I’m persistently lonely

go be lonely with a crowd of other desperately lonely people, all constantly searching and forever disappointed

its a fun time, you can also talk to a few right-wing trolls who'll get you to send dickpics and then try to blackmail you

I drink tea, but I don’t consume enough caffeine to be physically addicted — if I go without caffeine for a while, I don’t get withdrawal symptoms. I’m fairly certain I don’t consume enough caffeine to cause myself problems.

I’m a journalist. I write for a newspaper. The work is actually quite challenging and varied, and pretty rewarding.

It's not just withdrawal that can get you. I forget what it's called, but there's this substance your body puts in your blood that makes you feel tired. Caffeine works by essentially cutting off the release of this substance, making you feel more aware for a longer time. But your body doesn't actually stop producing it during this time, so when the caffeine wears off it starts flooding the system, cueing caffeine crash. While you sleep your body filters it out, but if built up long enough you can sleep and still have a high amount pumping through you. This is why I needed to nap so often(besides depression).

I'm jealous, dude. That's sort of a dream job of mine. I don't think I have the people skills necessary to land it though. Instead, I spend my time researcing random shit and writing various comics that will probably never be published.

What sort of stories do you do?

At least you have the ultimate comfy snow outside. Life sucks, but at least it isn't miserably hot right now.

It's called solitude and some of us wish we had it, the same you wish for companionship

I suppose it would be more to the point to say that I like tea too much to give up drinking it, even if it is interfering with my rest.

Thank you! It’s basically my dream job as well. I live in a small but economically significant town in Alaska, hemmed in by glaciers and mountains. I’m the only full-time journalist in town, which means I cover basically everything except for sports and fisheries. It varies from tiny hard-news briefs to long, in-depth features, as well as photography. It was a long, difficult road to get this job, but I don’t regret any of it.

That’s true. Really, I’ve achieved most of my significant life goals (getting a challenging journalism job somewhere interesting and out-of-the-way). Of course, that’s kind of a problem in itself. Like — okay, I’ve achieved all this. What next?

>What next?
I used to think it was all about society. Get high school degree. Get undergrad degree. Get graduate degree. Get job. Get girlfriend. Get house. Get 2.4 kids. Get boat. Get cancer.

Now my goals are just to be comfortable and be in minimal physical/mental pain. Fuck everything else, I don't care anymore. None of that ever cared about me so fuck off with it.

I think you and I have basically opposite outlooks on life.

How did you get 2.4 kids?

Same. Yes, I read the above responses. I can easily message any number of people I know to talk to or hang out with at any moment but I just don’t want to. Can’t explain why. Would rather be home thinking about an heroing

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>Now my goals are just to be comfortable and be in minimal physical/mental pain.
Right there with you. Who the fuck cares about accomplishing anything. I just want to enjoy the remainder of my life.

Really? Some of the best things I’ve done have also involved the most suffering. Surely I’m not the only one who feels like this.

Sounds scenic. I've never been in a cold climate like that for any extended stay, but I've always loved the atmosphere. The wife and I would like to settle up north some day, but who knows if that foot'll ever drop.

Are you an alaskan native? And have you always done this sort of work? Any odd jobs on your way up the ladder?

Measure twice and cut once, my friend

Your level of suffering must have not exceeded a certain point.

Hope things went better for you than they did when i had those ideals. It ended up being a waste of time and money for essentially nothing.

kek

Temporary hardship/pain/loss can build a person. Chronic unending physical pain with no support will kill a person.

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It's cool. I'm assuming you're younger the 25. Eventually you'll become numb to it.

Pretend you're an alcoholic and go to AA meetings.

Okay. Find someone to ream your asshole out every night then.

I’m not an Alaskan — I moved here less than a year ago, actually, specifically to take this job.

I’ve done tons of odd work on my way here, varying from McDonald’s and Wal-Mart to freelance music journalism, plus a stint in the Peace Corps. This is, in most ways, my most “normal” job, with the most corporate rigamarole. For the most part, I like it.

Victor Frankl found meaning from being imprisoned in a concentration camp; it is possible. I haven’t always succeeded in finding meaning in suffering, but I try.

Thanks.

No thanks.

I used to, but Marla Singer kept showing up and ruining it for me.

Okay, find someone to ream out. Or someone to frot. Or someone to dress up in fairy costumes with and play tea party.

Whatever you're into, faggot.

I just want to have a normal, supportive relationship. It’s not a high priority, but that’s what I’d prefer. I prefer celibacy to casual hookups.

Is your name Robert Paulson by any chance?

Do you care about curing your loneliness? Or is this just a thread posted with the intention of meandering around after having drawn everyone in with a partially insincere plea to temporarily relieve your "loneliness"?

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I do care. I didn’t have a strong purpose in creating this thread. I don’t regret it, though; some of the conversation has been interesting.

I didn't actually mean casual hookup in the first "ream your asshole" post. It was just the Cred Forums Cred Forums of saying "find a partner". Stay away from gay dive bars and shitty clubs and find some nicer bars or locales with educated gay people and go from there.

Oh, okay. Yeah, that might be good advice. There are no gay bars or gay locales in the community where I live; the community is just too small. I suppose I choose to lock myself out of certain things by living in a small community.

Why do you come here as a gay guy? Its not exactly gay friendly and there aren't that many gay porn threads. Conversation is next to non existent and the funny people on the site are all but gone. What are you doing here?

>I haven’t always succeeded in finding meaning in suffering, but I try.
I've experienced such intense physical and mental pain that when they are finally over, all I'm really concerned about is staying as far away from those feelings as possible. If I can go through an entire day without being suicidally depressed, or furiously angry, or in crippling physical agony, I'm usually pretty happy about that. I don't desire much else at this point. I don't care about being successful, none of this societal crap interests me. I just want peace.

Good question. Cred Forums isn’t what it used to be. This has been a worthwhile thread for me, though.

Why did you choose the word persistently, and not constantly?

This.