Feels/depression general

ey dubs am I right?

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for fucks sake not this

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Let it out fambalam

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I know anons are lurking. let it all out boys

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My depression is getting better. Focusing on myself has brought a lot of good things to my life.

I "cut off" the girl who broke my heart. If i stay on my current path ill have some $ and some peace of mind.

My advice is to find a passion or exercise. Turn your pain into power.

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Obligatory

hey guys, just a lurker here, does anyone have any "sad" or feels songs I can listen to?

[8:07:20 PM] Her: omg tho yknow whats weird

[8:07:24 PM] Me: what?

[8:08:02 PM] Her: i knew exactly when my period was going to start because i was going to bed and suddenly my brain started thinking 'hey go be with user again'

[8:08:12 PM] Her: and sure enough the next morning it was like 'oh fuck.'

She dumped me because she wasn't comfortable with intimacy. She's basically asexual. This message was just enough to spark hope in me and remind me of the good memories with her.

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I've been told it's what life is supposed to be like, but I know there's a different option. A better one.

And it sometimes feels like a curse that whenever I start having good thoughts everything turns 180 degrees.

But apparently, it's just "what life is supposed to be like".

I know a lot of people here aren't into hip hop, but this song by Logic kind of kills me every time I hear it.

youtube.com/watch?v=9y0Zjxu4V6c

> I used to have a really closeknit group of friends
> there were around 8 of us
> went through highschool together
> senior year, everyone goes to different colleges out of state
> im the only one who stays
> i have my own place
> but i dont have anyone to be with
> im so lonely, Cred Forums

They just added that to crunchyroll. Haven't seen it yet myself, so I'll start tomorrow

Wanderers Lullaby

thanks man, song is eh.. But you were kind to give me a recommendation

Do you Feel it - Chaos Chaos

OP here...

I keep finding myself talking to the girl who broke my heart as well as friends. It was short and awkward during my junior year and I can't stay away because I find that I still want her even though we aren't together anymore.

She went to the same college I did and I found myself talking to her again. I need to stop...I'll give what you said a try.

hits the spot man, thanks

I'm building a career as a musician. It isn't perfect, I still do 20 hours a week a Domino's but it's happening. I pay for almost everything myself now, I'm just on my mom's insurance now because it's so much cheaper. I keep playing more gigs and I try to write music but every day that I still practice or try I feel less and less okay. I keep getting more distant from all my friends and I feel every bit of charisma I had fade away. I just drink and feel empty unless I eat or have sex. And then I still feel empty and then shame for binge eating again. I'm fucking miserable and I don't know why or what to do. I started excising again and practicing what I like more regularly. Maybe it'll help but I'm not sure. I wish I could find companionship and not just sex.. I really, really wish I could do more creative work as a musician instead of just playing all this bullshit for money.. What the fuck am I even doing or rambling about anyway. Just had to type aloud Cred Forums

youtube.com/watch?v=aZVrWtRF5RQ

You might be into this, I don't know. It was on a shitty TV show I watched over the summer. Artist is just indie enough to actually talk to people who like his music so that's cool.

You described my friend, I was one of the guys who went to college, everyone else spread out all over the state.

This helped me cry it all out when doggo finally went. I knew i'd be at work when it happened, but the fact that she was surrounded by strangers on a cold steel table still kills me. They discovered she had liver cancer, and without waking her up, mum decided it was better if they just put her down. I wish i'd been able to say bye one last time. RIP pupper.

I'm a faggot who's into jazz but when I'm down I listen to this sometimes. The pianist/singer is one of the most talented pianists of all time, revolutionizing romantic harmony... But the fucker was hideous and disfigured. I feel like you can hear his torture and how he copes with those feelings in his playing... Hope anyone else likes it.

youtube.com/watch?v=ED55GoEzNTc

OP again...

I have three friends from middle school that I still talk to. I didn't go to high school with them but I still hung out with them, and we have a group chat on FB that's pretty active.

But I can feel us ever so slowly drifting apart and it hurts.

Your Ex-Lover is dead - Stars

I have a story, not as sad as some that I've seen here. but I don't know feels appropriate

>be me, 18 hopeless romantic
>in and out of horrible relationships all through highschool
>find a girl who is crazy sappy romantic too
>Im currently dating another mistake, she is interested in someone else
>at a party together
>guy shes interested in hooks-up with someone else
>she comes to me crying, I cheat with her
>nearing the end of summer
>we are talking about what we are
>suddenly become terrified of my feelings
>tell her to leave, too scared to be hurt again
>say nothing to her for 2-3 months.
cont.?

>I'm really smart and I know it
>I know it because my whole family drilled it into me from a young age

Stopped reading right there.

yes, continue

>mfw

My bro is getting into coke now, he was just smoking weed but this might be bad and dont know what to do. He had some surgeries in the past and he is not that strong.

Get your hate speech symbols off our glorious website

I lost most of my friends.
Lost my ex.
I'm fucking up in college.
My drive to actually do something with art is fading.
I caught an STD.
I'm out of shape after years of doing exercise.
I spend most of my time sleeping or doing nothing in front of my computer.

What do Cred Forums
I don't like living, but I don't wanna die
life gave me a good hand at first, but life fucked me over mid-game

It's the worst having friends you really care about become so distant
I'm going through the same shit bro

what's the problem? he sounds kind of douchey but I had (have) the exact same problem. I can relate.

you're not smart. Your family is lying to you, if you were smart you wouldn't be here.

Sorry, but that Pepe fucking kills me. kek

What's your medium of art? Why did you start loving it?

Our dog is pretty old; Thank you for making me cry.

It's not so bad yet because everyone stayed in state, and the only one who moved for school lives only a few towns over (NJ). But he has a hard time hanging out with us and one of the others makes an 80 minute commute there and back every day, so he's tired a lot. Plus his retard school parties on school nights for some reason

i quit my job 5 months ago because i couldn't bear it anymore and haven't found anything else yet
funds are running out soon and that eats me up daily
i have one promising job still open as i wait for a reply of the company but i know from an insider i'' a perfect match skillset-wise but they fear that i quit there too after a while
awaiting a mail or a call since 2 weeks...so much depends on this :(

force him to stop somehow

I know the feeling... every time things start doing well it all blows up and everything is worse than it ever was. We just gotta keep trying because for me the upward swing at least keeps getting a little easier.

i was always happy to call all of you guys my Cred Forumsrothers
goodbye bros

Hey man it's not to late you guys can still reconnect my friends are in a whole other country we used to talk am the time but now it just feels forced

coke is not that much worse than weed tbh. maybe it'll motivate him to be a productive human being and not a shit faggot stoner

Don't kys

I just miss her
tired of porn

I feel you OP. Had it drilled into me from a young age that I was more than above average. But I use my fathers suicide as an excuse to ruin it all. I have a little bit of high school left and I don't want to blow it. But I feel like that's all I can do. Sitting on a 1.8 - 1.9 GPA. Scored almost perfect on every major college test so far. Wat do?

>she comes back home for thanksgiving
>convoluted plan to get her to see me
>terrified
>her best friend is at a party with me
>We don't speak
>I say nothing to anyone at this party of old friends
>Get drunk alone
>wait until the end of the party
>only a few of us left
>best friend girl, lets call her jane is texting a lot
>only about 3 of us left
>jane goes to the bathroom
>quickly look through her phone, texting girl to pick her up
>allpartoftheplan.jpg
>what i wanted, but now scared
>start leaving, girl drives past me
>yells at me from the car laughing
>walk home distant, angry, emotional
>car pulls up to me full of her and her friends
>gets out, walks over to me and hugs me
>apologizes, but pushes me away
>"why did you tell me to leave?"
>...im too scared. the pain of love isn't worth the happiness
>give in cause of temptation
>we kiss
>We talk, we date.
>nothing in common, shes devoutly religious, i despise it all.
>we last a year despite it all
>few last months are toxic as all hell
>she expects prince charming like romantics, wile giving nothing back
>despite everything, I have never felt love like this. she consumes my whole life, nothing feels the same ever
>she leaves me, says there is too much left in the world to be tied down now, there is just so much more to see and so many more people
>tell her I still love her, I will always love her.
>she tells me to get over it and to not come after her
>I say "I'll always come for you, unless you tell me right now, if you tell me you don't love me anymore I wont come for you"
>tears in her eyes. "i dont love you"
>i break down, barley get out an "okay:
>she runs back inside
>try to leave, car battery died
>need to get a jump outside of my new ex girlfriends house
>dont feel embarrassed or ashamed at all. just pain

cont.

don't understand, please explain user

I draw with pen or pencil. Sometimes digital.
I love most forms of art. Creation is such a beautiful thing, and I always liked how it can convey a plethora of emotions or feelings;
something I've always wanted to do.

This'll take a while to post the entire thing. Fucking long story.

>be me, 17 at the time
>dropped out of highschool because depression and overall boredom
>parents put me in homeschool but i'd been doing nothing in it
>meet this girl, my younger brothers friend, she's 13
>she goes to the same homeschool as me (you go in twice a week for classes)
>school camping trip
>awkward as fuck because nobody knows each other, basically 50 socially awkward and introverted teenagers
>parents convince me to go on the trip
>brother's friend i mentioned before, kate, is also going
>she gets a ride in our car
>she talks the whole way there, we're pretty much strangers but whatever
>i have a really casual and laid back personality, she's a little controlling and talkative and really good at getting me out of my shell
>she latches onto me the entire camping trip
>like 3 days straight of her being right beside me and acting like we're best friends
>i like the female attention, she seems to like the fact that i don't get annoyed by her and pay her attention
>after that camping trip we're distant friends
Keep in mind I've got one other friend at this point. Personal relationships are really tough for me.
>when she comes to our place, i hang out with her and my brother
>she says she's moving in a year, to live with her dad in china
>she disappears for a couple months
>she calls one day, invites my brother and i to a church youthgroup
>i don't wanna go, parents convince me to go anyways
>spent the day doodling on paper with her, i think one of us would write or draw something, then the other would find a way to turn it around (draw an elephant, mouse by elephant to scare it, X through mouse, X's and O's board out of X, etc)
>i learn she's really creative and smart
>hang out once a week at youthgroup
>would walk her home at night with my brother, she was the only female in my life other than my mom so she was special to me
>started living for wednesday nights so i could see her again

1/?

not the poster, but I think the tiger's (who is in a zoo I think) final wish is to have a domain free to run through like a tiger should one more time before he dies.

death takes pity

don't know how many people will respond to you but I'm interested in reading

can we see some of your work or is it too personal?

Dont know how, he dont listen to reasons and im scared that he might get an overdose for just doing that dumb shit. He got in english classes after seeing that i have "good english" and i "can talk in english" but my english is pretty bad and after that he started going to take english classes. I might try to get a better life, he might do the same, who knows.

But he had some surgeries and he cant even smoke, doing that shit is worse since he is not that strong and fuck man, my parents are like having someone with that kind of problems is a "bad image" but im not seeing them doing something that is helping him to stop doing that stupid shit.

You should keep trying something until you get old and you cant anymore.

thanks user

It's not that good, user.
I've posted on /ic/ before, and I still need a lot of practice.
I'll post this doodle I did for one of the threads some time ago.

>my english is pretty bad

It's not that bad, you have some weird flow and syntax but it's definitely not unintelligible.

youtube.com/watch?v=vIrFpeEudLQ

graceland in sight

>depressed
>drink like crazy
>do routine of drinking and sleeping for months
>new years get a text from a random number
>somehow instantly know its her
>check the message
>"hey, as an ex i get one of these right? a drunken text rant?"
>"Sure"
>"how come you didn't come after me?"
>go off about how shes a bitch, what shes done to me, how I was right about love
>dont talk for months, message her again, I apologize to her, tell her I need her in my life, even just as friends
>she agrees, mostly out of pity because she can see how horrible i am doing
>cant handle it and freak out at her again
>lose contact.
>drink, sleep, routine for almost 3 years

The reason I posted this story here is because I have never felt pain like was inflicted by her.

most of the stories I see here are about one girl, a Girl like the one i had, she changed everything, made me believe in love, and then ruined it all. reaffirmed my cynical beliefs about love and happiness. Just like I know has happened to some of you.

Im here to tell you that 1 year, 3 months and 3 days ago. I found someone who broke me down, even after my heart had shattered she kept trying.
everytime we got close I would almost have a panic attack about something, or make up a problem that wasn't there. I was paranoid about getting hurt, but she understood. I told her everything and she accepted.

I got past my one girl who changed things, and because of her I now have my current girlfriend who I am most likely going to marry. I cant explain it anymore than I know you probably wont believe me, because 4 years ago I wouldn't have believed me. But please, keep trying. Even if you think you're not ready. You just need the right person to help you through it.

Does anyone enjoy being sad?

As one artist to another, just try to slow down all the bullshit you do for class and just create something that makes you smile. Draw dumb things, draw things that challenge you technically and personally. I don't know if that helps, but when I do those kinds of things with playing/writing music, it really helps me get by another few weeks.

People acts like is the best thing and is not, i just got it from vydia and online vydia. Fuck it, if im that GOOD im going to do something really hard for me to do and see if i can really do it, if i cant that means that i was wrong and im not an "incredible person".

Lemme explain how my ex fucked me over:

>be me
>just starting high school
>freshman year, bio class, meet girl
>the way my school district works is that there are two middle schools
>we both went to separate ones, but for whatever reason we knew about each other
>she was immensely smart, I wasn't
>we also were on opposite sides of the classroom, so we never spoke
>as the year progresses, she realizes that I'm practically always checking her out
>she's got beautiful long red hair, and an amazing body
>we start to talk a bit, I didn't think I had a chance with her
>a few months in, we get really close
>her friends are all telling me to ask her out, but I was a pussy
>i had never really liked anyone before, and yet I was in love with this girl
>fast forward to a few weeks before finals, and I finally work up the courage to ask her to be my gf
keep in mind, she was dropping major hints, and I was so beta that they flew right over my head
>I tell her about how amazing she is and how I want to be with her
>she turns me down, and practically tells me that I waited too long and she lost interest
>I was heartbroken
>I never liked anyone nearly as much as this girl, and my own nerves made me lose her

but wait, there's so much more
cont.?

Thank you, user. Good luck with your art.

>kate and i slowly become better friends
>one day, a few months later, early june, she seems a little bit off
>me and her walk out of the church group and are hanging out outside, drinking coffee
>she suddenly opens up to me out of nowhere
>she's not happy at home, her brother in law is an asshole that runs the house, her mom has PTSD and can barely speak or take care of herself and her dad lives in china and barely gets to talk to her
>she tried to kill herself by eating pills once, that's where she disappeared to after camp
>didnt know what to say, about to open up about myself and my crippling depression and apathy, but pastor came outside and made us join everyone
>next week we watch a movie at youthgroup
>we 'cuddle' on the couch, she sits on my legs
>after the movie, talking about skype
>say i don't really have many people on skype, she says she doesn't either
>exchange skypes
>she doesn't add me for a bit, i don't remember why but i wasn't at home for a few days
>get a skype message from her finally one day
>"hey :P"
>talk a little bit, start playing modded minecraft together
>pixelmon, pokemon in minecraft, it was actually really fun
>end up playing for a week straight, almost 16 hours a day on skype
>pic related, screenshot she took from when we were playing
>anyway i feel really happy talking to her, actually looking forward to the next day
>after a week of this, she goes off to a camp thing for like a month
>it's like late august now
>my brother isn't really friends with her, it's mostly just me and her at this point
>only ~6 months before she moves to china
>start realizing i'm running out of time to be with her

2/?

It's pretty good. I'm garbage at art, and I don't really know how to critique it but it looks good to me. I want to describe it as "soft" but I'm not really sure what exactly I mean by that.

dear god this girl. Plz continue

I refuse to read dog things anymore. They always make me cry.

This is such a shitty made up story, like, holy fuck at least try to make it believable

The little comic just raped my heart. I still find her hairs floating around on clothes every so often. I've cleaned. Replaced blankets and sheets. Completely washed every article of clothing I own. It's been 9 months. She still lingers, yet I know she hasn't thought of me once.

My story or the one in the picture?

-OP

Referring to the picture. The story you've written is just retarded.

Thanks for the nice comment, user.

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oh yeah, of course. I'm sure it's fake but it's still good for feels.

as to my story, I'm aware that it's retarded. That's kind of why I feel like I want to die lmao

get yourself some discipline
get yourself some cultural knowledge
move away from your family at least 90 min drive better more for college
get a bunch of novels, important and known stuff but not some jaes joyce crap
stop hanging out on b
stop playing most videogames
find some sport that keeps you healthy
accept the fact that tit will take you some time to find your own purpose in life
relax

>you`re living in one of the richest countries of the world

stop being sad

Dammit, you started up the waterworks.

Interested, keep the story going

I expected a sad ending to be honest, but good for you and some people have bigger problems than others and i like to think that even them can find a solution.

college/university is really hard when you're depressed
your story sounds very similar to mine
>win money prizes in maths competitions in early highschool: better at maths than 99.7% of kids my age
>go to selective school
>not good at studying
>really tired / disinterested all of late high school
>score 85 / 100 for end of year 12
>good for an average kid but shit for a "smart" kid
>still get into uni even though not very interested
>first semester drop out of 2 subjects and barely pass the other 2.
>take 6 months of to work menial job.
>go back to uni, transfer to easier course and do better.

my advice to you is, uni isn't that important, unless you have your heart set on some professional job.

seriously consider a trade, electrician, plumber, carpenter. If I could go back and do it again I'd give one of these a try.

You might think you need a degree to get a job. what you really need is a useful skill. Most office jobs are boring and depressing any way.

>she had turned me down right before the summer, and had basically ruined my summer
>I went on a trip during the first few weeks of the summer to Europe, with a group in my school
>I got food poisoning and nobody wanted to talk to me, because every day I was throwing up
>I was all alone, in a country I had never been in, with nobody
>would eat alone, sit on the bus alone, do everything alone
>I hit a really low point, I was really depressed
>one day I just text her and pour my heart out
>it's 3am in England, so 10pm in US
>I'm bawling my eyes out,I had never been so upset in my life
>basically tell her I'm really depressed and I have nobody, and all I want is a friend
>say how I've been sick for 5 days straight and haven't spoken to anyone
>probably out of pity, she starts talking to me
>at first it's slow and reserved, probably because she's uncomfortable around me
>but I was beyond happy, because I finally had someone I could talk to on this trip, albeit over text
>as the trip finishes out, her and I are getting pretty close
>we start catching up with one another
>she adds me to a group chat with her friends and a few other guys, and invites me to hang out with them
>I was basically assimilated into her friend group, and I wasn't even dating her
>I was still heartbroken and I still loved her though
>the summer goes by, her and I talk a decent amount but obviously not nearly as much as the school year
>feelsbadman.jpg
>sophomore year starts, and I meet a new girl
>Morgan was her name
>beautiful brown hair, a really great sense of humor, smart, funny, you name it
>she had these freckles that just suited her perfectly
>Morgan and I start talking a shit ton, and we get extremely close between September and December
>realize I like this girl
I ask her to be my girlfriend and by Christmas we're dating
>immediately when the first girl gets word, she's all over me
>"you guys are so cute together"
>"I'm so jealous"
>"you're such a good bf"

cont?

My first experience with death was my dog Duke. I never cried so hard before, or since.

Thanks, it feels nice to finally tell my story.

>she slowly starts coming to my place more and more
>like every day for 12 hours a day sort of deal
>me being so lonely and depressed beforehand, i start writing down the hours and days she comes over, because i've been alone for so long and i want to remember this for when she's gone
>start to play a lot of rockband
>pretty much every song on rockband 1 contains so much meaning to me because of this
>she starts to get super close to me, like soulmates close
>opens up to me one day randomly, says she used to cut herself, and in general is worse off than she told me
>i tell her i used to cut myself too
>we become each others support group
>at that point we keep no secrets from each other anymore
>she's basically living at my house now, only going home to sleep
>partly cause she's moving soon partly cause we're so close
>start wrestling a lot too
>play wrestling, like on my bed we'll just try to pin the other person down or take a pillow away from them using whatever force necessary
>start doing this like every day
>don't make things sexual because she's 14 and i'm 18
>plus she's really uncomfortable with anything sexual, will go red if you even say 'sex'
>doesn't bother me, i like her as a person
>october rolls around, go trick or treating with her even though i feel too old
>then november
>she's moving away next month
>we keep getting closer and closer to each other, at this point we're talking or with each other every possible moment
>thinking back, we were both probably trying to cope with our insecurities through the other person
>december comes, a couple weeks until she is gone
>every night before bed now, i'll start repeating in my head like a mantra
>"i wish i could go to china with kate"
>even though i know it's impossible, i convince myself it'll happen
>1 week until she moves

These were the best days of our friendship. I felt the happiest and things were so... simple.

well yeah, everyone posts sad endings here, I mean thats what it is for.
but honestly, I have never actually shared that anywhere and it felt good to get off my chest.

however, it was the worst pain I have felt, and yeah I have gone through what would be considered worse tragedies, but I guess it was worse because it was so unexpected.

I am just so glad that this new woman came into my life.
I still love these threads because I love the feels. But i hate seeing how many people share the pain I used to have.

I feel depressed mentally unstable, and trapped in despair. I want to get better, but I can't muster up enough willpower to do anything about it. I don't know what to say or how to say what needs to be said. It's beginning to leak and ruin my fake happiness and life, it's getting out of hand. What do?

Fair enough. At least you're self aware. Hopefully that gives you the willpower to actually do something about this shit.

>it's beginning to ruin my fake happiness

this is the true feels

This woulda been good if Drake hadn't been quoted.

>be 20
>Used to being decently popular know slot of people
>Move to a different state
>Held a job for a month then laid off
>Still can't find work
>Impossible for me to make friends
>Tfw females are completely unattracted to me
>just really depressed
>No money
>No one to talk to
>As much as I hate my old job I feel depressed not having one because I don't have anything to do
>Tfw you're just fucking alone

Never Forget. 3.oct.11

And by that I mean just go to college. Don't off yourself. You clearly have people who care about you and shit and if you're half as smart as you claim you are it shouldn't be an issue to blaze through it.

I just realized I never described her. 5'5, blonde hair in a pixie cut, blue eyes, cute round face and a button nose. She always dressed like a boy, never wore skirts, would go red if she showed any femininity. Also she listened to nightcore. Nightcore songs still bring tears to my eyes.

>anyways, 1 week until she's gone
>she and i go on a walk to the park by her house
>end up staying there and talking for about 2 hours
>just about life and feelings and personal things
>we're both in tears but we don't even care
>at the end of it, she gives me a tiny metal pendant, with an angel on one side, and on the other, the words "ALWAYS WITH YOU"
>vow to hold onto it until the day we meet again
>help her clean up her room for a few days
>her dad comes out at the end of the week
>go over to their house to have a goodbye dinner with them
>i remember we went to the park halfway through and talked about morality and life and what life will be like and how we will keep in touch
>made a million promises about how we'll never grow apart
>the night ended with my mom picking me up, as we were driving away the last i saw her was her waving on her front porch, slowly and sadly, until we turned the corner
>says after that she waved for at least 2 minutes before going back inside and crying
>finally sunk in that she really was leaving
>and that my mantra did not work
>still, repeated it to myself every night before bed, just because it was a happy thought
>"i wish i could go to china with kate"

4/? you think it's over, but we're just getting started

Sorry, I'm trying to type as fast as I can, and this story is so long. It's 3am where I am, I can barely focus

>It was such a mind fuck
>it got me so furious
>at the same time, Morgan hated this girl
>she knew how much the first girl fucked me over
>"user, you aren't gonna leave me for her, are you? she already broke your heart"
>I assured Morgan I wasn't going to do that
If only I had stuck to my word
>about a month into my relationship with Morgan, my grades start to take a turn for the worse
>for whatever reason, I'm doing terribly in school
>I immediately attribute it to my relationship
>I call Morgan up one day and tell her flat out
>"look, I can't focus on a relationship right now, I have to do well this year"
>Morgan stops talking to me, because I dumped her in such a shitty way, for such a shitty reason
>still feel terrible about it
>the first girl now takes her opportunity
>her and I start talking again, constantly
>we're hanging out all the time, talking from 7am to 1am every single day
>one of her friends is hosting a Valentine's Day party
>the girl, who is now my best friend, texts me one day
>"user, you know, I haven't had my first kiss yet. I don't want it to be with some random guy"
>I immediately know what she's alluding to
>we make a plan to hu on Valentine's Day
>we were really comfortable with each other, so it seemed like it would actually happen
>the day comes and goes, and she avoids me the whole party
>I text her the next day, asking what happened
>"you hyped it up way too much so I didn't want to do it"
>this bitch literally turned it on me
>I stop talking to her for a few weeks
>I'm so furious and I feel cheated
>one day she texts me and acts as though it never happened
>still pissed, but shrug it off and act normal
>fast forward to mid March
>by now we've told each other everything
>we would always make sexual jokes
>whenever one of us would say "brb shower", the other would say "send pics ;)"

It's getting good now

cont pls

Medicine - Daughter
Ezio's Family - Assassin's Creed
Let Her Go - Passenger
I Miss You - Blink-182
How to Save a Life - The Fray

I could keep going. Just ask.

I'm shitty at describing people. She loved reading, she could get absolutely lost in books. She collected and read the Hardy Boys exclusively, to the point of obsession. It was almost endearing. She had a lot of energy but was very emotional and sensitive, it wouldn't take a lot to get her really upset. Luckily, I'm really gentle with other people.

>we talk on skype as much as we can
>shitty internet connection cause it's the opposite side of the world
>pic related is a pic she sent me, her wearing a facemask cause the pollution is so bad
>make a whole bunch of promises, actually arrange that we'll live together in the future
>like we'll both not get married and when we're adults we'll move in together
>still holding the pendant she gave me every day, it sits in my pocket of my jeans
>she stole my hoodie and wears that every day
>we start making comics together, just stupid little chibi comics but it makes us feel like we're with each other
>try playing pixelmon again but the internet connection is too bad
>i start to alter my sleep cycle, i'm a homeschooled NEET so i can do whatever i want
>staying up til 5am most days to talk to her, sleeping until 1 or 2
>i'm sleeping the same hours as her at this point
>summer eventually rolls around
>she says that we can't talk as much this coming school year cause she's actually enrolling in an english highschool there
>before, she was in distance education so she could talk whenever
>talking with her one night
>had still been saying my mantra every night before bed
>'i wish i could go to china with kate'
>i mention how cool it would be for me to visit her in china
>she agrees, ends up mentioning it to her dad
>her dad agrees too, offers to give me a place to stay and feed me if i fly out there
>what the fuck there's an actual possibility that i'll be going to china
>i say i'm interested
>he tells me to book a flight in february so i can see chinese new year
>i'll stay for 3 weeks then go home

5/?

bump

>one day, I tell her I need to go shower
>of course, the usual "send pics ;)"
>I say "haha you wish", and I get an odd response
>"well, you're not wrong"
>usually, we would just laugh it off, but this was weird
>I say "haha what do you mean:
>"well, we're so comfortable with one another, and maybe we should see where this goes ;)"
>I was about to get nudes from this girl
Keep in mind, she has 34DD tits and a big ass
>we move to snapchat and start talking
>talking turns to sending
>she teases me before finally sending tits
>it was getting late so she says "we'll continue tomorrow ;)"
>the only things I had sent her were ab pics
>tomorrow rolls around, and I ask her
>"are we actually gonna continue?"
>she tells me that she doesn't see why not
>we start to basically have a thing over snapchat
>she'd send pics, and we'd talk about getting with each other
>we made a plan to take each other's virginities during the summer
>I had only made out with people, she never got any action
>she told me I could save the pictures
>I asked her if she was okay with that, and she approved
Keep that in mind, it's extremely important later
>for a month we're sexting and making plans to do shit
>she wants to give me head
>I felt like king of the world
>I only sent a few dick pics in exchange for the massive amount of pictures she sent me
Don't get your hopes up, I'm not dumping
>one day, she breaks down
>"I'm so sorry I turned you down last year, and I'm sorry I bailed on you on Valentine's Day"
>she told me she was crying because she wanted to be my gf but didn't think I wanted it
>I was shocked
>I finally had a chance to be with this girl
>I ask her if she's positive, because I didn't want a repeat of last time
>she promises me that she will not screw me over
>a few days later, I ask her to be my girlfriend

if only this story had a happy ending

I need to vent to someone or somewhere but I just need to talk to someone. Recently, its been hard to bottle my emotions after I lost my girlfriend to breast cancer. Everyday it's a struggle to fake being happy because the realization that I'm alone again is always on my mind. I've also started drinking again and I've lost all contact with friends and family. I'm alone and I need someone to talk to. I also can't maintain any relationship due to the fear of losing them, so I push them and anyone that cares away. Suicide is looking promising but I'm too much of pussy to actually do it because I'm scared of what's might be on the other side. How do I stop this feeling of loneliness and get my sense of happiness back?

If dubs u dump
Fair deal

it'll be hard but quitting drinking is going to have to be the first thing on your list...no one can blame you for reacting in the way you have but there's a point where you need to pick yourself back up.

i don't know how long it's been but like I said, stop drinking ASAP

Anyone want more music?

its been 4 weeks since she passed

>start working toward a passport and visa right away
>have a lot of money saved up and parents offer to help pay for the trip, since it's the first thing i've been excited about in years
>eventually the 3 weeks becomes 6 weeks
>then the 6 weeks becomes 3 months
>then 3 months becomes staying with her until we both come back to our home country
>i'm looking forward to this so much that i almost can't function
>it's weird being so excited about one single event for so long that you start obsessing over it
>every day it's all i think about
>every night i dream about it
>i wish i could skip time or something but i have to wait until january
>don't get to talk with her much for the enxt few months cause chinese schools go on until 6PM and that's 3am where i live
>still stay up until i can say goodnight to her every night, because i'm going there anyways, so my sleep cycle is going to have to change sometime
>i don't even remember what i did from september until january, i was obsessing that much about the trip
>she buys me this duck stuffy at a local store, tells me it's mine when i get there
>her dad bought me a really nice bike, has their old apartment at the school campus that i can live at
>he really treated me nice considering i'm a 19 year old guy that wants to be close with his 15 year old daughter
>anyway, time finally rolls around
>so many things that i couldn't do because of good memories suddenly open up
>i listen to rockband songs, both the memories attached and the excitement of going to china brings tears to my eyes
>they still do actually
>all packed up, visa is ready and everything is set. took out 500RMB (~$100) for spending money while i was there
>got on the airplane, noticing lots of native chinese people, the sheer excitement is almost too much for me to bear

6/? maybe halfway done

>it was two days until a week long break when I asked her out
>we kissed a few times in the hall, nothing special
>she was going away for the break, so we couldn't hang out
>we texted a lot though
>also, for the time we were dating, we never sexted like we used to
>it was so weird
>I was basically waiting for us to start back up again before I reminded her that I had saved pictures
>stuff happened in my community with other kids and nudes, so I wanted to make sure she knew and was still okay with it
>we text over the break, but she kind of breaks off
>doesn't respond as quickly
>the conversations are shorter
>something felt off
>she avoids me in the hallways
>exactly two weeks to the day I asked her out, I text her
>"hey is everything okay?"
>she dumps me
>right there
>tells me that she went into the relationship expecting something else
>practically tells me she never liked me
>she did this over text
The funny part is: when I broke up with Morgan, this girl told me NOT to do it over text.
>she tells me she "still wants to be friends"
>she doesn't talk to me for a month
>one day, she texts me out of the blue
>she's screaming at me
>"how dare you save my nudes, you're a perv, I never gave you permission"
>I immediately show her screenshots of the messages where she GAVE ME PERMISSION
>she tells me that I took her words out of context
>basically tells me to go fuck myself and never talk to her again
>me, being the beta I still am, I could only muster up the strength to say "okay, I'm sorry, goodbye"
>That was the last time we spoke
>it's been 2 months
>she harasses me
>her and her friends make fun of me and make edits of me and post them on social media
>she's telling lies about me and trying to ruin my life
>I can't do anything because she could just pull the nudes card
>I'm the villain here and they take every opportunity to harass me about

I'm giving up, Cred Forumsros. I'm lost as to what to do. How do I fix this?

This legit made me cry.

Bump. Please continue.

> be me
> is black, constantly tries to avoid stereotypes
> currently in small high school
> insecure and has a deep inner hatred for the idea of mating and reproduction
> studies biology, insecurity only continues to grows
> enjoys shitting on others and their autism beliefs
> only believes girls have interest in me because A. Media influences B. genetic searching. I am the thing I hate so fucking much? alpha? fuckthat.jpg
> Takes adderal, why i am sad? life is great!
> remebers
> drinks cheap wine mix with green tea every night.

you a legit faggot then

shit, man. sounded like it had been longer than that.

the fact that you won't kill yourself is a step in the right direction. slowly start to pick yourself back up. reach back out to your family and friends- quit drinking- -do you have a job?

it's good that you admit that you're in a bad way- admittance is the first step. you also seem like you want it to get better- the only person who can do that is you.

If its only been a few weeks, then I can see why you'd feel pretty hopeless. I know this is a pretty basic thing to say, but you've got to immerse yourself in something healthy and just let some time pass. Pretty standard, but it does work.

I find though that personally, time doesn't completely heal a lot of wounds. You might carry around a scar from this and honestly man, that's alright. You just lost someone you care about and that's never, ever an easy thing. I've been there, my wife passed away in early 2013 from breast cancer and it wasn't an easy thing to recover from.

I found that surrounding myself with people who cared was a huge thing. I'm a musician, so I poured a lot of my time into that, took up running again, just got out and found other things to occupy my mind with. That went a long way, as far as healing up was concerned. It was hard sometimes though, keeping in mind that drinking and getting into bad habits wasn't a good idea. I'm not sure why that was so hard, but it really was.

That's it though, man. Time and distraction can go a hell of a long way. I know, its not the best advice, but it does work. You won't heal overnight though and man, I'm sorry you're going through this.

Im starting to feel hopeful. But i know this probably wont end well

post her nudes, fuck her

I have nobody else to talk to let me vent
WHY DID YOU CHEAT ON ME CRYSTAL WHY DID YOU LIE WHY DID YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT WHY DID YOU RUB IT IN MY FACE, WHY DID I LOSE MY JOB BECAUSE OF YOU, WHY THE FUCK AM I NOT NORMAL ANYMORE, WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME. I LOST FUCKING EVERYTHING, YOU SAID YOU WOULD BE THERE BUT YOU'RE GONE. i have nothing left. that's about it

Post nudes then we talk

Yeah I know. I want to die.

then I guess we aren't talking. This is a feels thread, not a dump thread

It feels like its been a few months

But who can i find people to surround myself with. All my friends and family completely cut connections. I live alone now in a shitty apartment and its 2am. Will things really get better with time? Where can I find new people?

Touché
Fair enough

I almost want to stop writing. It hurts too much to think about and relive.

>flight there is 10 hours
>listen to every rockband song twice
>watch movies
>nothing can keep me from being excited
>probably the happiest day of my life
>outside the window was blue ocean for probably 8 hours
>plane finally gets to shanghai
>first thing i notice is how gray everything is
>like thick gray smog everywhere, the air smells like old smoke
>land at the airport, get my stuff, walk down the line of people waiting for visitors
>dont see them??
>turn around and walk again, they aren't there
>start to wonder if they are late, sit on my suitcase and wait for a while
>suddenly see her dad walking up to me quickly
>"pretend you didn't see me, she wanted to be the first one to spot you. she's over there"
>he walks back to her, they were waiting at the wrong place or something
>i see kate after 13 months of being away from her
>can't contain my excitement
>she looks a lot more mature than before
>long hair now, in a ponytail, thinner neck and face, looks a lot more feminine
>wearing a facemask cause the air quality could kill you
>run over to her, huge hug
>we don't stop talking for the rest of the night
>eat noodles at some noodle shop at the shanghai airport, trying to learn how to use chopsticks properly
>take the subway to a taxi station, take a taxi back to their apartment
>talking the entire time, when her dad says to be quiet, we type to each other on my ipod to talk
>finally get to her apartment
>she shows me around a little bit, gives me the duck stuffy
>pic related is the view out their apartment window
>her sister drives me to my apartment at the school on her ebike
>get to bed, realize how tired i am and fall asleep almost instantly

7/?

Me too

tl;dr: Girl leads me on, turns me down when I actually grow a pair. I move on, get a new girlfriend, the old girl tries to get with me again. When I'm single again, the old girl starts hitting on me big time. She sends nudes, gives me permission to send them, we date for two weeks, she dumps me. Confronts me a month later accusing me of saving her nudes even though she gave permission. Her and her friends all harass me now.

So what do I do? Do I just wait it out? She ruined my self esteem, stole 2 years from me, and I'm still the one who cries his eyes out whenever I think of her. I need help.

Keep writing user, we believe in you

If you cant write, then at least say something. Cause ill be waiting for the next post.

parents took doggo to the vet, found out she's got arthiritis and can't really stand, and has tumor on her leg but vet can't operate on her due to her being too old etc.

She's 15 human years old, which is quite impressive. She's outside sleeping right now on some medications and she's been crying most days, we're going to have to put her down soon to put her out of her misery. I'm the worst person in the world, i didn't ever give her enough attention. The world was moving too fast around me and I was too busy focused on myself and my life, friends and partying and shit, that I never even spared a thought for my doggo.

Just broke up with my girl a couple days ago too. I don't handle grief too well, and I don't know what to do, but it's a reality we all have to face. Anyone been in a similar situation.

I feel for you bro but your green text is too detailed. Provide context and structure to your story but not second by second play by play.

I know my shit isn't that bad compared to a lot of shit, but Cred Forumsros I feel fucking awful and keep considering An Hero myself

> B me
> 18
> seem to have it all setup
> job as a brick layer on £300 a day
> 8/10 girl
> she moves to her moms
> "we will make the LDR work"
> get laid off due to lack of work and newbie goes first
> she leaves me because she really isn't really ready for a relationship
> feel alone, fucked over

Idk if I will ever find a girl again who I love, 18 years old and one serious girlfriend and shes the only person to ever love me and see anything in me, now she doesn't want to know. My wage has probably peaked unless I can bounce back with something better (though I doubt it).

best of Robert Munsch

The saddest thing is when you reach the bottom of the feels thread and only got 5 good feels. Not enough complete stories!

DOES NOBODY FEEL MY FEEL? FUCK CLOROX HAS NEVER LOOKED BETTER JESUS CHRIST

>I'm the worst person in the world

Not to your doggo. She loves you.

Just make sure you're there when it has to be done.

of course you'll find someone else- like you said you're 18

...

>the next 3 weeks were me getting to know the general rules about china cause it's so different from canada
>don't slow down or speed up when you cross the road, just go and dont look, they'll drive around you
>don't touch the ground it's covered in spit and grime
>don't drink the tapwater it's toxic
>don't eat anything raw without washing it super well
>wear a facemask when outside or doing physical activity
>use an air purifier inside
>don't leave anything unattended
>and don't eat any seafood it's got heavy metals in it
>also her dad taught me basic chinese, enough to order food and get around
>i didn't feel homesick because 1-i was too excited about this and 2-i was depressed at my home, this was like another life
>the apartment i stayed at was a 5km bikeride away from hers, so i'd do a 20 minute bike ride every day there and back for excercise
>on school days, i helped out in the bookroom with her older sister
>ate lunch with her family, same thing every day, peanut butter and jam on bread
>dinner we'd go to their place and one of us would make something
>if it was me or kate, it was always spaghetti
>after 3 weeks, chinese new years came around

I actually liked being in china for more than just being with her. In canada, it's a consumer culture. Everything is pushed in your face and everyone has so many gadgets and belongings and your fridge is always stocked full of shit. You have everything you could ever want here. In china, I'd eat 3 meals per day, oatmeal for breakfast, toast+jam for lunch, then something homemade for dinner. Sometimes we'd eat at a restaurant. We had so little belongings and it was so freeing to just be able to live day by day without computers, television, couches (we had chairs), and a million other things we really don't need. Life was simple.

;_; im so scared to see her go through that.

>she loves you

fucking im crying now man. i feel like such a bad person man.

user is living the dream. anything else?

Partner left yesterday to go back to Australia after six months of living with me in the UK. It was heaven guys. Absolutely fucking heaven. And now I feel like everything is crashing down because they're not here and it's going to be quite some time before I can hold them again. I don't know how I'm going to cope. We did two years before this just talking online, how just a day without them can break me I don't even know.
Worst bit, I'm too fucking dumb to work out all these visa things. I'm trying to find the quickest way to get them back. Sure, money is an issue but I'd damn scrape by to buy them a ticket home, I'd work out something to pay the fees. I'd fucking do anything for them. Anything to have them here again.
I know they're hurting just as much too. Fucking. Some of their messages are killing me. We're both survivors in our own rights, and finding someone who just...makes that chaos quiet? Is too special. And it works for us both! It's fucking perfect so WHY do they have to live so far away? How the fuck do I do this. How the fuck.

>be me couple of years ago
>think i'm quite smart
>aces math, chemistry, physics
>gets into a gymnasium with advanced math etc
>gets absolutely rekt
Never think, that you're smart until you've met with something really challenging, OP.

this is more like horror than feels.

You think so? I'll stretch it out a little bit less then.
>chinese new years we stayed with a chinese family
>literally a concrete house with an outdoor hallway between rooms
>no internet 1 tiny tv no hot water and their toilet was a squat toilet
>even though we were living like peasants, me and her bonded even more
>went to a bathhouse with her dad and we bathed naked together, was a good bonding experience
>anyways we went to an even poorer place, a farm in bumfuck nowhere, the toilet was a communal concrete hole in the ground, they didn't have electricity, cooked their shit on a hay stove etc etc
>outhouse was still better than the hotel's toilet, it smelled rancid in there and had probably never been cleaned
>we got drunk together at the farm
>her first time being drunk
>we ended up lying on the ground saying "i love you" over and over again hugging each other
>after that we promised not to drink again cause she started crying or something idk i was drunk
>after chinese new year, moved back to the normal apartments
>got used to daily life in china
>i was part of her family now no doubt, her dad treated me like a son
>maybe he was repaying me for how i took care of her
>my visa was starting to run out, i could only get 3 months at a time
>i was getting pretty good at chopsticks now, could buy things and say a few phrases by myself
>had to fly back home by myself in april

>flew back a month later with another 3 month visa of course
>this time, it wasn't as special as before
>she couldn't make it to the airport to greet me this time
>my brother had been getting lonely at home without me, so was getting to be closer friends with kate
>she would sometimes skype him for an hour or two per day, i'd have to wait for them to stop talking to hang out with her
>we started to argue because of this
>i also started to worry because she was talking about him coming into our future house plans

9/?

>gymnasium with advanced math

What do they teach at gym-math? Long jump divsion?

It's what they call specialized academies in certain European countries.

I drink to puke so i can atleast pretend im expelling my body of everything i hate about myself.

I'm 21 years old and I've never been in a relationship with anyone.

Needless to say I'm also a neck-bearded permavirgin.. it's so bad that I literally haven't held a girls hand.

I'm a shut in and I really only leave to house to travel for work (I work from home, and occasionally I'm required to fly to major cities to meet with my bosses).

Anyway, every time I'm in a new city I look up escorts.. and this weekend I finally got the balls to contact a few and they all blew me off except for one. She was a solid 10/10 and was basically my dream girl. Short, blonde, blue eyes, cute ass, the works. I was super excited to meet her and we set up a meeting place and exchanged pictures. Then after talking for about an hour, she just stopped responding. It ended up getting so late that I had to just call it a night. I had to fly home the next morning.

I literally don't know what to do now. I'm back home, where I don't even have a car, and I don't think I'll be traveling again any time soon. I can't get any matches on Tinder, I can't find any sluts online that are remotely interested in me either, now I apparently can't even sell my virginity to a fucking professional.

What the fuck is wrong with me Cred Forums?

I have a story Cred Forumsros
>be me 17
>junior in high school, friends are sophomores
>get into relationship with friend
>scared of commintment so i leave them
>they remain my friend just to keep the friend group stable
>i do this to another chick
>now i have a reputation for fucking people over
>am offered a chance to move out to NC with my friend
>yes
>i ran away from all of my problems leaving anyone who may have been my friend there
>i have no connections with these people and have no friends here
>bonus points: i work a shitty job and school makes me feel like a fucking idiot
also here's some feel

Post pics and well see

oh right.. sounds pretty intelligent.

i'd bet with a bit more practice you'll be able to improve your scores, lad.

>the next few months even though we were still super close, it felt like we drifted apart a little bit
>i didn't know how to tell her i didn't want my brother being close with her, so i didn't tell her
>started to get really hot, like 38 degrees and 100% humidity
>her sister accused me of staring at her when she was wearing a bra and shorts, she was a little upset at me about this
>went on one more trip to a disneyland thing in shanghai, pic is the view out the ferris wheel, everything is gray and dreary there
>me and her flew back home the week after
>i was jetlagged as fuck so i stayed in bed, her and my brother went to the beach together the next morning
>they were just as close as me and her
>this realization hit me like a ton of bricks, suddenly i wasn't that special person to her, i was replaceable
>entered another depression and started distancing myself from her again
>my parents were hounding me because i was just sleeping all day and blaming jetlag even though it had been weeks now
>at this point i was 20 she was 16
>still no job no education past highschool
>my parents convinced me to move in with my grandma in the next province over, to get a job and an education and be independent
>i went, partly to get back at kate for not being as close with me
>i'll admit it was manipulative
>the night before i left, her and i met up at the park alone to say goodbye
>ended up hugging and softly crying for a few hours
>that night was the Sept 27 blood moon, it seemed symbolic towards something, that night was special to us
>the next day i was gone to live with my grandma
>couldn't find a job there, didn't know what i wanted to do for education, ended up sitting on my laptop wishing i could go back to the time i was in china
>kate would skype me, there was a little tension between us
>one day she mentions the possibility of us dating

Now you can see where this can go wrong.

10/?

...

Obviously I'm a fatty, and I can't post my face for obvious reasons.

That said.. I don't think it's all looks? I mean an escort wouldn't give a shit so long as she got her money, right?

Wasn't me, I just explained it cuz I got tripped up at first til I remembered that fact. But yea, good luck to the lad.

EE major here and thinking I was good at math and science was not at all a good idea by the time I got to multivariable calc and electromagnetics and other phsyics shit.

This one hits home for me
youtube.com/watch?v=pMErlY2CIs0

Was listening to this one last night. The original is better if you really want to feel the meaning in the lyrics though. It's heavier. This version is more lighthearted, but equally good to listen to.

Here, in Europe, we have primary schools, middle, after which you can quit studying, gymnasiums and universities. Can't you just google what you don't know? good meme btw

possibility of dating? wrong how... continue please.

Cont cont cont cont

>i ask her "what if we tried dating?"
>she lists a few positive things
>"that doesn't sound too bad, does it?"
>we start talking about it more and more
>the 'what if's' slowly become real
>we agree to start dating, but not asking her out over skype
>she's 16, but that's legal here, and we have a lot of trust
>move back home on Halloween day, ask her out that night, our anniversary is Halloween
>tell her i'll get her a single black rose every day on our anniversary
>anyway we go on a first date, it goes really well, we're both well mannered and nice to each other, a little awkward but we both get over it
>my brother obviously likes her too, he's starting to get depressed
>serves him right he tried to get between us, i figured
>one day we're in a long car ride back, start playing "are you nervous", slowly slide my hand up her thigh
>she gets nervous and tells me to stop
>then asks to do it again a second later
>doesn't make me stop and lets me get inches away from her crotch
>we start to play this every day
>and every day she gets braver
>keep in mind this is a girl that can't even look at herself naked in the mirror she's so embarrassed about sex
>i reach her crotch one day, after that it stops being a game and starts being rubbing her through her pants
>then she gets braver, lets me put my hand under her pants and rub her through only her underwear
>i can feel how wet she is from this
>this is the only time i've ever touched a girl sexually so i'm close to cumming
>we have to do this sneakily under the covers because my brother insists on always hanging around us whenever she is over
>we'd watch a lot of tv shows on my computer and i'd rub her thighs and crotch the whole time
>one day i get brave and put the very tip of my finger under her panties
>she looks at me nervously, gives a very slight nod
>it's so hot between her legs and i can already feel how wet she is
>i go in a bit further and touch the first pussy of my life

11/?

I love the original, but somehow the Joji mix just overwhelms me with nostalgia and sadness.

Continue please

Cont cont cont cont

>work steady mc job for 10 months, really hard for me because i'm fucking insane (not edgy)
>literally see shit and hear shit that's not real
>usually cope pretty well
>doing so good with my job
>i'm well liked, lots of friends i hung out with on occasion
>then this female comes into my life
>she was a manager that just relocated to our store
>she has a crush on my
>20 yo kissless virgin me goes for it
>invite her over, smoke weed and fuck
>become fuck buddies for a week
>had enough, told her i wanted her
>we started dating
>things going well for about 2 weeks
>everything is perfect
>3 weeks in i start hearing shit, saying off things and doing really stupid stuff
>she becomes more distant
>1 month in
>things are falling apart
>breaks down and tells me i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm so sorry, crying.
>ask her what is going on
>she whispers my coworkers name
>thought i was hearing shit so i let it go
>5 weeks in she's getting rides home with him
>she stops texting me at night
>becomes hostile
>abuses me
>wants me to leave
>going completely insane at this point
>saying racist shit (in my heart i'm not racist, but fuck niggers)
>acting like an asshole to everyone
>even my family
>6 weeks in i'm having a mental breakdown
>lost all my friends, coworkers hate me, even my family doesn't like me
>2 months in she breaks up with me
>i'm happy, or so i thought
>find out for sure she was cheating on me when the nigger rubbed it in my face
>get angry
>lose job
>have nothing left
>no pride, i'm changed as a human being, i'm stupid and bitter.
>have no idea why i can't be normal
>she did things that were wrong to me but i know it's all been my fault
>don't know what to do
You guys are my only friends right no. What the fuck do i do? i just want to get high and drink away what money i have left. Also i shouldnt even bring it up because people who kill themselves dont talk about it they just do it. But iv'e tried before. failed of course because i'm too stupid for that too. so what now?

Hey I'm doing electrical engineering technology at a polytechnic which probably isn't as hard as what you're doing, but I was wondering if you've been in the industry yet and if you got any tips?

I have a feeling it'll be hard for me to land a good job, i hear people don't take engineering technology as serious. I hope to someday own my own business, and be successful.

>i thought she was on her period at first because it felt like dipping a finger into a pool of blood
>nope it was just that wet
>she had to go home right then so i didn't get to do much more
>we went on another date
>this one seemed like a real date, she was so passionate about our relationship, she was acting a little sexy, flirting, she really seemed open up her sexuality
>big smiles at each other, playing footsies, biting her lip, laughing a lot, acting like long time lovers
>start learning some things about her
>she likes to be restrained or held down
>the teasing i do by rubbing her legs drives her nuts
>she's super sensitive so i have to be careful how i touch her, sometimes it's too intense for her
>we start to have a lot of movie nights
>almost every day she'll come over, and go under the blankets with me so i can rub her thighs, get her wet and finger her or rub her
>this is pretty much the teenage love that i missed out on in highschool
>we'll share candy, like a sucker or something, she'll have it in her mouth for a minute then give to it me
>weirdly enough, she refuses to kiss me or touch me sexually
>i don't care i'm enjoying fingering her enough
>one day, she gets permission to sleep over
>dad is a total bro and lets her sleep in my room
>i go into her bed when i know we won't be disturbed
>she likes bondage, so i tie her wrists to my bedposts (she requested this)
>i take her pajama bottoms off, unbutton her pajama top
>take her panties off
>and just rub her thighs until she's begging me to touch her
>ask if i can lick her
>she says yes
>make her call herself my kitten first, which she does because she wants it so badly
>"good girl"
>eat her out, suck on her nipples, pretty much make her feel as good as i can
>don't put my dick in because she's not comfortable with that still, it was a really weird relationship
>this continues for a while, we finish up, i help get her dressed and we fall asleep cuddling

12/?

Thought this was feels thread. not the kind of feels i want to feel right now aaaaa

Bumping for more.

Cont cont cont cont

Lol you underage faggot
She's probably not even a virgin and has sent her nudes to a lot of dudes
Basically, she's a dumb whore.
Post her nudes its what she deserved, considering what you've said it'll happen eventually anyway

Continue!

Requesting existentialist sloth plz

EE here:

I'm not in the field yet, I'm still a student. BUT from what I've heard/experienced EET is just like electrician/technician and is quite in demand. You're literally learning the same stuff except more hands on without all the background theory behind it like the upper level math and physics. In fact there's a lot of technician's I've met in my EE program that can school the other students cuz they have the hands on experience. Don't be discouraged and go through with it. EET is a strong field because it's a learned skillset that will always be necessary like plumbing or nursing or doctoring. It's heavily in demand and you make good money on contracting jobs and such. Make sure to learn your shit WELL and probably get your foot in the door as an intern or understudy or volunteer at some engineering firm, power company, or contracting company. The hands on experience and the connections is what you're looking for as a tech. Once you have that you'll be able to eventually start up your own business, after learning the ins and outs of the industry. Good luck Cred Forumsro, I'm sure you can do it.

bump

This isn't a fap story this is a feels story... I have so many fingering stories from about 3 weeks of everyday touching, but that's for another thread.

>have to wake up at like 6am to switch beds so i don't get caught in bed with her
>wake up at 9 to her with her head on her hands, staring sleepily at me with a small cute smile
>i'll never forget that image, it was burned into my mind, that was the most i've ever felt in love
>went back into bed with her, she asked me to do it again
>had to be sneaky cause people were getting up, didn't tie her up this time but teased her even more, until my fingers slid in with no resistance at all
>we ended up playing rockband or something later that day
>next time she comes over, she acts a little uncomfortable with the touching
>don't really know what's up, she just seems like she's less into it
>it starts to become less and less common, her period starts so we can't, and we go on another date
>this time, she seems bothered by something. issues at home with her stepbrother again, she misses her dad, might be moving back to china
>my brother is acting really mopey and wanting more time around her too
>she says it feels like she's being pulled apart at the seams
>she didn't even want to hold my hand after the date, kept pulling it away
>that night, she came over again, and started crying
>said she wasn't comfortable with the touching, feels guilty for having done it, wishes we could just be friends, plus all the pressure of potentially having to move again
>i was feeling it too, stressing about her moving
>we break up later that night, it doesn't click until the next day what i just did
>try to fix things between us and just take our relationship back a step
>she is adamant with just being friends
>i'm hurt by this, especially because she's suddenly wanting me to be with my brother all the time when we hang out now

13/?

He's right. We got your back user. share the nudes and give us her facebook. We'll make her pay for picking on you.

oh fuck it gets real

>community college
ha

but no there is sadness in my heart as well

4:30 AM, have to be up in four hours
Can't sleep, still thinking about her

Literally make a plan and stick to it. I was the same, and finally everything sorted itself out once I made a schedule, wrote it down and did it.

...

You have the worst brother, he basically liked this girl, got cucked by you, didn't say anything, and then cucked you back
And the worst part is you didn't say anything when he cucked you back either
And why would she feel guilty? You said she's a Christian huh? You should've taken things way slower you fucking goof especially if you loved her as much as you think

Don't make me kek, I'm here to feel

>be forever alone all my life
>only workout and play games
>games bore the shit out of me now
>just workout
>have a pretty good physique and pretty good looking yet cant get girls still
>really cute girl messages me on facebook because of a status i posted that made her laugh
>end up talking all night
>all night turns into every day
>she lifts, doesn't party, has same interests as me
>only problem is she lives on the other side of canada
>tells me how badly she wants to fuck me and date me but its almost impossible where she lives
>gets almost a hundred msgs on facebook a day but says im the only guy she wants to talk to
>says im not like other guys and loves it
>think about her every day
>we still talk every day
>trying to find a way to see her, but its almost $800 for a flight
>i know that sooner than later shes going to find a guy that lives close to her and ill be back to talking to no one all day
>atleast the gym is there right?

what do Cred Forumsros? could use some advice

I just miss her guys
I constantly have that feeling of wanting to be home as I sit in my bed
I watch the world in all of its beauty and wonder why I can't be a part of all of it
I sit in my room and think about death, and the peace it would bring from this cycle of depression, disappointment, and failure

o ok

odd place to ask but where do you guys get your motivation?

Fuck you guys, i need help and none of you even bother to listen. What do you get from this? do you enjoy reading about how shitty someones life can be to feel better about your own? Is it all a fucking game? "who has the worst feels" ill play that fucking game.
>molested by both my parents
>mom poisoned and beat me
>dad got drunk and wrestled me without clothes on
>shit childhood because of this
>not a single friend growing up
>first crush sold her body for drugs
>brother used me for drugs
>i did so many drugs i wasted my potential
>lose everything in my life
>go insane
>try to die
>fail
>get locked up
>back to normal
>go insane again
>fuck everything up
>now i'm alone
>alone
>alone
>alone
>alone
>alone
>alone

your self esteem is low. girls dont really ask guys out fam.

>tell her i can't be friends with her anymore, and i need time to myself
>she takes it the wrong way and is mad at me
>i fall into a huge post-breakup depression, drink way too much at new years and start to drink a lot
>being drunk and depressed and angry i send her a lot of stupid messages over skype
>she says to stop or she'll block me
>i stop, tell her it's better i forget about her, and delete her from my friends list
>kind of lost for the next few months, just stay up late, drink a lot and do nothing
>she comes over sometimes to be with my brother and i lock the door to my room and be alone
>overreacting but i was really hurt, the girl that had been so close to me had done this to me, and i was so pissed off at her i couldn't even look at her
>months go by before i finally apologize
>at this point, my brother has entered the ultra deep level of friendzone that few guys will ever get to
>they say things like "i platonically love ya, bro"
>the two of them pick up where i left off, they are now planning a house together
>really pissed at them still, but i can't blame her because she just wanted to keep everyone happy
>talk to her a few times, it's not really the same as before
>she's thinking of getting breast reduction surgery, she wears a chest binder to hide her boobs now, wants to identify as neither girl nor guy
>realize how mentally fucked she is, can't believe i didn't see it sooner
>i just act as supportive as possible, she comes to me sometimes being upset at my brother cause he's too clingy
>i'm dying inside but i hide it to make her happier
>i feel really bad for her, cause i pushed her out of her comfort zone

14/?

man thanks so much for the encouragement, it means alot.

Good luck for you and your journey, Cred Forumsrother. We're all gonna make it, brah!

how old are you user?...

I had a friend who lived in Sacramento and I live near LA and me and her talked for like 4 years and were totally in love for most of it
I ruined it by falling in love with another go who I now realize is my true soulmate
So basically, if you guys really are compatible, she might not find a guy. But life can throw a nigger at you any day

Just die already

Go meet her. What's life without spontaneity? Your life sounds lacking of it anyway. Discuss it with her, save up and go meet her in a month or two. Make sure you have a CERTAIN address, phone number, and contact info. It's best if you've skyped her often instead of just texted or something. Also take her a present that she'll consider a souvenier as well as personal, Like a teddy bear wearing a shirt of your home town or something. Ezpz

getting tired user.. love the story. please continue

I get mine from knowing that I don't want to end up as one of these stories some day. I'm here for my Cred Forumsrothers but I'm here to pick them up, not fall with them.

Okay you know what I said this But it turns out you just liked some stupid fucking faggot girl because you and your brother are both stupid fucking faggots
You're a fucking whiny child who has a tantrum when you don't get what you want, hes a sneaky vindictive nigger who's also apparently too beta to do it right, and she's a fucking deranged cunt who apparently is too retarded to handle sexuality WHICH LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE DOES
KILL YOURSELF YOUR STORY HAS REVEALED ITSELF TO BE THE RUMBLINGS OF AN AUTIST ABOUT OTHER AUTISTS

>I'm really smart and I know it
Stop thinking this until you actually prove it to yourself at university/college level. College-level work is a different league of hard than high school. You're probably not as good as you think.

No problem, yea, we'll make it somehow someday. (>.

21, just old enough to drown myself in alcohol :^)

I do it for her
Yet I fail 'it' consistently
>forced myself not to cut myself like an hour ago
>really want to drink
>really want to take pills
>really don't want to even try in college anymore

Never asked me out. it was 3am and she messaged me saying "your statuses always make me laugh"

Trust me i was surprised too. Always wanted to msg her but was scared

Do you live in 909

user I needed to shear this. Thank you.

I have feels. Feels I have never felt before.
I fell in love, for the first time i fell in love with the most beautiful woman. I admitted to her that I started to have feelings for her. I have not heard from her since...I wonder if I made the right decision...

Well don't forget these then!

That sounds unimaginably terrible.
I have no prize but this

kek

Well you're probably underage, and you probably came on way way way too strong considering this and what you just posted. So congrats. You successfully scared off your first woman. Go back to your shitting street m8

Fucking
Fucking tell me about it. I know. Hindsight. It kills me to think of this, and everything I've lost. Why do you think I hate myself so much?

>one day, i ask her to be my drinking buddy, with the intent of telling her how i feel
>we go to the forest somewhere and sit on a park bench and share a bottle of triple sec
>she gets really touchy and slutty as she drinks
>all over me, kissing my neck, whispering in my ear that she wants me to finger her
>tell her no, i'm not going to take advantage of her
>she says i'm too scared to do it
>fuck it i don't care anymore, fuck this fuck her fuck everything
>grab her and start full on making out with her
>clothes come off quickly
>she makes me keep my underwear on, but we do everything else that can be done with my underwear on
>she keeps telling me that night on skype that she wants me to do this again, and to take things further
>think i'm going to lose my virginity to my drunk ex
>nope, the next day she's acting all regretful again
>decide i'm done with this stupid cycle and try to cut feelings for her
>summertime now, my only other friend comes out
>i move into his place and smoke enough weed to kill a horse over the summer
>things are super awkward between me and kate again because of the drunk fooling around
>brother is still megacucked by me and friendzoned by her
>wish things could just be normal
>summer ends, friend leaves, so does my connection with weed
>kate's moved off to fuck knows where
>she's into undertale fanfictions and undertale music and everything undertale
>she still talks to me sometimes over skype and i act like nothing is wrong
>she's a shell of who she once was, i don't even want to be with her the way she is now
>i miss the old her, when she was adventurous, young, creative, and free spirited
>now she's anxious and quiet and awkward
>to see her devolve like this kills me
>to lose the future i planned with her
>to see my best and closest friend change completely

15/16

a-ah?! Fucking user, im 16. It's not too late, i know how shitty stuff must be but don't allow it to get worse, you still have a lot of great protential. life fucking fucking sucks so god damn much that i realize this during my short time on this planet. but i also realize that there are many joys too, so much that sometimes it feels guilty. the hardships and blissings you have only make your story richer. life is both painful and wonderful at the same time

It's extremely depressing how many stories like this there are out there. =/
.
Find a support group user. You need to actively engage with people that are normal in order to bring humanity back into your life. You can't allow yourself to wallow in self pity and disgust because its a never ending cycle of loneliness. Get a basic job that forces you to work socially, like cashier, waiter, clerk, or whatever, and literally put your heart and soul into it. They're simple tasks but when you drive to do your best in service jobs the customers and the boss and coworkers always notice. That kind of positivity attracts more positivity, and you'll form connections in no time. I'm sorry for everything you've been through but there ARE ways to climb yourself out of the circumstances life has put you through.

twitch.tv leeeeeeeeeeeon
raid this nignog321ytyy

You shouldn't hate yourself for what happened with Kate you autistic sperglord you should hate yourself for only being attractive in any way/shape/form to a clearly crazy and retarded ass girl who gets fingered and fucking dies inside
Jesus fucking Christ you literally hit the jackpot on the mentally unstable girl and you're so autistic you think you were the problem
She was probably molested by her brother in law and she liked it and that's the root of her problem, anything other than that happening warrants her as literally just being mentally handicapped
Im not lying or joking or trying to be a Dick, that bitch was raped, and she liked it, and that's what her problem is
You fucking moron

this.

Make a seperate thread dipshit

you're wise for a 16 year old. Most people on this board usually lose their humanity very young and aren't motivated or strong hearted enough to become hopeful again.

I came to this board when I was 15, it helped me get through a lot of breakups, friendships and bullshit in my life. Despite all the bad things I've experienced i do know for a fact that you should never lose hope and always know that it gets better. Never ever for a second think that you're doomed.

Like okay seriously faggot. READ THIS
I KNOW I AM RIGHT
HER ISSUES WITH INTIMACY AND HER EXTREME GUILT FROM SEXUALITY YET WANTING IT SO BAD
JESUS CHRIST
SHE WAS FUCKING RAPED NIGGER

"k"

>now i'm right back where i was before i met her
>4 years older
>work for my dad now
>still no education
>don't drive because my L expired while i was in china
>nobody to tell my feels to except anons on Cred Forums

Pic related is a house keychain we got together in china. It connects with her half to form one house. I gave her back the stupid angel locket, but I forgot to get rid of this house. Ironic, that we both carry a broken house with us.

I'm slowly losing it. I know I'm really autistic and terrible at socializing. Every time I think of any memory of the last 3 years I fall into a pit of depression and wishing things could go back. I can't get her back, she's a different person now, and I can't replace her with another girl because she was truly unique. I hate her now. I only talk to her because I feel bad for her. I hate myself for being stupid enough to let this happen. I hate everything and I miss being happy and having somebody that brought a smile to my face when I thought about them or talked to them. I don't really have a drive to do anything anymore. I don't really care about meeting anyone new or trying to make things go back. I'm so tired. I have enough pills to kill myself and enough alcohol to be blackout drunk while I do it. One day I'll have the balls for it. Not today.

Have some feels;

>Be me
>Be 35
>Have big part on the weekend to celebrate
>Take too many drugs
>Have massive depression
>Have to go right back to work this morning at my low paying, shitty, depressing, dead end job
>Work is even worse than usual
>Literally cry at work in the toilets for no real reason other than the general state of my life and lack of dopamine
>Get home
>Fiance phones me to tell me she misses me etc
>All I can think about is being a piece of human garbage and how she's going to leave me because I can't provide a top standard of living for her

Anyway OP, I didn't even finish High School. I was that lonely and miserable that I ended up just spending all day, erry day in my room smoking weed (when I had it) and reading/listening to music and occasionally going on the internet. Literally had no friends and barely spoke to my family members from about 16 to 18. Met some guys at work that were as screwed up as me and had a couple of close-ish friends who until I was 21. They were even bigger drop kicks than I was. Then I moved overseas for a year, lost contact with them. When I came home I would see one of those guys infrequently. The rest of the time, from about 22-25, so three years, I barely saw my family and literally had no friends. Just work, home, internet, movies, read, sleep. I have a fiance now, and a very, very tiny social circle (literally one friend I go to the gym and climbing with). He's moving away soon. It will be just back to my fiance and my friends. When she leaves me, I will be utterly alone (my dad has early onset dementia and my mother has cancer) and my sister and I barely speak (no animosity, we're just different people).

I don't think I'll make it through that stage.

I spent the day browsing facebook and looking up my old high school friends. Some were dead, some were in jail, but most seemed to be back in my old small hometown, still there, but now with homes, families and extended social circles. Fucking sad.

>Draw a tiger in a zoo
>Draw a cheetah running

This is fucking stupid

She wasn't raped. 100%. She would've told me, we told each other everything. Closest thing that's come to that is one of her brothers friends made her sit on his lap, and she felt his boner through his pants.
And she used to be a lot different. she's getting worse and worse with her anxiety or something, cause when I first met her she acted nothing like this except being nervous and embarrassed about sex.

>me 16 moving with mom in a new city
>meeting new people, get friends
>there is one girl, ... i fall in love with her, we go to the same school
>there is another girl... a whore, fuck her, cause horny
>the girl i love dont want to be around me anymore, changes school and doesnt talk to anyone
>le me falls into depression
>tried to kill myself twice
>feelsbadman.jpg
>2 years later
>i fucked again with the whore, her friend has the same look like the girl i loved 2 years ago
>mfw
>she has the same name but it isnt her
>remember my mistake
>we fall in love with each other
>i be with the whore for 3 months together
>we met the girl i hurt 2 years ago random
>she fell into depression and feels like shit
>be me feels like shit
>at a random day i checked whore gf's pms
>she cheated more then 3 times on me
>break up with hore
>girl i loved killed herself 2 weeks ago, with a letter. I love user is the only sentence
>feellikeshit.png
>whores friend safes me from another depression
>i move away to go to college/university
>she visits me, says im her best friend
>1 night later we kiss each other and have sex, im her 1st one
>she has to go
>whathaveidone.webm
>feellikeshit im alone again

Pic related, my home

Dude you should've talked to someone about her intimacy issues about kissing and everything way before you let it get to where its irrevocable
Read this and what it quotes. She needed to get therapy. She got raped. Really. She did. By her brother in law. And she loved it. That's why she wanted sexual pleasure so bad but then felt so guilty she wanted to deny her own sexuality.
Chances are, you could still fix this. If you found a way to get really close her with her again, and you got her to talk about this even one time (not by asking if she got raped you would have to get her to think its her idea to tell you) than you could convince her to get therapy and you could probably build a real relationship without the mental retardedness.
She's the same girl user. She's a scared little girl who feels guilty when she feels pleasure because she got raped and she knew it was wrong but she liked it. She needs real help but probably thinks by stuffing it down and ignoring it she can live on (and likely sexual pleasure brings it straight into the front of her mind which is why when you guys did stuff it made her go full tard.)

I'm this user - I did something like this when I first left high school.

My dad found out I had been truant for a couple of months. I told him that I had fallen in with bad kids and was skipping school, smoking weed etc.

I had heard him not long before talking with my mother about how lonely I seemed and how I didn't seem to be seeing any friends or socializing at all.

He didn't even pretend to be all that angry. Just gave me a half hearted talk about having to stick with school.

Not long after that my mother had long service leave from work.

I had to get up every morning and go and sit in a park near our house and just read and wait. My dad saw me laying down on a bench apparently. When I got home he asked me what I had been doing for the last few months, and I told him the truth.

He kept trying to get me to tell him I was being bullied, and that was why I didn't want to go to school. But I just told him the truth - That I was just sad all the time and wanted to die but I didn't want to disappoint him and my mum. He looked so fucking shocked and sad. I felt so guilty about it.

The best thing to do is just tie off, honestly.

woher biste user?

I'm laughing so hard hahaha

Next time bro. do it..
she isn't the only one, she is the only one of her but there are plenty of people to meet in your lifetime. there is no such thing as fate when it comes to love, you decide that on your own. In today's society it's expected for males to make a lot of moves and the expectations can be tiring. But be smart who you pick as your mate and be someone who understands you and this point of view. Don't find a girl, find a best friend.

i dont know you user, but best of luck. cheering for you. always be smart, look into your interests and never get into religion. trust me. kek.

jetzt berlin

user finish story and maybe a recent picture of her so we can see how bad she got?

You're 100% retarded for not knowing im right.
That's honestly the only way she could be fucked up the way she is. If she was just an autist who thought she was asexual she wouldn't want to cut off her tits nor would she be so autistic about it. Retard genders are normal nowadays. She feels extremely guilty. She feels like if anyone knew about it they would hate her. She's scared that you would hate her user. That you would reject her for what happened to her. That's why she wouldn't tell you.
She literally thinks that what happened to her was unforgivable on her part so she tells nobody, and she tried to let go of it by being with you but she couldn't. She probably actually hurts so much inside that everything that happened between you happened because she probably honestly loved you more than anything and she thinks her problem ruined it.
God you're stupid

studierst du noch?
was ist mit der freundin von der hure, noch ne chance auf mehr kontakt mit ihr?

holy fuck...

ich hab keine ahnung.. hab schiss dass ich das mit der nummer vorgestern versaut habe

I wish I could tell you how sure I was she didn't get raped. She was a virgin, for starters, she had her hymen when I fingered her.

Her dad moved to china when she was 10. Her mom was a complete wreck and super christian. She was raised believing sex was something dirty and terrible, with the only male authority figure being a complete asshole.

When we were at our closest, we had a lot of personal talks. We had no secrets. She would've mentioned something, or hinted at something, but there was nothing. I know that most cases this would seem like she was raped but I swear to god she wasn't.

I read her diary before. Her most personal entries. She didn't even mean to give me the book or something, I can't remember how I got it. There was nothing in there even about it.

What tiny signs would there be if she were raped?

Seriously im just trying to tell you all of this because I know deep down you want to be with that stupid girl more than anything because a lot of us feel that way. And if she still keeps in touch with you I would bet she wants to be with you too.
She just has some fucked up trauma in her past which have caused her to have some fucked up ways of thinking.
It can be fixed, with a lot of work, but it can be fixed. If there's any hope of fixing it and you feel the way you do you should probably do it.

was sollst du denn daran versaut haben?
Wenn sie dir hilft aus der Depression rauszukommen kann sie dir ja nur gut tun.

anoon. pls. story.

kann das schwer einschätzen. ich glaube ich hätte in der friendzone bleiben sollen. Freundschaft ist besser als einn onenightstand. Und das mit dem Selbstmord geht mir ziemlich an die Substanz

I take that back, actually. She was raped, in a way. By me.

Before we were dating, we would talk about sexual things. She was curious about everything but too anxious to do them. With the right guy, sure, but she hadn't met the right guy yet. She fantasized about cartoon characters a lot and romantic relationships with them. It wasn't until after I pushed her limits that she started to get fucky about it, and that's why I'm wondering if it was me that caused it.

And she does, often, mention our past relationship. She does in a way want to be back with me. But she seems weird about it.

I'm not shutting down your idea though, it's a possibility and it COULD make sense. How could I bring something like that up? Right now we are friends again, but little more.

That's the end of the story. This is where I'm at today.

A hymen being there doesn't matter you autistic shit.
They can grow back for starters and they can even never break at all.

Also, I already heavily explained all of the signs from your stupid ass story. I really don't see a need to repeat myself so if you missed these "tiny" signs of her acting like a psychotic retard that I pointed out just reread my posts.

Fucken hit home

Oh look another pouty faggot thread filled with cancerous fags with their fake depressions and "oh God life is so hard with running water and plenty of resources, boo hoo feel sorry for me". Thread. Christ, I like to think at least some of you faggots kill yourself to make room for alphas like me.

Is that phantasy star?

oh okay. Move on with life please, she's another interesting human being like the rest of us. But, she really isn't worth it. First pro: (you)

sure you had some great times with her but honestly you have to be more aggressive sadly. which i could never do, but she liked being restrain. can you just get into community college and stop with her already? Also you rolled a 5, dumpy gf.

You really think so huh?

I'm serious here, if you're sure, I want to know how to approach this. I could save her life.

I assumed that the reason she decided to be trans was because she was friends with another trans girl who did it first. But Kate always said she felt sort of like a boy. It never seemed off to me that she was weird about it.

LOL, seriously this. Glad someone isn't afraid to call these back births out on their fake crybaby bullshit.

Das mit dem Selbstmord ist natürlich harter Scheiss aber darüber wirste schon hinweg kommen.
Es wird nur beinahe unmöglich sein das alleine zu schaffen und daher wird sie dir auf jedenfall gut tun.
Versuch doch einfach sie nochmal anzuschreiben, was haste zu verlieren?

also stop waiting for things to get wrose so you can take that bottle of pills. as that one guy from two years ago which had internet fame for 3 months but died out ''JUST DO ITT, DONT LET YOUR DREAMS JUSTBE DREAMS * FURIOUSLY FLUNG HANDS AROUND * DO ITTT

wir schreiben ja die ganze zeit, ist halt irgendwie weird

Live for others. Simple as that.

You didn't rape her nigger although you probably pushed her into it way too fast considering she was probably mentally doubleniggered beforehand anyway.
You need to get close with her again. I doubt it would be hard but you actually have to admit you still care about her and don't hate her and just start being really good friends again.
When you get super close with her, don't start being a sexual nigger. But, essentially, you have to hope she does still love you and admits it. Like you need her to tell you she is in love with you, not any platonic bullshit. Around this time if you still love her you should probably tell her you feel the same way nigger and you always have.
Now, nigger, is the nigger part. Somewhere deep down she thinks she's a huge ultra double triple nigger. You need to find a way to bring out the guilt without doing it in a way where she blames you for the guilt (I.e. You touching her is bad).
Somehow you basically need this girl to want to be with you enough that she is willing to talk over her issues with intimacy. You will more than likely have to start these talks. Eventually, if you're actually really close, you will talk about the issues with you and her being intimate physically especially if you she believes you guys could be in a relationship again.
Eventually during one of these talks you will need to ask her, very delicately. Like mention how she felt so guilty and ask her if its because when she was younger anyone did anything to her

I accepted my past. Held down a job for almost a year coping with my mental issues. I'm not a fucking attention whore who goes "oh i'm so crazy please treat me better out of pity" FUCK THAT. I see things, i hear things, i have a split fucking personality. For almost a year i was doing fine making money and friends. and then this fucking female came into my life, tortured me, cheated on me with a friend and coworker and told everyone about my failings behind my back. I got so fucking angry when i found out this stupid nigger had been fucking my girl for almost a month i lost my job. He rubbed it in my face too. Everyone gave up on me, even my family. Iv'e accepted the fact that i'm just a garbage human being that nobody can love, as a friend, as something more, whatever. I'm done with people, they all fucking hate me so i hate them. Also i'm racist now. FUCK NIGGERS.
t. edgy teenager
HAHAHAHA THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY. Everybody is selfish and nobody stops to ask if you're ok they just throw you away like trash when it's convenient for them. I think i pretty much accepted i'll never make a friend, or find another girl. Fuck man the worst is that i know this is all my fault, everythings my god damn fault but i don't know how to be a better me.

Okay well read this shit
And okay the trans thing in that case might be her being an autistic fuck but then again I had a gf who was 15 and she thought she was genderfluid until I stuck my cock in her pussy and straightened her right the fuck out and she didn't flip out in a guilty fit of autism and decide to push me away
Now I know not all people are the same but regardless its still simply not true that all trans people avoid sexual pleasure like its a mortal sin

Bist du denn davon ausgegangen die friendzone schiene weiter zu fahren?

>5 years, 9 months, and 23 days.
>That's how long I have.
>Presuming i don't lose what's left of my reason.
>2 antianxiety medications
>1 for chronic depression
>1 antipsychotic.
>1 medication to regulate blood pressure so I can take the others without them killing me in combination.
>1 for sleep
>Can't take anything for pain stronger than over the counter without risk of my liver seizing.
>Can't even drink anymore,
>Any one of my medications would risk seizures and kidney damage if I did.
>combined, I'd probably lapse into a coma
>have degenerative spinal disease
>best case scenario, I get to end up like one of those people in a hideous hunchback, while also losing control of my motor functions.
>presuming I can keep pushing through the pain and don't give up and be crippled by it before then.
>weekly psychiactric therapy
>multiple times weekly physical rehab
>Still just counting it down.
>Got a friend who's dealt with chronic depression.
>Made a pact with him. I'll help him, he helps me.
>If anything it gives us a justification to not completely fuck up and do it already.

I'm still terrified that he's going to snap and go back on our deal and finish before time. Then I'll be crippled, eroding, alone, and not even reliably have someone willing to help me close it all out if I'm not actually capable of doing it myself.

>Even typing this I just want to cry into useless incoherent babbling.

So you have a terminal illness man? That's pretty fucked
But what are you doing being a whiny bitch about it
Go do everything you've ever wanted to do and more already

I don't know, dude, I'm doubting you still. I'm really sorry. I'll sleep on it.

She doesn't hate her stepbrother anymore, in fact in the last few months they've been sort of close. She never seemed uncomfortable around him or anything. Just... angry when he'd yell at her. So I'm thinking no, or at least not him.

And before we started dating, we discussed why she was uncomfortable with herself. She looked it up before, trying to find out why she was uncomfortable. It's not even with sex, mostly with showing her boobs. I talked to her today, even, and she said she wasn't really upset that I fooled around with her before. She just didn't really want to do it anymore. We also had a talk once, before we did anything sexual, making sure there was no chance at any STDs from either of us. We went over everything that could've possibly made one of us any bit of risk of having an STD. I would think, at that point, she would have mentioned SOMETHING.

Again, I'll sleep on it. thanks for your input, I'll keep looking for signs and see what happens I suppose.

eigentlich ja, hab ihr zu lange in die augen geschaut

The drunken sexual desire and the soon after guilt and withdrawal from you makes it seem like she's forcing herself to think those things
And fuck, maybe its too late, she could already be too far gone to fix it now.
Maybe im wrong but hell, her actions point to some serious mental niggering, so regardless if its pure mental illness or it was caused by trauma, her mind is fucked.
Also remember, she wanted to be tied up. A lot of girls like being submissive but one who didn't even want to kiss you normally wouldn't want to be that kinky. That's actually kinda extreme.

The illness itself isn't terminal.
Horrifically crippling and degenerative, but not terminal in and of itself. I mean, I guess technically complications from it would eventually make it so, but that'd be another 20 years, and in an even more ungodly unthinkable place then I ever want to see myself in.

But I fucked up years ago, and got a kid.
I've resigned myself that no matter how fucked i am, I'm not going to take myself out until after she can finish school and be old enough to emancipate herself if she wants.
I can't trust her psycho born-again evangelical mother not to totally fuck her mind without me here to counterbalance her bullshit until the kid can get out on her own and make her own way.

Besides, she by default moves to my place in my family's inheritance when I'm gone, regardless of how that happens. So I know my family will help to make sure she's looked for after she can be out on her own, and even after they're gone she'll be set up.

Dead after this one, my childhood dogs time is almost up and thinking about makes me cry. I don't know what I'm going to do when the time comes when we have to put him down

Probably cry

youtu.be/d3q_0UP6sck

By far the best feels song of all time

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i want this to be my life so bad, i despise leeching off my parent's which is why iv'e had a few jobs over 3 years and held one for a year straight. but it all seems pointless compared to the life of a NEET. I'd rather have nothing going on in my life, at all. I'm done with all the pain.

Holy shit that was great

get back with girl u dumped say how autistic u were

Go take the ASVAB and join the Navy or Airforce or something. They have nice comfy high pay jobs for smart people. Score high, and they'll throw money at you in order to give you a place to live, put you through college, get a field of study you like, a career, experience....

II, I think
But yeah, it is.

...

youtu.be/KZqkMWGc0js
Wanna be sad for and hour or so? Watch this short film by Vice (if you care it stars Chance The Rapper)

Hey guys do you have that green bout an user and his friend talking about the afterlife and if one of them died they'd meet on the bench they're sitting on? post it please

Thank you user, this is what I needed to stop me from killing myself. I've d almost the same thing happen about a month ago and the pain is excruciating, especially since I study with her.

It's just venting, it makes life easier and more bare able. Once you mess up in life and your college PC friends don't have time for your whiny bullshit, you'll probably make a shit thread asking "should I do it Cred Forums?"

I second this user, having dated a girl who was raped at a young age that behaviour sounds typical. It's also contributive to why she wishes to de-gender herself.

Secondly, you need to consider how you can make yourself worthwhile for her - why aren't you the bad choice, user? No education, no social circle, and a job that doesn't sound like it's going anywhere - I don't know what her Father was thinking to support someone like you. So kill your stoner habits, go dry, don't worry about what education you want - find one that can lead to employment and that you are capable of (and don't bullshit that you're capable of anything, and that you're just bored), and get your life together.

Whether you want to help her, get another girlfriend, or just move your life forward, it all starts with you bettering yourself.

Cred Forums im 16, i have a job, and i pay rent. i have no friends and a good amount of money but im not happy at all. i lift sometimes but less and less recently. help me Cred Forumsros :< i feel like ill be happy someday but that may not be true i guess

cancer took my mum. srsly fuck cancer

Nice trips!

I fucking love you all even if I haven't read half the shit!

It took both my parents...

at the same time?

No, my mother died when I was 12, and my dad 9 years later. My mother smoked 2 packages a day, so you could say she is responsible and my father could be saved if he would ever go to the fucking doctor...
(they said he likely had cancer for 3 years unnoticed)