I've tried to make this thread about 3 times already but have failed each time. That's not important. What's important to me is that you realize you are valuable and you need to be happy with yourself and your life. Even though I have no idea who you are or what your life is like I need you to keep going and bettering your emotions every day. This might seem like a gay/useless post to most but I really hope there will be at least 1 person who will gain something out of me posting this. Please keep on going and life will surely keep on starting to make more sense and getting better.
Ignore the pic, I just needed something so I could post this.
Even though you butchered my beautiful language here عليكِ بالتستر ايتها العاهرة "Get dressed bitch" Be safe and stay healthy
You need to realize that your own happiness is more important in this world than anything else. I really hope my general idea gets through to you because I myself have been unhappy for a long time but I'm finally starting to open up to how I really feel.
The purpose to life isn't about being happy good night user
The problem with the West is we dont beat our women
They start having ideas that they are better than men, should be bisexual, should be 'sexually liberated', that having babies is stupid, that having a career is meaningful etc.
Islam is right about women. Fuck Egalitarian "progressive" Humanist Cosmopolitans
Thanks, OP. I'm trying. I was already pretty messed up over being 30 and being "no one", having done nothing. Then when I went to buy some smokes niggers followed me home and killed my dad in the ensuing robbery. Having a gun held to your head feels weird, hearing a death scream from your father being murdered is even worse. Did you know your ears can "close" without your hands covering them? It sounds like the inside of a seashell. "How many shots were fired by your count?" is a common question in the entire process but I don't know, my ears "closed" after 3 or so.
I drink a lot, I yelled crazy shit at everyone I've ever cared about except my mom and they're all gone except her. I live with my widow mommy and fetch her fireword. I spend her pension on vodka and wait for death. Every time I try to shake out of this the alcohol just drags me back down. How long does this take to kill you? I feel like I've been waiting so long now.
Thank you so much for sharing. I haven't lived through anything as tragic as that but reading it brought tears to my eyes. I've felt it. The feeling of having nothing to live for. Thinking that living or being dead was just for fate to decide and nothing ever really mattering. But I really do hope that you find people you can share some happiness with. Even if it's just your mother. It can mean all the difference between a worthless life and a life you enjoy. Keep going and you will find a way for yourself.
That's fucked up bro.. hope you find someone who understands
Break free of the cycle first
thanks OP, even if it feels pointless at times, always try to do good no matter how meaningless it seems
Can't even begin to imagine what it must have been like and still is. I know saying you need to get help won't do much, you have to want it by yourself, and getting help and admiting your weaknesses/demons is hard. Please go to therapy, check for PTSD and try to sober up. It's gonna be a long way, but you got this user. And even if you feel alone, there will always be an user there to help you through shit