, and I'll be bored. I can put up with it, and it's fine as background music, but if it doesn't captivate me, then it's boring and not worth listening to.

Listen to vidya music instead.

Wait.. Listening 23 different bands is not considered a lot?

I'm into different kinds of music.. electronic, classical, black metal, neofolk... But I'm only really into 3/4 bands max.

OP starts every sentence with "I".. Stopped reading and going to another thread, see ya. Got you all tied up feeling sorry for him like he's a child from Africa.

Well the thread is about me, so if you know any other pronouns for oneself, let me know.

You're just not a musical person. Unless the total enjoyment of the bands is equal to somebody spreading their love for many different bands.

I would say it is. The bands I listen to I get right stuck into. I've been listening to Metallica's new song on repeat all day (not literally all day, but you know)

I have playlists with one song to repeat. I listen to a lot of video game music. A lot of ambiance as well, I like the ambiance to Fallout 1 and 2 for example, they have some nice tracks. I recently downloaded the soundtrack to Silent Hill and a PS1 game called Hell Night. I am also listening to vaporwave unironically, I think it's awesome.

I'm the same way, I'm genuinely only interested in (for example) bands that really catch my attention. I really don't explore my interests outside of what I already know I like.
Same goes for everything, food, beer, music, movies, etc.

OP, do you browse Cred Forums? Sounds like you do. A few months back Cred Forums had a autism thread, a lot of symptoms they named, I identified with, but I don't truly believe I am.

I'm not OP, but after reading what I just wrote then yeah I'm probably autistic.

No. I actually don't even use Cred Forums, I only come on here every few montag to spill my guts about something then leave.

I have a suspicion one-hundred percent of Cred Forums are autistic, so if you visit.. I'm sorry, user. I like the Hotline Miami ost and the Furi ost. Beyond the Black Rainbow(movie) has a good ost, as well.

Well, gives us more of your autistic shenanigans so I can freak out and think I have it too.

The Hotline Miami soundtrack is epic. I liek to put the horse-steppin' song on if it's early in the morning.

how do I unsubscribe to your blog?

>like girl
>don't ask girl out because autism
>wait 10 yrs find out I have autism
FTFY

>I like the ambiance to Fallout 1 and 2 for example

I don't think I have too many more shenanigans that are worthy of stories, most things are just social misunderstandings, like saying the wrong thing, or not recognising a joke, or not realising someone else's feelings towards something.

Faggot milennial

Jesus Christ, am I autistic? I listened to the Donkey Kong Country soundtrack for like 10 hours at work yesterday

MFW OP is doing better than me.
26 and don't go see friends because I can't be arsed.
Haven't fucked a bitch since last year.
Sucked on a strippers toes if that counts?
lol, corse it doesn't count.
Still man up faggot, be happy.

22 and also in the same boat, even to the point i'm ignopring people to isolate myself. My brother (elementary teacher) pointed out I have a case of the spergs. Going to take 11 months for diagnosis, I'm an Ausfag.

I haven't been happy since I was a kid. My life has ranged from "I wanna die" to "acceptable enough to continue". There are moments that bring joy to me, but I have never known a set state of happiness or content.

If you're Aussie, why you saying elementary instead of primary?

Fair point, I default type 'murican

Git outta me country mate

Why?
Just browse Cred Forums and stop been unhappy.
I know depression is shit, been there, done that.
Learn to not be a faggot.
Stop giving a shit and just live in the moment.
Alcohol also helps.

yeah, nah

Who's country?

Fuck normality, and welcome to the club.

I'm not depressed, I'm just bored. Happiness is something I have to achieve, not a resting state. And I'm drunk right now.

My county.

> every time we go out, we wind up back at her place, in her bed
> never once touch her because of all the thoughts in my head

Oh man.......

Your doing it wrong, honestly stop been a fag!

Your cunty?

Spoken like a true faggot millenial

I know. I fucking hated myself for it. But I do it with everything. I always think about the worst thing that can go wrong, and weigh that against the likelihood of it going right. Combine that with me being really ugly, I always leaned towards the bad winning