I hate life but I’m afraid of death, I don’t know what to do, except keep living life as the unstable mess I am...

the best way to make yourself happy is to think of others and how you can make them happy

and you can do that by posting tits

I was just hoping someone could sympathize with me or at least give advice to help a fellow Cred Forumstard enjoy living again

you’re right, I should try to make others happy. I already try my best at that but I gotta try harder. thank you.

You probably lack meaningful purpose. It's hard to find in the modern age of comfort.

im sure you have at least a dozen of beta orbiter cucks you can call to be your emotional tampoons. And if you are larping then there is no need to, just make a feels thread, a lot of anons are miserable and lonely too

So either flash the tits & stamp to prove we're not talking to a fag or go talk to your damn boyfriend. Stupid bitches are all miserable because they've all been convinced that the guy you fuck and the guy you talk to are supposed to be separate guys.

Have you tried just being happy. Like just finding joy in the tiniest of things, the smell of the air, the colour of a flower, taste of some black tar heroin melted on tinfoil

reason im here and not talking to the bf is that I honestly don’t think he’d help, he’s not very good at showing or understanding emotions.

that sounds like an excuse

I have been in the same position but really I was (more or less subconsciously) pretecting myself by not actually doing something to get access
Its not hard to get drugs but i think you should be honest about it

honestly I don’t really have friends. more of just aquaintances. they could give a million shits less about me, they’re only friends to play vidya games with me

yea, I really do lack a purpose, I don’t really have anything important going on for me in life.

if you look like carly they wanna fuck

The reason I can’t get drugs is because I don’t know anyone, nor do I really leave my house. I’m a lazy bitch with no life outside of my bf and video games

this nigga

nope lol, i mean i did find joy in the color of a carpet but thats because it was colored exactly like blood

#2edgy4me

My dad fucked my high school crush and continues to fuck her. I'll greentext if there's interest. My life is REALLY cucked and fucked up. Just go hit up some buff dudes at the gym if you're horny.

Anyway I guess the point is that it could be worse.

Could it be you hate life because of a boyfriend you can't even talk to? Just dump that dude and find one capable of giving you a reason to live.

When i was young i got hooked on weed (ik it sounds dumb)
I literally smoked whenever I could but then one day my plug went to jail or whatever and I was too much of a pussy to try and meet new people for connects
I was pretty depressed and did nothing but play vidya and masturbate
When I reconnected with an old friend and got some weed it had been too long a time and I was mature to handle it

It prob saved me from blowing a shit ton of money and stagnating even harder
make what you will of it

I mean I have Borderline personality disorder, and I’m completely isolated irl and my crippling anxiety stops me from doing anything socially outside of the house.

he does give me a reason to live, I can talk to him, its just... I’m scared to. idk my crippling anxiety makes me feel scared to talk to him about my feelings.

GANG GANG
same shit here and its getting worse rn
But i have been even more fucked before so i carry on

How bad is your social anxiety?

Boring thread. Next.

to the point where I can’t talk to anyone but family members/people really close to me irl

Do you believe you're too self-conscious, or do you think it is because you fear all the problems that come with socializing?

No matter how bad your life is you should there are things that can happen to you that are so bad you wouldn't question suicide, you would just do it. Be grateful for what you have.

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its the fear of all the problems that come with socializing

i really just wanna see how much you look like carly

I’ve had stuff like that happen in the past. I’ve attempted suicide over 50 times at least. but its just recently I’ve developed a fear of whats beyond death.

I would post a pic but then it’d obviously reveal my identity and twitter account, and I really don’t want that.

You look a lot like her? Bullshit you fucking tranny.

LOOK WHAT WE GOT HERE BOYS, ANOTHER SUICIDAL TRANNY!

BAHAHAHAHAHA

So again. He's your boyfriend but you talk about fucking and what's on Netflix? Ass backwards. The guy you share your feelings with is supposed to be the guy that becomes your boyfriend. Social anxiety my ass. So basically you spread your legs so you don't have to talk with them? You're a stupid whore who can't attract beta orbiters in real life so she goes searching for them on the internet.

maybe you should spend the time doing something creative instead of trying to kill yourself, watch fuckin joe rogan or something

Be grateful you don't have:

>tinnitus
>nerve injuries
>incurable insomnia
>other chronic physical injuries that would actually make you commit suicide not just bad situations in your life.

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wow you got me! you’re absolutely right! except im not suicidal anymore, because I’m scared of whats beyond death

I literally just want sympathy or advice, I don’t give a shit about orbiters. I just want people that can understand where I’m coming from

i actually do have insomnia

Fuck off nigger.

Just live retard, ride a bike, write a book, make porn. Nobody gives a fucking shit you guy posing as a girl.

Lmfao hit the tranny on the head with that one

actually making porn wouldn’t be that bad of an idea. i should try that out, might be fun.

I recently started taking CBD
It gave me the power to press the Pause button
It ended the cycle of being depressed, doing nothing and feeling shit because of it
For the first time in months i sat in my chair rocking back an forth listening to music and singing along with a big smile on my face
I literally felt nothing but relaxed and happy

Later I realised how much easier it made social interactions for me. After not talking to my ex-bestfriend for 2 months I contacted him again. As you can imagine I was scared as hell and I couldnt stop thinking about absurd disasterous scenarious so I descided to smoke some
After just a few minutes I finally built up the courage and at that point the conversation literally started flowing and I felt more unburdened then ever before

The day after I was literally stunned about how I could even pull that off and went back to being scared of literally everything

It doesnt solve my problems but it makes day to day life way more enjoyable for me

Whenever I wake up after a bad dream or feel like shit for no particular reason I smoke a bowl and suddenly all of that weight is lifted off of my shoulders

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well, i still do look a lot like her and am not suicidal but yeah pretty much

I’d try it if I could find some

I struggle with sharing the darkest part of myself with my significant other as well
There is a constant fear of the other person rejecting (or at least not fully accepting) me for it even though it might be irrational it has built a lot of barriers in my personal relationships and Im still struggling with it to this day
But if you always feel like you have to watch what you say it will fester under the surface until it makes conversating with your SO incredibly hard

idk

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its literally legal
A lot of effects which made me crave marijuana were substituted by it
not btw

Have you thought about taking medication?
(personally im sorta afraid myself)

I think its almost at that point lol, I’m just too scared to say anything besides that I love them or something stupid and jokey

is it actually? where would you get it?

I have been taking meds for a while now but no meds seem to actually help me so i just end up getting off of them after a few months

depends on where you are from

I actually know exactly what you're talking about, and can probably help, but we have roles around here. tits and timestamp.

Well you can look at it two way's. You can either:
A. Sit there and feel sorry for yourself
B. Start doing shit that is off the wall. Take me for example went to a third world country bought back a woman. Married her had a child. Got her citizenship. When I was 19 I fucked my best mates mum while he slept in the next room. Got knocked out by a " friend " after getting pissed up with him. End it up pressing charges he got a year. If you was an old fag you would know life is for the lulz. You live then you die anything that happens in between is meaningless. Do nothing or do something by doing nothing stay the same do something and who knows.

How bad is your insomnia?

If you truly love them and you think your SO can handle it it will only strengthen your bond
Im not saying you should do it all at once but if you keep everything in then sooner or later it will start damaging your relationship from both ends (I can attest to this)

Good luck user

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Florida

nope not in the mood for showing off my body, plus I have a bf

it takes me at least an hour, usually 3 to sleep

thank you, I just texted him about some stuff, I’m currently waiting on a response

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Btw one of the main reasons I use it is also bc it betters my insomnia

interesting, i’ll have to try it then

I believe in you. Life gets tough as fuck sometimes but remember you’ve already survived all the worst days so far. Shit will get better. Go see a therapist. Get on an anti depressant. If you hate life go crazy and do everything you always wanted, you will find that drive again. I believe in you

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