Feels bar is open

The woman I was in love with ended up marrying a nigger. So I had plans to move to NYC to pursue stand up comedy. Before I left, I got a pig to fuck on tinder to reset my dick game. I fucked up and got her pregnant.

I'm now nearing 30, living in a dump with a half-retarded GF and a son. I have no career, I have no money. watching my son come out of her snatch, and the antidepressants, killed my sex drive. I would cheat but I got way fat.

My life is over, so I just have to wait until the kids 18 so I can get out of this hellhole. I'll be 46.

Dude, Jesus has been dead for a long time.
Fucking idiot.

Its probably good you didnt get into the stand up game with all this PC cancel culture clampdown on comics. Any fall back careers you ever thought of?

dr just told me i may never walk again b/c my mom was manipulating me to walk on a broken leg

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miracles can happen buddy, keep your hopes up.

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why would anything good happen to me EVER!

I dont know how to express my emotions without exploding in a violent rage. Theyre just bottling up now and I lay awake at night thinking about murdering people that wronged me.

Why shouldn't it? Its not like anything is out to get you. I know it can feel like something just doesn't want you to succeed, but it'll come right eventually. It always does.

Bipolar and unmedicated. Been getting gradually more unstable the last couple months, doctor put in a referral to an outpatient clinic at a mental hospital, so it's just a question of if I'll manage to stay out of the psych ward until my first appointment in probably 6 months from now.

base on my experience the ONLY good thing that will ever happen to me is my own death

>Be me 29
>Virgin, sheltered life. Work / internet / watch sport / sleep
>Finally meet a girl at work, last relationship she got cheated on actually a very good looking girl
>Flirt make it out like I know what I'm doing, am actually not bad at it I guess, thinks I'm funny/nice
>Tell her I like her, likes me too. finally this is it
>Text/talk all the time, kiss, make out finally feel normal after all these years
>Kinky as fuck always riling me up with dirty messages
>Night finally comes we have sex, after a few minutes she says its too painful and to stop. I stop she cries immediately.
>says she had a hysterectomy year ago and vagina gets dry spots, and she cannot have kids ever.
>says its too painful because her vagina doesn't get as wet as normal pussy. doesn't want to try lube Mood is ruined doesn't feel right to continue and for me to take her home
>ghosts me for 5 weeks after 'dealing with shit'
>breaks up over the phone after those 5 weeks while I'm at work on lunch break
>girl I came to genuinely like and not just for sex, my happiness and feeling normal gone in an instant
>wondering if my life is just a joke to someone I'm not in on, finally find someone I actually like and it goes to shit when I don't think I did anything wrong
>Months laters still texts me out of the blue as if nothing happened talking normally maybe think she wants to give it another go then just ghosts again for weeks
>don't know what to do about anything now. back to my boring monotonous life, feel even worse about it then before I met her

Before you go down that path, please try to see this life through. It's the only one we get.

Don't think like. Both good and bad times come and go. Sure you're trapped right now but keep pushing through and you'll find something that makes you happy you got the chance to experience it.

>don't stick your dick in crazy.

Lesson learned user. Man up, move on. Stop putting the pussy on a pedestal. Stop putting your own self worth into the hands of somebody else and learn to love yourself for you.

She's playing games, if she really wants you, tell her that you're not some easy-to-get piece of meat and you deserve to not be fucked around. Be clear, stand firm and if its gonna happen its gonna happen. Don't let a girl be a bitch just because you want her; everyone deserves better than being fucked around

Nothing. I am depressed. Lying in bed whole day, although I've got stuff to do. I realized I'm a bad person, bc I humiliate my gf in front of our friends. Feels bad to be bad, bruh.

yeesh

Im kinda for the purge against porn on Cred Forums but i also like to use it to get turned on and jump over to pornhub.

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My gf and I recently put our relationship on pause. Maybe she's going away, maybe she isn't, neither of us know.

But because I'm technically single, even though we both really care for each other and would totally go out again if and/or when circumstance allowed, I can't help but imagine myself with other women.

What if a better option comes along, or she does end up leaving? Now is my chance to experience anything I want/need to if we were to end up together again. So much up in the air and I have no real idea how to proceed.

I care for her and want her back, but we agreed it'd be best we go back to just friends until all the clutter around us clears, and what if somewhere in there something happens that ends what we had?

On one hand, I want her. On the other, I want to try all the fruit in the garden. I don't know where I'm at

I prefer /gif/ myself. B isn't bad but its just pictures, and Pornhub vids are good but /gif/ gives you sample size portions of all the good shit

Wasn't just pussy. no idea what happened its like she just underwent a personality change at the snap of a finger. So fucked

that's wimminz for you man

single 30 year old male here, in college
finally got around to booking appointments with the school counselor to work on my bulimia

lifes alright, at least im sober (17 months, niggas)

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I konw how you feel but be carefull it can blow in your face try to play some game to realese that anger and lisen to some music

i know that feel. got dumped over text at 1 am from a relationship that lasted 16-24. she moved across the country and never reached out to me once ( almost 7 years ago now.) havent seen or spoken to her since

i was fucking crushed

>What if a better option comes along

Sorry to say this user but unless the reason for the pause is something like a long distance relationship because one of you is going away (e.g college, work in another country etc) this exactly what is happening. She already has a better option but its not 100% sure its going to pan out which is why SHE put the pause on the relationship in case the other guy doesn't come through she still has you waiting.

Look at the positives, she was decent enough to not cheat on you, maybe.

Actually, that's the thing. It did look like she would be leaving town for some sort of educational training thing, but her contact with whoever was organising it has just kinda gone silent so neither of us know what's happening. On top of which, I also suggested we stay friends even if this thing falls through, as least until she finishs her education regardless of where she gets it, give us both a chance to mature a little

My gf told me that she was sexually abused twice, but won't tell me about it. I'm getting really curious.

make it 3 user we believe you

wait until she's comfortable talking about it

The girl I love has no idea how I feel and is moving away in 3 months. I’m savouring all the time I get with her but it’s feels like time is going by too quickly. I wish I could tell her how I feel, but don’t want her to stay in my town when she needs to move on. Nothing is fun anymore and I need change, but I’m too scared to get it.

I'm wondering if I can stay faithfull to my BF

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Go on

I went away to navy boot camp, I had the time of my life and I don’t regret it, my girlfriend on the other hand handled me leaving pretty hard and ended up cheating on me, I found out on our drive back home from Disneyland, when I confronted her about it she told me she was lonely and that she missed the affection, they never met up we live in Cali he lives in Ohio, but she ended up sending him a nude, she also made up an entire story about the whole situation and when I talked to the dude he didn’t even know who I was, they had apparently started talking 1 month prior to me leaving and started dating 3 days after they talked, she claims it’s bullshit and that they talked after I left, I’m still with her I’m afraid of being alone, when we broke up for the short amount of time she was extremely suicidal, idk what to do :/

I dont think I would actively ever date someone else, but I'm not sure I'm strong willed enough that if someone propositioned me i could say no.

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you're saying you're too stupid to not consent to being fucked by complete strangers?

fancy a shag?

obviously, you crave her affection as much as she craves yours, you need to make it clear to her though that she can't cheat on you. If she wants your undivided attention, you also need hers, she can't just take and not give.

It's hard to say no, but stand firm. Just add them to the spankbank or whatever women call it and maybe keep them in mind in case anything happens between you and bf and it ends

I could probably say no to a guy unless he was a total 10/10, but if a girl asked I wouldn't be able to resist I'm still curious and want to understand myself. I'm ashamed I have a justification to cheat on my BF with a girl but I know I couldnt say no.

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I’m more bothered by the fact that she lied to me, when I found out I had asked her to tell me exactly what happened, I love her a lot I just wanted to know, she then proceeded to make up this huge story about how she went over to her friends house and she played online with one of their friends, after that they added eachother on snap and started talking, she told me that they would talk and he would be super flirty, she would never flirt back and if she did it was small, and then one day he asked for a nude and when she said no he called her a bitch and made her feel bad so she sent one, that’s the story she told me, when I talked to her friend and the guy, they both told me that they met on an app called yubo and that they talked, he told me her bio said single and that they clicked, he told me that one night they were sexting like super intensely and they exchanged pics, she sent the nude he sent the dick, he said that they were in a full committed relationship with eachother, she failed to give me the truth and that’s what bothers me

I have dreams fantasizing about women, but I'm so happy with my BF he makes me so happy,but I keep having these thoughts invade my brain. Especially when hes in his moods and doesnt want to fuck me.

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Feelin pretty good, still not drunk and I think I can go the whole day without drinking.

You got to have standards man sex isnt that important. Also no girl without aids or paywall will ever randomly ask to have sex with you, that's normally a big red flag that something fucky is underways- they could even be severely drugged.

I don't know if I fear failing or succeeding more. If I fail, it will hit my self confidence, sure. But if I succeed, then there will be more pressure on me to continue succeeding. I hate pressure. I'm like Homer Simpson - I just want to get through the day without the day hurting.

Have you considered talking to him? Sit him down, have a word and talk it out. I doubt he'd let you just fuck another woman but perhaps use it to segway into a threesome proposal?

bitches aint shit bro

Good job, user.

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I agree, I hate that I had to look for the truth I just wish she was upfront with me, she always plays the victim and I end up taking it harder, she’s okay rn like she sounds perfectly fine but I stay up at with the thoughts of them haunting my head, I wish I never left

If she's lying to you, then she's probably lying to herself, too. You need to help her find her way back to herself, and present her with consequences if she doesn't.
It is difficult to test the people you love, but you're not fighting her, you're fighting the person she's threatening to become. If you're fortunate, she's fighting that person, too.
Don't let a new, future person who doesn't love you replace your girlfriend, and don't let that thing play with your heart, either.

imagine him as a woman and turn your cheating fantasies into pegging fantasies
win win

>threesome
He did mention he wouldn't be against it, although i think he meant with another guy.
Also fyi I'm not a chick, just a weeb and a fag(mostly).

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that's the difference - homer doesn't actually live, he's a walking dead man. fiction. Life is pain, healthy, enjoyable pain, that you can learn to love.

Better yet, move on. Don't waste time on lying cunts. Standing your ground will only make you lose frame

if we ever suspected you to be a chick we'd have immediately asked for tits, dont worry
if you have man tits you can still post them for the lulz

I dunno, maybe try it, see how it goes. But ask yourself what matters more, having the experience or your man

user... wtf. She started a full on relationship before you leaving for bootcamp (or after, doesn't matter). Are you waiting to come back from a 9 months deployment one day to receive the news that she is 6 months pregnant? Or worse yet, she gets lucky with the dates and you raise a kid for 15 years just for the kid to end up needing blood and you find out you can't donate because you ain't the daddy?

Also, who is to believe that all she did was send nudes? She admitted to cheating on you and maybe she just didn't admitted to what extent. She fucked a different black guy everyday of the weekend for all we know. She has a side piece already and is just waiting for you to get deployed just like before bootcamp.

If you are are afraid of being "alone" I'm sorry to say this but the military is not the job for you. You will, most of the time, be half way across the world away from you SO. Being "lonely" aka away from your SO is in the requirements of the job.

Legit the best advice you will receive today: leave the bitch asap.

or become gay like the rest of the marines and fuck a buff soldier trap

Seems pretty simple to me: break up and all your fear of cheating on your boyfriend will go away.

Positive side effect: you can entertain that "curiosity" of yours without a single drop of guilt

>b..b.but I love him

Clearly not enough

I'm afraid of rejection.
because of many experiences though my life I've lost 80% of my confidence leading up to last summer, it's stayed relativity the same where I'm a complete beta.
I can't make myself commit to anything or push myself out of my comfort zone.
I can't even start a conversation with people because before I think of even what to say I worry about everything that could go wrong and making a fool of myself.
It's been forever since I've been able to have a decent conversation with someone that isn't work related or started by the other person and even then it tends to be small talk.

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My man, I just dont think its so unlikely I wont get propositions ever since I started dating I've cleaned up really well and lost weight. I've been paying attention to fashion and everything I look great and planning on looking better once the warm weather comes around.

I'm like 6'4" but only 215lbs. So I'm slim but not really skinny
Pretty much every guy I've been with said I'm gorgeous so I'm not sure if it's so outlandish to not get propositions from my coworkers.

Thought so just wanted to make sure some newfag dont know that tits or Gtfo is common courtesy.

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I had talked to the guy over the phone and he gave me the chance to talk, he had no idea that she had a bf and he was constantly apologizing, he told me what was bullshit and what wasn’t, she told me that he didn’t send a dick but he clearly remembers it, I don’t think she’s hiding anything else, I’ve gone through her accounts randomly throughout the days and there’s nothing, I did break up with her, but then she started cutting her self and told me she didn’t want to live if I wasn’t in her life and all that shit, I’m not afraid to be alone I worded that wrong, I enjoy being away from home, I just love her a lot, I can’t just get rid of that feeling in a few weeks, we’ve been together for 4 years

No.
I'm a slut I would fantasize during any relationship.
Also I dont think you would understand my mindset.

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Well fuck you then.

clearly, you are not seeking help ITT, but rather boasting

do it like me and turn insane

Ok

Sorry I might be I'm a narcissistic motherfucker kinda hate myself for it.

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What benefits does it come with?

WHY CANT I HAVE A GOOD THING WITHOUT MY BRAIN TELLING ME ITS ALL A LIE. Seriously my brain is going to be the end of everything good in my life

If you are unable to say no to another it's best for yourself and them to end the relationship. Do you really want to be the guy who cheated. Ask yourself are you looking for a long term relationship or something in the moment to beat the loneliness.

Me and my ex gf broke up about a month and a half ago. The breakup was mutual so there were no hard feelings. We just lost contact, we didn't talk too much, didn't hang out a lot, we were long distance, and we were just turning into high school sophomores when we started dating. She was clingy and needed a lot of attention at first, so that kinda drove me away, and what I belive eventually led up to our breakup, even though she got better at giving me my space. She shaped me into the person that I am, I'm confident in myself, I no longer have a low self esteem, I'm not putting crazy standards on myself, and it was all because she helped me while we dated. I love her, I want her back, it's almost like I need her. She told me that she doesn't really love me anymore, but she still cares about me. Her new bf is pushing her away from me, so I can definitely use his jealousy to my advantage if I play my cards right. It's just that, I don't want her to exit my life, I want to be together with her for as long as I die. And the thought that I might not be able to do that fucking destroys me. Any advice Cred Forumsros?

I wonder if Xan-chan is doing ok now.

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>I don’t think she’s hiding anything else

Let's go back a bit.

Initially she told you she was just texting some dude she met online through a friend, no flirting but ended up sending nudes after getting called a bitch (?)

She lied, the truth is that she was on a full on relationship with the guy 1 month before you left for bootcamp. She met him on Yubo aka Tinder for teens in which she put "single" in her bio. She also lied about the "no flirting" part and they exchanged nudes.

She lied about almost everything up until know, how do you know she isn't lying about the extent of her unfaithfulness? She could fucking 3 or 4 different guy per week while you were giving your sweat and blood in bootcamp for all we know.

About the suicidal: female mental games. Believe me, I've been there.
Think about it If she can't live without you how come she found a new guy WHILE YOU WERE WAITING TO GO TO BOOTCAMP. You were not even in yet.

you'll lose your ability to be impacted by anxiety if it reaches a certain point. It's like whatever processes fear in your brain "breaks" from the stress and stops triggering. Then you can basically act like on a stage, like you're controlling a video game character.

Kys it’s quicker

>kinda hate myself for it

take it to the next level and kill youself faggot

Why do we constantly seek out relationships if they more than likely end, and all matters of psychological issues come from it. its fucked

Do we just want someone to accept us in the end?

I’m a fucking mess user, this was supposed to be my wife, the person I wanna spend the rest of my life with, I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve never been this lost in my life

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No, I think we're all just still hoping that there's something out here that's perfect. There obviously is not, but I'll forget this next time I fall in love, just like anybody would. Is this bad, or good, user?

>I just have to wait until the kids 18 so I can get out of this hellhole
if you are going to a hero at least take the nigger and the coal burner with you.

If you are planning on just leaving the pig and the spawn, why wait until the its 18? Leave know, pay for the alimony and go live your shitty life elsewhere.

I'm a skilled artist, so comic books were my 2nd. But thats not very financially possible

You can't say that to someone who admits to their own shortcomings and is willing to work on improving them.

If i leave that boy, it'll make for another generation of shitty americans. Plus only niggers leave their children like that. Also, im not paying that cunt child support.

meet new people
also keep her on the get go
self improvement

1-1-1

ur a slut who does sexual acts with other men for money you are litearlly a non personhood thats not on ur bf either, kys litearlly or kill these parts of u and accept u will be without them less and lower forever and he may compensate the difference else ull die without anyway

getting this next 99
a lesson i learnt from 2scrawn

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Doesn't sound too bad, honestly.
I'll see where it goes from here.

you need to be fucking bleached and bathsalted i c y

irradication

I'll talk to him about it I'm not sure if he would be all that against either a threesom or me getting with some girl. Almost all of the reason I think about it is curiosity. I dont think about other men at all.

Hes not really the jealous type and he would know I'm still trying to understand myself. I'm just still not sure how much of a fag I really am, I'm beginning to think I couldnt manage to have sex with a girl bit I still want to be sure about it. He said that he tried having sex too and he wasnt sure u til he tried.

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moar?

I'm gonna fuck your mother, stfu. If he wants to vent let him vent you faggot.

Wholesome

Nice dubs

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u need to accept ur a failure and place ur self in his arms or die, like entropy, as time goes on, it will be to the latter

dc

banging 3 women
a pretty one who is getting a divorce, currently cheating on husband, the sex is okay
an ugly one who has a crap work schedule, but sex is amazing (suck start leaf blower teir)
a meh one who is always available, emotional needy, the sex is terrible

which one do i choose

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middle

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You just went to bootcamp and since your whore of a gf cheated on you with a guy from an app for teens its safe to assume you are in your late teens, 18 to 20. Believe me user, this feeling is just going to grow the more time you spend with her. Its gonna get even worse when you get deployed. You said you are Navy so while you might not see combat you are going to have lots of "free time" to think about the possibilities of the supposed love of your life cheating on you, sucking as much cock as she possibly can while you are out there getting fucked by mohamed or your NCO.

She did it once, what is stopping her from doing it again? Love? She had love before but she still did it, why would it stop her now?

As I said before I've been there and I've done that. 2 tours in Afghanistan and 1 in Iraq so far. My first tour and half of the second tour was dealing with a whore who I though was the love of my life too. Same bullshit "I was lonely" "Don't leave me I can't live without you" oh, the supposed "scares" from cutting herself too.

I promised myself to never again let a whore fuck my life again, Only my superior officers can do that. But just until I get to wear that sweet looking new green uniform at which point I will quit this shit too lol

Dude are you sure you wanna be with someone that emotionally unstable? My ex was pretty wacky, but she never harmed herself like that, this coupled with the fact that she could have been doing that to manipulate you into getting back together from your guilt. Be careful. Wrap it up if you two fuck again, god forbid she traps your ass and collects those benefits. If you think you can work it out in the future, I would suggest couples therapy. But as someone already noted, the military is notoriously straining on relationships.
If I was you, I’d fine Thots that are into navy guys surrounding your base and go ham.

Middle but make sure the husband of the first one finds out about you before you stop seeing her

I would not recommend opening up the relationship at all. Are you dating or is this friends with benefits, if it's a relationship keep it between the two of you, if it's benefits I'd still recommend keeping it closed. Look if you are still unsure of yourself don't drag some other along. You will not have a long lasting relationship if you can't be honest with yourself about your needs or if you're unable to say without a doubt you can be committed. You will hurt them and yourself. You really need to take a moment to better understand yourself, what you are looking for and what you are willing to give up. Take a few days to get to know yourself better, then talk with them.

Thanks user

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>give her white knight
rejects
>give her monogomy
>rejects
give her empire
>rejects

starting to notice a pattern this shits a coal burner

what machines run on human flesh?

I started dating my current gf in high school, lost virginity to each other and everything, things aren’t bad we don’t fight but I’m not interested in sex with her anymore and I’ve cheated on her multiple times within the last few years, I’m afraid to break up with her because I know she will be crushed, i feel awful that the only reason I can’t keep being with her is because of sex

mutilate your dick and stop wanting sex
she only exists once, be with her

SSRIs are draining my libido.
My mother provides, I can get job through study, can't find motivation to do so.
Stole money from gramps. Bought $2000,00 worth of games

>Katana ZERO, GRIS, A Plague Tale: Innocence, STAR WARS Jedi: Fallen Order, The Witcher: Enhanced Edition (ROW), The Witcher 2, Children of Morta, Witcher 3: Wild Hunt - Expansion Pass, My Friend Pedro, Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice (Rest of World), コイカツ / Koikatsu Party, Thronebreaker: The Witcher Tales

Can't play them without feeling guilty of not doing study. I feel nothing. Appetite very little. Maybe it'll get better eventually.

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why throw the part about the guy being black ?

Maybe she thinks niggers are revolting and wouldn't touch one and it's another white guy.

Dumbass.

ssri's are poison

google diet nutrition activities anti depression

also cannabis

There's this guy i run into at the music shop and idk why something about him makes me want to go get something huge to eat, like massive. I get so hungry when i see him. But he always runs to the bathroom before i can make an intro

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cut vidya if you just overwork yourself constantly time will basically skip

My dick runs on vagina flesh
Is that close enough ?

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i can't decide if cannabis is helping my depression or causing it somewhat. alcohol was definitely bad so i have given that up.

my diet is good, i eat healthily, heavily plant based whole foods with lots of fish, some chicken and turkey, very little red meat. i go out in nature walking. i do yoga. yet i still want to kill myself.

I just want to know what being with a women would be like before I settle down with him. I feel like I wouldn't ever fully understand myself unless I had that experience.

I dont want an open relationship, I just want to know. Not now, not until years from now, but someday I want to know for sure.

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this made me laugh user
i think all the diet/yoga things are bullshit... the antidepressants help if you stick to it long enough, or so i've been told. i only just started it

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Take care of yourself vamp. I like you and think your a good guy.

>Don't let a girl be a bitch just because you want her; everyone deserves better than being fucked around

This.
Recently also learned that lesson. Got used by a 8/10 to make the guy she wants to be with jealous so she could get him instead.
She got him, started ghosting me online and irl (see her at a club I work from time to time) acts like everything's still okay and "no, I don't have a boyfriend" shit.

So just move on and let her go down her shitty bitch path

I started taking ADs a couple of weeks ago. At first I was feeling better but I'm starting to feel really sad and depressed again.

doctor told me i could go on ssris if i want. i just dunno if i want to get on that train.

If you are that unsure still after knowing him for this long maybe it's best for now to find yourself before making a commitment. Or maybe it will be better to talk with him about your doubts. You do need to take a few days for yourself and ask yourself these questions honestly. I know you don't want to hurt them, but if you don't understand yourself that well you might hurt them and yourself unintentionally one day.

Thanks friend.

I hope this will amount to nothing, I just worry myself sick over stupid shit.

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vape pure 3 days on 4 days off, poultry and white meat is 3x less fat then red meat

take anti inflamatories in everything

onion garlic ginger tumeric

dont forget tomatoes vitamin c

and exercise daily
vitamin d
30 mins even just walking

plenty of clean water
avoid plastics

Sorry to break it to you, there are already to much shitty Americans, your offspring of your half-restarted GF you don't love won't make a difference.

I will

The more I talk about it the less I think I could actually cheat on him. Thanks for helping me get this off my chest. I think I just worried myself over nothing. I'll bring it up sometime this spring see what he thinks about it.

Nice trips btw

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1 person > 1 million on avg

this can be financially geared several magnitudes.

It's ok to worry it means you care. I believe you'll find the right answer.

youtube.com/watch?v=uXgvGxXk2d0

i do all that user. i vape my dry herb, usually just fri/sat evening, rest of the week off.

i have ibs so i struggle with too many onons and garlic, but i love ginger and try to eat much turmeric.

always staying hydrated.

is there no hope for me?

typical shit everyone's sad about. shitty job shitty life, gotta be high as shit to even moderately enjoy anything. can't get girls. solid 8/10 but schizo doesn't help much. just waiting around to die really.

salmon and omega 3
cannabis oil

yep, i make sure i have 2-3 portons of oily fish a week (salmon, mackerel) rest of the time it's usually cod or basa.

i use cbd oil on my 5 days a week where i'm not vaping

People who believe in global warming. Fucking idiots. Look at the true data not the lies of the IPCC. Our climateproblems is trash and there is an island out there the size of ICELAND entirely made of trash. Fuck.

ice baths with ur pineal gland kicking naked with bae

middle of the night smash on organic coffee almond milk and vitamin d sups (based on absorption time peaking spike idk)

music that smashes ur soul

eg untouchables album korn

>tfw no bae

:*(

That's good. You are starting to think about your relationship more deeply. Vent when you need to vent, there will always be someone willing to work it through with you. Just make sure you know what it is you are going to discuss with him and you are willing to make sacrifices for them when they express their own doubts.

How do I get mosquitoes out of my apartment?

I’m getting good at clapping their asses out of mid air but they won’t go away and still feast on me in my sleep, afaik theres no standing water at least where i have access to.

went 4 months voluntarily celebate for a coal miner get on my level im ready to fucking kill myself

Got on the gear on Friday, then washed up most of it and got wasted. Felt insanely depressed so got on the meth.

Other than a nasty drug addiction, my life’s pretty sick. Will be glad when the comedown subsides

>Will be glad when the comedown subsides
meths stupid look into musicians who have killed the habbit they can u can
dont sit there trying to whiteknight ur retardaton
pathetic cunt
staple this post to ur desktop im not going to repeat it
create ur own feedback loops
self education is the only education i firmly believe isaac asimovv

I already have made sacrafices for him, hope to keep it that way. I dont want to be like all those faggots who think that gay monogamy doesnt exist, I dont want to prove them right. I just have some stuff I feel like I would be missing out on life if I never tried. Sortof a bucket list before I turn 30 (I'm 23)

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Where do you live? (Country/state) I work at an outpatient mental health facility and we offer referrals so people can start getting therapy/medication management at a "short-term" facility while waiting to be seen somewhere else.

eg musicians pantera theres many

look up band "down" first 3 volumes on youtube and read up on his kick

he talks about it on youtube too

there are others

mick jager etc

Eat more meat, it truly is great for you. Look into intermittent fasting.

meat has a lot of niacin which purges radiation cancer etc. very good. lots of greens too. im a fatslob and i smash kale in pumpkin soup with bakery bread toast and butter fucking yum, throw in tins of tuna too delicious

Also keep the fuck away from sugar and gluten. Even if it's too good

I guess the question then is what do you value more. Your relationship with him or experiences. We all miss out on something on any given decision. This is why i say it will benefit you to take a couple days for yourself to get to know yourself better. I'm running off, so can't help you any further, well if nay of it was helpful. Best of luck to you.

not much just wanna do drugs

>sugar
we pick our poisons :(

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i took a shit but its to cold so my asshole clenched and snipped my log in half this is so fucking unsatisfying

just beat her up and go to jail for a year i think thats how you can force a divorce damn those rhymes

beat up your mom

>be me
>trapfag
>have fucked by ass muscles and close reflexes into oblivion with various household objects
>asshole doesnt react to cold anymore
ha, crysis averted

I definatly value him more I just hope i wont have to make that choice I'm gonna talk to him about it and see how he feels.

Anyway hope you have a wonderfull day Friend.

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Kill the nigger and coal-burner, and then kill yourself. Re-roll another life. Do not pass go. Do not collet 200 welfare lotto tickets gibbedatz shit-bitch. She's such a fuckin' hoe... she loves it. You're the dork. McLovin. Come back into another life, hopefully as the Hitler whom succeeded at eradicating all shitty minorities while sterilizing the weak and stripping the rights from all overgrown children [stupid] women. Fuck it all. Fuck this world. Fuck everything that they stand for. They don't belong, so make sure they don't exist. Don't give a shit. Don't let them fucking judge you!

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murders nothing jails nothing

justice is everything

this man is not an NPC

xx

i just want love some distortions go back generations and its annoying the wrong cant just fix themselves incuring self guilt and the ultimatence of their removal

why do i have to do work to break even because guilty others? must be made sure it never occurs again, causatives

i think i should start doing that to

and i mean that the quality of a persons life is that which he spends in skin on skin contact with loved ones no more no less

the victims of this world deserve justice

nsa usa causative 55% of it murder all nsa its so unpopular i dont ever want to type this shit yet its not done

schizophrenic psychosis see it continues attacking why should anyone have to be aware much less this ever occured it cant fix itself ppl have capital well ive done the thinking for u ironically now fix do go sorry thread

if you suffer because of your ancestors, nothing would make you kinder than breaking the circle, so your descendants don't have to suffer the same or a worse fate

man in pine gap australia nsa usa has fragile x names johnathon ii permenent mental retardation attacking with satelite and hacks goes back 107 years now to woodrow wilson have fragile x schizophrenic down syndrome signing fed res act 1913 dec 23. kill the usd. make new one if want or go states=nations for usa only rest indepdeent this outlier problem

sigh

no i suffer because of others ancestors ww caused both world wars and this enabled managerially entrenched genetic down syndrome afflicting the world and corrupting the sheep herd

my ancestry is innocent causative

ur murdered

DCLXVI

I just want someone I could hug and talk with about anything, literally anything.

same

Gf moved in at young age. Year later i think im losing feelings due to her being really hard to deal with. She tries to go through my phone, i think a couple times she tried smelling my hands when i got home from a friends house to see if i was cheating, doesnt really like me talking to girls, also gets in the way of me hanging out with my friends. It really fucks with me seeing as I’m never going to see them again in a month. Can’t break up since she’ll still be here. Kind of stuck

If that is the case, then what change can you make to improve the situation? How can you act to reach your destination? Those are the only questions that matter, other people are out of your control, you have to act yourself.
you have us

The only person who truly cares about me is a liberal lefty socialist. I know that liberalism is a mental illness but she's the nicest person I've ever met

well its about a scarcity allocation of net present value in opportunity cost optioning isnt it
investopedia

ultimately i need to cash in and enjoy the morcel of my life left vs the injustice (absolute)

shouldnt be this way and those that are bottlenecking the progress, people who can remove such, need to read this, and do it. the returns are greater. i 100% BELIEVE

there is no subsittute for this resolution

20 years now unredeemable

the most embarressing part is going to be how this is written into the history books as to why there was not action sooner

I agree
but all focus put on things outside your control is even more time wasted, they cant take your luck if you dont condition it based on what they give you

2 years is a long time to grieve that much,user. You should get professional help to understand how grief works so you can move on.

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basically my realistic options are ask the next cutee who is looking me up and down if she wants to go to the toilet and makeout and thats what im going to do

get concent u stupid schizophrenics

This is why liberals are weak

there is no one above this not government not nothing

I appreciate fellow anons, but it's not the same.

its hard to explain why you're wrong, just come back and speak up if anything bothers you in the future, though, we'll be there.

smells your hands wtf lol

Tell her you're crazy about her, you worship the ground she walks on, you belong together and she should take you with her...

Sorry my friend, i can't tell

Thanks my friend, and yes, i want some help

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Think she was trying to see if i smelt like girl or whatever.

Try your best explaining it. I'd like to talk.

Can i get a glass of pisscunt on the rocks please?
I’ve had a horrible week and need to get my anus drunk as a fatherfucker

I just changed cities due to a new job. The relocation also forced me away from someone I really loved.

I want to find a new partner out of this fresh start, but I just don't know how to fucking do it. Co-workers are all npcs, I don't have any friends here, no social circles. I'm completely alone.

What the fuck should I do?

Trying to get in contact with the one guy who took care of me as a kid. Not sure what to expect lmfao

>makes one dumb rhyme by accident
>MAN IM SO FLY
faggot

>when we broke up for the short amount of time she was extremely suicidal

Broseph! Never negotiate with suicide terrorists. They'll use it on you whenever it's convenient. If she means it she'll do it and there's noyhing you or anyone can do about it.
Pic obliquely realted

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Jews really are making whites go extinct so they can rule over a global, non-white slave class. Feels so bad, man.

find new women , self growth + development

Often, when I think like you do, it's because I think there's like a level of deeper connection that I'm missing, something that some people have and I don't. But in reality, noone really understands one another, we're all alone, and will never really be able to share a whole thought with anyone else.
However, on the other hand, this makes us not alone. We're stuck in a universe where, through inevitability of concept, nobody will ever be able to convey the feeling of their existence to another being. And since we all feel that, we're basically already understood. You and me, you and a friend, you and a lover, they're all the same level of relationship, they're not worth less than one another, they're not more or less precious than one another, they're just different very special connections that don't entirely work.
So if you spend your days pondering whether or not you'll eventually find someone to hold you at night who you can tell your worries to, you'll probably spend forever, or you'll just accept that we're all brothers and sisters in this matter, whether we're chad who fucks, or doomer who wants to khs, or user who just shitposts, and instead of waiting waiting and feeling alone, you could realize that you're not, and spend time with your friends, which you will find anywhere, not just on 4chin, the internet, but literally anywhere you look.
At least I think that, and this calms me down a lot when I worry about such or similar things.
have fun being raped

Just next time she does it, so after you come home from friends, right before you enter just rub your hands between your ass checks real good.

Do it a couple times, either she will stop or think you fisted some dirty asshole.
If second is the case just let her smell your ass crack so she can confirm same smell.
If she is puzzled why your hands smell like your asshole, just say its your fetish to finger/fist your asshole in other people's bathrooms.
But because you just found out about your kink 4 months ago you still shy about it, so you wanted to start out with your friends bathrooms before going Pro-league in puplic restrooms.

Fkn hawt. Running into the bathroom a lot? He may be an addict of some sort. Save yourself alot of headaches if that's the case...

I can never get dubs, no matter how many times i roll and go to check em, nothing but singles

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sad reroll

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I am no longer sexually attracted to my wife. I have to fake orgasms and have to think about some other girls I fucked to get hard...it sucks I love her but I just am sexually attracted to other women.

you can have mine

I understand what you're getting at. You're mostly right, we can talk to anyone who's willing enough to listen. But you know, it's easy to notice when two people do have that deeper connection, it's easily distinguished from the rest of casual relations. Like for example, I have a very shallow relationship with my friends and family. Seriously, they don't know much about me and I don't know much about them.
Sure, anyone can be a friend. But I want something more, the closest I got to that now feels like a burning and sinking shipwreck. Fun times.

Fill a spray bottle with soapy water- PineSol or something.
Shoot those fuckers when they're flying around your crib. Watch them plunge to the ground and then stomp those satanic motherfuckers.
It won't help you when you're sleeping but it's very satisfying meanwhile.
Get your friends involved award points or shots or something.
If the soap lands on something valuable like food or clothes or whatever it usually doen't ruin them like RAID or something would

I feel bad about doing nothing, but I have no motivation to do anything either so I just sit in bed on my phone.

literally me

are you me

Good luck man. If you ever find "something more", be sure to report back to me, I want to see if I have it somewhere, too.

>suffering from depression since I was a child
>been going to therapy for 5 years or so
>used to take meds, got better so I stopped taking them
>continued to go to therapy
>in that time I was working with my parents instead of going to uni to sort out my anxiety about my studies
>decided this year I was going to try to study again
>went back to uni and as soon as put a foot in class my anxiety EXPLODED
>broke down when I got home, haven't studied anything yet
>feel worthless for not being able to get an education
>used to have a lot of hobbies and but now have none, dropped them all
>can't get into anything
>can't enjoy watching movies/tv shows/reading/drawing/playing games/listening to music/anything
>my group of friends ignored me so I left the group
>no asked me to come back
>they were not my real friends
>was dating a girl not very long ago
>she has said "I can't be in a relationship right now, sorry"
>she actually cried because his ex had broken up with her very recently and she felt bad for liking me
>ended up ghosting me and getting a boyfriend in the span of a month
>everything has gotten so bad all of the sudden my psychologist has actually advised me to take meds again for my anxiety/depression
>didn't want to take anything, just therapy
>missed my last session and now I feel anxious about going back and having to apologize
>I stay up late and have a hard time when in bed trying to fall asleep
>hard to get out of bed
>sometimes I don't even eat breakfast I feel so bad
>I spend the day watching yt videos or streamers trying to cheer myself up
>feel terrible at the end of the day because I haven't accomplished anything
>no girl will ever like me
>stopped going to the gym (was in shape for the past two years)
>feel terrible every time I see myself in the mirror
>getting skinnier and skinnier by the minute

I could continue but I better stop there for now... I feel terrible and empty all the time.

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omg me

nice one bro

Damn.. this thread

Bump while I write

try this

keep going to therapy how about unironically printing this post out and showing them
their whole life revolves around helping people like you, if you cant put your trust in them, then you deny reality. Some therapists are assholes but you sound like yours isnt, and they wont mind that you skipped a therapy session, but dont make that a reason to keep skipping. GO TO YOUR THERAPY
studying things isn't the core of life, do something that makes you happy, not something that looks good on paper or makes you feel smart
get new friends, dont worry about having many, just find something you can connect to people with that you are comfortable with, a hobby or something, maybe DND or something
dont try to get a girlfriend to fix your life, fix your life to get a girlfriend
being /fit/ is literally optional and not needed to be happy or valid
you are a complete human, you just need to become the way you are happy, there is no work to be done in order to make you complete, only work done to make you something else, something you might want

That's fukn sad. Do anything... Bake some cookies and start handing them out to neighbors or people walking down the street or whatever. (Maybe not food products; nobody trusts anyone these days.)
Create situations where people want to send you cool vibes

I doubt that I ever will. But you never know I suppose. Good luck to you too.

This may sound wayyy too simplistic but keep it in the back of your mind:
Gratitude and depression can't exist together in your mind at the same time.
Start getting ionto the habit of thinking about and appreciating the good things and blessings in your life when you start to get depressed; roof over your head, food in the fridge, your health, your youth, etc...

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Oh, don't worry, she knows everything I said in my post. I don't really need to print it out. I really need to go to therapy, yeah. I'll probably go Monday morning, she always has a slot and she tells me I can go anytime I need to.

I don't really look for a gf to fix my life though, I'm not seeking them out. I've had bad very bad luck in the past pretty much. I was just pointing out that... I don't think any girl would ever like me even if I was "ok" mentally. That thought is just a manifestation of my physical/emotional insecurities. I've been told I'm handsome, but I don't like myself. I've been told I'm funny, but I don't find myself funny at all. I've been told I'm talented, but it's useless when I get bored quickly of everything I do. I've been told I'm intelligent all my life, and I doubt myself all the time, a lot of my anxiety comes from that as well. I've been told I'm likeable, and I see myself like the most boring fucking person in the world.

I get the "do whatever you want to be happy", I guess I still have some work to do on that though. I don't want a degree to seem "smart", but I fear I might not make it if I don't have a degree, so I feel forced to get one.

Thankfully I don't think I could ever kill myself, I guess I'm a martyr that'd prefer to live a miserable life instead. Or it's just my primal will to live preventing me from killing myself, who knows.

Thanks for reading and replying though, user.

>gratitude and depression can't exist

I get what you mean, although to be fair sometimes brushing my teeth in the morning is hard, so being grateful for stuff is more work for me than it may seem. It's just a matter I suppose, I'll keep at it.

The one fucking person I care about callls me, hears my voice, then hangs up i give up on humanity fuck this shit

matter of time*

There's that girl I was passionate about from 2009 to 2012, I haven't seen her or talked to her since 2012 and I still have dreams about her from times to times, had one last night where I intimately touched her thigh, sometimes it gets further and I wake up so happy and peaceful. I'm 31 now and have been living with my gf for about 5 years but still.

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Why did that happen?

You're a person, that makes you special. Intelligence, beauty and talent are fake, and everyone is funny. Whatever special thing you have is useless against the masses of competitors you have, so don't try to be good, just try to be something you can look at and think "I am glad I am that".
literally me lmao

im not a mind reader you fucking retard but its been like 8 years so maybe he got anxios or something i dont know fuck it

>2 years ago
>dated this psychopath who changed my life forever
>first 2 months going ok
>She was into some kinky shit, getting fake raped and shit
>When she tolled me she wanted to try it with me, was hesitant but gave in.
>agreed on a day to do it. Would come to her apartment, insult her, hit her, and forcefully fuck her then and there
>Do the deed. Wasn't super into it but I liked making her feel good
>turns out she recorded a good majority of it on her phone in her pocket.
>used it as forged evidence to prevent me from leaving
>too scared to challenge it
>who would believe me
>abuse starts
>would beat me, emotionally hurt me torture me, cut me, cuck me, ripped me from friends
>completely isolated me
>she realized I was preparing to kill myself
>raped me often to try and get her pregnant
>month later
>tolled me she was preggo
>stayed around since I wouldn't let her raise my kid as nothing more of an object to use me
>planned on killing her after my kid was born then myself, hoping my kid would be put up for adoption or something
>month after the news of the "pregnancy"
>called me
>tolled me she's had issues with her ovaries for years
>always stillborn
>she had a huge business opportunity and left my country
"Enjoy your life, user"
>still have nightmares to this day
>seen a few therapists
>never been the right one for me
>after 2 years, trying to piece a life back together instead of wallowing in misery
>suicide is constantly on my mind but cling on to the last shred of hope I have

Wow acting like such a cunt I'm not surprised they just hung up on you.

I understand. I get into those places 'Everything sucks"

There's an element of your personality that you can get involved with. It's sounds a little schizophrenic but it's the healthy alternative- that part of you is the six-year-old who wants an older brother and a hero to look to when life gets scary. Be THAT guy to him.
It feels silly at first but there's great power in being someones hero so work at it

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fuck women

Why didn't you knock her out and destroy the evidence?

Damn bro, and I thought my life was bad. I'm very sorry this happened to you. I can't believe people can be like that. This only makes me think about the world as a scary and violent place. I used to despise my loneliness, but I guess you made me think I had it pretty good so far. I hope you heal one day.

I think I'm getting more and more fucked in the head the more times passes. right now ive been just sitting on the floor without moving, keeping my head in my arms and i dont fucking know what to do with myself anymore lads

Not too bad I guess, but I made an ass out of myself at the bar I work/my favorite bar and then the next day fell asleep at a different bar. My drinking has made a fool of me and strained relations with my best friend.

Gonna take a long long break from drinking out and maybe just switch to weed. Also gotta apologize to the bartender that was working and hope I didn't lose my favorite job.

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What a fucking bitch

Nah. She was just a fucked up person. Borderline psychopath.
She's wasn't stupid. It wasn't just on her phone. Computer, could of been on a usb. Beating her would of made it look worse.
The world can definitely be scary but it can be overcomed. Whatever issue's trouble you, I hope things bet better for you too.

>that part of you is the six-year-old who wants an older brother and a hero to look to when life gets scary
This makes so much sense to me. I was raised by my grandmother pretty much as my mother was working all the time, I don't remember seeing my father very much, Iliterally only have 2 memories of him from when I was that young: one was him taking me around in his awesome motorbike, and the other was the fight that ended up in my parents divorcing. He's intelligent, hard working, talented... my father's side of the family says we're pretty much clones, and I've always felt like an impostor. My father has been with another man (whom I live with) for 16 years or so, and the only positive things I can say about him are: he makes my mother happy and he's a hard worker. Everything else I despise... his lies, this facade of intelligence when he's one of the dumbest people I've ever met, his arrogance... and I've had to live with him for so fucking long. My mother also goes along with everything he says, so whatever I say that goes against (no matter I'm right or not) is me "being a contrarian" because I hate him apparently. Well, no, I'll agree with whatever he says that's right, and disagree with what isn't. If there's something I've always valued and worked hard to be able to say I'm wrong when I am or I'd never learn anything.

Anyway, rambling aside... what I wanted to illustrate with this is that I've never really had someone I wanted to follow the footsteeps of but always seeked it. The closest I had was a teacher when I was around 10, he was like the grandpa I never had (only my paternal grandmother is alive), but he died years ago. I remember mourning his death when I was told months after the fact, I would've wanted to keep in touch after school...

my MOTHER has been with another man* fucking mistakes, man

>tfw got so much shit in my head that I can't even start to make coherent sentences about my problems
its like a thousand niggers screaming in my ears at all times fuck

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People seem to be fucked up because of a girl/relationship

and are fucked up being alone, we're all doomed.

this thread is specifically for people who have been fucked in the ass by life, you cant make rules based on them
I feel good

lmfao you're the one that called?

you're one funny faggot

It's important that you go to the right place to find this big brother influence. It's known as the superconscience- it's not your experiences or your take on life (that's the suconscience)- it's the shared pool of wisdom that we can access as humans; the pool that all other humans have fed into, if you will.
I know it sounds pretty esoteric but anyone can access it with practice and determination.
I did a quick search and this is the first decent explanation of it. There are others. It's your birthright as a human so go dig in.

ananda.org/ask/levels-of-consciousness-and-what-they-represent/

My life is just so fucking tiring. I feel like I try so hard, but shit's not getting easier. I always tried to do everything right, did good at school, I'm doing good at college, I've always worked part time, helped my family at home with a lot of shit, I have a gf from more than 3 years. Yet I feel like nobody appreciates this, my family especially, feel like they’re always just kinda using me to do shit and don’t give back much. For my past three years I’ve been surviving on like 300-400 eur/month since I can only work part time, always looking like the biggest poorfag between all the friends, which kinda gets tiring. Living either in the worst dorms in the city or in a small attic room of an old always cold family shithouse. At the college I get by by being busy, but when I get home, that’s when the shit hits, I get overcome by an absolute state of despair, feeling totally worthless. Can’t wait to finish bachelor’s in half a year and finally get away from here.

If your girlfriend doen't encourage you and build you up then wtf good is she? She's probably half of your problems, user.

Stay strong, user. Cheers

damn if thats true. damn

She actually really supports me, though the relationship is sometimes hard as we both have some problems.

I had to move states away from the girl of my dreams

I'm 18 and forced in to getting married with a older woman who I have no interest in.

I just lost a friend. He doesn't think I've been a good friend. I suppose I don't communicate very well. He sort of told me I was on thin ice.

It's not that I care. People leave all the time. I just care about the guy. So I'll conform to whatever he wants. That means he's lost my sincere reactions for his desire to be pleased.

Perhaps I should have talked to him about my feelings. But I won't. I have attachment issues. As in, I have a rough time getting attached to anyone. But you know, might as well let our last days of friendship be less stressful.

Same story here, how do you overcome something like that?

You seem pretty wise, actually. Don't conform. Be real. You'll make other, better friends by being sincere.

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I think a vast majority of human beings, perhaps upwards of 90%, are vapid and almost completely useless to society.

Gf wants to have a “serious talk” been drinking all day. Other girl who’s fucked with my feels for 4 years (been close and fucked) won’t give me the light of day to ask her for advice dunno what to do lads

My drinking is getting out of control, my relationship is a sham. I hate myself

I was thinking about what to write and how, but seems like you're living the same shit. Cheers bro.

just ended a relationship with a girl that had been exchanging nudes with people while we were together. she said she never physically did anything with anyone else but i can’t really trust her. we’ve broken up and shes already moved on and i got very violent texting her thatd id fucking kill her new boyfriend if i even saw him. then she later came over to comfort me and we fucked. she said she never wanted to do it again because she wanted to stay loyal to her new boyfriend. to which i replied “never stopped you before” and she started an argument. she said i was too possessive, jealous, angry, and argumentative and thats why we could never work out. i feel broken without her. i have no friends. i just spend everyday going to my deadend job and coming home to play vidya and sleep. the days just keep blending together and i miss her so much. ive started smoking cigs and drinking again but nothing feels right.
the relationship was toxic and i was constantly either happy as fuck or miserable with her, never inbetween. but now i’m just miserable. i miss those moments of bliss. what do i do, anons?

My sincere reactions are just going to lead to arguments. We disagree fundamentally on our philosophies. It's an argument on free will. He refuses to explicity state his point of view and instead just tries to discredit my opinion during other conversations. I'll say "I want some ice cream" and he'll say "Are you sure that YOU want ice cream and that it isn't a stream of influcenced and reactions out of your control? "

I've tried to talk deeper about it but he just keeps saying I'm blue pilled and won't explain why. Then I don't like commiting to plans when I'm unsure of my schedule. I try to tell him what's going on in my life but I guess that's not explicitly saying "shit's kinda crazy right now, idk if I can make it but I want to" and so I'm blamed for indecision on his part.

At this point I give up. If I have any uncertainty I'll say no. I'll commit to plans weeks ahead despite not knowing for sure if that's what he wants. If we come up on an argument about our philosophies I'll just bite my tongue. I'll answer direct questions but I won't give my full opinion. I won't give my opinion on things he doesn't ask.

I only want to do this because he's shown me kindness when I was pretty broke. I'll repay it so he doesn't feel taken advantage of. He's moving soon anyway. Our friendship has a expiration date. Might as well make these last months as comfortable as possible.

Why was she doing that?

Try to find someway to escape from anger. Some people work out, some people play video games, some play sports, and various other things to vent their anger in a good way. Find something you enjoy and do that if you're feeling angry, or sad, or even if you just want to feel good. Good luck to you.

Gotta move on man. I know it's hard but you gotta. She ain't coming back and if she does it'll never feel the same. It won't be easy to forget someone you loved but sometimes you gotta let go. I hope you find another girl who is even better than she was. Good luck to you.

>what is truly on your mind
I want to get fucked by my BF, but hes at work; so I'm just gonna lay in bed nude talking to Cred Forums about how much of a faggot I am.

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>our friendship has an expiration date
Yup make the most of it and move on. You're wiser for having known him even if he is irritating and tedious

Can I come over for a piece of dat ass?

Wish you could Hon, but I probably live on the other side of the planet and I love my BF no matter how horny I am.

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>wife has cerebral palsy
>also 10 weeks pregnant
>she's over the moon but I'm nervous how she's going to cope

I'm on a small island in the middle of the pacific. Can we both love on him? I like sandwiches

Exercise used to help my mental health and yet again the addictive personality and transformation of thinking I know what I want has become performance enhancing steroids in place of recreational drugs, alcohol seems the only time I'm carefree and happy but it's always worse in the morning. Don't really see my 30's and I'm at 29.

life isn't so bad actually after reading all of you.

but loneliness is awful, i liked to be alone at first but sometimes i could spend days without talking to anybody, not by choice. I wish i could have somebody who understands how i feel about life and with who i could talk about nothing and everything. Instead i feel like im going crazy from so little human contact.

this is adorable
there are so many people out there, surely you will find some who understand

It appears so

i hate sex and i hate how hypersexualised everything and i hate how society is turning all women into whores

Define whore

yeah I know I got it pretty good, just have to keep working on myself.

just wanted to reply to this thread because I don't see a thread this wholesome on Cred Forums usually.

same
same

a girl who regularly goes out to meet people for casual sex

>be me
80% of family is estranged and/or dead
10% of remaining family is stepfather's side and are manipulative, conniving assholes
last 10% depressed, on the older side and likely to die soon
my friends are all in loving relationships and i'm lonely but simultaneously scared to death of another relationship. my last gf used to beat me constantly and made me think it was my fault. it's ruined my ability to open up to people, mixed with my father's cuckoldry. he constantly posts on FB about how sad he is and it's the most retarded shameful shit because he's only doing it for attention. i know, i sound like a hypocrite here but i just need someone to talk to about all this. i don't feel like there's any reason for me to keep going other reason for me to be here other than i've made it this far already and it would mean everything i've done so far was for nothing. i'm in uni for filmmaking, it's the only thing i'm really passionate about besides writing. i love my friends and remaining family dearly but my friends always inadvertently make me feel bad because seeing them happy and fulfilled with their lives reminds me how much of a miserable, depressed failure i am. that's not to say i'm not happy for them, i really am, i just can't help but think of my shit state in life when i look at them.

Try as I might, I am constantly assaulted by blackpills in the form of bluepills.
How the fuck am I racist and homophobic if I don't want a drag queen reading hour?
Being cucked is wrong, not me.

There are chaste women out there. It's like a whole thing in Muslim countries. Maybe you just need to broaden your net?

whatever you do ditch the cheater

meeting a girl finally and its my chance to escape this life but im scared ill fuck up

i fucked up in university, for that i worked really hard to get there (worked as a bakerman for over 13 there). i got fat over the years, because im eating a lots of garbage when im in stress. now im driving tram (which is a nice job with a nice pay) and i make my living. but something feels odd. Im in my 30´s and i didnt archive something. Sometimes, when im alone in my apartment, i start crying without a reason. I think something or somewhat inside of me is broken.

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hollywood brainwashing telling people what they should and shouldn't value

i don't wanna kill myself cause it would be selfish and hurt those around me but i wish i could just cease existing, plucked out of the timeline and nobody was the wiser

i'm largely disconnected from my feelings so don't feel the pain of loneliness
i have very low ambitions for myself and just want to trip all the time and draw or paint or something
basically i'm bored shitless but am largely passive about it; nothing motivates me anymore

Canada. There's a couple places that have drop in services in my area but I don't think meme advice from a social worker used to dealing with angsty teens is going to cut it.

Take the red pill

>96 posters
you're not alone user, reach out

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i mask my relationship problems with career achievements

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hey i realized one day that life environment is not suitable to maintain happy existence. so i decided to live my life not to be happy but rather to achieve a certain goal. I am still pursuing that goal today and i feel more alive than ever. i had problems along the way but a lot more achievements. and one day i look bac kand realize i am happy doing what i do each day for that goal and this is true contentment i cannot feel just commiserating in a corner of bedroom.
tldr: live for a goal and achievements. not to be 'happy lmfao'

Can I kindly request you telling me what was the goal?

to be happy

>live for a goal and achievements. not to be 'happy lmfao'
>his goal was to be happy

I'm confused

because you're a faggot

I put my dog down last night

feel like an heroing

drugs

been depressed and suicidal since i was 14. I dont enjoy anything in life, hardly any friends and my family the only reason i get out of bed. had a girl in highschool ask me out and we were together for 4 years. only thing in life i cared about was her. still depressed but we loved each other a lot. a month ago she told me she wasnt happy in our relationship and is ending it. she didnt talk to me about it or tell me sooner because she was afraid it would cause me to kill myself. I have been in therapy for years and been on the max dose of 4 medications and switched off of more. nothing helps and im waiting for the day my parents pass so i can wait with my head on a railroad without ruining other peoples lives.

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if you set your mind to do something, do the best you can. So even if you fail you cannot blame yourself or at least know you did all you could and now know what you need to work on to get better. Thats what helps me to stay ''happy''.

much love friend sometimes it's the right thing to do

I'm a 15 year old pubescent weirdo with Borderline Personality Disorder.
My lack of identity plays a huge part in my life and I keep jumping from personality to personality to see what fits, and nothing fucking works. Without an identity, I don't care about myself and what others think of me, I'm just a cruel asshole trying to be happy.
I want to be some sort of storywriter/character designer when I'm older, but I don't believe I can be successful, I'm too fucked in the head. I'm also shallow as fuck and don't have strong opinions on morality and politics (maybe because I'm young, idk).

OP here.
I also want some fucking beer, god I love getting pissed (rarely happens because I can't get anything). I don't worry about anything, my identity problems aren't an issue when I'm drinking, I'm happy, and then it all fucking crashes down.