Are you guys okay?

but quick question can females be considered as doomers cause i definitely feel like one

Join the military and you realize how good life was
I have 2 years left and i want to take advantage of all the benefits civilian life has to offer
Enlist for 3 years or even just go for 2 years

A bit of a doomer too. I procrastinate all the time instead of doing work. Thats probably gonna come back and bite me in the ass later in life.

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dodged a serious felony conviction and prison time so i'm great.
i'm too apathetic to be a doomer, you sound like whiny pussies
corny ass niggas

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Not quite a doomer, but I can feel the signs creeping into my life. Either I get a new job, fix my personal issues that get on the way of relationships, or I go to a shrink, I'll figure something out sooner or later

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yes lulu

but dont be so sad

Are you about to cry or some shit? Because that would be gay

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Fuck. It's me

don't attack me.

I started jogging an hour a day about 90 days ago. About 30 days ago I added in push-ups. "Girly" push-ups at first, on my knees, I worked up to 100 a day. I cut what I eat everyday in half. I completely stopped eating candy and excess sugar. I have lost 12 pounds already. This is now my new discipline. I had a thought late last year, I had a thought appear to me, clear as day, that I should get my shit together right now. So I have started to get my shit together. If you live long enough, you may just reach a point where you are sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I have reached this point, and I'm doing something about it. We are still alive, all of us here right now in this thread. We are here and now. This is our time.

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>"working on school"

if you are already tired of school life, then i can only see you committing suicide soon, cause life just gets harder and harder after you finish school . Believe me. Like a lot harder.
If you can't bear it now then just give up cause you won't be able to bear it later.

I hated life in school but I joined the military and felt better.

Do you hate being alone? Do you need people around you a lot, because you feel like no one really likes you, so you need constant validation that you "matter"?

Doomer reporting in. Also got a situation if anyone wants to know about it. I need advice

Do you go to a gym? Looking for some tips

i tried to hang myself with a belt in my closet a few months ago...still working up the nerve to do it again

>I started jogging an hour a day
I also started doing this. I've lost 7 kg in a matter of a weeks.

My idea is jumping, got some money issues atm and no real way to save it short-term before losing even my personal belongings, without which I wouldn't want to continue, so just deciding to high building it soon.

going to the military isn't relatable to a normal life.
you get a whole system of following a command chain, a feeling of becoming one with the many, brotherhood. They give your life a purpose, protect you country. They put you in a path, and as long as you follow, you'll feel as if you're part of something bigger than yourself.

Not saying it is good or bad, that's another topic, but it gives young men a sense of purpose and responsability, that fills that void that a lot of non-military men have. Especially nowadays where as a man you don't know your role in society anymore, since the lgbt+++ movement has made it clear that males are evil and that gender is maluable. Power to the women they say, while most male problems get ignored or belittled, slowly the new generations of males don't have to sense of purpose anymore.

At least that's my take on it .

Not the user you're asking, but I've only got a couple dumbbells and am doing fine, though I'm more worried about gaining muscle the losing fat. Do various exercises most morning before the shower, then scatter them throughout the day (especially brushing teeth lot watching videos)

a mild curiosity of the future keeps me goin user. good luck out here.

I recently got back on Facebook and friended a bunch of people I haven't heard from since high school. Then I tried to catch up with a few. Turns out Facebook isn't for talking to people, you just like posts and move on. I am down to friends I make believe that I have from the high school that I graduated from almost 20 years ago. I see their posts about these new friendships they have developed because they are normal and I want to interact. Shit I used to know HOW to interact with people. Now all I do is work and come home and sit on the couch. On the weekends it is just the couch. The wife looks at me and I know she regrets marrying me. She hugs me and lets me fuck her, but it just doesn't feel real. My kids ignore me like I ignore them. I come home and they have their noses in their gaming systems, they hardly look up when I walk in. My dogs are dying slowly. They're the dogs that me and the wife got when we were first dating. When they die I know I'm just gonna lose it, so the piece of shit I am, have taken to ignoring them too, just so I can handle their inevitable death. It occurs to me that this behavior is what I do with everything else in life. Push them away so it doesn't hurt when they leave. I hurt.

youre the first person that says something nice today and i feel like im in love with you

i don't think i could get on the roof of any of the tall buildings downtown...too poor to get a gun

You know what would cheer yourself up? Showing us your tits or getting the fuck out of here.

no and no

whats going tell us

this is probably gonna piss you off but try being grateful man... i want what you have so bad. a wife and kids sounds awesome. All i do is work 60 hours a week and come home to an empty dark apartment and the clock keeps ticking.

dont life can be tough but youre way stronger than you think please stay alive

life as tough as it can be its also surprising you can be saved

The height has to be way less thank you think, I figured that out too last time, my only issue is actually getting up there.

I'm 26, was healthy and worked until around 23, then my hernia and other health issues got worse, tried to rehabilitate daily, was supposed to get government help until things got better, but they barely helped and all the resources were a sham, to the point I finally had my own place, tried to start filling it up, lost it in the same year, now my things are in storage and I'm essentially homeless if not for staying at someone's place, and if I don't pay another $120 soon I'll lose the storage too.

Mainly personal things, was thinking if I had anything of value to still sell, but I doubt, even if, that I could do so and have the money on time, and I have no where else to bring the things to either until that situation gets worse.

Phone about to be cut off too, at this point I'm like fuck it, I tried pushing through even when I could barely walk, and just realized people will pretend you made your own situation, just so they can feel like their success is 0% luck, family, friends, whatever, when most people I've encountered would've been broken down by way less, starting to not give a fuck.

At this point I'm even regretting being nice while missing out on money opportunities because of ethics, realizing most of the times you're trying to take care of people or not harm people that literally aren't worth it.

I've found that FB Messenger is one of the best ways to get ahold of people, though since pretty much every local business uses FB for their website, maybe it's just a regional thing

Well I've been in a relationship with this girl and I'm genuinely happy but shes so innocent. She has barley done anything. To the point of where I was her first real kiss. So me being a guy I have been so goddamn horny for the last 3 months it's insane. While emotionally it's worth it. I dont think I can deal with there not being any sexual contact.(not to mention when she tries I'm proud of her but shes so bad at it.) Now low and behold an old flame if mine unblocked me and I'm thinking of adding her so we can hook up whenever I desperately need too. Am I a horrible person?

kys fag

I'm sorry bro. I really do have everything, hell I make 6 figures and I'm on track to retire at 55. But because of all the successes, my downs are way more pronounced. You ever hear about someone who had it all and killed themselves? It's very bitter to achieve everything and still feel the ache in your heart.

I'm you except probably older and smoke way too much more weed

>hit I used to know HOW to interact with people. Now all I do is work and come home and sit on the couch. On the weekends it is just the couch.
Fuck man, this is the worst part. I know EXACTLY what you're saying.

Ever since i acquired the doomer mentality i got a gf, an apartment, and a job with a decent salary.

>empty dark apartment
yep, it's also winter so the sun starts going down at like 3pm here in the Midwest, so my place always looks so gloomy when I get back home.

Difference is at least you start knowing.

I'm contemplating jumping while I still feel like if I had the options to try, I could become happy one day, just because I don't know how to continue, so it's like knowing you could be happy one day or the potential, but it not happening.

a doomer gf reporting in

Hey you know what would cheer you up? Showing us your tits or ass! Youd get compliments

Don't fuck your ex user! That's a sure fire way to getting caught. If you have to get sex, go to an AMP or just find an escort. That way your innocent gf won't find out.

Not for the temptation, no. Just don't act on it, physical stuff feels great but not worth trading the emotional investment for it

Bleach doomer again. Just vaping on my mod... two flavors making a bad combo rn tbh... mango and blue razz don't mix well buds

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Fuck it, if you're making 6 figures and money doesn't make you happy, throw some my way as for me dumb low amounts are literally about to decide for me whether I can continue or not, already contemplating where to go and how to get up buildings.

Funny how that goes

Got a let? That can help. I'm not doing great, but I'd definitely be worse off without my cat

unironically, it gets better guys.
think about it like this. at least you dont live in a war torn nigger hell hole like africa. in normal places we get free gibs autismbucks.
and, well, if you do live in africa or some middle earth asian shit hole, number 1 how do you even have the technology to be on Cred Forums, and number 2 LOL SUCKS TO BE YOU.

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Why the hell can I not type tonight?! You got a pet, I meant

black metal's so good for zoning out to.

I'm beginning to think that magic mushrooms shrooms psilocybin whatever you want to call it might be the answer. I've done some research and apparently when people take a dose of shrooms it brings up a lot of shit from their past that they have been forcefully forgetting and displays all of their mistakes clearly. It also guides people forward the right direction. It shows you the path to improving your life. Also microdoses are a thing. taking like one tenth of a regular sized dose serves as an antidepressant and just makes things seem a little brighter in general. Idk just something to look into guess. Good luck to all of you anons out there. I hope things work out for all of you

What do you do for a living user? Join the laborers or electricians or plumbers or pipefitters union. They start you on an apprenticeship and before you know it you're making $40 an hour. With stability comes confidence, with confidence and money comes women.

Way better than necking yourself.

god fucking dammit
im such a lazy nigger
back of my brain has been like
>bro stop lazing on your PC after work until you sleep every fucking day
>yeah okay, i'll go jogging!
>5 years and counting
hardest part is starting. fuck sake.

I agree moneymaxing in trades is really the way to go... its what im trying to go to school for. Also im thinking about doordashing on weekends to try to moneymax. Anyone know if its a good gig

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Thank you both. But I have already sexted some girls before. And I fucking regret it. But I will stick to it. I'm gonna stay with her for as long as we are happy. Thank you again, Anons

Nothing beats just getting on the treadmill and murdering those legs

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Anyone wana talk vape juice????

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do something with your kids man. they'll be weird at first, or even apprehensive if theyre still 14-19 but stick to it. be calm and understanding. cold hard truth is, your wife may take longer to come around or just wont. but your kids, man, do something. just go for a drive and chat or something, catch up. take interest in their games and stuff. talk about normalfag stuff and then maybe more personal shit if its going smooth. dont isolate them.

t. had a pretty cold relationship with my dad cos autism runs in both sides of our family but it worked out when i got to know my dad in my 20s

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oh and sorry about your dogs bro. that sucks no matter what

>in normal places we get free gibs autismbucks
This is what people think, but after I got genuine health issues around 23, I realized all of it is a sham, from government help, to even shit like food banks, they put you lower and lower in the system, and you only get by if you don't actually need it.

The moment you need something extra for regular living or rehabilitating, you get behind.

That's why either people scamming the system, or getting autism/neetbucks and still working on the side like a lot of foreigners you see doing in Europe, are the ones living the easiest.

I got in that spot at 23 and it all just went down and down, and none of the people I came in contact with actually cared about helping someone rehabilitate, they treat you like shit for being dependent, but do nothing to make sure you don't have to be for your entire life.

I literally lost the spot I was renting because of irregular garbage help and shoddy social workers trying to plan appointments AFTER due dates for bills.

It's a literal clown show and all of the people supposedly there to help try to minmax it so they get the most out of doing nothing, as their help doesn't need to be proven and there's no accountability for when shit goes left, even people in sales positions got more responsibility because they need to produce results, but the system will let someone go from slightly unhealthy with prospects, to literally homeless in their 20s.

I'm written off because of health issues, was trying to spend the last few years rehabilitating, but got zero time for that because chasing appointments and the upkeep for the government support was basically a full time job alongside them trying to keep tabs on the stupidest things, while not actually being there when it's needed.

On one hand I'm glad I'm not dealing with that anymore and if I let go now it's without the extra bs attached, on the other hand I'm not sure anymore how to continue short-term

hey, that's cool I know what you're talking about. and indeed it does.

I can relate kinda im not autistic im scizoeffective but thats not important what is important is to build a connection to your family

Its been a slow take over but yea I’m feeling it. Physically I’m fine, got food water and the resources to acquire more. Mentally iv been on a downward slope. I feel like classes take up more time than they actually do. From 5 to 12 I’m caught up in the class cycle (class actually starts at 8 but I live 3 cities away) and starting next semester we begin the cooperative work program. This means it’ll be closer to 5-5. My roommate and only friend doesn’t get off work until 10:30pm, so I don’t get to have frien on weekdays. I feel very sad that my entire week doesn’t allow room for much fun as it is, and soon I’ll have even less. I don’t want to live to work.

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Any of you guys have crippling jealousy? I have my moments with my gf pretty often and I know its gonna ruin our relationship. Am I just doomed to be alone again?

Nothing like being ignored in a doomer thread i relate to ppl with kek

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not okay. my mum knows that i am depressed but she doesn't know that i want to kill myself. i can't tell her, it would break her heart, especially now that my brother died (accidental OD). i don't really care about my dad, sometimes i miss it when my parents were together and we were a proper family. i don't really enjoy anything anymore, i would like to /nightwalk/ but i'm fat so i'm planning on fasting for 40 days. i smoke cigarettes sometimes but i don't really enjoy it. i want to drive but i am afraid of fucking it up, im afraid of interacting with people (there are like 4 + tests you have to take or some shit in my country), my dad won't give me my brothers car unless i get my P plates and i am afraid he will sell it.

All of you under 30 faggots should kill yourselves. You offend me with your childishness.

I been there. Funny how last week I went out to a fancy steakhouse in an outfit that cost me $900 and ended up spending $230. Then I went home, put the kids to bed and fucked my wife in our king sized bed, then immediately nodded off as she cleaned the cum off of her ass.

But when we were first dating I made nothing. I was looking through old emails a few weeks ago and they were literally about how many slices of bread were left so we could figure out how to eat that night. I'd be so stressed out about paying rent I could hardly function.

I'm sure glad I'm not there anymore but the sacrifices I made to get there left me a shell of my former self. Makes a guy wanna go buy a bag of coke and just zone out for a bit. That has been my regular daydream. Unfortunately I don't know any of my drug friends anymore, cruel irony.

You're doomed to die alone.

Learn a language, and go explore the country your language is from.

Nothing quite like making minimum wage in a country that doesn't speak english and having your room paid for.

31 year old user here.
Life is all about work. As you grow older, ul wont be looking for fun, more like comfort..... best way to describe it....

Ie. Making good.money all week and coming home to a girl u like and a good meal....

You sound like your hurting bad too. No need to purity spiral suffering.

remember this: small steps.
come home and make small talk
>hey hows it going
>how was school/work
>heard about [thing that happened in the news]? whats your thoughts?
>whats that you're playing? any good? (because you mentioned they're on consoles a lot, if you're the user i replied to)
chat chat chat. that must lead to opening up on both sides

You're just saying that to feel better about yourself go kill yourself

Is it perhaps insecurity manifesting itself as jealousy? I'm not the jealous type but my insecurities have made me come across as such in the past

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What the fuck is a doomer?

thats fucked, man. im sorry.

If you're the same one as the other picture along those lines, I was having some technical issues. Gimme a bit to go reread what you had and try to remember what I was gonna type

I have been alone my whole life. I finally got a girlfriend. She is everything I dreamed of and we have been dating for over a year. I still feel alone. Maybe slightly better. But I still feel alone.

Absolutely.

The fact that you think writing this up will have a certain effect says quite a bit about how much tunnel vision you got.

A protip, next time you try to angle a response, at least make it about something people care about, otherwise you think people will get invested, but they'll just ignore and move on.

You're so miserable you mentioned things that don't matter for happiness at the start of your comment, then said you came from nothing and somehow the thing that's not making you happy now is an indicator of success, then you talked about wanting the old things back.

Nothing you say seems conscious, I guess you truly are a shell.

You sound like you regret making it past 30, thanks for the tip.

No, I don't go to a gym, but my parents have a dog and I take her with me everyday. I bought ankle weights to wear, they aren't here yet, but I told myself I'd wait 3 months until I built up a good head start before I used them. They're 10 lbs. weights with little sand bags in them, you can add or subtract weight from them. Walking with a dog has helped me because she walks way faster than I do, so I let her lead and I jog to keep up.

Another tip I could give, do the "girl" version of push-ups to start if you need to. Be on your knees and then do the push-up motion. I promise you, they work. Do 20 of those in a row and your arms and chest will be on fire. They are a good starting point to ease yourself into working out.

As far as food goes, I've started to leave food on my plate, no matter where I am. Before, I would clean my plate or eat my entire meal until there was nothing left. I have been forcing myself to leave about a fourth or fifth of whatever I'm eating on the plate, and then throwing it away. You won't even miss it, and you're saving yourself calories. It's an easy little move you can do to help cut calories, if you need to start somewhere. I always drank water, but I've been drinking it like a mad man lately. Water is excellent for filling you up, it helps get rid of hunger pangs if I feel them starting.

For some reason that's relieving. We are fucked bois.

I want girl sure, but I wonder when I’ll be ready. As of now I’m afraid of them. I’m afraid of people on general. I don’t feel like I’m ready for even the things I’m already dealing with and I don’t feel like I’m growing at a rate that will let me catch up. I’m scared I’ll go through classes, get a job, and still be a child inside. I’m scared that I won’t be able to connect with peers. I’m even more scared that I’ll grow physically old before I’m mentally ready and be an old man trying to pick up young girls.

Good job user! Do you also do your own cooking to help you on your regimen?

No one replied because you haven't found another vaper yet.

I used to when I had a gf I was too attracted to. When I met my wife, I kinda let it go. She's not that bad looking but not my first pick. Also I've cheated on her like 6 times so who really cares if she snuck something.

Just let go. You can't control whether she stays or not. But she certainly won't stay if you act jealous all the time

It's alright, it's not like I'm blaming random people in general, it's not your fault.

If I still manage I manage, if I don't, I don't.

The only regrets I would have are that it could've been different, along with missing out on my potential future, but without options to get there even that regret will likely not stop me unless I truly feel I'm overlooking options, at this point with me ''delaying'' it's not really proving that though.

kys

Yeah maybe it's hard to pinpoint man I'm still young so I keep thinking it's just that. First real relationship she loves me a lot I just dont trust her and and I dont always feel the love

would love to but im shy

Im getting in the shower brb guys

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>OPTIMISM JUST BTFO OF DEPRESSION

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>Cred Forums and reddit
>and reddit
OP I know you're gay and all but who gives a shit about reddit? Reddit fags are unironically partly to blame for Cred Forums getting worse.

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Yep, that sounds familiar. Were you rejected a lot before she came along? I'm not certain, but I'm pretty sure that's where a lot of my lashes came from

Anyone can. It's just easier for most females to get out of the doomer mindset because majority are hard wired to become mothers, your need to have children will beat your desire to end yourself.

Thanx user and nice dubs it's not all the time luckily it just comes up every once and while for me but she said shes willing to work on it with me. How do you guys deal with your gfs or wife's past sexual and dating history?

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See you got it. I've got life buyers remorse

Pretty much abandoned and alone my whole life. Huge drug problem I still have several vices now. The drugs were my only friends and family during my childhood and I was really good at getting them from a young age. My gf thinks it's hot and I think its fucking pathetic.

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Can relate used to be addicted to pcp

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>I am a bit of a doomer
fuck off you trend-hopping high school faggot

Kys negative ass fag

What's done is done, long as it stays in the past. That's gotten me in trouble before though, so make sure you have clear boundaries set and hold your ground on them

What are you fags listening to?
youtu.be/K7r1wqiL6ak

I never really talked with her about it beyond a few convos when we were first dating. I think she did more than like 5 guys, but I did 30 girls so I was the more experienced.

A good thing to allow you to get over her sexual past is to make new sexual milestones with her. For instance I was my wife's first anal, first sex on x, first mff threeway. You know, that sort of stuff. Stake your claim and you'll feel less jealousy.

My best advice to you is to find something you've got some talent in and pump everything you can into excelling there then. That way, you've got something for yourself you can look on and are some form of confidence and security from. It's not perfect (my main struggle right now is because I don't have much in the way of employable skills, but that's more job issues than girl issues), but it's at least a good starting place

Lately a lot of literature-inspired rock, like Rick Wakeman's Return To The Center Of The Earth and the Alan Parsons Project's Tales Of Mystery And Imagination

m.youtube.com/watch?v=a0ul-BghOAs

Hell yah thanks user. My brain is honestly just fucked she said I totally changed sex for her we tried butt stuff for the first time and all that. I just cant believe the words she says to me. All her bfs were little boys and we are still young both 20. She wants to be with me forever but I feel like il be dead here soon.

Wtf

When he said fags, he didn't mean literally

why do you weak pieces of shit long for companionship so much? people suck. get over them.

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Thanks for the quality thread by the way OP you should try to get more going in the future il help yah. Itl probably get lost in the jew porn threads but it's worth the try.

Lol shit grows on you

Hey man, I might just be another person on the internet, but I just wanted to say it's all gonna be okay.
Keep your chin up, my dude. If you work hard and keep to it, you can achieve anything.

youtu.be/gBDvwEoqZqU

Is doomer a synonym for a procrastinator?

Honestly... Idk anymore. Growing up life was almost constant abuse and feeling unloved. I’m 29 now and everything's great. I’m completely independent, I have a nice home I can easily afford, a decent car, friends, a secure source of income I barely consider work, financial security, finished my ongoing legal problems, long time since my last abusive relationship... Like I said things are great, but I’m still just numb.

Thanks for asking user.

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Try heroin

I guess it spiraled out of control once my ex broke up with me, but I had it coming.

I was clean off of heroin for 2 1/2 years, but on my birthday of 2017 I started using again because I wanted to celebrate. Got a bag of coke and heroin. It has been a while so I kept it once a month. Months, turned into weeks, weeks into every other day, into everyday, into every 6 hours, and every hour if I was hardcore binging, leaving holes all over my arms. I told my girlfriend once and she supported me quitting. I tried but a week later, the pain and mental stress, and lack of sleep I was getting everyday was getting unbearable. I relapsed and she caught on. She broke it off with me in tears and after our last kiss, I didn't have any feeling. Room looks like absolute shit now, physically I am unhealthy, became homeless for a little bit because I wasn't able to pay rent to my immediate family(mother is old, we gotta pay the mortgage somehow), father is back to his old alcoholic physically abusive ways, I've alienated all my friends, lost a good job, and at that point II had nothing else to lose. Overdosed 2 times in one day and even numbed myself even more. Just slowly losing touch with myself.

I recently got some low wage job at a togo chinese place because my car is totaled. I figured I can try to get back on my feet again, worked out and shit. When I finally got my first paycheck, I had overwhelming anxiety and impulsiveness. I didn't care about the damn drugs for a while, but now, all these memories come flooding back. I went out and got a bag of cocaine and heroin, because why not? I keep losing everything good in my life, might as well stay at nothing, so I don't hurt myself with positive expectations with negative outcomes like I have been doing for 10 years.

>Are you guys okay?
Not really, this is probably my lowest point. Depression got to a point where I dont feel hungry anymore, my weight has been free falling with no hopes of getting better, so lately I force myself to eat and try to eat very high calories like milkshakes n stuff, but not a lot of improvement on weight. I really need help, will seek it soon. Been crying a lot too. 30yo college dropout who never worked and is completely fucked in the future. Pray for me.

I just keep going, wont kill myself coz I already have my mother all kinds of disappointments and heartache, dont wanna do this to her. Will probably do it when she bites the dust thou. Dont worry, wont hurt anyone.

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18f doomer what's up

Bro sorry

I almost threw myself off of a 20 story apartment was on the window sill and ledge like two seconds from falling to my death. Only thing that saved me was just thoughts of my family. This was when I was suffering a manic episode and going under kind of a schizophrenic paranoia thinking the government and everyone around me was literally out to get me and my family and I had to die to save my family or some shit.

After that when I was coming down off my manic episode, I felt so utterly depressed and in complete despair because I totally completely destroyed my life socially, financially, etc. (this is a way long story, but reading the first part you can kind of fill in the pieces) I was too scared to kill myself too, so every night for a while I made a noose and tied it around my neck. Every night I kept making it shorter and shorter after 5 nights the rope was short enough to burn my neck and leave a really bad rope mark, but was long enough to not really do anything more than that. Was terrible because I was under supervision under my parents and it was hard to lie when they asked and found the rope. I am thankful for my family and everyone because they didn't really press, but it was very obvious that I wasn't quite well and it's hard to ignore a hickey like necklace pattern on your neck.

My life never got quite better to be honest UNTIL now. That was 6 years ago. I lived in constant roller coasters which kept leaving me at super highs and lows. I wish I could tell you that things will be okay, but they probably wont be. My life still isn't even that great, I live with my parents, I have a shit ton of debt, and I'm turning 31.

The only thing that kind of gave me some peace and helped me was understanding that we have some control in our lives. We may not control our circumstances or environment, but we can shape and shift our own perspectives.

>be 22
>live in old factory building (housing crisis and refuse to go into student homes)
>studying chemical engineering
>haven't had a gf in years
>listen to dark punk music most of the time
>work from 5 to 9. Play Halo or Hearthstone when I'm not working
>meet with fat virgin friends every other week for DnD

Pretty much my life rn. Not sure if I'm happy. Could be worse. Still wanna die all the time

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Sounds stupid to even ask, but I was about to leave the thread, and I see these type of comments so often, and never really asked anyone for help, and when I did I realized most people just pretend they are comfortable, or that they want to help, but whatever, if you can miss anything, it would really help me out.

I'm literally in the opposite boat from you and just need a short-term way to be able to continue, but I have no options left right now to save me out of letting go within the next few weeks.

I'm this guy.
If you can't help or don't want to, just ignore it, it's fine.

People will treat it weird when someone asks too, but I was about to head out and I realized whether I stay or not, even if someone might help, it'll be 99 others with an opinion as if they would be helping if you just ''approached it differently'', or people coming with suggestions they've never had to deal with, just proving they've never been in a bad situation before.

[email protected] is my paypal,

And I guess I could add a btc address even though I haven't used that in a while.

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I wish you all the best, anyway, I'm ''signing off'' guys, I don't think I'll still find a way out, so to everyone in this thread, thanks for being the community I grew up in, I wish you all the best.

Every day I ride my bike 9 miles to work on a busy stretch of road with no sidewalk. Its gotten harder now that theres snow on the ground. I keep thinking how easy it would be to wait until the heights get bright and just fall over and be done with it. Every day I just keep going. Every day I turn a wrench, fix things and wonder why I work on cars when i cant even afford one. I'm alone. All the time. I cut out all my friends. My family is thousands of miles away and never talk to me. I want to go back to Afghanistan. Things were simpler then.

cont. . .

I only really got better when I started to get burned by more people in my life. When I started to lose more relationships, get betrayed, lose more money, and started to hit complete rock bottom.

I was working at a damn ice cream shop for 7.25$ in my late twenties with no hope for any future, and I started to come to terms with my own situation. I started to think about this.

I'm not a victim of my own situations or circumstances, I can create some sort of way to find my own joy and peace in my life.

I started to focus more on myself and started to actually turn further away from youtube, videogames, etc. and focused more on being productive. I started to get into hobbies like creating clothes, and now I'm studying computer science going back to school for my 2nd bachelors. I'm feeling more positive about life than ever before.

I'm still on that journey, but hopefully we are all on this journey. Walk on that road instead of sitting around looking and wandering what's going on. You gotta move, or you're not going to get anywhere at all.

That was a good read, thanks. Its good to see someone in a similar situation digging their way out. You'll make it bro