self reflecting time Cred Forumsoys what are you depressed about or just wanting to confess about?
I’ll go first
I had a good friendship with someone I actually knew for a good 7 or so years. Then my piss-for-brains head decided to be a absolute cuntbag to him and lost the friendship. A year has passed and I want to apologize for being a complete cunt to him. I’m just wondering if he’s actually going to accept my apology.
I've irreparably damaged my marriage. I did some dumb shit years ago but I took so long to own up to everything and stop my bad habits that my wife is an empty shell, a wall, cold and distant, just waiting for me to fuck up. Even minor transgressions cause her to crawl back within herself.
I can't stand that feeling - of her not loving me. I know its all my fault and the guilt is unbearable. I think the only way to get over it is to leave her and give her some peace.
My best friend who was a girl I asked her to come to a party with me she was reluctant. She got drugged and then raped
I blame myself, she will never be the same
I know what you mean... I let my woman go.
If you love her, let her go, user.
Brace yourself cause it's going to fucking hurt.
I cried for like 2 days man. I did know fucking crying is so damn exhausting..
I have a really isolating job that I'm really good at but have effectively fucked myself long term because the job skills won't transfer to any other position and aren't useful in real life. I didn't make any friends in my 20's either. So when I hit 30 or this job ends don't know what the hell I'm gonna do
If you still love her, man up and apologize. Tell her you want to make things right and put in the effort.
Did you steal and fuck his girlfriend or something? I feel that bro
Deleted my porn stash, thinking it would help. Wish I could travel back in time and punch myself.
What is this job?
I have no energy to make food, socialize, work nor study. Have been diagnosed with depression and any other antidepressant makes me have psychosis. Will suicide soon
When I first started working at a suicide hotline, I had a call from a kid. I froze up and didn't know what to say. I was used to hearing those words come from an adult, but hearing a child talk about how she's sick of living, how her mom is a strung out druggy, how she's bullied for her weight by kids at school and doesn't have anyone she can call a friend in this world. I don't fucking know why, but I fucking froze. The last thing I heard was what has come to haunt any fucking moment of silence god curses me with. "Thanks anyways mister" as the phone hangs up.
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shame. wont go in depth, but pure and utter shame. im getting either used to it now or accepting myself but it still stands as shame. i know i cant let anyone know for it would be detrimental, so i must suffer in silence
I'm trying to find purpose in my life. My two jobs basically involve me helping people using my self-taught skills and that's it. I'm not sure that "serving others" is enough to keep me going for the rest of my life. Not to mention that I've never felt love for any person besides my parents. The urge to blow my brains out is pretty strong nowadays
I basically ruined a friendship because I was a huge dick to his gf and everyone so know. I has acting like a fool and I kick myself everyday for it
I wish I had energy for 2 jobs
And I second the thought of painting the ceiling red
Honestly, if it frees you, know that suicide is an actual option and anyone that tries to make it seem shameful or dishonorable is a fucking dumb ass.
But, before you do it, just really stop to consider if your approach to life is right. Are you finding the methods of ‘play’ that work for you? Think about a kid playing with their favorite toy. They don’t really know what they’re doing, but they’re just fucking around and having fun with it. Are you sure you’re doing that? If you aren’t, hold out a lil longer and try to find the approach that makes you feel like that.
Accept yourself first.
I’m actually annoyed at you for this. Could you not have just said what you felt or thought?
Regardless, maybe just a listening ear helped.
I feel that. I’m fundamentally bored with life. Still holding out hope to find my way of enjoying it though without doing anything too socially destructive
I had the same exact situation, tried reaching out back to him a while after as well. If the situation is similar, they probably share your feelings.
The friendship you did have is probably dead after a whole year, but you can always make new one.
Good luck, user.
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I'm a supervisor in a correctional facility and the stress of my job has me thinking about suicide practically all day every day, even when I'm off of work
That's sounds like a hot fuck. Put that bitch against the wall and go to town.
She probably lied to you, user.
At least the guy got some gash tho
I deleted my stash on accident one time. Worst feeling ever. Boobs of exes lost to the ether.
Just letting you know that 80% of the inmates hate you and would tear your guys out at the first opportunity
>itt-former inmate
The prison system is so fucked up. And almost no one deserves most of the sentences that are given nor the treatment
I don't care what inmates think. They're subhuman.
he'll accept it, but he'll never trust you again in the same way
ok tyrone
That attitude is gonna get you killed
Can't wait to see your fat ass in a rekt thread piggy
use your savings to retrain, take courses, qualifications. do it regularly, night courses, weekend courses.
work towards something else.
I guess you missed the part where I said I am suicidal anyway you stupid illiterate nigger
I pushed away my girlfriend and all of my best friends. At the time, I thought they were better off without me.
Would you have sex with an inmate?
take vitamin D in large doses, 1000micrograms per day or more. ask doc for a different medication. have as much sunlight as possible
My advice, move on. Although easier said than done. As I will attest.
I've been in love with a girl for almost a decade now. We were only close friends for maybe 3 of that, and kinda friends for another 2. Long story short, I confessed my feelings for her, albeit in the least romantic and least elegant of ways She has never talked to me since. Which I get, but at the same time, I can't help that I think of her everyday or want to spend my life next to her. I tried very hard to avoid all these feeling but they consume me at times. Now all I have left is a some old photos I took of her and a painting she made hanging on my wall. The real hard part is I know where she lives and I moved close by to be near my work and it terrifies me that I might run into her. I'd rather disappear than have to confront that I disappointed her in a major way. Yet she's still the one thing that may be keeping me from suicide. Just the distant hope that one day soon, the universe will notice me and work things out in my favor for once. Tho I do not expect it.
I always lie about muy shitty life to all the people that shows interest on me, so I can ve more interesting to them. When they come too close I behave like a dickbag in order to get them away so they can't discover my lies. Them I feel lonely.
Apologize
That's what you must do
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>I'm a supervisor in a correctional facility and the stress of my job has me thinking about suicide practically all day every day, even when I'm off of work
Lies lies lies lies
Kys
formalise your skills with some official certifications. then when you have a few of those, apply for a more solid position, even if it is part time. then gain experience and knowledge and look into starting your own business.
I have been in love with the same woman for 6 years. She lived me for about a year of that.
I suffered a psychotic break (never spoke to a therapist but that's what it was) and acted fucking insane twords her and drove her away.
Spoke to her again about a year ago, she was still into me and things were going good but I suffered a second psychotic break and did the exact same thing and now she's gone for good
Kill me
Don't be so angry at the world. Smile at it. C:
>26yo neet since 16
>had to drop high school early because victim of bullies
>have been targeted since primary
>could not find a job,even not a min wage,because my country politics in this regard are pure garbage
>no experience in job field=100%death or being a starving homeless
>fell into the computer games because
>mother playing the victim behind "i have depressiun n'shit"
>she was a real hottie in her younger days,after 20 years only she has become a fat landwhale,saying it was due to the giving birth to me and my sis
>inherited anxiety and depression from her
>a father that was never at home because truck driver
>never encouraged me. always insults and abused me trough bad words. a literal piece of cancer bastard with an equal shit behaviour
>past couple of years i had to buckle up ,learned some good english by all the time i spent playing pc games
>i basically gave my self the education and "open mentality" instead of my ever absent parents
>always considering the rope because i literally dont have a family. i have nothing but emptyness
>didnt mention my sis because she's indifferent trough the whole situation
My cousin decided to trying opening a shop where we sell food and typical products of my country and asked me to work with him. If this shit doesnt end up good,well...ill probably see black for the rest of my life,because honestly..living like this,is not living at all.
>inb4 kys leech
>inb4 move out
If you only knew how bad things were...I wont go into much details,what i wrote is onlt but a 1/3 of the total mess my life is because of my shit parents.
Also,if anyone have ever been into a similar situation,some tips are greatly appreciated
start spending time with other women. even if just to talk with them.
the relationship you built up in your head with that other girl was a fantasy. it wasn't ever real. mourn it, accept she rejected you, and move on.
next time, tell a girl you like her the very first day you realise it. don't wait years to confess. if anything it makes rejection easier and less time wasted.
it also massively increases the chances of anything real with her.
Not tryna be a dick but sounds like you've got a bad case of bitchidis
The cure?
Not being a fucking bitch.
>muh bullies
Really dude? Grow up.
hey man, I've been there, similar story in that my life derailed from 16 and for a decade afterwards.
first thing is build up a strength, that is your English. you write well. use online resources to find out your level, use a free level test on Cambridge's site or similar. then guess which certificate you could attain and download practice exams to train yourself for it. B2 might be good for you.
then after 2-3 months of study and training for a few hours every day, take an exam. it costs a bit but find a way to save up money for it.
with that, you have your first official qualification. it makes you more able to find a job.
You two should hang yourselves from each other's micro cahks
nah, I'd rather find you and carve your throat out while you're sleeping
If reincarnation turn out to be true,i wish you to live a second life in the exact same condition or even worse,than me or the other user you mentioned. Its due to hearthless and medieval closed minded rotten bastards like you ,that this words is crumbling away. But i also know that,posting on b,i cannot pretend to always discuss with actual human beings.
>grow up
Thats exactly what i did. But the damage those people create,it will always be there,if you dont have enough moral support from those close to you. Especially when you are really young.
Feels for you Cred Forumsro
what the fuck is wrong with you?
I should be a better boyfriend. My girlfriend is the love of my life, and I want to marry her some day. But I’m afraid I’m going to screw it up because I am often impatient and short tempered, and she has a stressful life and can’t handle my extra pressure. She hates being helped when all I want to do is help her, and she’s just very independent while I’m a romantic and love spending time with her.
Sometimes I get sad because she says she wouldn’t be happy being a housewife, which is what I dreamed of having For a long time.
I know things will be easier for me once we live together, how do I make myself feel more loved until then? It’s not that she doesn’t love me, I’m confident that she does. I’m just needy I guess. I have some emotional issues after a head injury when I was in middle school.
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you have had a late start, but you are old enough to raise yourself and teach yourself how to be a man.
read through a few articles from the website "the art of manliness" every day, and make a list of the good advice and apply it to your life. keep referring back to it.
read how to write a CV and how to do well in a job interview. rewrite your CV 5 times, don't lie on it, but be positive.
take a series of short training courses, anything that makes you useful for other people.
a first aid course is good, can be done in 1-3 days and is always useful.
apply to part time jobs, anything. even if you work there for a month or two you will gain money, experience and confidence.
invest your money in yourself, to buy good work/interview clothes, training courses and so on.
when you have enough, learn to drive, that will open more job opportunities to you.
step by step.
forget the past and be like a determined warrior fighting against it and towards the future.
You actually dont need a permanent house,a marriage or even kids of your own to be happy. You both can organize travels around the world visiting various places,while mantaining a status of relationship,as an example. And its better this way. Enjoy the lucky life you have been given. Theres no need to rush (unless you're like 60 or something..),make plans with her when she have free time. Be honest with her,and she will appreciate. Just take it easy and wih ease. Its not like corona chan or any disastrous shit gonna happend soon kek
make yourself more independent, read some books on how to control your temper and try meditation. set yourself some goals, ambitions and work to achieve them. study towards something or apply for a better job, keep yourself a little busier.
she will see that you are working for your own life and admire you for it.
also, the stronger you are in yourself, the more she will relax into a feminine role. it will happen by itself.
Well, I'm single and turning 20 soon.
Women avoid me like the plague. Always walking to the other direction, shit like that. I often get awkward stares and I have no friends in art school. I even tried to date furries, but got rejected. Considered suicide afterwards. Also niggers are invading the EU so that's just fucking great. Life is just plain misery living as a lonely virgin with no friends among a growing nigger population. What's even better despite me literally having no friends I was told to fuck off and that I'm an attention whore on one of those furry dating sites and in general.
1. avoids curries and other mentally Ill freaks.
2. start exercising for strength. good quality pushups, buy some dumbbells, do it every day. read how to do it well.
3. take up a new skill/hobby/activity that you can become good at. make sure it is something social, with men/women your own age. sports club or other activity in your university is the best bet. go every week, no matter what. talk to people, men and women.
This will increase your confidence, social ability and exposure to a pool of females with a similar interest.
The thing is at this point I'm only onto furries. My mental state has severely degraded after a furry chose a nigger over me. And to be fair women in my country are broken home, polygamy fetishists. I'm really depressed and fucking hate the gym since I'm an awkward retard with no social skills. The last time I was at a gym I annoyed some guy in charge to help me with my routine since I couldn't never bother to remember it. Also I really don't like the changing rooms. I get crippling anxiety and discomfort dressing next to hulks. And I have a hobby. It's trolling.