Older man here

older man here.

this thread: ask a former "shota" any thing.

pic related: he gave me one of these as a gift.

he told me to say i had borrowed it, but said i could keep it.

all serious questions will be answered.

interesting.

i want to ask you to tell us about your first time.
and how he'd get you naked. was he sadistic or more the sweet cuddly type?

>i want to ask you to tell us about your first time.

first time what? please be more specific.

> how he'd get you naked.

we were watching porn. he started masturbating over his boxers and then popped it out thru the front opening. said i could masturbate too if i wanted to. i was shy and somewhat embarrassed, but did it anyways cause i was really horny from the porn. ended up taking my pants and white underwear off to masturbate with him.

>was he sadistic or more the sweet cuddly type?

cuddly. he'd try to kiss me but i didnt really like it. he had a mustache and his face was coarse. sometimes i went along with it, but only in the heat of the moment.

sorry, what i meant with "first time" was, what you considered to be sexual to a point that made you think 'is this ok?'

Cuddly, nice. how old where you when he let you know that you meant more to him than a sweet boy to be around with?

>what you considered to be sexual to a point that made you think 'is this ok?'

i never actually considered whether it was ok or not, I was too young and only kept doing it because cumming (id get blowjobs, hand jobs, etc) felt good. but i definitely knew that i couldnt tell anybody what we were doing.

and honestly, only because I didnt want people to think or know that I was gay ( I am bi now) and doing things with a man. those were different times and being gay wasnt as socially popular as it it now. I was actually more afraid of being considered gay than anything else.

anyways, short answer: i didnt even think about it.

>how old where you when he let you know that you meant more to him than a sweet boy to be around with?

i was 12 when it started and 13 when it ended. single mother. we used to move a lot. (think eminem) ended up moving far away from him where i couldnt ride my bike to see him.

What is a shota? Is it the gay version of a loli?

yes.

tough times man, its hard even for an adult to be forced away from someone you love (i assume your relation with him was based on love)

how did you kept it together after you moved? maybe you are like me at that time, already quite used to moving about regularly on a minutes notice. (that shit sucked balls!)

now for the more interesting stuff, this is Cred Forums after all, lol.
what is your fondest memory of having sex with that man?

Did you get it up the ass?

Ah, the bad old days where an earring in the "wrong" ear meant that you were a faaaaaaag! Shit's so much better now.

>how did you kept it together after you moved?

masturbation. lots of it. id even use objects while i showered to penetrate myself sometimes. i remember one time my mother knocking on the door and asking me why i was taking too long.

>what is your fondest memory of having sex with that man?

probably all the blowjobs. i used to get blowjobs pretty much on command. sometimes i'd be told to wait, but i'd never get turned down.

>Did you get it up the ass?

yes. thats why i said im bi now. i think thats why.

>Ah, the bad old days where an earring in the "wrong" ear meant that you were a faaaaaaag!

i clearly remember that too. also those stupid haircuts like a mushroom head. they were really popular.

what is the worst memory you have of having sex with him?

i have to ask sorry, but are you attracted to (little)boys yourself

>what is the worst memory you have of having sex with him?

the anal sex in the very beginning. it was painful.


>i have to ask sorry, but are you attracted to (little)boys yourself

no. which is weird, but its true. im mostly attracted to women, transsexuals, and some* men.

So how often would he stick it in your pooper?

Where would that happen at?

Did your mother ever say anything or suspect?

>So how often would he stick it in your pooper?
any time anything happened. id be told to turn around and i would.

>Where would that happen at?

his house. most of the stuff that happened happened at his house.

>Did your mother ever say anything or suspect?

my mother thought he was nice and like a father figure or something. he used to take us out to eat sometimes and be nice to her too.

i dont think she ever thought anything bad of it. this was way before the internet and what people know now.

i just realized that you were twelve at that time, most (victims) that become pedophiles them self had been abused at a much younger age than you.

i wonder tho. Anal hurts, that's no secret. But how on earth did he get you to go trough with it. maybe i'm short minded but the only thing i can think of, is force. which is not O.K in my book.

>how on earth did he get you to go trough with it.

one of the first times we started exchanging blowjobs he sucked mine first and I came fast, then I sort of lost interest in sucking his dick back. but i did it anyways cause that was "the deal" we had.

i was young, but i very quickly realized that if i was horny whenever he asked me to do anything i enjoyed it more. so any time anything happened, he'd always cum first and then i would cum after. so there was a lot of me doing things first and then i'd finish after.

thats how i got through with it.

not even lying. thats exactly how it was.

how big was his dick? would he put it in all the way?

also, when you fart now, do you still make sounds? Or do they just leak out and you don't feel anything?

how old were you at the time, cyberpolice here.

>how big was his dick?

i dont know. i never measured it. looked big to me though. but then again i was young and had a very small dick myself. I'd say like maybe 7 inches. bigger than mine now.

>would he put it in all the way?

not all the way but i would feel it sliding in and out. there was no slapping sounds like when you have sex with a woman.

i was 12.

How did he approach you about your 'deal'?

i can see that working without even trying.

it must be nice to remember things so vividly. i was 5 when i got (abused) and T.B.H. i only remember the aftermath when he got caught. I don't think i have to explain how that went down with the demonizing and all. but [spoiler] it wasn't pretty [spoiler]

you mentioned that you are straight/bi. did you feel awkward the first time you had sex with a grill?

we were masturbating together to porn. he suggested we masturbate each other. then another day he suggested we suck each other off. told me he'd do it first if i wanted and i agreed cause i was really horny.

>did you feel awkward the first time you had sex with a grill?

no, but it was amazing. i immediately realized vagina feels way better than anus.

>vagina feels way better than anus.
Better than adult anus, perhaps. But not better than little boy anus. Or little girl anus for that matter.
Fact

that's some serious "pray the gay away" shit right there huh

thanks for answering my questions OP

>fact.

i dont even wanna ask.

you're welcome.

that's a story i would like to read

Ever came from just getting fucked in the ass?

Story?

i did. but i was being masturbated.

>that's a story i would like to read
>Story?
On modern day Cred Forums I usually get permabanned everytime I share this sort of knowledge, sorry.

So false. Anal is way better

Just use the word [MIDGE] for stuff that's bannable.

How was your first sexual experience with a man (not the shotacon)

rough. he was tooo eager to put it inside me and came too fast. left as soon as he was done.

Huh. Sounds like a shitty dude

friend from high school with repressed homosexual tendencies. he's ok but has issues with homosexuality.